Brandon

1:07am: god fucking damnit

can i not feel good for 5 minutes without someone pulling the blinds up

yes, i'm sorry, i create drama...

its not drama... you have no idea what you're talking about
you have no idea about my past,
you have no idea about my real family life,
so please don't say i have no right
you don't want to hear it, then don't read this... you aren't being forced. i don't mean to sound like a dick... yes i am a little angry mainly because i know when you hung up the phone and acted like everything was cool you probably started talking shit again..
but maybe thats an unfair assumption.
but really, some things are more fucked up than you will ever know.
and i feel like for the first time when i'm TRUELY happy, you have to be mad at me, or whatever you are. and it ruins that happiness because you ARE my friends, and i care if your upset with me...
maybe this is all self centered... maybe i have no right to be saying these things...

who knows. but i'm sorry if i did anything wrong (i don't believe that i did)
and i know things will work out how they will work out, so i'm not going to make an effort to not piss you off... if you're going to be pissed off then be pissed off. whatever pleases you.

good fucking night.

love,
brandon

9:37pm: i dont hardly know her
but i think i could love her
crimson and clover


goodbye.

you bring me a lot of joy at times, but it's not worth it, there will be no later.
you were to sad to look back to wave goodbye so im not going to tell you what you missed.

whatever, im 16. yea life sucks, but it will get better, i'll find someone who's right for the moment when the moment comes. until then i'll be around, doing my thing.

wish you all the best of luck... i may not update for a while... then again i may... who knows.

sometimes it's nice to get the real story, and actually know whats going on

my pale blue eyes.