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[06¤04¤04 ♥ 11¤51AM] |
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SO EXCITED FOR HARRY POTTER |
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Another page of i'm sorry's addressed to me
Another story for the collection of memories folded neatly
And I will never make the same mistake...
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[06¤03¤04 ♥ 12¤58PM] |
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I wish i could and i know that i should but you know i know i wont and you don't care
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| This is a matter of life and death and we're not prepared. I just want you to know. |
[05¤26¤04 ♥ 10¤09AM] |
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The best part of what has happened was the part I must have missed.
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[05¤25¤04 ♥ 1¤50PM] |
Call me a safe bet.
I'm betting I'm not.
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[05¤21¤04 ♥ 1¤59PM] |
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feeling spitty. |
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friday: wishing i was at the blink182/takingbacksunday/theused concert with evan. i am so jealous
saturday: working i think.. and then jessica len and one of her sisters is spending the night because it's their parents annaversary.
sunday: possibly going to the movies with jess, tony (yes.. scary i know), possibly katy.. it should be interesting.
So what the hell am I suppose to do
You only wanted the things I couldn't give to you
And you had it all anyway
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[05¤20¤04 ♥ 1¤52PM] |
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Emotions overrated |
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This may never start.
We could fall apart
And I'd be your memory.
Lost your sense of fear.
Feelings insincere.
Can I be your memory?
you.yes.you.
Look around, I’m the one, your only
Look around it still kills me
& you remind me.
of all those books i read, and the songs i listen to.
where they fall in love,
and its p e r f e c t.
so what do you think about that? i don't think you care.
because my heart is just something. nothing important.
& i wish we weren't this way. & i wish i had a boyfriend more than anything.
as pathetic as it sounds.
i just was someone to listen.
so just listen. you can make it all okay.
it sickening that you have this much control over my happiness & you don't even know it.
its sick.
i can't take this anymore so i'm done.
i wish i wasn't.
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[05¤18¤04 ♥ 2¤02PM] |
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Sometimes the things we say are only temporary.
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| I know your heart is shot full of holes from mistakes made in the past |
[05¤13¤04 ♥ 1¤53PM] |
Do you still think about me?
Tell him I'm not sorry
and Just don't tell him that i miss him.
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| The things you break Sometimes can't be Replaced. This heart you've stolen is one of them. |
[05¤12¤04 ♥ 1¤21PM] |
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and all the lonely nights
and all the crushing scenes
and all the pointless fights
I hope you haven't forgotten.
Because, well, i haven't. Maybe it was something worth forgetting.
I hope it wasn't worth it.
I hope i was worth it. Worth your time.
Just let me know i'm something to you. In this life you're living without me.
I wish you weren't without me.
It's pathetic that i remember the way you make me feel.
So call me pathetic. i can't help but want to go back.
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| I dare you to forget |
[05¤11¤04 ♥ 1¤40PM] |
I could make this obvious,
and in one breath
you could shrug me off
your shoulders...
i will forever have the image of jessica garvin attacking kalie in my head.. forever.
all i remember is rebecca and i LAUGHING OUR ASSES OFF!!
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| But don't forget I regret the fact that I have to leave you |
[05¤10¤04 ♥ 9¤56AM] |
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Glad, Relieved, Upset |
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Madly in love with this boy that's gonna break my heart
Make another broken promise
Every time I see him smile that smile
I think that maybe he had saved that one for me
[ Brad Pitt thinks Troy will inspire men to wear skirts. I'm sorry, Brad, but most men don't have legs like yours. It just won't look the same. ]
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[05¤07¤04 ♥ 9¤30AM] |
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i don't want to lose your friendship. i truely don't.
i just never thought that one of the people i held so close could have said that to me.
but i needed to hear it. i needed to know that my best friends thought this about me.
i just didn't expect it.
i am sorry.
i'm sorry that i ever thought that you were wrong for telling me this.
i'm sorry that you now think that i hate you, because i don't. i love you, to death.
i'm sorry if anyone offended you, while trying to defend me. no one was meant to get involved..
i'm sorry for blaming it ALL on you.. when you didn't deserve it.
i'm sorry if you think that i don't appreciate you. i do.
i'm sorry that i overreacted.
i'm sorry that i've changed. i can't help it. i didn't want to but i did. there are so many things i wish i could go back and make better. there are so many things that i wish i could just erase completely. but i can't. so i have to live with whatever mistakes i make. and it sucks. i know i'm not the only one to blame for whatever happened these last few days, but i know i'm most of it. i know i deserve whatever you had to say to me. about how, i need to at LEAST, be aware of other poeple's feelings, especially if i consider them a best friend. i know i deserve to be called a bad friend. no matter how much it hurt. i just didn't want to think that i deserved it. but i deserved it all. please don't hate me. i made a mistake that i wish i could fix but i can't. and i'm sorry. you both deserve apologies.. but i think you could use one more.. because i think i hurt you the most. i'm apologizing to both of you.. i want to make things better, because to think if we stopped being friends.. i couldn't imagine.
i know you won't see this until later, and i hate to think that you should have to go through the rest of the school day hating me. please don't hate me.
i'm going to try.
try to be different.
i didn't mean to hurt your feelings, or ignore you, or treat you badly. i really didn't mean it.
and i'm sorry.
i'm sorry that this might not be enough of an apology..
I can't do it by myself.
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[05¤05¤04 ♥ 1¤25PM] |
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Everyone's caught on to everything you do
Thank you for reminding me of all the things I've done completely wrong
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[05¤04¤04 ♥ 7¤28PM] |
frankly my dear..
i couldn't give a damn.
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[05¤04¤04 ♥ 3¤09PM] |
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i should've known
get a grip on yourself
i know that this is a slap in the face.
but its not just for me.
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[05¤03¤04 ♥ 1¤57PM] |
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i always thought i was number one to you
but looking back i never even was your number two
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| I'm oh-so-terrible at this. |
[05¤01¤04 ♥ 8¤10PM] |
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And you think that I'm impressed with your one night stands
and your contagious kiss
I'm trying to get this right
Yeah, cause I'm ridiculous like that
I'm just that kind of person that you always want to hate. so hate me.
it's not like i even matter anymore. i am not a threat.
I won't give up, I can't let go
but i see that you have. you've forgotten.
but i have them.
i just want you to know that i'm here.
and i'm still waiting.
even if you don't deserve my time,
even if you don't want it.
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[04¤30¤04 ♥ 1¤45PM] |
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excited, jealous, but happy |
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I take back everything i've said
You would those words on your lips
As if they meant anything anyway
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| Breaking hearts has never looked so cool |
[04¤29¤04 ♥ 1¤55PM] |
Kumm gave me an awesome fish.
it rocks.
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| Don't flatter yourself sweetheart. |
[04¤28¤04 ♥ 12¤44PM] |
Fake it like you matter - that's a lie we can both keep
I wish that I was as invisible as you make me feel.
boy's like you are overrated. so save your breath.
loaded words and loaded friends
are loaded guns to our heads
tomorrow is my birthday.
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