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Wednesday, November 21st, 2007
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Event |
| 3:32p |
i never told you to
i never think about you
i never held you
i forget how to
i never cared about you
i never saw that in you
i never loved you | | 3:45p |
brace yourself. i am bent with bitterness. when your apologies fail to ring true, you are so slick with that sarcastic slew or phrases like, "i thought you knew," while keeping me in hot pursuit. | | 3:47p |
Untouchable Face- Ani DiFranco
think i'm going for a walk now
i feel a little unsteady
i don't want nobody to follow me
'cept maybe you
i could make you happy you know
if you weren't already
i could do a lot of things
and i do
tell you the truth i prefer
the worst of you
too bad you had to have a better half
she's not really my type
but i think you two are forever
and i hate to say it but
you're perfect together
so fuck you
and your untouchable face
and fuck you
for existing in the first place
and who am i
that i should be vying for your touch
and who am i
i bet you can't even tell me that much
two-thirty in the morning
and my gas tank will be empty soon
neon sign on the horizon
rubbing elbows with the moon
a safe haven of sleepless
where the deep fryer's always on
radio is counting down
the top 20 country songs
and out on the porch the fly strip is
waving like a flag in the wind
y'know, i don't look forward
to seeing you again soon
you'll look like a photograph of yourself
taken from far far away
and i won't know what to do
and i won't know what to say
except fuck you...
i see you and i'm so perplexed
what was i thinking
what will i think of next
where can i hide
in the back room there's a lamp
that hangs over the pool table
and when the fan is on it swings
gently side to side
there's a changing constellation
of balls as we are playing
i see orion and say nothing
the only thing i can think of saying
is fuck you... | | 3:54p |
i've got a big fat fucking bone to pick with you my darling. in case you haven't heard, i'm sick and tired of trying. i wish you would take my radio to bathe with you, plugged in and ready to fall. | | 3:56p |
My Everything- Cauterize
I still miss you, I still care, sometimes I swear you're still here.
Do you miss me?
Do you care?
Does it hurt that I'm not there?
Told me you need something better.
What is better than love?
Told me you need something new.
But all I need is you to feel the way you make me feel.
I never meant to hurt you, never meant to say those things,
never meant to write them down in a song about the way it used to be.
It used to be so good.
You used to be my everything.
I just want you to know that I'm just fine on my own.
Do you want me to know that you hate being alone?
Did you think I would fall for this over again we're repeating.
Did you think I would crawl back,
crawl back one more time to feel the way I feel.
How's your hand?
My eyes healed nicely.
How's the time pass by without me?
I hope this hurts like hell cause why should you be fine? | | 3:58p |
goodbye to you, goodbye to you - you are taking up my time. i am about to see a million things i thought i'd never see before and i, i am about to do all of the things i've dreamed of and i don't even miss you at all. | | 3:59p |
Surprise, Surprise- The Starting Line
"Hey there love, let's get to catching up.
'Cause I been thinking those thoughts
that must have slipped my mind
that time that I left you there that night."
I replied, "Let me remind you of the guy
you failed to mention all along.
'Cause your actions have consequences and these are them."
I'll be your friend in hell, until then I despise you.
And I probably always will.
I can't afford to make another mistake like this,
'Cause this is more than I can take.
I don't mean to leave angry, this is by your own devise.
I'm sure this comes as no surprise.
Hey there babe, don't mean to cut you off,
but I've heard enough lies and you're dying to get caught.
I'll let you go call all your friends.
"Oh my god! Let me describe to you this guy,
his name is Ken, he's in this band that writes such,
awful songs about me all the time."
You're goddamn right!
I'll be your friend in hell, until then I despise you.
And I probably always will.
I can't afford to make another mistake like this,
'Cause this is more than I can take.
I don't mean to leave angry, this is by your own devise.
I'm sure this comes as...
Oh, I'm fine, just let me lie here for a while,
'Cause I'll be staying up, yeah hanging up all night.
Oh, I'm spent of all attention that I've given.
To a hopeless case, to a sharp headache, to a choice you make
To the reason why I, to the reason why I say.
I'll be your friend in hell, until then I despise you.
And I probably always will.
I can't afford to make another mistake like you.
I'm sure this comes as no surprise.
I'm sure this comes as no surprise.
Surprise, surprise. | | 4:06p |
Is This Thing Loaded?- Northstar
There's something about a morning without the picture perfect ribbons in her hair
It's raining, she knows that she wants to let me in
Cause my dear I can't breathe out here
It's cold so tell me why
I break to pieces for hopeless reasons
Stereo therapy heals my lesions
Do you know what it's like to hurt at night for oh no reason?
Do you know what it's like?
So forget the feelings so few have
She says I love you to death
And forget the feelings so few have
Forget our future we don't have
Four-flush and forget I make you feel like a harlot, does he know I'm here?
So please dear untie me before we drive that awful extra mile
And at night I dream about that smile
And the jealousy that's gleaming on our teeth
There's something about a morning without that perfect picture...
Do you know what it's like to hurt at night for oh no reason?
Do you know what it's like?
So forget the feelings so few have
She says I love you to death
And forget the feelings so few have
Fuck you and the future we don't have
So forget the feelings so few have
She says I love you to death
And forget the feelings so few have
Fuck you and the future we don't have | | 4:42p |
Dying Slowly- Northstar
I feel like I'm drowning myself in you
and I want to breathe until my lungs fail
so I sit underneath the heavens
staring at the scar on my face
it hurts
when you're not around
I think its sad to say that I miss you
and that I miss you
and I've traded myself in for you (in for dying slowly)
and I've traded myself in for you (one more, watch it be okay)
the fall will tell
of another year that I failed myself again
to a queen of hearts
lets take a ride, tear in through the dark
next to fireflies and over sleepin eyes
to a place that doesnt want a part me, part of you.
part of you.
I think its sad to say
That I miss you
and that I miss you
and ive traded myself in for you (in for dying slowly)
and ive traded myself in for you (one more, watch it be okay) | | 11:29p |
well, i thought you'd come and go,
i never thought you would stay.
and i'm sorry if i tried to push you away. | | 11:32p |
i miss you all the time, but i'm blocking it out. | | 11:33p |
without me by your side,
you said you were all alone | | 11:55p |
Inmates- Good Life
When you said you loved me, did you really love me or did the words just spill out like drool on my pillow. 'Cause I was naked when you said those words, but I felt covered in your whispered worship. And as you passed out fast on my shoulder, I imagined a child waiting so sad and still for his mom to arrive. Did she leave you an orphan, in that big, brown leather chair? Said, "Don't you move a muscle, kid, I'll be back in twenty years." You were scared, you were lonely, but you must've been aware. Life is a series of calluses. This is just another layer. So, build'em up, tough it out, yeah, that's your skin. Don't let anyone under there.
When you said you needed me, did you really need me or was it just someone. Oh, you'd take anything. Am I first on that list of yours, or am I second, or third? So, who's that ahead of me, some harlot from Pittsburgh? Or Detroit, Santa Fe, or San Diego? I know you're so alone, but how much affection does one guy really need?
Did you date a lot in high school? Were you always chasing girls? Couldn't you find some young valentine to steal your heart for good? Were you content, or contemptible? Are your memories pleasant, or is it a string of endless flings of bitter resentment? Seems that what you want and what you need doesn't mean a thing. We're just here for the taking.
When you said you'd hurt me, did you think you hurt me? Are you really that cocky? Oh, what a heartbreaker! Well, I've got my armor. Yeah, I've been through some battles before. And I met your old girlfriend. She said, "Baby, don't bother." She told me you told her you'd hurt her. Funny, how familiar. So, how much of this relationship was rehearsed?
Did you act out as a child? Were you always crying wolf? Attention-starved, you tried too hard to get someone to look. Now you're the wolf in second-hand clothing; I'm the sheep in a pleated skirt. It's an awkward form of payback, but if it works for you, it works. It's that I recognize your off-white lies, still, I lie beside you. And that's what really hurts.
When you said you'd leave me...well, why haven't you left me? What are we still doing here, so desperate for company? There's a greyhound on Jackson Street. There's an airport in Council Bluffs. Hell, there's a car in the driveway, fifty ways to get lost.
But as I hold you and listen to you sleeping, I'm starting to wonder if I really believe that you'd ever really leave. Would you leave me an orphan, in that big, brown leather chair? The one you've lugged around from town to town for all these years. It's the trophy of your childhood, like a shark's tooth or gator skin boots. But this one holds you prisoner. It holds me prisoner, too. What we need to set us free is to let go of each other, let go of everything.
When I said I loved you, it was because I loved you. When I said I needed you, well, I really need you. Yeah, I guess you hurt me, for once you're a man of your words. Well, guess what. I'm leaving. I can't be your prisoner.
I won't. |
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