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update
Well, everything seems to be alright. the hubby and i got into it the other night because he said I was babying one of the twins because she got braces, i was only making sure she was comfortable and i told him to have compassion for her, because she will have to be in them for 8 months. he told me that i acted just like my mother, needless to say we didn't talk much more that night and I wanted to cry myself to sleep but I didn't. I sometimes wonder if it is the step parenting problem, i had it when I was a step parent, maybe it just because they are not your blood. He says they will grow up to be be babys and I am the one doing it to them.
then theres the softball issue. I have some resentment for my husbands best friend. The plan was he was going to coach the girls for softball, now it looks like they will be on a different team, his excuse is that there are too many girls and there needs to be 2 teams, although the real reason is he wants the girls he worked with since his girls has been playing and he doesn't want this fat ass and her fat ass parents on his team, so he is going to just take his team from last year. Then my husband told me in bed the night we got into it that he doesn't want the twins on the team because they are uncoachable. That is such bullshit. My hubby said that the twins are so highstrung and an't stand still, and thats why nobody wants to be around them. Boy did that hurt my heart. I guess thats the reason I wanted to cry, he hurt my feelings. So anyway, I guess if his bestfriend has such a problem, i will not visit his house as often and will avoid him and keep my girls from him, that way he won't be bothered by them. I guess I will never ask them to watch the girls or anything about them being there if they don't have too. You know there daughter can be an out right whining baby, she can be a smart mouth and high strung, but of course that is there kid and with mine there are 2 of them and I guess when it comes down to it, I am being really resentful right now. Even with my husband, I don't say much about the girls behavior and don't bring up anything about them.
Well it has been a month now on the meds and to this day my husband still doesn't know. I haven't told him, don't know how, and I know he wouldn't approve so I just haven't told him, if he ever does find out, he is going to be mad, mad, mad and he'll probably ask who else knows, afaird that it will get out that his wife is on depression meds. I think we need to learn to communicate, or I need to learn to communicate to him, I would really like to go talk to someone, but am still afraid that he would find out. I don't know.
I heard from my boss that it looks like my husband will get his job back, or at least that is what he heard. The reasons behind it all is that he does miss the job itself and the other reason, money, we need it we will do the dogs on the side and go from there, because now we are so far in credit card debt it is unreal, and it will only get worse, since we have such high car payments. I thought about giving up some much and live it simple, I even thought about getting a mini van to lower my gas bill, I could give up the suv I have to save money. but right now I don't know that we would save any money because I don't know that we have equity in the vehicle. We should have never bought the new truck, we should have keep the old one and down sized to another car, we sold the truck on e-bay and as far as I was concerned we didn't make nearly enough for that truck. Oh well, whats done is done and all we can do now is stay afloat.
Our taxes are done and it finally came out in our favor. We don't owe, that is a change from the last few years, infact we saved an adundant amount this year, I was so happy. Everything worked out and I was so happy for that.
Well tonight survior comes on and I am excited. Maybe I will put the desk together while watching that.
I'm glad you ahd a great date, wish I could have one.
hey sis, I plan on being home all weekend, we have to clean house that couple and baby are coming out next week for a visit so we have to do a really good cleaning. So I will call this weekend. Love you |