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Wednesday, April 16th, 2008
| Time |
Event |
| 7:06p |
If I Only Had The Heart- The Maine
I had a dream last night.
Where I woke up too late.
And everything I loved.
I began to hate.
I know I sound repetitive,
Cause I'm repeating myself,
And I'm competitive,
I want you all by yourself.
And that alone is just the problem,
I've got these woes,
And I just can't solve them.
If I could gather up the nerve,
I'd put my feelings into words,
And if I weren't so young, or stupid, or restless,
I might be able to just soon forget this.
Just forget this.
Please just forget me,
When I'm out all alone on the east coast.
And please don't forgive me,
When you're home all alone and you need me most.
Oh if I only had the heart,
To find out exactly who you are,
You know I'd try now.
But it's just fine,
No you can't save me,
It's no fault but mine,
Please just blame me.
If I could gather up the nerve,
I'd put my feelings into words,
And if I weren't so young, or stupid, or restless,
I might be able to just soon forget this.
Just forget this.
If I only had the heart, the nerve, the words, you'd think by now I would have learned | | 7:08p |
Inmates- Good Life
When you said you loved me, did you really love me? Or did the words just spill out like drool on my pillow? 'Cause I was naked when you said those words, but I felt covered in your whispered worship. And as you passed out fast on my shoulder, I imagined a child waiting so sad and still for his mom to arrive. Did she leave you an orphan, in that big, brown leather chair? Said, "Don't you move a muscle, kid. I'll be back in twenty years." You were scared, you were lonely, but you must've been aware. Life is a series of calluses; this is just another layer. So, build 'em up, tough it out. Yeah, that's your skin. Don't let anyone under there.
When you said you needed me, did you really need me? Or was it just someone? Oh, you'd take anything. Am I first on that list of yours, or am I second or third? So, who's that ahead of me? Some harlot from Pittsburgh? Or Detroit, Santa Fe, or San Diego? I know you're so alone, but how much affection does one guy really need?
Did you date a lot in high school? Were you always chasing girls? Couldn't you find some young valentine to steal your heart for good? Were you content or contemptible? Are your memories pleasant, or is it a string of endless flings of bitter resentment? Seems that what you want and what you need doesn't mean a thing. We're just here for the taking.
When you said you'd hurt me, did you think you'd hurt me? Are you really that cocky? Yeah, what a heartbreaker! Well, I've got my armor. Yeah, I've been through some battles before. And I met your old girlfriend. She said, "Baby, don't bother." She told me you told her you’d hurt her. Funny, how familiar. So, how much of this relationship was rehearsed?
Did you act out as a child? Were you always crying wolf? Attention-starved, you tried too hard just to get someone to look. Now you're the wolf in second-hand clothing; I'm the sheep in a pleated skirt. It's an awkward form of payback, but if it works for you, it works. It's that I recognize your off-white lies. Still, I lie beside you, and that's what really hurts.
When you said you'd leave me... Well, why haven’t you left me? What are we still doing here, so desperate for company? There's a greyhound on Jackson Street. There's an airport in Council Bluffs. Hell, there's a car in the driveway. Fifty ways to get lost.
But as I hold you and listen to you sleeping, I'm starting to wonder if I really believe that you'd ever really leave. Would you leave me an orphan, in that big, brown leather chair? The one you've lugged around from town to town for all these years. It's the trophy of your childhood, like a shark's tooth or gator skin boots. But this one holds you prisoner. It holds me prisoner, too. What we need to set us free is to let go of each other, let go of everything.
When I said I loved you, it was because I loved you. When I said I needed you, well, I really need you. Yeah, I guess you hurt me. For once, you're a man of your word. Well, guess what. I'm leaving. I can't be your prisoner. I won't. | | 7:44p |
Hate Me- Blue October
(If you're sleeping are you dreaming
If your dreaming are you dreaming of me?
I can't believe you actually picked me.)
(”Hi Justin, this is your mother, and it's 2:33 on Monday afternoon.
I was just calling to see how you ware doing.
You sounded really uptight last night.
It made me a little nervous, and a l... and... well... it made me nervous, it sounded like you were nervous, too.
I just wanted to make sure you were really OK,
And wanted to see if you were checking in on your medication.
You know I love you, and...
Take care honey
I know you're under a lot of pressure.
See ya. Bye bye”)
I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me?
It is I that wanted space
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling “Make it go away!”
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?”
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
For you
For you
For you
[Children voices:]
If you're sleeping, are you dreaming,
if you're dreaming are you dreaming of me.
I can't believe you actually picked me
[Girl:] Hey Justin! [x12] | | 7:54p |
Sparkle Baby Shine- Danger Radio
I'm feeling like it's personal,
So personal and I can barely breathe.
So, believe me when i say it's not so personal,
If you won’t sleep with me.
And, this flame that's burning deep inside our lives,
Is beginning to fade to a faint, distant light.
Now don't you be so scared, so uptight.
Cause when it comes down to it, you know it will be just right.
Now don't you say:
[Chorus]
Andy, please, let me inside your heart, I'm waiting here for you
To help guide me through all of the doubts that I have.
I can’t seem to break through ... I wont hurt you.
You, give me time, but never listen.
Said I was too young for this ish.
Now you're telling me you miss it.
And I, gave you all my time and effort.
Fighting just to make it better.
Fighting cause I think you're worth the time
You brought me to your house and made believe that it would all work out.
And you, leave me for someone you know will never treat you like I can.
Please never say:
[Chorus]
I wont, I wont, I won’t ever hurt you again.
Even when I gave you all of my love, you pushed it all away.
(So sorry, dear, no time for you here, I'm afraid that I can’t stay.)
Deep inside all I wanted was someone willing to tell me how they feel inside.
(The truth be told, I think someone back home's been keeping you in mind)
[Chorus] [x2] |
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