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Saturday, October 13th, 2007
| Time |
Event |
| 12:06a |
this is when i forget to breathe.
and all the things i scripted,
they sound unfounded.
and it's the look that you're giving me,
that tells me exactly what you are thinking:
"this ain't working anymore." | | 1:59p |
Fuck Was I- Jenny Owen Youngs
love grows in me like a tumor,
parasite bent on devouring its host
i'm developing my sense of humor
till i can laugh at my heart between your teeth
till i can laugh at my face beneath your feet
skillet on the stove,
it's such a temptation
maybe i'll be the lucky one
that doesn't get burnt
what the fuck was i thinking
love plows through me like a dozer
i've got more give than a bale of hay
& there's always a big mess left over
with the "what did you do?" and the "what did you do?"
"what did you do?" and the "what did you do?"
skillet on the stove,
it's such a temptation
maybe i'll be the special one
that doesn't get burnt
what the fuck was i thinking
what the fuck was i thinking
what the fuck was i thinking
what the fuck was i thinking
love tears me up like a demon
opens the wounds then fills them with lead
& i'm having some trouble just breathing
if we weren't such good friends, i think that i'd hate you
if we weren't such good friends, i'd wish you were dead
skillet on the stove,
it's such a temptation
maybe i'll be the lucky one
that doesn't get burnt
what the fuck was i thinking
what the fuck was i thinking
what the fuck was i thinking
love is so embarrassing
i'm this awkward & uncomfortable thing
i'm running out of places to hide
what the fuck was i thinking?
(you know that i've got what you want)
what the fuck was i thinking?
(you know that i've got what you want)
what the fuck was i thinking?
(you know that i've got what you want)
what the fuck was i thinking?
(you know that i've got what you want) | | 5:17p |
I believe in your strength, though I understand you've felt alone. Because when you need a friend there's no one strong to fall back on. And your past will still burden you, but I'll hold you through the pain. So in the end it's not just you with your memories and your scars. Fall on me if you ever forget how beautiful you are. I believe in your words and your eyes, and when you speak of your dreams, I realize that I will envy whoever you give your heart to. | | 5:18p |
How ironic it all seems, because I remember you telling me about other lovers running out of words to say to each other, and how beautiful you thought it was, and I agreed that would never happen to you and me. | | 5:19p |
You called us perfect because we slipped into awkward easily. So maybe you could come comfort me. And I've been better than this before, I know you've seen me be. So maybe you could come and comfort me. | | 5:36p |
Here I Stand- Madina Lake
My hands shake 'cause today,
I know you're gonna break my heart.
And my life without you in it
is a life not worth living.
I'll be strong but I wish I was someone else,
anyone but me tonight
Here I stand (Here I stand)
all alone, (Here I stand)
tonight (Here I stand).
And I wish I was strong enough to breathe (Here I stand)
without you (Here I stand)
in my life (Here I stand).
I wish I was anyone but me.
So I'll start to pretend I'm okay.
But you should know by now that
my life is smoke and mirrors.
The one thing is crystal clear
that I'm the one wishing I was someone else,
anyone but me tonight.
Here I stand (Here I stand)
all alone, (Here I stand)
tonight (Here I stand).
And I wish I was strong enough to breathe (Here I stand)
without you (Here I stand)
in my life (Here I stand).
I wish I was anyone but me.
(Where do we go?) (Where do we go?)
Inside I start to fall apart. (Where do we go?)
And I'll pretend I'm holding on (Where do we go?)
So I guess I'll bleed in silence. (In silence)
I guess I'll bleed in silence.
Here I stand (Here I stand)
all alone, (Here I stand)
tonight (Here I stand).
And I wish I was strong enough to breathe (Here I stand)
without you (Here I stand)
in my life (Here I stand).
I wish I was anyone but me.
Here I stand (Here I stand)
all alone, (Here I stand)
tonight (Here I stand).
And I wish I was strong enough to breathe (Here I stand)
without you (Here I stand)
in my life (Here I stand).
I wish I was anyone but me. | | 9:44p |
i've got this funny feeling
that you don't feel like i do.
this conversation's just passing you by.
i know it. i can see it in your eyes. | | 9:49p |
Unintended- Muse
You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one I'll always love
You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one I'll always love
I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before
First there was the one who challenged
All my dreams and all my balance
She could never be as good as you
You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You should be the one I'll always love
I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before
I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before
Before you | | 9:50p |
Pretty, Pretty- Early November
Early in the morning, wake up to a bright blue sky
lightning comes at any time to break it down and make it ugly
i know that it's just for me
'cause no one else can feel or understand
that's alright because i can handle all that you throw down
and i hope you find a perfect place
where sky's are beautiful all of the time
it's all that matters, pretty, pretty
and i know that's all you could care about
there's no reason why you can't
it's all about the icing, and nobody cares about what's inside
you could see the outside face, it looks good, it must be great
and i know that's all you see
what would it matter anyway
'cause i can see right through your pretty, pretty skin today
and i hope you find a perfect place
where sky's are beautiful all of the time
it's all that matters, pretty, pretty
and i know that's all you could care about
there's no reason why you can't
and no reason why i should try to go on anymore
my reason's all gone, no reason why you should
try to make excuses to make me feel alright
excuses call for stupid reasons
and i know that it's not much that i can offer right now
just give me one little second and i will try my hardest
to make you feel like i'm someone else. | | 9:50p |
she's got a rich sense of style, a believable smile.
i don't.
she paints colors on her eyes,
to cast a shadow of surprise.
i don't.
she doesn't know i know about her.
i just smile back when she waves. | | 9:53p |
Walking By- Something Corporate
Your granddad left home for the circus. He was young just like me,
with hope to explore. He married a girl in Virginia.
She could swing the trapeze; they could sleep on the floor.
Your mother was born in December, on the one sunny day that winter gave up.
She had warm summer eyes that flickered like fireflies,
when she stared at the world.
So why do you leave these stories unfinished,
my Cheshire cat doorstop with tears in her eyes?
Why do you look when you've already found it?
What did you find that could leave you walking by?
She was raised in a New England village.
Then she moved to LA with her firefly stare,
and you loved sunset strip when it sparkled,
you grew up and you sparkled but why don't you care?
So why do you leave these stories unfinished,
my Cheshire cat doorstop with tears in her eyes?
Why do you look when you've already found me?
What did you find that could leave you walking by?
These nights I get high just from breathing.
When I lie here with you I'm sure that I'm real,
like that firework over the freeway.
I could stay here all day but that's not how you feel.
So why do you leave these questions unanswered?
The circus awaits and you're already gone.
My Cheshire cat doorstop with fear in your smile,
what makes it so easy for you to be walking by?
And what did I do that you can't seem to want me?
Why do we lie here and whisper goodbyes?
Where can I go that your pictures won't haunt me?
What makes it so easy for you to be walking by? | | 9:56p |
Autumn's Monologue- From Autumn to Ashes
Oh why can’t I be what you need?
a new improved version of me
But I’m nothing so good, no I’m nothing
Just bones, a lonely ghost burning down songs
Of violence of love and of sorrow
I beg for just one more tomorrow
Where you hold me down, fold me in
Deep, deep, deep in the heart of your sins
I break in two over you, oh,
I break in two, and each piece of me dies
And only you can give the breath of life
But you don’t see me, you don’t
Here I’m pinned between darkness and light
Bleached and blinded by these nights
Where I’m tossing and tortured till dawn
I view visions of you, then you're gone
The shock bleeds the red from my face
When I hear someone has taken my place
How could love be so thoughtless, so cruel?
When all, all that I did was for you
I break in two over you, oh,
I break in two, and each piece of me dies
And only you can give the breath of life
But you don’t see me, you don’t (x2)
I break in two over you, oh,
I break in two
Over you, I break in two
I will break in two, for you
Now you see me, now you don’t
Now you need me, now you don’t… | | 9:57p |
i'll just write this down
with hopes that you'll understand
i can no longer be disciplined by
the frustration of an insecure man
and as i kiss your face, you'll know that
i can no longer apologize for
your former lover's mistakes | | 9:58p |
Insecurities- Suicide Machines
Held back by walls of security, that
I just could never see, held people at arms length
devoid of human contact
Cannot express emotion
I try with all my strength
What is the matter with me?
It seems that no one even cares
I'm blinded by my innocence
will no one be there for me?
When I dont understand.
Covered in blankets of Imagination
Where I can talk to people without a
second thought
What if they're laughing at me
I know I'm not good enough
so I won't even try.....
God only knows what'll keep us from dying
because eveytime I look around I see Life as a big lie
Yeah everybody's saying "yeah I'm the one" yeah
"everybody came running to me"
But thats not how it works and it never did
you know I'm sorry it had to be this way
things got fucked up but thats okay....
...I'm sorry....
...I'm sorry.... | | 10:00p |
it seems i've held my arms like this for ages,
but i am done waiting,
i am lowering them down
like a white flag, like a sail | | 11:48p |
i swear if i lose a second chance with you,
i wouldn't know what to do.
i'd probably check myself into some kind of clinic.
i couldn't be alone, because, without you, i'm sick. |
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