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Just there [23 Oct 2003|05:06pm]
[ mood | peaceful ]
[ music | Switchfoot- Meant to live ]

I haven't had much to say the past couple of days.. I feel happy, yet sad, confused and lost but fully aware.. It's soo weird.. Things have settled down.. For some reason Doug is always right.. And it kinda bothers me.. Because whenever someone else tells me advice and I follow it, things get worse.. But with Doug it works.. Odd.. Maybe he's God, like he let me believe Nikita was God.. Lol.. That was funny.. I am soo busy these days.. I have so much homework and things to do.. :sigh:: And on top of it all.. I miss crew so much.. I miss being on the water and closing my eyes and feeling so at ease.. I miss it soo much it hurts.. It's funny how foreign dating seems to me.. I kind of miss it.. But in a way I really don't... Oh, I applied at Old Navy, I hope I get the job.. It's funny how the sweetest guys you never want to date them.. I love life now.. What happened to me? What made me soo happy? I wish I knew.. I wish I knew..

Silent Whispers

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Perfection [23 Oct 2003|09:36pm]
[ mood | excited ]
[ music | Radiohead- Karma Police ]

Today was going fairly well.. Until my mom got home and said, "We are going to clean the whole house today!" Woo that blew.. My mom is such a perfectionist.. I am to some extent, well I'm just paranoid.. Well actually I am such a lazy ass.. I've been thinking alot lately.. I am run off of emotions.. It blows.. Sometimes I find myself wanting to go to my Dad's because I am soo free there.. I can do whatever I want basically.. This is too great.. Matt is going to borrow my clothes and wear them.. I am going to wear his clothes.. That is cool.. I am happy still.. WOw..Still amazes me.. I am tired.. And umm forgot everything else I was going to say..

Jess

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