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Things have calmed down since Monday. Thankfully. But I have a slight delima.
Well we all know about John and how I've had feelings for him for just about 3 years now. He's great. He really is. But he wants to be friends as long as possible. I don't mind waiting. Waiting is good lol. That's what we should have done when we first started going out because what happened might not have it we did.
But the thing is, someone who I was crushing on but thought there was absloutely no hope with, admitted to liking me Friday. So I fessed up. Monday he did something stupid so he's suspended for God knows how long. But anyway, this girl from school asked me about it and told me that he likes me a lot. So I guess he must be talking good about me. And I like him a lot too. Class isn't nearly as fun without him.
It's soooo fustrating!!! As I'm writing this my heart is racing!! He gives me this feeling. That feeling where your heart races and slows at the same time! But I'm scared and nervous even though I damn well I have no reason to!!!
So I suppose I should tell John next time I talk to him? I mean I HATE when guys talk to more than one girl at once or when girls talk to more than one guy at once!! So I guess it's only fair if I fess up.
Anywayz! Life is good. Reading a book! Horray!!! It's pretty racy lol. It's called Deliver Me From Evil by Mary Monroe. I love it so far!!! If it were a weekend I'd be finished cause I'd be reading all day, but I haven't really had time in class.
School blows of course. lol. I absoultely can't stand it! But whatev'. I'm almost done so forget it.
Hmmm other than that, nothing else to say =] Wish me luck with all this romantic crap because I'm crap with relationships.
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