Below are the 2 most recent journal entries recorded in shaylen's Blurty:

Monday, August 23rd, 2004
3:16 pm	first problem. I learned from Gor from a "Master/Sir" guy I wanted to be with. I liked Him alot but We just couldn't Be..I researched it and entered has a kajira..My first Master was someone named SirMadMaxVane....I started off with Him..He told Me to research I did He and I grew on eachother. I fell in love with Him immediatly...Well one day..I was in a chatroom and This guy sword..He wanted to dominate Me..now at this time I was stupid when it came to Gor I would still have trouble calling people Sir..and not submitting..stupid stuff like that. Well anywho..Sword and I were in a chat roo mand I was being My normal Switch self and dominating a girl named Sweetgirl_0034 of Yahoo. O man I hated her. I took her into a room with Me and My Master of the time. and I was dominating her when she told Me My Master was using her..omg I was so angry. I freaked out on Him..and He almost left Me..I cried soooo hard.well I talked to sword about it and found out He was using sweet and she thought He was My Master..so it was all His falt..He even told her He was My Master. He talked to Max for about an hour and Max forgave Me for freaking out on Him and all was better. Sword though He tried to ko'lar Me rape Me...anywho. My Master said to Me one day. girl I will be leaving for 2 weeks and then I will return I have a business trip..I told sword and He offered Me protection..mind You sword was not Gorean and Max was.I waited 2 weeks and did everything He told Me too and everything Max..wasn't about sex either We never had sex...He was focused on training Me and I wish He could see Me now..2 weeks passed By quickly and He never came back..I waited 4 months..nothing. I was sad and very scared..because here My protecter isn't protecting Me anymore He is trying to force ko'lar Me what was I going to do.. I changed My sn and just ugh I started over and didn't talk to My protector..or My x Master again.. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, August 22nd, 2004
9:18 pm	How I started growing up I kinda always knew I was kinky The internet came to be and I was stoaked I could go online and chat and read up the "turn ons" I had...I found certain names for things I could only describe...didn't even know their were names for them. Or for the matter why I enjoyed stuff like that...since I was 11 I was interested in BDSM I wasn't sure who really to talk to I mean..seroiusly who do You go up to and say Yah I like being slapped around and controled..can't really go to anyone..in Highschool I went threw the whole " first time seeing a "goth" " and I was like omggg wow..I started talking to a few of them and found out that I wasn't the only one Who enjoyed these things and had My first bondage encounter when I was 15..I thought it was amazing. Well that led to Me wanting other things. Now in BDSM certain "Masters/Mistresses" cap when adressing Themselves and You might see Me doing that ALOT ..I remember I was in a chatroom one time and I was talking to This guy..and He said You might want to try Gor out..and sent Me a 20 page thing I needed to print out ...at first I was reading it and I was just like BORRRINNNGGG this sucks..It took Me awhile to get threw the first page lol. Well I started reading about a week later and I got hooked I told My mom who I was able to be open with thank GOOOD it took awhile...she kept finding things like My bondage barbies and other things..at that Time I found out about Gor I was 16. but I am getting allittle ahead of My self. When I was about 14 I had been online and met this Mistress named Chained..she told Me to .."dominate" one of Her slaves..and..OMG. I found another turn on I liked to dominate women..I was told I was a switch..I still to this day being a Free Woman of gor..would NEVER domiante a Man..I own a Male slave but H/he is a switch too..so I don't really ever dominate Him. I own 2 girls by the name of girl_alerius and jale_sotg..(som stands for Shaylen this girl) I never realized how much being a switch would hurt Me in the long run... (Comment on this)