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[13 May 2003|05:41pm] |
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Today was very frustrating.. I broke up with James.. I had to. I know I know I was pissed when he did it online but I had too (if you didnt get that i broke up with him online).. I just can't date him.. I know everyone will be happy.. But I can't and will not date someone who thinks I want sympathy for my family issues and says its alright to hurt someone if you have a reason. That's bullshit.. There is no reason to hurt someone, and no one and I mean NO ONE has that right! I don't care who you think you are!! I swear to God that if anyone ever says what James said to my face I will fucking hit them in the face.... That is the most moronic thing I have ever heard. I asked my sister's boyfriend if he thinks its right.. He said, "I don't have that right, I just do it because it makes me happy.."
Anyways we always fought.. I don't know why I'm explaining myself.. I don't have to say why but I know everyone will ask.. It just wasn't meant to be.. We should of just stuck with James' first decision.. So yeah.. I was gonna post the whole conversation out of pure rage, but I won't do that to him.. I hope he and I can become friends.. But I don't know since we weren't really friends before hand.. But we will see..
I just don't know anymore.. But I know this is for the best.... Need to walk and think..
xoxo Cowboy
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| its only you |
[13 May 2003|10:09pm] |
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You can never be happy with anyone else, if you're not happy with yourself.. If we are unhappy what makes us think that we would be happy with another person?
So many thoughts are running rampent through my mind right now.. I might go crazy.. Where is Jessica?? I think she is lost.. Lost where you may ask? Among the fields and flowers searching, searching for her lover.. What lover? The one that doesn't exist, but only in her heart.. She will never find him.. Yet she goes on, hoping, wanting, waiting for that sudden relief from her immense pain..
Roseability
Rose, ability. There is no roseability
Rose, ability. There is no roseability
You’ve got off with too much now
You’re getting off with too much now
Stop looking through scrapbooks and photograph albums
Because I know
They don’t teach you what you don’t already know
You’ve always been, dissatisfied
Gertrude Stein said "that’s enough"
(I know that that’s not enough now)
Rose, ability. There is no roseability
You’ve got off with too much now
You’re getting off with too much now
Stop looking through scrapbooks and photograph albums
Because I know
They can’t teach you what you don’t already know
You’re always be, dissatisfied
Gertrude Stein said "that’s enough"
Gertrude Stein said "that’s enough"
(I know that that’s not enough now)
Rose, ability. There is no roseability
You’ve got off with too much now
You’re getting off with too much now
Stop looking through scrapbooks and photograph albums
Because I know
They won’t teach you what you don’t already know
You’re always be, dissatisfied
I, Jessica Lee admit that I am extremly emo for my own good..
xoxo Cowboy (I love you all)
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