| I wish I knew you. |
[23 Jun 2003|10:19pm] |
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I am stuck at my Dad's again.. Great. This morning I found myself lying on my living room floor with a heating pad on my stomach to cease the "girl pains" (cramps!) I went to Marshall's and got some picture frames and a candle holder and this really cute purse <3. Then went to China Pearl Buffet and it was good stuff but no sushi :( .. I don't remember doing anything else.. Oh yeah Home Depot.. WOOT.. Enough about that shit.. Oh yeah I was watching this movie This Time Around.. It was cute.. I would of done the same since alot of boys made my life a living hell in middle school. But I would of run them over with a car and not dated them.
You think you know someone but they lie to you and themselves to hide what they are... And what they've become, out of fear of rejection.. And confusion. People are saying things that aren't meant to be said. At this moment I wish not to date anyone. Not out of fear of rejection, but out of feeling it is pointless.. Last night I made someone feel wanted and made him think he got what he's been waiting for and wanted with all his little heart. I got back at him.. For leading me on for 6 months and for making me want something I lost and gave up.. Does he really deserve what Alexa and I are doing to him? Who gives a fuck! I have nothing left to say.
Love yas,
Jess
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