| Time |
Event |
| 11:08p |
after awhile you get sick of caring
and you're too hurt to fight.
sometimes, no matter what you do,
things won't be alright. |
| 11:09p |
it's been so long since we've spoken..
so long since i've seen you.
so why do i miss you so?
you found someone who loves you
and i'm jealous as hell.
oh, don't get me wrong, i'm happy for you
as much as it makes me cringe.
it makes me happy to see you happy,
even if there are tears coming down my face.
god, i miss you though. |
| 11:10p |
and i don't understand why i sleep all day
and i start to complain when there is no rain.
i don't believe in miracles
but i believe in you. |
| 11:16p |
you can't love anyone that way more than once in your life time.
it's too hard and it hurts too much when it ends.
the first boy is always the hardest to get over.
no i don't believe you.
you don't care a bit. |
| 11:17p |
if you and i aren't meant to be, then i don't know anything
and then there was that time we were
standing outside the ice cream parlor and you said,
"you know when you start crying and
you breathe in really heavily and get panicky?
i don't know why, but that terrifies me."
after that, i had to bite my lip so hard so i wouldn't cry.
i hate when you cry. i hate when you're sad. |
| 11:19p |
you say you're looking for happiness
but when it comes, you run away from it
you tell yourself you don't deserve it
there's not much more that i can do now
the rest is up to you
until you love yourself, you'll never change
you'll keep on running, until you deal with today |
| 11:19p |
everyone disappoints everyone eventually.
it is so rare in this world
to meet a trustworthy person
who truly wants to help you |
| 11:20p |
and if at first you don't succeed,
ignore all evidence you tried
because that which doesn't kill you,
only makes you wanna die. |
| 11:20p |
should i decide it’s true?
that you might leave if given half the chance to go
and i be left here on my own, to find myself in bed,
wishing everything that changed would be the same.
everyday is another chance to bury my regret.
everyday is another chance to make it,
but i can’t, but i can’t, but i can’t. |
| 11:22p |
so you can keep your belief in whatever
i'll wear my cynicism like a tattoo
while poets try to engineer definitions of love
you know all i can think of is you. |