| confession #41 |
[23 May 2008|12:13pm] |
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Magic Spot by Comedian Mitch Fatel |
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Matthew update.
The deal was that he'd send me an email, telling me how he felt and what decision he'd made and how things were going to work out.
So everytime I have that little (1) next to the cute little envelope, I freak out. This morning, there was the (1) (dun, dun, dunnn). So I saw that it was from him, was too nervous to open it, then I opened it, turns out he was too hungover to type it all out and asked me to call him. So then I'm too nervous to call! Jesus, so I go to walk the dogs and call him while walking, I'm too nervous to get full sentences out.
Anyways to the point.
He's decided to continue things with me, and that he'd maybe be up for a "real" relationship, but with work this summer I'll be gone so often and won't get to see him or speak with him, so we're thinking that we'll just keep things as they are for now, and maybe go over them again either before I leave or once I'm back.
I'm glad things have gone this way, I don't know what I would've done or how I would've reacted if he had said that things were going to be over. I wasn't very clear with how I felt about things with him, might write him a little email or something... Don't know what to say.
I just want him to be happy, I guess that's exactly what I should tell him.
Anyways. I'm out for the count, need to clean up my dump, desperately.
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