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I haven't been ready to write a proper entry until now.
Well most of the drama in my life has subsided. Sean has stopped talking to completely and in some ways it makes me sad. We were good friends and now I don't have a friend anymore. But it's ok. Sometimes people leave for good. Sometimes they come back. Only time will tell and I can't forever stress over it.
Some girl at school stabbed me in the back. I was really upset about that. Well...a lil more than upset. More like crazily angry and depressed, but I'm over that now too. I'm done with the stress and drama...for now.
The only drama that hasn't been completely dried up is that of my arch enemy. She just won't leave me alone!!!!! It makes me so angry sometimes. I don't do or say anything to her and she's soo....I don't even know. She thinks she owns the world and can do and say what she wants and that people are just gonna take. Well I kinda have to take for complicated reasons only Matt, Morghan, J, Julie, and Drayke could fully understand because they were there for it at the time. But I'm so glad that in a year and a half I won't have to deal with her or be within two inches of her ever again!
I've finally come to terms with being single and I'm pretty happy. I haven't really been talkin to anyone. I think it's too soon. Let's face it, when you break up you have to go through a period of re-finding yourself because you changed for your boo in some way. I'm happy with just being with myself. I'm a bit lonely and bored as shit mostly, but I'm working through it. Rekindling my love for music and my chicas and all that. When love strikes again, it will strike again. I'm not gonna force or rush it.
J and I have reconnected. AS FRIENDS. Everyone trys to read into more but all it is a friendship. I can never go back to him even if I wanted to after what happened. I'm so stupid to give my heart to him again after all that bullshit. Besides Matt and Julie would kill me over and over again.
Speaking of my big brother I'm friends with his girl now. Her name's Heather and she's pretty cool. I like her. Which is odd because Matt usually doesn't pick too good of girls. But Heather's different and she does love him and he loves back, and I know he's good hands. I'm looking forward to her being the sister in law. =]
School has been... Well school. lol. Boring, awful and rotten. But I'm almost done so yay! We started midterms on...Thursday, today, and then the comming Monday and Tuesday. I think that's mad retarted but eh. So is the school.
I've been watchin mad movies lately. I've had a Saw marathon, and I just got done watching 300. I was disappointed. I thought it would be really good and cool, but it wasn't. =[
Well I'm out. Might come back tomorrow if I got something to say.
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