| 1:18p |
taking a deep breath
Well acouple of things today.... He has offically given notice at his job, he will be working now as a rep for some pool company, or should I say, that is what we are telling people. The truth is, he is trying to land that and we are in the process of opening a business actually 2. Sis, don't tell anyone the truth, just stick with the story that he has a job with a company already.
He has about 2 weeks left at this current job and boy, it will be interesting after that. I got word from the mortgage company yesterday, based on just my income, we do not quailify. My credit is excellent, but the income won't cover it, so, we will have to pay as we go, I hope we don't go under.
I go to the doctor next week, I haven't been to one in a year. I was suppose to go 6 months ago, but I didn't. When I do go I think I will tell him about everything that is bothering me and my mental state as well, first I will ask him about dr. patient cofindeniality first. Then I will go into details. I think he can help or find a way to help, without my husband finding out. He does have my history because I gave him it from my last doctor. I don't know what he can do.
I think about my sis all the time, I want you to know that, there is never a moment that goes by where I don't think about you. I worry for you and am sad, mad or angry with you. I just wanted you to know that I love you and want to also thank you for your support, you are the only one that accepts me for who I am, and believes me when I say something. My own husband doesn't take me seriously. When I told him you were going to C.R. He said there was no way that would happen and basically told me I was full of shit for even believing you. I guess that is the difference, I believe you and you believe in me. We don't have to make up shit and tell lies to be someone, at least not to each other, I may have to do it to other family members, but not to you, thank you for letting me be me. |