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[15 Jan 2008|10:05pm] |
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It's been a week since I've updated and a lot has happened. My birthday was on Wensday and it was pretty good. I got money from a bunch of people and Morghan got me a card. The family came over that night so it was fun. All was well.
Last Friday was...a mess. Tell me why only after a week of being split up he's talkin to someone else, wants to be with her all that stuff. I don't know if he's with her now or not. I kinda don't wanna know. But anyway, I found by looking on his myspace and he had some random girl on his number 1 (the girlfriend/boyfriend spot.) I confront him about it and he wouldn't tell me who she was right away until I threatened to find out myself. He confirmed it and what not and yeah...I was crying my eyes out and depressed. Like I mean, I thought he loved me and cared about me and after a week he was already talking to another girl. I was really really hurt.
Needless to say I was a zombie on Saturday so my momma went with me to the movies. We saw Sweeeney Todd. It was pretty good except for some of the singing. It could have done without it. But it was good. Got my mind off of things. Then we went the mall. I got two dragon necklaces from Spencers and then we went to Taco Bell. I felt better until around Sunday and then I got all upset again. Today is the first day I actually have felt normal.
It's just so hard! I mean, I loved Sean, I still do. And it's hard to believe that he would hurt me like he did. Believe it or not but emotionally I had a lot invested with him and when I saw that girl on myspace, my heart literally broke into a thousand peices. So now I gotta...I dunno. I'm supposed to go on a blind date soon so yeah...we'll see how it goes. I'm not looking for a serious commitment. Not even a commitment at all. I still want what I can't have...
Well that's all that's been poppin my life lately. I've been singing all the Sweeney Todds I remember. It was a really good movie. I gotta see if Julie can send me the songs she has. Johnny Depp's a pretty good singer.
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