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heyguys.
today was okay.
half bad half good.
let's start wif the good part of the day...
-got to hang wif mah bud shayna after school.
-got a good laugh in n social studies.
(mr. d n a dress... as bin royndawyl.)
-i get to go wif mid to the thrift store tomorrow.
-only easy math homework
now the bad...
-had another fight wif a good friend
-almost lost a friend
-bad cramps
(so if i was in a bad mood. you now know why...)
...mk...
well i think that is about all that has happened.
i think i'm gona go now.
byebye.
<3you.
o yes. and... i am patricks hero. his wonder woman. i feel so special. haha!
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[22 Sep 2003|04:25pm] |
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heyeverybody.
um. nuthing too important has happened lately.
life has been getting better every single day.
thank god.
i was about to give up on living.
but atleast i'm a loser.
because like if you were quote "popular"
i guess you would probably have even more bad stuff happen to you.
and more bad things happen than a loser would.
so this is like the best thing about not being popular.
anyways.
so main point,
-<>-life is better-<>-
um.
i'm jus gonna talk about the weekend.
so if your already bored.
stop reading. unless you want to take a nap...
um okay.
fRiDaY
-got ready for the gala wif mid
-went to the gala n her bros P.i.M.P. truck.
-had fun wif the 7th graders. dude yall guys can dance.
-went home n the P.i.M.P. truck!
-didnt get to go to brusters...thumbs down.
-watched lord of the rings wif tyler n mid.
....SaTuRdaY
-went to sleep.
-got up
-ATE alot.
-put on halloween make up.
-went to scare her mom.
-watched view it from the top.
-left.
-church pic's.
-J. aLeXanDeRs. yum yum!
-go to sweeep earwy.
....sUnDaY
-church
-coley's b-ball game. we won. yay.
-go home.
-go to choir. woop woop.
-eat.
....and thats all folks....
isnt that the most fun filled weekend ever.
i am still trying to think up a new sn.
so if you have any ideas... tell me please!
i have a few suggestions.
nothing good though.
the only thing i can think up is...
*maLiBu BarBiE*
is that okay?
well i guess that's all i have to say.
but i dont know why i type n this.
nobody reads it.
o well.
at least i can write whatever i want.
and nobody will read it!
byebye.
<3.
"...all of your ways
and all that you dream
falls on me
it falls on me
and your beautiful sky
the light you breath
falls on me
it falls on me
am I that strong
to carry on
have i changed your life
have i changed my world
could you save me..."
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[17 Sep 2003|04:14pm] |
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dude.
guess what i found out today.
that everybody thinks that i'm stuck up.
geez. i am so fuckin pissed off.
o yeah. and everyone hates me too.
i dont know why.
i know that i'm not perfect.
and i know that i can be stuck up sumtimes.
and bitchy.
but, doesnt everybody have those days?
am i really stuck up.
if so. can you tell me what i am doing wrong.
i need to know.
i dont want to go all my life acting that way.
so comment on this thing.
or comment about the last entry because for some reason the comments doesnt show up on it.
well thats all i gotta say.
byebye.
<3.
please comment.
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| sCrEwEd 4 LiFe |
[14 Sep 2003|02:27pm] |
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*hEyLaDiEs-N-gEnTeLmEn*
^sOrRy i JuS fELt LiKe SaYiN tHaT
well anyways.
i havent updated n a while.
there just hasnt been anything to talk about.
so i'm jus gona fill you n bout my weekend so far.
well friday.
came home from school.(the usual)
then abbey called me so i was jus like come over.
so she did and we went to the game.
it wasnt great.
nvm. let me put it this way it sucked ass.
but at least i got to see everybody.
that was the best part about it.
i saw patrick there.
i was pretty cold to him.
*sorrie patrick*
but like i just cant forgive and forget the things that he said.
well at least not this soon.
he thinks that he can be mean to me around his friends.
and then sweet to me when he is alone.
but no, that's not going to happen.
i absolutly hate him right now.
the worst part was when i finally realized something.
i really am a stuck up bitch
it ruined my night.
and then me abbey and amanda were supposed to leave 6 minutes before the game ended.
we didnt get there fast enough.
my dad was so fuckin pissed at me.
so he wouldnt let us go get food or a movie.
i was so god damn pissed at him.
that also ruined my night.
but when we were trying to get out of there.
jared and jordan, those cute little twins n 7th grade and like 3 of their friends were infront of us.
they popped out of there like sun roof and the windows.
and so while we were waiting we were just talking to them.
it was fun.
and also. me and abbeys song came on.
can you guess it...
STACY'S MOM.
dude i love that song.
but the only thing that sucks about it is that now like everybody knows what it is.
nobody used to know what it was except like a few people.
o well.
okay.
well abbey and amanda spend the night.
it was ok.
then they left sat.
and i was FUCKING GROUNDED.
just because we didnt get to the gate around the 6 minutes before the game was over.
but he let me watch the football games.
AUBURN WON THEIR FIRST GAME.
even if it was against vanderbilt.(cant spell), a win is a win.
but my dad is still a bastard.
n then today i got up at like 10.
that's pretty good for me because i usually like sleep all day.
um. and then i came down here to see if anybody was on.
but nobody was.
so i just sat upstairs all day.
doesnt that sound fun.
well thats about all that has happened this weekend.
i hope better things will happen this weekend.
i dont think that it can get much worse.
o yeah and. YAY.
middy is coming tonight.
her daddy let her come!
well i guess thats about all.
byebye.
<3.
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[10 Sep 2003|04:42pm] |
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hey whoevers reading this.
i'm just going to warn you this is not worth reading.
so dont bother reading it.
well.
lifes been boring as ever these days.
all it is, is the normal rutine.
*g0 t0 sch00l*c0me h0me*h0mew0rk*
then i just like sit here.
i'm getting so much fatter these days.
i'm gona be like jumbo soon.
i think there's sumthing wrong with me.
i just dont want to do anything.
i think i'm depressed.
o well.
nothing major.
but um yay
everything between me and abbey is getting better.
thats a big releaf.
i dont need to loose like one of my only friends.
well um yeah.
if you were bored enough to read my journal.
comment on this thing and help me find a new good s/n.
i really need one soon!
well i have to go.
byebye.
<3
P.s.By.ThE.wAy...
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| ...ending my role as a stuck up bitch... |
[08 Sep 2003|08:39pm] |
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heyeverybody.
listen up.
as you might kno alot of people think i'm a stuck up bitch.
well thats going to change.
i dont want to be known as that.
like until now.
i had never realized that i was bein a bitch.
then wen somebody told me.
i was like um.
all mad.
but now i'm starting to realize.
dude. i really am that way!
so now i'm going to stop.
so if you EvEr hear me say something mean.
tell me or something.
you can hit me if you want to.
that's what melissa does.
haha.
but that's jus because she's really weird.
anyways.
me and abbey r drifting apart these days.
i have no clue how.
we have classes together and stuff.
of all people i thought i would be loosing middy.
but i'm not.
it's all good n that department. haha.
well like i think the only reason me and abbey are drifting is because.
yall all should know about the lockout.
if you dont. scroll down about a few entrys.
but like patrick said a bunch of shit to her.
like we talk about her everytime she left the room.
but that is probably the biggest mother fuckin lye ever!
... if this is abbey dude. your never gona loose me. i'll be here till the end. i just want you to know that i love you sooo much and patricks bullshit isnt going to change our friendship. dude. he's an asshole. come to me next time he talks to you like that...
well.
guys i guess thats about it.
and if anybody has a problem with me at the time.
comment.
bc everybodys mad and i want to know why.
also comment if you know anything.
i'm lost n this fighting shit.
well byebye.
<3. the one and only screw up
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| ...i'm surviving... |
[07 Sep 2003|07:24pm] |
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heyguys.
finally life seems to be getting better.
my sopapra is finally gona end.
haha.
i just wish life could go bak to normal.
anyways.
there's just one more thing to add.
well my entry like to times ago is about the lock out and how freakin mad i am.
well i just want to add...
that night might have been a living hell.
but in a way it was a sign.
for me and melissa.
telling us who r REAL friends r.
well thats all i'm gona say.
byebye.
<3.
p.s. how do you do those little moveing scrolls n make your letters bold n stuff???
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[06 Sep 2003|07:47pm] |
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Simple Plan...Perfect...
Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spend with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
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[06 Sep 2003|06:51pm] |
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i havent writen n a while but o well.
um. i didnt do much this week.
thursday i went to the game.
we lost. 0-23 i think.
but i left earli b/c i was sick.
well i was jus hangin out wif middy n sara.
woo-hoo.
it was a blast.
...i had kno clue that it would b like my last day of fun...
holy shit.
me n middy n abbey went to the lock out.
it suked ass.
we brought abbey.
and then the second that we got there.
when her friends got there.
she left us.
then when she knew that we were pissed off.
she would b like where were yall guys?
n say all that shit so we wouldnt get mad at her for leaving us.
and then patrick was being the biggest asshole.
i never really knew bout that side of him until now.
i thought he was my friend.
i guess not?
he was like sayin i'm a stuck up bitch.
and that i'm mean to him all the time?
well if you think that.
tell me about it n my comments thing.
i know that i can be at sumtimes.
but dude.
ISNT EVERYONE?
ughhhh.
i'm so mad.
well um.
i'm listening to this song.
so i'm gona put it n my next entry thing.
well i'm gona go now.
byebye.
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[01 Sep 2003|12:33pm] |
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well i dont tink this will b a long entry.
that is b/c i'm grounded n i'm not even supposed to b on.
anyways.
well guess what.
i'm so screwed.
r you suprised?
prob. not.
but like now i like two guys.
the bad thing is.
i cant have either of them.
y is it that i always want what i cant have?
but anyways.
there is something about both of them that i dont know.
like every time i c one of them i fall in love all over again.
and yes i kno.
how sad is that.
i'm so pathetic.
o yeah.
n guess what else.
i have had a chance wif both of them.
like in this year or so i think.
and guess what.
molly screwed up once again.
i always mess up everything.
o yeah.
hear is something else that is SO bothering me.
you kno how people say "you'r too young to be in love."
how do they know if you'r in love or not?
it's not there place to tell you that.
ugh.
well i think i need to stop writing.
it's a REALLY bad thing for me to be bored.
i start to think too much.
well i guess thats all on todays episode of...
"my sopapra" or how ever it's spelled.
bye bye.
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[31 Aug 2003|01:13pm] |
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well i havent updated n forever!
um. camp winataska was fun.
my group was ok.
well friday i went to the game wif middy.
i lost her though. oops.
but i saw alota my friends there so it was all good.
i think we lost against fairfield.
i dont really kno b/c i wasnt watchin the game.
there half time was so much better than ours!
they played there instruments to ignition and stuff.
anyways.
middy spent he night n we watched the LiZziE mGuiRe mOviE.
it was so sweet how gordo loved lizzie.
but it was so sad when he didnt tell her and so she was going out wif that singer dude.
bad singer dude. bad bad bad.
n then we went to sleep at like 1.
yes i kno.
thats pretty sad.
but camp winataska RUINED me.
i'm like dead tired.
well.
i hate my teachers.
i have to write an EsSaY this weekend.
mrs. lampkin=BIG BITCH.
guess what.
i THINK am over that "mystery guy."
i THINK i have a NEW one now!
go me. go me.
but i'm not sure yet.
molly=confused.
well i think i'm done know.
bye bye.
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...dude.i'm n love.like it's weird.b/c it is somebody that i thought i wouldn't like again.maybe i'v jus been telling myself not to like him b/c it seems like i have loved him for a while by the way that i feel.but o well.i want to give up like i have before.but i don't know if i should give up.you never know what could happen.like maybe they jus act like they don't like you.but they might could.i dont know.the only thing i do know is that love is so freakin confusin.but anyways.dude.yew cant live wif love and yew cant live wif out it! o well i dont tink that i feel like writing anymore.bye.
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...sOrriE i HaVeNt uPdAtEd n a FeW dAyS... sO i'Ma GoNa WriTe BoUt YeStErDaY tEw... B/c i'M bOrEd... ReALLi BoReD! uM...sO yEsTeRdAy wAs OkAy... *wEnT tO sKoOL*cAmE hOmE*hOmEwOrK* tHe UsUaL~ n ThEn i WeNt To ThAt FoOtbaLL gAmE tHiNg. iT wAs FuN i GuEsS. i BrOuGhT KeLLy N miDdY. n Um ThE riDe ThErE waS fUnNy (KeLLy iF yEw KnOw WhAt i MeAn! hEhE) uM n Me N kELLy HaD a LiL fUn DuRiN tHe GaMe. wiF oUr iCe FiGhT. dUde tHaT waS sO cOLd b/C iT waS LiKe aLL dOwN mY sHiRt N eVeRyThiNg. wEll uM. sO yEaH i GuEsS tHaT waS mY dAy On ThuRsDaY... tOdAy. iT wAs DaMn BoRiN! aLL i DiD wAs gO tEw sKoOL. CaMe HoMe. (nO hOmEwOrK. yAy!) n NoW i TiNk i'M gOiN tO sPeNd ThE niGhT @ miDdYs. yAy-yAy-yAy. hAhA. CaNt yEw TeLL hOw BoReD i Am! aNyWayS. i'Ma GoNa Go NoW. ByEByE.
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heybaby_dude my head hurts so frikin BAD! i'ma goin crazi... hehe_well anyways_ today was okay_ schools gettin better_i CaNt wait till camp winataska... well i jus cant wait until we get to see who is in my group_dude_that would suck if i didnt kno any1. i kno its sum stupid "team_building" thing but like i dont want to know like anybody on my team_ o well... uMmM... tomorrow i tink i'ma goin to middys in we'r goin to that um football thing. or sumthing like that. well i cant type anymore. b/c my head is KILLING me. so i'ma gona go. aDiOS. ByE ByE.
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...DuDe... i'M sO mAd @ aBz N miDDy... LaSt NiGhT i WeNt DoWnStAiRs N wEn i CaMe BaK uP... tHiS sOuNdS sTuPiD... BuT tHeY tOlD mE tHeRe waS a BlaCk ThiNg ThAt FLoAtEd iNtO mY bRoThErS rOoM... bUt iT sCaReD mE sO bAd B/c We WeRe JuS bOuT tO wAtCh ThEsE sCaRy mOviEs! ... n ThEn ThiS mOrNiN tHeY jUs ToLd Me ThEy WeRe JuS kiDDiN... hEhE... aNyWaYs... LiKe EvEryTiMe ThEy CoMe OvEr We DrEsS uP aS sUmThiNg... LiKe 1 tiMe iT waS pOwErAnGeRs.... tHe NeXt WaS pRoM niGhT... n aNoThEr i WaS aLaDiN n AbBey N miDdy WeRe gOthS... n ThEn ThiS tiMe wE wErE sLuTtY hOeS! DuDe... wE gOt So MaNy LoOkS b/C aBbEy HaD a SeE tHrOuGh LiKe ShiRT oN tHaT sHe MaDe FrOm PaNty HoEs... n ThEn LiKe Me N miDDy DiD oUr EyEs LiKe ReaLLy DaRk LoOkiN... iT lOoKeD sO gOoD! aNyWayS... i'Ma GoNa Go....ByE ByE...
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aNd MiDdY's CoMiN... hEhE... she lives over here so i always 4get wen shes comin over... oOpS! ... wEll i'LL uPdAtE LaTeR... ByE ByE...
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i havent updated in a few days but o well... um... yesterday i went to middys n we went on a LoNg walk... lord i tink i almost died b/c i'm like a cow n need to exercise more! n then we saw brets mommy n she was like wavin @ us... but over all that day was boring... n then...ToDaY... DUDE! i am soOoOoOo happi b/c me n abbey have lockers REALLi close to each other! b/c like there is nobody on our team except like us... sOoOo i'm glad i will get to c her more! anyways.... fiNaLLy its friday! yay! tonight abbeys comin over to spend the night... thank god! it seems like we havent gotten together n a while! wEll i'm waitin 4 abbey to call n i tink i here the fone ringin so i'ma gona go now... ByE ByE...
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...DuDe... SkOoL sUcKeD sO bAd... LiKe 1sT i HaD tO gEt uP sOoO eArLi... LiKe @ 5...uGh... n ThEn i DrOvE tO aBbEyS hOuSe So i WoUlDnT hAvE tO gO n By MySeLf n StuFF... tHeN wE LeFt n TheRe WaS wAy ToO muCh TrAfiC... WeN wE gOt To SkOoL i WaS LiKe OuT oF eVeRyBoDyS cOnVo n StuFF... n ThEn aLL oF mY cLaSsEs SuCk B/c tHeRe iS LiKe NoBoDy N aNy oF my CLaSsEs CePt LiKe 1St N p.E.... i So DoNt WaNa Go BaK tOmOrRoW... tEaR tEaR... wE'll i'LL wRiTe LaTeR... ByE ByE...
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...4 nOw... i'M giViNg uP juS tAkiN a BrEaK fRoM lOvE... i dOnT kNoW hOw LoNg BuT i KnO iTs GoNa B a WhiLe... i WaNt ThiNgS tO b NoRmAL aGaiN... i'M buSy RiGhT nOw...sO i'LL uPdAtE LaTeR... ByE ByE...<3yEw.
aLySSa... tHaNk yEw SoOo MuCh! yEw HaVe hELpEd So MuCh N tHaNkS 4 giViN mE tHe iDeA oF tAkiN a BrEaK... i'LL fiNaLLy nOt b sOoO StReSsEd OuT...
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