| i hate anita!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
[04 Dec 2003|11:20am] |
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anita has been ignoring me like hell when i try to tell her what she's doin' she says that she isn't ignoring me when she is. i am so mad at her right now. and just now at lunch she just told nikky about wwf. god i gonna start sitting with meera and them during lunch now 'am so sick of sitting with nikky and anita together. and plus when ever i try to talk to anita when nikky is there nikky buts in and starts talking to anita and then anita ignores me. iam just so sick of my life right now i want to cry!!!!!!!!!!!! i still can't believe anita did that told nikky about wwf.
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| i am so happy right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
[02 Dec 2003|11:00am] |
anita told me yesterday that aquilas asked her why i was cring the other day and she told him that i was cring because of nikky, but he asked again why i was cring ahe she said because of nikky. i think he thinks that i cried because of him because i had told ashley john to tell dennis that i was telling him all that stuff about nikky because nikky keeps telling aquilas stuff that isn't even tru about me. so i think aquilas might think that i was cring because of him. well i know there is a 1 out 100 chance that this is true. but on the other hand i think that even though what i think might not be true, he still cared enough to ask anita about me, which makes me really happy. i think anita might be right about how when i don't talk to nikky my life gets somewhat better. and also i don't feel like 'am ugly well a little but still touch wood 'am happy today i won't let anyone ruin it. and anita if ur reading this 'am really mad at u for not coming to school today i can't go to lunch because of nikky and plus gabby and dani aren't even there. also on top of that i know that nick listens to my conversations i science, tell you the truth i think he only listens in because either he has no one else to talk to or it could either be he likes katie gilroy. anita makes my hope go up about him when she knows there i absolutely no chance that he will like me ever.
and 'am getting a cell phone papa said i can get the new one instead of shafi getting it. life is pretty good right now i just hope that nothing goes wrong. oh yeah yesterday iheard that orange needs help in english wouldn't it be great if i could like tutor him or something, which is probably never going to happen so i shouldn't get my hopes up. that sounds like a movie maybe lisa is right i do think of life as a huge movie.
well everthing isn't good actually 'am scraed that if i go to the doctor about my stomach aches it might be something serious.
you know what aquilas got this really ugly hair cut probably got it from manny's barber shop. anyways i hope we become friends.
and you the funniest thing happens at home i 7th grade i used to never be home always be out with friend and my mom never suspected a thing about a boyfriend or anything now that i don't do any of that stuff she thinks i have a boyfriend, i bet you when i get a boyfriend she's gonna think nothing about me. it's not my mom only its also my brothers and my dad now too. bye for now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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| i don't know what to do?!!!!!!!!!!! |
[27 Nov 2003|03:30pm] |
i was sitting upstairs and started to think of what happened in school again and for some reason i started cring. i don't know why i cry about this stupid thing but i just do. i even got sick from cring about this whole piece of shit. i just have one question why in the hell did nikky make up this lie of me being jealous and tell aquilas. i just want to know what was going on in her head when she did this? and some how she blames me for it. i want to forget about this whole thing and move on but its not that easy. every year there's a new guy. i don't know how anita and lisa can be nikky's friend when they hate her so much. they just sit back and take all that shit from her. nikky has made me cry more this year than i have ever cried in my whole life. and on top of all that she makes me feel like shit. she thinks 'am jealous of her which just makes it worse. she didn't say it but i knew she meant to say to me that 'am ugly. getting an insult from a girl that the whole school makes fun of just makes me feel like dirt. amanda lee acts like her friend but in science she doesn't stop making fun of her. the other day amanda lee said that nikky was making fun of me in health. she's tring to get people to go against me. in a way i think its my fault because i told dennis john some stuff about nikky too. but that was after i found out about what she said to aquilas. and plus anita said to me it wasn't my fault so i shouldn't blame myself. i don't want to talk to anyone about this because their not gonna want to talk about nikky. their just gonna tell me to forget about it. that's why 'am writing this. and i don't care about who reads this journal. because i have said to myself that it's not my fault and 'am innocent. now i feel much better about myself.
anyways i got two fishs on wed. and thier beautiful. 'am babysitting anita's fishs. they make me happy for some reason. bye now write later!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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| i wish aquilas liked me!!!!!!!!!!!! |
[21 Nov 2003|09:57pm] |
why is it that everytime i like a guy something has to happen like for example:
Atif-valentines day
Saati-liked my best friend krystal
sonu-my brother found out i liked him
matt tes-thought i was stocking him and truned out to be bi
nick-well he's just a whole different story(the code name orange ruined him)
aquilas-freaken nikky grover happened to him b*#&%
Life sucks!!!!!!!!!! doesn't it. well my brother is wacthing sipderman right now again, we were watching finding nemo but my brother started cring at the secne where nemo's dad and dori get hurt by the jelly fish. he even cried during stuart little 2 and during the movie like mike he cries during every movie even i don't cry that much. as soon as he grows up 'am going to blackmail him with this, thats going to be fun.
*And now 'am going to write something in codenames so if you don't know them well than to bad:
pineapple made chairs laugh today, hahaaha!!!!!!!!!!! pineapple talked about how garbage smells and how even after pineapple gave garbage perfume garbage stills smells.and chairs laughed. also today sunflower garbaged pineapple at pineapples house lol!!!!!!!!!!!!! and sunflower scared pineapple.
now read that and don't think of codenames to the people who know the codenames or don't it still sounds funny. FUNNY huh?lol...
and if lisa is reading this remember "lo"hahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!
hey anita if ue reading this remember what happened in child dev. during that feast it was so funny i couldn't stop laughing and remember what we were doing to the chairs. OMG LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
READ THAT SENTENCE AGAIN AND THINK OF CODENAMES HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!LOL...
OMG this is so funny i can't believe we were doing that in child dev and didn't even think of the codename chairs.lol!!!!!!
~Oh yeah if aquilas is reading this i want to say that i love you!!!!!!!!!!!
today anita tells me to get a pass from science to go the nurse and she'll do the same and we'll cut all period but she doesn't come so i go alone and i actually go to the nurse and get a bandit so 'am just like what the hell i'll get a pad to as i ask for a pad a really cute guy walks in isn't that great.
the other day i had a dream that i was in the school library using the computer and aquilas walks in with this girl but as soon as he sees me starts kissing the girl he came with to make me jealous. thats practically that happened.
i don't feel like typing anymore so bye bye!!!!!!
oh yeah anita and lisa here is something to laugh about think about the time the dog ran after me when we were walking home and i freaked out and started screaming, i wonder if orange or aquilas saw me doing that what would they think.
i just thought of something to write about today during lunch aquilas walks in and freaken nikky starts pointing at him and saying snowman. i hate u nikky grover if ur reading this, seriously!!!!!!!!!!!
okay bye now for good!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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[14 Nov 2003|05:52pm] |
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So much has happened since the last time i wrote. well i had the wierdest dream monday night. it was that me & anita were walking home and i had to go to the bathroom. so we see this little girl sitting outside her house & anita asks her if we can use bathroom in her house and she says yes. then we walk into the house and i just say as a joke wonder if aquilas lived in this house and the little girl says to me "oh aquilas is at school right now but he'll be here in a while." i get so scared i run out of the house. and all of a sudden my house is in front of his house, so me and anita run into my house. and i remember i droped something on the way to my house so i run back to get and i see a car pull up in front of aquilas's house. aquilas comes out of the car and looks at me and comes towards me, he looks really mad. i get so scared and run into my house. when i run in my house anita is sitting on the sofa. as i see aquilas walk into my house i sit down and he comes up to me and smiles and starts kissing me(he is all over me). and i push him off and tell him "no, no, no, i think u should leave". when he leaves i go to the bathroom and i see anita in the mirror and whe i go outside anita is sitting on the sofa watching t.v. so i go back to the bathroom and anita is standing there all of a sudden. so anyway the bell rings ang its that little girl that we met she gives me a letter from Aquilas. when i try to read it, the writing looks like jibrish but when i look harder i see words and it says you set me off of my feet. after i read that i decid ei need fresh air so i go outside for a walk. and all of a sudden i am at school. at school i see the bend it ike beckhamaquilas walks in and starts kissing me again and this time i don't stop him but as soon as we kiss my brother team practicing and then when i look the other way i see nick and right across him is sitting justin timberlake. so when i try to concentrate on the letter i hear nick taking to someone and he says i would go out with anyone even hasreet if she was prettier and thinner. when i hear that i just start to walk home. and wheni get home anit is still there. but as soon as i get, rings the door bell and i throw aquilas out into the part where those girls leave that rent the part of the house and thats it.wierd dream huh? and oh yeah freaken gay nikky says that she has sexual dreams about aquilas and claims ahe doesn't like him even though she always talks to him and tries to make me jealous bitch!!!!! i hope she goes to hell. oh and she also told him to wish me a happy birthday, well i guess that was my fault i kinda wanted him to wish me a happy b-day. but aquilas is mean too he didn't wish me a happy b-day until the day after my b-day but still it was the best thing ever. he said ''happy belated b-day'' and i said thanks and 'am sorry about the other day( i said sorry b/c i felt bad about screaming at him saying i didn't like him when the truth was that i like him so much) and oh yeah iam freaken sick of people using me such as meera bitch now that cheryl is back in our s.s. class she doesn't talk to me and she made me change my sit because she wanted cheryl to sit closer to her when cheryl wasn't in the class she only talked to me bitch she only talks to me when she has no one to talk too she talks to me even in gym when puja isn't there she talks to me. bitch i hate people like that. oh and mama and shafi and noni still think i have a boyfriend who 'am fooling around with some one. its kinda funny!!!!! write later.
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[03 Nov 2003|05:11pm] |
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today was the worst day of my life, well i had worst but still. today i went up to Aquilas and told him i don't like him but it turned out that he didn't even know i liked him. then after he leaves lunch his friend Jill comes up to me and asks me why i don't like him and i was just like because he ran away from me, turned his face when ever he saw me, and walked the other way when he saw me walking towards him. she was like oh okay because i thought you didn't like him because he's a dick or something.and then i told that girl not to tell Aquilas but nikky tells me that she saw that girl teeling him and he was laughing out loud. i don't know what to do because i have been in these guy situations so much, first it was atif, then saati, then matt tes, then nick, and now Aquilas. iam thinking of going up to hm and talking to him but 'am afaird that he's going to run away or start laughing why can't he just see my point of , i don't even want him to like me i just want to clear up the whole mess between us. and plus i feel so stressed from all this bullshit from school that i take it off on noni, shafi, and navin and also my friends and their getting pist at me. oh and people keep making fun of me because they think 'am nikky's friend, they think i smell because of her, i just hate nikky grover she is such a bitch. i have to go now bye, write later.
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[01 Nov 2003|10:46pm] |
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Today was boring, but yesterday was fun. anita slept over it was so much fun. we sneaked out at like three hoping to see orange, halloween,and or christmas. me and anita also made up new expressions, "tya" and "she garbaged you". oh yeah and we also made a cassette of indian and american songs it's pretty cool. that's it for now but i'll write later.
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