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9th February 2004

4:51pm: its been a long long time
wow its been a long long time. Well on friday I auditioned for Indiana U's dance program. The girls there were so fucking good I wanted to go crazy. When I walked into the room I was like oh shit im going to fail this audition because these girls are so freakin good. i could just tell from the way that they wore their clothes and had their buns and everything. i tried really hard but not hard enough to be one of the 10 people picked out of 300 to be in that program. shit its not fair i loved it there. they dont tell you for 6-8 weeks but I know that i wont make it because in my heart i feel like there's still a chance but in my brian i know differently and i know this feeling and i just dont want to get this letter thats coming saying "we regret to inform you...blah blah blah". Although when i watched those girls in there something inside told me that thats what I belonged doing-dancing-no matter what my parents say against that. Anyway in other news-you know what I was going to tell you about Jen but then again i remembered that i dont really care. oh and also i went to sadie hawkins then I lied to my parents and told them i ws going to tas but then i went to this kid paul's and everyone was drunk except me but then i was really sick and just wanted to go home. okay bye!
Current Mood: crappy
Current Music: Janis Joplin

23rd September 2003

5:12pm: errrr
Well hey hey. Um yeah im in one of my bad moods today. we just had off school for 5 days because of hurricane isabel. fucking awesome. anyway so my friends sort of ditched me today so i was bummed but i dont know if they ditched me on purpose or if they just forgot I was there. maybe im really annoying and everyone hates me i dont know. thats how i feel anyway. damnit! ok well thats it except im lonely and i wish someone would tell me that it isnt true but o well thats ok. gotta go bye.

13th September 2003

11:25am: death
well i guess everyone goes through the rough parts of their lives and i guess it only makes them stronger. Last friday Little Ronnie died of a drug overdose of Oxycotin at 37. That is way too young to die and a complete waste of life as far as I'm concerned. Of course I didnt know him that well for the last few years, i guess because he was too busy with the drugs and everything...but i feel so sorry for Mr Ron and Ms JoAnn as if they didnt already have enough problems as it is. When I went to the viewing it was gross I never want my dead body laid out like that especially when I've been dead for a week or whatever. anyway i wasnt sad or anything at the funeral home just boring. well it was sad for everyone else but not for me because i dont handle those things very well i don't think so for me it was just 2 hours of wasted stnading there talking to people i dont know. its true im not going to lie thats just the way i feel. i hope i never get hooked on drugs like that because that must be just horrible. I can't even imagine what that must be like. alright till next time maybe on a better occasion.
Current Mood: complacent
Current Music: The Beatles Mellow Yellow

19th August 2003

4:55pm: im fat
yesterday i went to Hershey Park with Amara, Andrea S and E, Randy Andy, Courtney, Tara and this girl Jenny from Seattle. I love Hershey so it was awesome but so crowded because its the end of the summer. They had so much good food and i ate so much but its so damn expensive. anyway, speaking of food im going on my new year diet soon which will consist of 5 small meals a day. and only healthy-nothing bad for you at all. no grease, no chocolate, nothing. what doesnt kill you only makes you stronger right? i hope so. if i could just be smaller than the boys at ballet would be able to life me up and my pants would fit again. god i wish my pants would fit again. o well what are you going to do. i catn believe i have to go back to school in 6 days. wow senior year and i cant believe it's come so quickly. its going to be so crazy this year im going to be so stressed out its not even funny. esp since that bitch ms sullivan put me in pre calc when i told her not too! j/k shes not a bitch but there was no reason for that thanks. alright i g2g seee ya
Current Mood: angry
Current Music: the clash

16th August 2003

10:06pm: hello netter
good evening world. how are you? thanks fine and dandy. im in a comme ci comme ca (thats a little fallston high school french for you) sort of mood tonight. things are okay. hey im alive right? and everyday you have to go on living. living and loving, loving and living. whatever im obviously in a strange mood. so my moms in vermont and my dad and i are on our own this weekend so we eat every meal out and dont clean anything. you know someday i might actually have to become domesticated. tonight we ate crabs and corn and uncle ben came over to watch the O's with us. i love crabs. they're one of the best things that comes with a MD summer. crabs and corn on the cob and baseball. all great things of the summer. speaking of baseball, i went to an O's game with some pals of mine the other day and it was cool. i love the atmosphere. its so fun to sit in the nosebleeds with all of the other non-richies and just act like an asshole. see? if i was around the sophisticated people i couldnt do that. anyway, schools closing in on me. only 9 more days and i have to go back to that dreaded place. augh. well hey at least its my senior year so no worries. actually-WORRIES! college aps, dance classes, rehearsals, AP classes. well who cares its not here yet and ill deal with it when it gets here. ill update you later buh bye!
Current Mood: indescribable
Current Music: rancid

28th July 2003

6:04pm: im sad
paybacks are a fucking bitch you know that? yeah well Nutcracker tryouts are this weekend and whats hilarious is that they've already gotten the parts picked out you know? well thats aight b/c thats how politics are, and politics are in everything. its just not good when you come out on the shitty end you know? well we don't have any good boys this year so all we have is skinny little Joseph to be the cavalier b/c Jimmy (selfish fucking bastard) is refusing to be the cavalier-something about not being able to live up Erics legacy or some shit like that, but i think hes just lazy b/c he IS. anyway this isnt about Jimmy and its mean to project shit on him but you know,im just wallowing in my own self pitty. whats really happened is they need someone skinny to be their beloved sugar plum fairy, and thats not me. im not that skinny ballerina and i never will be and thats that. why the fuck can Katie Webster eat super value meals and still weigh 105 when i can only eat 1 meal a day or i gain? damnit. so my dream is over, done. at least i was sugar for one time and that was it. one time. okay i g2g get ready for dance.
Current Mood: sad
Current Music: rancid-who would've thought

24th July 2003

8:38pm: don't know
hello world. or-me, cuz no one reads this but i don't care. hm maybe if i joined some communities or something it would be more interesting. well anyways, this week has been the bummiest week ever. monday i cant remember what i did, tuesday i cant either, wenesday um....don't know...well anyway...sometime this week my friend Tara and I went to see that movie "The Italian Job"-and it was pretty good although i thought it was alot like that movie "The Bourne Identity" (wow Matt Damon is hott) and I also saw that movie "How To Deal" with Jen. wow! what a bad-ass movie! but i would recommend it to anyone who wants to laugh hysterically at other's misfortune. okay enough of the movies-o except i went to the drive-in which was awesome because i hadnt been there since the night that princess diana died-until i had to use the port-a-pot and then i got eaten alive by evil mosquitos.wow i like that word-mosquito-maybe ill name my child that!haha~! alrighty enough of my crazy moods. ummmm i went to the arctic circle to get ice cream last night with Jen, Tara, and Amara and we met Abby, Courtney and Ta there. i miss hanging out with Coutney and Ab, they're really nice. So i ate this hugemongous ice cream sundae with reese peanut butter chunks on top and it was so good i thought id cream myself mmmmmmm! okay and then we went to good ol' mc ' d's for a late late night snack and we ordered a SUPER value meal so Tara could have the Big Mac and Jen and I could split the fries. HOLY SHIT those things are huge!!! we were peeing oursleves when we got our 42 ounce soda and it was as big as poor Amaras head. i cant believe that anyone could actually eat a meal like that- i mean the fries were like the length of two fucking fingers they were huge! well i took pictures. anyway we sang Norman Greenbaum in the car to the top of our lungs. good times good times.today i downloaded live video of The Distillers (all hail Brody Armstrong!) from one of their shows in Richmond in '02 and it was awesome to see Brody in action. when she sang "Gypsy Rose" i was like she's my fucking hero and she has a beautiful and amazing voice. im completely infatuated. i dont care if everyone says shes a slut and all that because thats not what matters you know? i mean of course you want your idols to be good, loving people but you shouldnt scrutinize their personal lives you know? all i care is that i love the music that she writes and i think shes an amazing singer/sonwriter. god im just a walking Distillers poster arent i? enough of the psycho babble i have to get up for dancecamp way tooo early to be on this shit. thats all for now don't miss me too much.
Current Mood: amused
Current Music: Coldplay

21st July 2003

2:11pm: sitting here doing nothing
Event-ha!Thats funny. When you write in the journal it asks you what event you're writing about. Well hunny, sorry to dissapoint-but there's no event here. right now im sitting on my ass, doing nothing as i write in this online journal. Let's see-what have i done in the past week? I went to visit this college called UNC Greensboro and it was in the absolute ghetto, but it was a pretty campus. dont wanna go there though cuz it kind of sucked as far as dance programs go. I like the south, the whole architecture and country and all of that though..its kind of nice and everyone is all these nice, god fearing people you know? but then again there's alot of racism and bad shit too. I dont want to stereotype but its wrong to be a bigot and i don't know if i could handle a bunch of brainless, football-loving bigots. Then again, I want to go where people arent artsy snobs either. I went to visit Goucher, and Goucher's cool I guess, and close to home too, but i worry that everyones got their rich noses up their asses and all that, that they're just too far out in left field for me but whatever. Picking a college is my future, i guess it better be a good decision. oh theres another thing. what about these stupid colleges anyway? they're just as bad as corporations. they dont care about you or anything. they just want they're fucking names in the magazines, saying that they're the best shool, blah blah, blah. Like the more kids that they can turn away, the better they look in the stupid college magazines. sorry but that makes me fucking angry. and i can tell when im angry because i say fuck alot when im angry. speaking of anger, when i went on vacation with my parents i was pissed because well first off, i love the fuckers, but it was sooooo damn boring and my dad was yelling at me the whole time about who-knows-what becuase he was just in a pissed off mood. i mean i hate to sound spoiled because i know that there are people in this world who dont even get to go on vacation but if they do ever get to go-don't go with your parents b/c you'll be bored out of your freaking minds! ok thats about it for last week...oh yeah i went to habitat for humanity with st.stephens and st.marks and it was awesome as usual. the saddest thing is is that i had the best time rebelling against Kellie (our fearless christian leader-ha!) then actually being all christian and good. i believe it was kathreen hepburn that once said something like "you cant always be good because sometimes being bad is just so much more fun." now, we're not talking about being a evil slut rebel or any of that, we're just talking about being a little mischievios once in a while. i told jen (thankful to say that we're on good terms again) that the only time we do have alot of fun is when we're being bad, but thats aight i guess that how everyone feels. o and another event (wow! i guess i am dishing out the events right now!) i went to the ocean with my friends amara, courtney, andrea, and andrea, and we had a blast. except my battery died in my car on the way back and i started freaking out and crying and all this and i still dont know why, but i was really mean to all of them and i feel sooooo ashamed for that. i think they've forgiven me or they really dont care-either way we're all on good terms or so it seems. i think thats it for now-there's more but i really dont feel like writing. ok bye.
Current Mood: bored
Current Music: distillers

17th April 2003

9:51pm: holy thursday
well its the thursday before easter. holy thursday. i had off of school today thank god-i mean really lol no pun intended. i have off until TUESDAY!!! how exciting. anyway today i went shopping for some last minute gifts for my dad and jen. so i went to walmart and then had to drag my lazy ass all the way to log cabin candies just to get my dad his beloved pecan egg. not that im knocking easter eggs, in fact i love them. so this damn egg costs me like 4 dollars and it wastes all my gas to get it. thats ok my dad deserves it. so yesterday hilarie, jen, giulietta, and moi went to get snowballs in jens convertable. it was so nice outside and the snowballs were great. we then went to rock state park where we climbed up to the king and queen seat, a local lookout point. it was so pretty except for this like highway ruining the scenery. damn over populated earth. on the way home it was soooo beautiful because the sun had started to set and it was just a lovely day and the perfect temperature. we went over Hils to eat and we made ourselves this huge noodle-fish-quesidilla feast and it was delicioso. Hil went on a date with this jerk so me and Jen end up going over this guy grahams house but i was really tired and pissed for no reason and so i wasnt having alot of fun. so i left early and came home and slept for 12 and half hours. wow. yeah so i went shopping and all that. im telling you i love wal mart it is the great american institution if there ever was one. okay i really have nothing to talk about goodnight.
Current Mood: calm
Current Music: Janis Joplin

11th April 2003

9:04pm: unloved
I thought that because I had an online journal maybe I would actually update it and it would be useful. bullshit. well im feeling pretty depressed today-partly because its not a good time of the month for me and im pissed as shit and also because i dont think that anyone loves me. its a friday night, im bloated and fatigued, ive eaten everything chocolate i can get my hands on, and the most exciting thing ive done is bought some beef jerky at wal mart with my dad. yeah what a life. its like i have all these friends but i dont do anything with them. plus im not sure that i really fit in with them. actually im not sure if i fit in with anyone anymore actually. even my best friend jen and i have become distant, something that i would have never expected to happen. its like now she treats me like a baby, like she's always been a little like that but now its like shes WAY TOO experienced to be seen with such losers as me. OK, im sorry that i havent done alot of stuff with a couple of guys like she has, but that doesnt make me more immature than she is, if anything it means that i can have self-control and common sense. im not kidding anyone, i dont want to be lonely just like no one wants to be lonely, but i dont want to be a slut either. i want someone to love me not just pretend like they do or think they do because they're little wimps. this friend thing with the other girls is nice but im not sure if they actually like me because they never really ask me to do stuff, cuz they just have this little airtight group that no one can break into. i thought it was different with the "popular ones" then the so called "normal people." i thought they would except everyone but they dont. they're just as closed circuled as practically every one else in highschool. i keep telling myself, college will be different, college will be different, but its not looking good. i mean how can people be so mature in college when they just come from highschool? i dont understand. the other day i got so pissed at my chemistry teacher mr galeone because hes so damn opinionated, and thats ok, but about like this war in iraq and everything. welll he tells me that when you die and you have a cat, if your cat sees your not breathing it will eat you right away. ok well this diturbed me just a bit and i got really upset b/c snickers just died a little while ago and i was thinking that she never loved me she just wanted to eat me right? so i ask mr galeone if he thinks that animals love and he says no. i was so upset. i mean animals seem to be the most lovable creatures on this earth and i think that an animal can all the difference in this world right? so the fact that everytime i thought my cat was the only person in this world that i could love unconditionally, i was lying to myself. what a fucking slap in the face! ill tell you what-ive had enough of this bullshit. im ready to kick someones ass. you knoe if i wasnt a nice person i would. ive got alot of rage in me i do. on a brighter note, today i went to this french day thing for a fieldtrip at school and it was kind of fun. we did these skits in french and ours sucked because everyone in my class is lazy and wont do anything so all we had was this telephone booth made out of cardboard and jagged paper strips. but it was so ghetto it was hilarious (one of those things-you had to be there). Anyway, i got all fired up b/c the guys in my class were talking about this guy kyle boat whos my arch nemisis in this world ( hes an ego-maniac) and i got all angry and was complaining about how i would kill him if i wasnt in school. I hate to get all upset about things like this but its just horrible the way that he treats girls like they're fucking pieces of meat you know?i can handle guys that are assholes but i just CANT STAND big egos. they make me want to vomit all over them and laugh. ok im going a little pyscho now ill stop and ill be back tommorrow, hopefully in a better mood. till next time.
Current Mood: cold
Current Music: Beatles
8:55pm: unloved
I thought that because I had an online journal maybe I would actually update it and it would be useful. bullshit. well im feeling pretty depressed today-partly because its not a good time of the month for me and im pissed as shit and also because i dont think that anyone loves me. its a friday night, im bloated and fatigued, ive eaten everything chocolate i can get my hands on, and the most exciting thing ive done is bought some beef jerky at wal mart with my dad. yeah what a life. its like i have all these friends but i dont do anything with them. plus im not sure that i really fit in with them. actually im not sure if i fit in with anyone anymore actually. even my best friend jen and i have become distant, something that i would have never expected to happen. its like now she treats me like a baby, like she's always been a little like that but now its like shes WAY TOO experienced to be seen with such losers as me. OK, im sorry that i havent done alot of stuff with a couple of guys like she has, but that doesnt make me more immature than she is, if anything it means that i can have self-control and common sense. im not kidding anyone, i dont want to be lonely just like no one wants to be lonely, but i dont want to be a slut either. i want someone to love me not just pretend like they do or think they do because they're little wimps. this friend thing with the other girls is nice but im not sure if they actually like me because they never really ask me to do stuff, cuz they just have this little airtight group that no one can break into. i thought it was different with the "popular ones" then the so called "normal people." i thought they would except everyone but they dont. they're just as closed circuled as practically every one else in highschool. i keep telling myself, college will be different, college will be different, but its not looking good. i mean how can people be so mature in college when they just come from highschool? i dont understand. the other day i got so pissed at my chemistry teacher mr galeone because hes so damn opinionated, and thats ok, but about like this war in iraq and everything. welll he tells me that when you die and you have a cat, if your cat sees your not breathing it will eat you right away. ok well this diturbed me just a bit and i got really upset b/c snickers just died a little while ago and i was thinking that she never loved me she just wanted to eat me right? so i ask mr galeone if he thinks that animals love and he says no. i was so upset. i mean animals seem to be the most lovable creatures on this earth and i think that an animal can all the difference in this world right? so the fact that everytime i thought my cat was the only person in this world that i could love unconditionally, i was lying to myself. what a fucking slap in the face! ill tell you what-ive had enough of this bullshit. im ready to kick someones ass. you knoe if i wasnt a nice person i would. ive got alot of rage in me i do. on a brighter note, today i went to this french day thing for a fieldtrip at school and it was kind of fun. we did these skits in french and ours sucked because everyone in my class is lazy and wont do anything so all we had was this telephone booth made out of cardboard and jagged paper strips. but it was so ghetto it was hilarious (one of those things-you had to be there). Anyway, i got all fired up b/c the guys in my class were talking about this guy kyle boat whos my arch nemisis in this world ( hes an ego-maniac) and i got all angry and was complaining about how i would kill him if i wasnt in school. I hate to get all upset about things like this but its just horrible the way that he treats girls like they're fucking pieces of meat you know?i can handle guys that are assholes but i just CANT STAND big egos. they make me want to vomit all over them and laugh. ok im going a little pyscho now ill stop and ill be back tommorrow, hopefully in a better mood. till next time.
Current Mood: cold
Current Music: Beatles
8:38pm: unloved
I thought that because I had an online journal maybe I would actually update it and it would be useful. bullshit. well im feeling pretty depressed today-partly because its not a good time of the month for me and im pissed as shit and also because i dont think that anyone loves me. its a friday night, im bloated and fatigued, ive eaten everything chocolate i can get my hands on, and the most exciting thing ive done is bought some beef jerky at wal mart with my dad. yeah what a life. its like i have all these friends but i dont do anything with them. plus im not sure that i really fit in with them. actually im not sure if i fit in with anyone anymore actually. even my best friend jen and i have become distant, something that i would have never expected to happen. its like now she treats me like a baby, like she's always been a little like that but now its like shes WAY TOO experienced to be seen with such losers as me. OK, im sorry that i havent done alot of stuff with a couple of guys like she has, but that doesnt make me more immature than she is, if anything it means that i can have self-control and common sense. im not kidding anyone, i dont want to be lonely just like no one wants to be lonely, but i dont want to be a slut either. i want someone to love me not just pretend like they do or think they do because they're little wimps. this friend thing with the other girls is nice but im not sure if they actually like me because they never really ask me to do stuff, cuz they just have this little airtight group that no one can break into. i thought it was different with the "popular ones" then the so called "normal people." i thought they would except everyone but they dont. they're just as closed circuled as practically every one else in highschool. i keep telling myself, college will be different, college will be different, but its not looking good. i mean how can people be so mature in college when they just come from highschool? i dont understand. the other day i got so pissed at my chemistry teacher mr galeone because hes so damn opinionated, and thats ok, but about like this war in iraq and everything. welll he tells me that when you die and you have a cat, if your cat sees your not breathing it will eat you right away. ok well this diturbed me just a bit and i got really upset b/c snickers just died a little while ago and i was thinking that she never loved me she just wanted to eat me right? so i ask mr galeone if he thinks that animals love and he says no. i was so upset. i mean animals seem to be the most lovable creatures on this earth and i think that an animal can all the difference in this world right? so the fact that everytime i thought my cat was the only person in this world that i could love unconditionally, i was lying to myself. what a fucking slap in the face! ill tell you what-ive had enough of this bullshit. im ready to kick someones ass. you knoe if i wasnt a nice person i would. ive got alot of rage in me i do.

13th February 2003

4:51pm: thursday
uh thursday. if only it were friday. or any day-but today. no not friday. fridays valentines day. good ol valentines day. that day is just a stupid day. i sound so unintelligent saying that, but its the damn truth. its just highly commercialized so that card stores can make more money. its like people have to get other people something or the other people get angry. thats exactly what the card stores want you to do! is go out and buy you're significant other something from their store. now i have nothing against a day reminding people to love others, but not for materialistic reasons.
actually i didnt have that bad of a day, it was okay for my usual days. it definitly wasnt one of those days that i think everyone hates me-those are BAD days. Once again im doing this instead of my fucking homework. seriously fuck homework. who made it up anyway? they're probably dead anyway so i can't wish death upon them unfortunatly. My mom put all these pictures into this album on top of our piano today and I was looking at it and it was so sad because she put a picture of my cat, snickers, who died a few weeks ago from cancer. damn cancer! why do things that we love die? id be really angry if god (whatever god or gods are out there) didnt send animals to heaven. they are the most lovable innocent creatures on earth and they deserve it more then anything or anyone. i stopped eating meat except for a little chicken-i like it, but im thinking its not too good for you-so we'll see where that goes. this is gay reasoning since i wear leather shoes, have a leather purse or whatnot, but i do feel bad for the animals. plus, what am i supposed to do? make plastic shoes? maybe. but my question is-do they use the meat from animals first or the skin?respond if you know. ta.
Current Mood: lonely

7th February 2003

6:43pm: i have social anxiety disorder
If you've read my subject, you know how im feeling. Alone, unloved, bored, the usual. I seriously think I do though because im always afraid to approach people. Its a bad habit of mine to shy away from social events. Even when they involove my best friends. I never invite anyone over my house, I always end up going over other people's houses because I feel like if anyone came over my house they would be like, "wow this sucks!"Oh well enough pessimism for one day. I was very fortunate in that last night and this morning it snowed 6 inches and I got off school. So Bob Turk was right for once. Unfortunatly I am not allowed to drive in the snow so I spent the day watching movies and chilling in the hot tub with the parental units. Joy of joys. Not that I dont love my parents, I just don't want to hang out with them all the time. That movie Sweet Home Alamaba is pretty tacky but its a chic flic, and me being a chic, I rather enjoyed it. Enough for now, I must mope around. Until next time.

6th February 2003

7:47pm: snow
Bob Turk the forecaster says snow 1-8 inches tonight. Well as exciting as this may be im not sure exactly what the real outcome will be considering 1-8 inches is quite a strech. Hopefully its enough to cancel school. Today was a shitting day. You ever have those days when you think everyone hates you? Hopefully someone else does. I feel like sometimes everyone looks at me like im stupid. This brings me to the point...there are two different types of people in this world-the people with book smarts and the people with common sense. I would consider myself part of the common sense population. Not that Im not smart, I just have to try to be smart. My best friend Jen, now thats someone with absolutly NO common sense at all. I mean not about ANYTHING. She doesnt even look before she crosses the street. Now thats sad. It must suck to not know anything but facts. Speaking of sucking in general ( this wont be perverted dont worry) valentines day is rolling around again. Damn that holiday! Its just another stupid commercialized holiday made up by hallmark that reminds all single people of how pathetic they are. Personally, I think society is too hard on singles, like they're mutants or something. Now I have to admit that if i was currently attached I wouldnt be making the same comments. Its true that there's too much pressure to find a mate nowadays, but i guess its better then the 50s.
Current Mood: bitchy
Current Music: yellowcard

3rd February 2003

3:28pm: monday monday
ah the joys of monday. theres nothing like no sleep and then dutifully waking up at 6 am to a abnormal cheery mother chirping, "rise and shine sweetheart!" oh the agony. school is school-i go there because i have to. today we watched this movie "men are from mars, women are from venus." besides being quite ghetto in nature and cleary taped in the 80s, that video made me look at marriage from a whole nother viewpoint. thats right friends it taught me that when one gets married, one fights, hates, and abuses their spouse, despite the fact that they rarely have sex after 35. what a waste. then the stupid assholes of husbands dont give their wives any credit for raising the snotty nosed children and they sit there drinking beer and watching football while the wives change their kids shitty diapers. ok im done my ranting and the real truth is that im like every other girl on this planet who dreams of falling in love and having some fairy tale wedding.and i really dont think all men are like that but my dad sure is. that stupid video really put a damper on things though. damn. well once again my homework calls, better do it or i might fail school, not really. toodles.
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: nothing

2nd February 2003

4:07pm: hey me
Well hello world. This is my first entry ever in an online journal ever. If your wondering my name is not me Marie because im praying to god that no one ever reads this journal that I know. Yet I don't make it private because im stupid. No I just want people I dont know to talk to me. At this current time im supposed to be doing my homework. Unfortunatly, I don't chemistry or math at all apealing in any way so Im writing and listening to music instead. Theres really nothing going on right now in my life. There was this talent show at my school friday night and I was in it. I dig punx so i was really suprised to find that this band rundownparrish at my school is a pretty rockin one. Everyone else sang gay kelly clarkson songs and shit-not that they're not good performers, but i dont much dig pop music. Not that I should talk because im on the dance team and we danced to this fuckin pop music medley thing. (all right you got me i have a mad weakness for *some* micheal jackson music even though i am very aware that hes a freak) Then after the talent show i wanted to go out with a group of friends but had already promised another that I would go out with her. Now this girl is Tara and I love her to death but all of her firiends are the chorus people and they're nice and all but they talk about shit i dont even know about so most of the time i just sit there and do nothing. Im sure none of you care what i did on saturday and because i dont really either. Todays sunday and I have mad cramps so my parents let me stay home from church (sorry god but i really dont feel guilty because I really dont like church anyway). Living as a semi anti-catholic catholic is an interesting existance to say the least. Oh i think thats it. If anyone thinks im cool (which is unlikely) you can email me. tata
Current Mood: lethargic
Current Music: The Distillers
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