| 1:35p |
Moody money
I'm have having a bad day, I guess it started last night and ran into this morning, I never got over it, I guess. The thing is I don't know where I am going to be a year from now, what type of financial situation I will be in. Yesterday as soon as I got home, I was bombarded with our financial problems, then I get even more news laid on me, boy, i some times wonder how I hang in there. We had to buy another spa cover, that was 270. then there is the accountant, that is going to take over our business finances, 1000. then there was my husband who got mad, while training the dogs and broke his gun, which orginally was a 1500., he now has to repair that. Then there will be the business which to start up will be an easy 20,000 if not more. Then there is little ole me, that brings in a little 1300 a month, that hardly covers the mortgage. We are not going to have enough and I 'm not even sure we aren't going to run out, I guess I am just depressed today, and I can't hide it. I am so worried and I am tring not to think about it.
then last night we had to talk to our oldest girl about eating too much, she is turning 13 and puberty will so be with her and my husband and I were talking and the way he wants to handle thing, I told him I didn't agree so, he calls her out of her room and starts talking to her about weight gain, and there infront of her, I get up and start to walk out of the room, I will have any part of it. So we get into it and then Isend her out of the room so we can futher discuss this issue before we talk to her about it, He gets mad and I tell him I didn't agree with how he handles this type of issue, that we needed to think about how we would bring it up and talk to her about it, I told him that we should talk about it more and that he didn't listen to me, that he hears me but doesn't listen to what I have to say, my opinoin doesn't matter. He said he doesn't agree with the wayI handle things and basiclly he knows how to deal with people better. Oh was I irratated last night, then after we talked about it we finally talked to her and we both got our points across.
After I send her out of the room, he walks by and says to me "your a card" which in his language is " i can be such a pain in the ass" So I asked he now what, he doesn't answer for a couple minutes and I ask again, about what this time, he says it had to do with before and me getting up to leave, I tell him I thought we were over that, we had already talked about that, so why did he have to bring it up again. I think it is strickly to upset me, I guess.
you know I have noticed that he knows all and I know nothing, I would never tell him that I am depressed, or how I really feel. If I told him that I have mental issues, he would tell me to get over it. I just can't tell him the truth, I guess I wouldn't dream of it.
I guess like I said in the begining of this message, I am having a really bad day. I want to cry or die. and I have only you to share my feelings with, my husband just wouldn't understand how much I am hurting today, he would tell me to get over it, and it just doesn't happen like that. :( |