11:41pm 16/05/2003
mood: ecstatic
music: Resol Live- House of 1000 Corspes
I was just informed by my good friend Alexa that there will in fact be a HOUSE OF 1000 CORSPES sequel. Yeah motherfucker, yeah. I have not been this happy since I got a guitar for my birthday. WOOO! Well, I better go jerk off.
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Selective Mutism   
11:10pm 16/05/2003
mood: tired
music: Resol Live- Insonmia
I just got into Atlanta. I hope I get to see some of my friends. I see the Matrix tommorrow. Woo! I heard a good piece of advice today in a song. "She broke my heart so I ripped hers out".It makes sense to me. Only two days of school left and then I am gone. A summer filled with guitars, masturbation, guitars, and masturbation, and.......oh god! I've been looking forward to an actually crappy summer. I need to re-evaluate my goals here. Fuck. Well, I need to go figure out some things.
Ditch. Mi Amor.   
01:13pm 04/05/2003
mood: tired
music: New Wave Blasphemy
Friday I saw ditch. It was awesome. I talked to them for a few hours and they are going to draw our cover art for our cd. I have practice today. I just have to finish chemistry. I haven't slept because we are so busy with this band thing. We are going to play a show as soon as possible. Ditch also has the same band movies as us. Fight Club and Kung-Pow. Well, I gotta get to work. Hope I live till senior year.
Enjoying Alchohol   
10:23pm 26/04/2003
mood: tired
music: Flogging Molly
Well, i have had a few drinks and am pretty out of it. I have had a good weekend so far in Atlanta. i didn't get to see my friends and that sucked but other than that I have been ok. I am almost done with 1984 and it is a really good book. Well, I can not even remember the first sentence so I better go.
Transformers Unite!!!   
11:23pm 25/04/2003
mood: tired
music: Reel Big Fish
House of 1000 Corpses is one of the best movies ever. I saw that and Pie. They were both really good. I'm getting a computer soon and I will make my comeback as evil computer overlord. Lately I have grown an affinity for Reel Big Fish. They are really good. School has been ok. The conversations get better everyday. Joy wears skirts around Mike for easy access to the love making I swear. Just kidding. I want to start driving but insurance is like 360 dollars a month. Fuck that. I wish i were a yuppy kid like most everyone else and buy an insurance company. Rich fucks. Well, I gotta go kill brain cells.
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Resol Live   
12:12am 19/04/2003
mood: tired
music: Redicihouse
Well, my Ditch show got canceled. House of 1000 Corpses finally came here. I'm just in a crappy feeling. I can not wait until school is out. Well, nothing much happens in my life so this journal is getting crappy. Oh yeah. I am going back to courrt again. That sux. Of course, that is just the way my family is.
Crunch of Death   
06:01pm 05/04/2003
mood: tired
music: Bob Marley
I'm at my friends house getting ready to go practice. IB is of course kicking my ass. I am watching an immense amount of movies as of late. House of a 1000 Corpses is coming out friday and I can't wait. I have been getting more sleep from nyquill so I feel better. That is all I have for now.
03:02am 23/03/2003
mood: tired
music: Iced Earth-Horror Show
Well, I have quite re-adjusted to no sleep. It is at this point like a buzz all day long. I had a nice treat today. I am at Andy's and I got to read all the Transformers original comics. I also got some transformer paraphanalia. It's three am here and I am looking forward to the aproaching hour of homecoming. Pensacola, I will return soon and take my place as King Dumbass once again. Well, no time like the present to go make music.
Last one for a while   
05:34pm 22/03/2003
mood: tired
music: Pantera- Cowboys From Hell
Well, this is my last entry for a while. I go home tommorrow. I am about to go over to Andy's to have a jazz/blues jam. I miss home. I gotta get my shit together for the band. School and sleep are always going to suck but I have to adapt and stop bitching. Time to get my crap together. Goodbye for now.
Almost there   
11:28pm 21/03/2003
mood: tired
music: Rammstein- Herzeleid
Only a few days until I come home. Then I get checked. I just watched Boondock Saints again. Good movie. I have been e-mailing Ditch. They are really good. I sent in my two pictures for the contest and I hope I win so I get the other cd. I talked to Jesse and Daniel last night so that was fun. I have to be ready by seven am. It is eleven forty two right now so I have some time. Daniel is helping me raise hell so I'm not bored. I got into a fight with my dad today about my current lifestyle. I told that it was my life and if I was poor then so be it. He is the one that left.
Awwwwwwww, how I do love my cd's. Beck, NWA, Misfits, Ditch, Rage Against The Machine, System of a Down, Dave Brubeck Quartet, Otep, Rammstein, Pantera, Nonpoint, Ozzy, Black Sabbath, Tinfed, Bob Marley, Megadeth, KMFDM, Pig, Save Ferris, Reel Big Fish, Weezer, Primus, and The Casualties.
Well, I will be up later and I will write more. Maybe.
Death by Chow Yun Fat   
11:53pm 20/03/2003
mood: tired
music: Otep- Sevas Tra
I stared at the ceiling last night. I kept watching until my dad left for work at six. Then I went upstairs around eight and left with Levi around noon. Today I watched Memento. Extremely well done film. Then I watched Four Rooms. Good scene with Tarantino. After that was Iron Monkey. Good fight scenes. Then I went to go see The Recruit. Collin Farrel did a very good job on that one and who can't resist Pacino. Then I saw Cradle 2 The Grave. I have seen way better but I have a love for Jet Li. It's about midnight right now. I am going to go upstairs and watch The Replacement Killers, and then watch Boondock Saints. I have had a good share of movies today. By the time Boondock Saints is over I will have to shower to get ready to do some work with my dad. No rest for the wicked I guess. I found out that I was sick due to my blood sugar levels. I have to get checked for diabetes when I get home. Fucking great.
I'm going to die   
02:33am 20/03/2003
mood: tired
music: System of a Down
I have tried to fucking sleep. Son of a mother fucking bitch. I am getting really pissed off with myself. I look horrible. I have bags under my eyes and my face has this constant look of death. I'm out of it all the time. If by next week I can't sleep I'm going to see a doctor. My insides feel like someone is twisting all my organs. This can't be good for bowels. Leave it to me to be on the brink of puking blood and still make a bowel joke. If I stare at the screen long enough my face goes numb. Bestrafe mich. Wolt ihr das bett en flammen sehen? Weisses Fleisch. I learned today how to pop my chestplate. It hurts but feels cool. Tommorrow, I'm going to sit down and write. If there is one thing Jim and I have learned, we both now know that insomnia breeds creativity. We have both written our best shit when we couldn't sleep. I have been practicing our songs we already have and writing some new ones. Jim and Logan's Funk Metal Experience is gonna go somewhere. I don't care if I puke blood, drop dead of exhaustion, as long as I get somewhere with the music. I at least have that and my movie. Maybe I should just get horribly sick that way I can get morphine at the hospital. I would sleep then. I want to sleep so bad. If I believed there was a god, I would fucking go off on his ass right about now. What kind of sick demented fuck would create humans just put them through some fucking test to see if they deserved heaven? Fuck that shit. I can't sleep because I suffer from insomnia. Not because some immortal being wants to fuck with me. Of course at this point I'm just ranting so I don't stare at the ceiling all night and go insane. I wonderwhat everyone else is doing right now. Sleeping. Enjoying the ability to rest. Bastards. If they only knew how lucky they were. You take sleep for granted when you get it everyday. I'm gonna go smother myself until I knock myself out from lack of oxygen.
An Enema of The Brain   
12:15am 20/03/2003
mood: tired
music: Megadeth- Killing Is My Bussiness
I feel like shit. My head is about to implode. My body is in mutiny right now. I have had two pots of coffee and I feel like I'm having a bad coricidin trip. My hands are shaking and my nose is bleeding. I need sleep and rest. I can't even see me doing this for another month. If I don't sleep soon I'm gonna die. I'm so tired. I'm exhausted and I have to work out legal papers for fucking visitation and set up times. I need a fucking break. I wouldn't care if I had to do heroin just to get some fucking sleep. Just some way to keep my eyes closed. My neck is stiff,my eyes are dry, everytime I yawn my heart speeds up, and I have dizzy spells all fucking day. Fuck this shit.
Say it aint so   
06:47pm 19/03/2003
mood: tired
music: Ditch- Puttin Stuff In My Barn
I can't wait until friday.I get to hang out with Andy, Amilcar, Rey, Levi, Corey, and Jesse. Until then though I don't know what I am going to do. I have to decide soon on my summer visitation. My parents have been divorced ever since I can remember, and I have never had a sense of a family. Other people have their parents at their guitar concerts, or at their soccer games. The last time my mom and dad were in the same room as me was at my court hearing in August and that was all kinds of fucked up. I'm tired of having to live two lives, of having to seperate MY time between two other people. Well, fuck it. It's only for two more years. I'm not gonna get shit for sleep tonight. Fuck. Well, I'm gonna get home in four days. Then the same old grind starts up. School, band, no sleep, smoking, no sleep, no sleep........screw it. That's my theory for life. Can't fix it? FUCK IT! At least when I go back to school I'll see everyone. Now that I am all nostalgic, I'm gonna go through my day of school.
I go to first period chemistry. There I just fuck around on the computers, hit on Mrs. Lomasney and talk to Chris, Alexa, Katie, Justin, and Than.
Then is second period spanish. I joke with senor a little and piss off Kate and Eliza while talking to Chris D. Mostly just fucking around.
After that is homeroom. I enjoy homeroom because i just get to joke around with Daniel and Joy, and they both are cool. I need to find Daniel a woman.
Then Daniel and I skip on down to Mr. Steed's room for geometry. I talk to Daniel, Kari, Alex, and Kobe mainly in that class. Most the time it is just me and Daniel kicking some math ass.
After that I head to guitar class with Mr. Stephens. I see Mary in there and that makes my day better. I just fuck around with intermediate. Tyler, Andre, Eliza, Kate, Daniel, Chris, Jill. I also talk to Renee whe I can.
Then I head to Mrs. Li's Algebra II. I talk to Daniel, Chad, Joy, Katrina, Charlie, Evan, almost everyone in the room. It's fun...I guess.
Once I'm in sixth period I am ok. Mrs. Spearman's english class. Me and Mrs. Spearman are pretty close because she is my favorite teacher. I talk to Justin, Carolyn, and Kelly.
Finally I head to hell. Mr. Jones's european history. Long class but it is getting better.

I'm gonna go do something now. I will probably write more around two or three tommorrow morning.
Can't Sleep   
12:19am 19/03/2003
mood: tired
music: NWA-Straight Outta Compton
It's late again. I am talking to Micheal. I can't find anything to do. I know when I go back home I will just sit up all night and have to get up for school and repeat it all over again. I hate those days when i just phase in and out. I want to start taking something so I can sleep. I just sit up, watch movies, try to think up a screenplay. I can't even remember the last great night I slept. Exhaustion is a lot like being allebriated. You are out of it, but not in a pleasant way. I joke around constantly just to stay awake. Sleep. That's all I want right now.
I just want to close my eyes and rest. I need cyanide.
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I Enjoy Movies   
09:47pm 18/03/2003
mood: tired
music: Weezer
Well, my day just started. It is 9:49 pm and I'm just starting to feel awake but I am still tired and I am gonna repeat this for a long time. I am in Atlanta but I live in Pensacola.I am here on spring break. It gets kind of boring. I am waiting to watch Dave Chapelle later tonight. I have been talking to Daniel online a lot. He, Mary, and Micheal are my only connections to Pensacola right now. I need to sleep.