Ahaha. la la la la this thing sucks   
01:12pm 22/08/2004
 
mood: bored
music: wouldn'tyouliketoknow okay Avenged Sevenfold
Blurty should've went fast before everyone moved to GJ or LJ. Personally, I don't really like LJ too much, on GJ you can have many icons. Wee.

YEAH THIS SUCKS. I'M UPDATING IT AND THIS MAKES IT FUNNY. MY BACKGROUND STOPPED WORKING CAUSE...Cause Angelfire is a fuckface and frankly I don't know why I even use it anymore. There's many more sites. Fuck you angelfire, you know that you're going to lose your customers just like blurty. Ha ha ha ha. I can't wait until that happens.		  
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11:50am 16/02/2004
 
mood: sore
music: "Lose You Tonight"-HIM
Yeah, it's been a while. So, blurty is going a little faster now? Oh. Cool. Well, um. I hope everyone's doing well. I didn't get to go to my boyfriend's house yesterday, well...cause...(why?) oh cause I was sick. And I still am. I'm sorry that I don't update much here, but if you have a greatestjournal, just hop over there and add me, cause my username is despair_factor (or just click on the link I just provided. Blurty isn't that bad anymore, but still. Bye people!		  
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We Were Meant To Live For So Much More, We Lost Ourselves...   
11:07pm 17/11/2003
 
mood: tired
music: "Meant To Live"-Switchfoot stuck in my head
I don't know, but this is going to be a short update. I'm not dead. Just to tell you. If anyone hasn't noticed, I've been using another journal. I think you all can figure it out. My name is despair_factor on gj. So the past few weeks. My birthday has just passed a few days ago. I got Squee! and some CDs. Thursday's inside cover is the same as AFI. Who knew? Ahah, that's an AFI song too. That scares me that I can find AFI songs out of the blue. But you can't blame an obsessive fan. Yehhh. I'm tired as hell and I feel like I'm going to collapse. I had a soccer game. We lost the last game, but the one before it, I was happy that we won. Yes, blurty is slow that is why I'm semi-abandoning it. Don't worry, I'll be talking, probably more when I'm able to go on more. I think I want to make an icon but I've made more on gj cause you can have so many. That's a beautiful thing. Well, I'm going to go, even though this update didn't really say ANYTHING about my life. Psh. Well I'll do a deeper one next time, if I have the time.		  
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We've Been Slaves To This LoveFrom The Moment We TouchedWe Keep Begging For MoreOf This Resurrection   
09:47am 11/11/2003
 
mood: tired
music: "Resurrection"-"Death Is In Love With Us"-HIM
Um, yes, a matter of fact, I think I should be updating. But it is a rarity if I use blurty much because, well, it's so damn boring. So how's my day today? I don't know! I didn't go through it yet! But I was reading fanfictions until 4 AM last night. Now that's sad. But it's so interesting, where this girl takes Jade and holds him hostage and Davey doesn't know until he's captured himself...come on this shit is so enjoyable! Yes as many would think that these people have no life, but the people saying that should get a life and stop harassing others. So. There's really nothing interesting today, I probably will find something to say after I update my blurty. I have guitar lessons on my birthday, which is tomorrow, yes. I don't know how many of you knew it, but yes. But then again it's not your duty to remember, eh? So many talented bands in the UK...eh. oh and if you're getting bored of me talking about music, get out because you know what that's all I talk about. My friends got over it, and if you're irritated, get over it. Music is my life. I don't know what the hell I'd do without music at this moment. I'd probably be dead had it not been help from some very helpful people or the music I listen to. AFI in particular. Nine Inch Nails. Taking Back Sunday as well, too for some reason. Um, I think I need a pedal for my guitar for special effects. Paul has one, maybe I should steel it from him. Also that I don't like about Blurty is that it's making us do small subjects. I like making long subjects, as you can see. Oh. I went to Rachael's party on Sunday. It was cool. Jess, Alison, Rachael, Jimmy, and Nicole were there. We ate a lot and played with her dogs and shit. Not very descriptive, eh? Well I'm not good at that shit. I don't know whether or not to make my blurty friends only and that shit, not that it would matter cause I don't update here a lot. Well anyway, I'm gonna go. I might be back in a month..or earlier.		  
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DAMMIT.   
12:46am 26/10/2003
 
mood: pissed off
OH MY GOD. I HAVE TO FUCKING HUG JADE. 		 
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In Your World, We May Be No One, But What Makes You Think You're Someone?   
11:04pm 24/10/2003
 
mood: tired
music: "Don't Make Me Ill"-AFI + "Razorblade Kiss"-HIM
So associated with AFI today. (As opposed to any other day...?) I read my fanfiction for about the 20th time, and cried over the fanfiction for about the 25th time. I don't know why that happens! I got it back, the fanfiction, and I went to gym today. And my throat hurts like hell. I got to play Vice City. COCONUTS CAN HAVE MARSHMALLOWS IF THEY WANT! I got to run down people and kill people. Yay. I love Jade and Davey and Adam and Hunter, they're all really funny...and really cool. Davey hates it when AFI is called "goth". I knew this before, but I just wanted to tell all you shoe-stealing posers that AFI IS NOT GOTH! I didn't know Davey liked Covenant, that bitch! Well really he's not but I liked Covenant before him! >:o Well probably he heard of them before me but I knew who they were after I found out Davey liked them. Yeah I know it doesn't make sense, so go eat a caterpillar. Crunchy, huh!!?!?!??! So my throat hurts like hell and I am talking to Rob and I have to go so uh bye and yeah ok bye I'll talk later.

"The best thing about Vegas is going out in the desert to try and dig up dead bodies. And blackjack. And playing shows. And the Pink Taco."-Jade Puget

Hahahahhahahahahaha I like that quote.

"You could be a hitman for the Scorpions, your job is to kill people and make me macaroni and cheese."-Jade Puget

That one too. There's a lot of quotes from Jade that are funny! Davey too and Adam and Hunter! Oh yeah that PajamaJam thing was today HAHAH thats such a stupid name and that's why I didn't go. Not really I just couldn't cause I wasn't allowed to cause of my age...and for the first time it's because I was older than the limit! HAHAHSDHHAAHAHAHAH! Old people are child molesters!!		  
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We Can Go And Get 40's, Fuck Goin To That Party, Oh really, Your Folks Are Away Now? Alright Lets Go   
09:37pm 23/10/2003
 
mood: tired
music: "12:51"-The Strokes + "No Poetic Device + The Last Kiss"-AFI
Well I forgot to say the best thing my best friend had written me yesterday. This is what she wrote.

Rita
-I'm bored.

Your DESTINY:

find jade puget, marry him. Have Rita and Jade Puget children (fun in the making! Ha!)

Later r-dawg
-Jess

Heh thanks Jess. You know me well...Luke, I am your father! Well. Today, I went with Jess and Priya to Nino's and waited for Jimmy. He didn't come, that piece of shit. But you can't blame him, he's a real forgetful guy. Wait, I CAN blame him. I BLAME YOU ENOUGH FOR ALL OF US! So then we went to the mall, and fuck you, YOU AREN'T GETTING THAT AFI HOODIE I WANTED FOR THE WHOLE YEAR! And I'm getting that East Bay Hardcore shirt...no matter what you say. GIR'S BACK! So I'm gonna get something of him, I have to. And I hope I get Art, that AFI doll. I want to be a ninja but I don't know if it's possible. We talked. I got a Misfits pin. Hell fucking yeah. Oh, and about that note, my mom found it...ehe oh my god it was funny. She was telling my dad, "Hey guess what Jess wrote" and I said, "HEY WELL AT LEAST SHE KNOWS HOW MUCH I LOVE JADE! YOU DON'T EVEN REMEMBER WHO HE IS!" It's fun to go to the mall. I have to go this weekend. I need that stuff, it's one of my priorities...other than getting good grades and rocking the fuck out of my guitar. I, die, die in my daydreams. I've been dreaming, I've been dreaming, I was lucid, blood was seeping from my pours, who'd believe it was all my own decision? I have to get that stuff, soon. Soon. SOON. NOW. I wish I could get it right now, but I guess not, because the mall is CLOSED. So I have to wait. I need a floppy disk, I have to work on my presentation for Spanish, and an article for gym. I'm getting to work on it. I'll see you all in hell! Bye.		  
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So Here Goes Another Damn Day...   
11:41pm 21/10/2003
 
mood: tired
music: An Orchestra Song In My Head
Very cool. This is going fast right now, so I'm taking advantage of it. Well. Today I e-mailed my cousin back, I worked real hard on my Spanish and my Social Studies, but I still have some more Spanish to do, and I went to chamber orchestra. I went to chamber, yes, and it was fun, I got to play I Heard It Through The Grapevine again! I love that song. I have so much to do and I have so little time, and this is a bad thing, not good. I know I shouldn't even be talking right now, but see I don't even have any music to listen to so I just am sitting here listening to my sister talk with Rob about Green Day and The Offspring. I'm going to go soon but see, yes, this is a short entry, one of the short ones, and I like writing long entries, but eh, I can't talk about much. I'm talking to GG and I'm going to go to work, even though its almost 12 AM. I have to go to extra help, but there is none tomorrow. I have to go in early tomorrow morning, which may be for...AM basketball, but I heard that starts at 6:30, thats too early for me. Maybe I'll just write a short paragraph. I have so much fucking homework its overwhelming. Even my dad watched me for four straight hours and how I took so long to do my homework. I may need a tutor, which is sad. I think I have to get smart. Rob has to do homework too...ha, ha, ha! Once I cried because all the crap I had to do was so overwhelming, but I just took a nap and stuff. I want my dad to wake me up tomorrow morning so I can go to school early. I don't even know if I will do that. I'll do my paragraphs on Thursday. I have to stay after school tomorrow, fuck. I have guitar lessons. That's not bad. But what I have to do after school is Spanish and its a presentation I had no time to do whatsoever. It was perfect fucking timing, I guess, DURING A FUCKING SPANISH PROJECT. I bet I could have finished it! And then I have to finish my mask, and dammit this is too much work. I have to go...NOW. Bye everyone I hope your life isn't has hectic or bad as mine!		  
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I Guess I Gotta Make This Short...   
10:05pm 20/10/2003
 
mood: busy
music: Sounds of the TV-Wrestling
Well, I have to make this very short, because I have to get off in a few seconds. I really have to talk about Cali, though. It was great. I got to see all my cousins and I saw my cousin I hadn't seen for eleven years. I got his e-mail and I e-mailed him yesterday. I told him I would, and I did. So I went to San Fran, which was a GREAT place, with really nice people. We went to the Fisherman's Wharf, to a museum, and I got mad at my mom because I wanted to go to McDonald's so we went to a seafood restaurant where I didn't even get the french fries that I wanted, and in the end, my cousin said we should've went to McDonald's, we could have gone to the wax museum, but no, we had to leave in about two minutes to go to the american wedding. There was an Indian wedding and an american one. I can't pick which one I liked more. I'm rushing right now so if I mispell or don't capitalize, don't criticize. Yeah I know, it rhymed. So I missed a week of schoolwork, which is going to take a toll on my Spanish project which I am doing right now.

The First day: Got to Cali, met my a cousin, Amit, and he took us to his condo to stay for a day, and we ate pizza and saw Bend It Like Beckham which was okay but I don't really like nice movies, I like horror. I met his wife...well she is now, Michelle, and she was really nice. She was hella nice. So we fell asleep and I woke up 6 AM Pacific time, but it really was 9 AM EST. That's what jet lag does to ya. So then, we saw Children Of The Corn, and that was a good movie, a lot of killing, and a good ending. We also met some cool people with cool accents from New Zealand.

Second day: Well I just told you much about it but anyway, I went to Holiday Inn and settled in. My two cousins Kolol and Sanjit came, and we said hi to them.

Third day: Got out of the place, went to a rehearsal, met my cousin I hadn't seen for eleven years, and had food, and went to a cocktail party at Amit's house condo and I wore a white Indian dress that many seemed to like. They said I looked better than the bride, and that made me feel...happy? Oh well, I got mad at Sanjit for being too sarcastic and Samit (the one I hadn't seen for eleven years) and Kolol and Samit's girlfriend, Theresa came out, and then they discovered me sitting alone. When Sanjit came, I walked away, and he said, "Hey, where are you going?" and I pushed him out of the way, saying, "Away." and I sat in the condo on the couch and stayed alone. But then we had to take pictures and Priya found out why I was mad and Sanjit wanted to know, and I said, "It was you." and I explained it to him. Then we stayed longer and Kolol took us home, but we left the CD case in Sanjit's car.

Fourth day: I got my hair cut and straightened at Monterey School of Hairdressing or something like that. I didn't wanna show anyone, but no one did except for the older people. I went to the Indian wedding, and again, everyone said I looked pretty. Some probably noticed my hair, but it seemed like everyone ignored it. The Indian wedding was very different. Michelle had to come in with a leaf covering her face and she couldn't smile, which is hella hard. The parent's part took the longest, because I guess they were giving away a precious person in their life to another. Amit's father talked about how he used to like a girl and he cried when she had gone and stuff. It was funny, though. Everyone was talking about Michelle and Amit, well hey, its their wedding, duh! Then I went home.

Fifth day: I went to San Fran and it was hella cool, totally fucking rad. I loved it. Fisherman's Wharf obviously smelled like fish which didn't exactly please me, but I went on an hour tour around San Fran. I saw the Coit Tower and a little of the Golden Gate Bridge. I liked it, but I didn't have my glasses on to see it. We coulda went to the wax museum, but you know. I wanted to go on the helicopter tour to see the GGB better, but hey, life isn't always fair. We then went home, and got ready for the american wedding. That was fun as well, it was very interesting, and I started to think, "this may be the point in life, to live a life with someone else and live in happiness"...but I don't know. It could be, but I'm still too young to know. When I was leaving the wedding, Samit asked me, "Why are you so depressed? Did a famous lead singer die?" and I said, "No I'm just like this." (oh yeah I gave him a black sex bracelet before, but it wasn't in any sexual meaning he just wanted one). Samit said Kurt was an ass clown and my jaw dropped. He said he was kidding, though. I went to the wedding reception with them, and when we got there, Samit took the elevator, for me, because my heels were hurting like hell. That made me feel so happy, that he cared about me enough to go on elevators, on a count of that he doesn't like elevators. He had to make a speech about Amit that day, so I was tempted to hug him, and then Priya finally told me, "Go hug him!" and I went over and gave him a big hug. It was funny, he said, "See, they aren't bad kids!" and I started to smile. All my cousins make me smile, they are so nice. I really do love them, and I am going to see three of them in Thanksgiving, and I can't wait.
When we got at the airport...JFK, it took longer than normal, and my dad had left and went to terminal 3 so we had to wait forever. I had to go on a crowded bus to bring the car back around with my dad and pick up my mom and dad. We were rushing, because we weren't supposed to be in the spot we were, the bus stops, and there was a suitcase in the way, and my dad fell. He hurt his hand really bad, I really hope he isn't hurt, because I don't like it that he's hurt. My mom made me cry three times before I got to get home. I finished my homework and I went to get some Chinese (bleh) and go to sleep. I went to sleep and when I went to school today, I learned that Eric beat up Fernando (GO ERIC HELL YEAH) and got ISS for it. But you know what? I'd do the same thing, and not care about the fucking consequences. At least Fernando cried. I would pay to see that. Oh wait, I don't have to. Just punch him in the face and he'll cry like a fucking baby. That dumbass. Jimmy is perverted, but I think I might just be as perverted as he is, just not in the physical way. I don't masturbate, like he does, but I won't go on anymore. Yeah, and Jimmy masturbates to Richard Simmons...! Nick is going out with Priya, yes as I've learned. And I hugged Rob and Jamie and Nicole and Jess and everyone when I came back. I heard it was boring at my lunch table. Yes? No? Well after school, I went places, and talked about things. Like...hmm. How big is Rob's dick? I know Tyler's is 7 inches...woah and well I just came up with that question but I'm asking him at lunch anyways. I gave Paul S a headlock today, and he kept smiling at me like he was gonna molest me or something. We talked about school, how much it sucks and the people in it that suck. It's saddening to know that someone I really used to like does things and I don't want to say it so fuck you. It's sad. I hope I can talk to them sometime I want to. Cause the person is cool and I never knew. Well I have to go, I have spent up all my time. I think I actually gave you my trip to Cali in full detail. By the way, I'm going on a road trip there when I'm 19, maybe with Rob, but anyway I wanna live there someday, despite the heat, because I need to take it like a woman, I want to see how much I can take it, like Davey can take so much at his concerts. I need to go to an AFI concert. I NEED TO GO TO AN AFI CONCERT. Okay well I gotta go. Bye. I hope I have a good life. Well a good week, at least.		  
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Rape Me...Rape Me, My Friend...Rape Me, Rape Me Again...   
09:55pm 12/10/2003
 
mood: lazy
music: "In Utero" CD- Nirvana + "The Best I Can"-Home Town Losers
( Well Here It Goes... )		  
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Did You Think It Was Cool To Walk Right Up To Me And Save My Life And Fuck It Up?   
11:45am 12/10/2003
 
mood: rushed
music: "Slept So Long"-Jay Gordon
Yesterday was Nicole's birthday. I went to pick up Jess from her house and we went to Nicoles. But first I had to stay and wait to finish seeing the show for 22 Greatest Bands of all time. Then I went to Nicole's house. We talked for a while and waited for everyone to come. We did an interview with each other, and Rob came laterer than most people. We did things. We SKANKED and made a SKA pit and stuff. We sang Kumbaya and we felt like hippies and hugged trees and passed around LSD...lol jk. And we played a game called Slut Slut Whore which is exactly like Duck Duck Goose. I got to play GCIST and it was good and stuff. I had pizza and cake and pepsi and all that good stuff. This is the short part of it I'll write a longer one later if I wasn't so RUSHED ::cough:: and here's something else.


What guy from AFI are you gonna FUCK? by afee
Your Name
Your Age
The Date you finally do itJanuary 23, 2028
Who is it gonna be done to?Smith and Jade, you sly dog!
Number of Days8
Created with quill18's MemeGen!
  
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What's Wrong, Who's Right? I Take It All To Heart. Your True Colors Start To Show...   
06:39pm 10/10/2003
 
mood: stressed
music: "Your Name Here"-AFI
I have work to do, and it's Friday. I'm stressed out. And it's Friday. Eh. This is what I get before going to California. Well at least I have Nicole's party tomorrow. I know I can go, but my mom might get mad at me for a petty thing and not let me go! And I'll hate if that happens. I have every subject to finish. I don't even know if I can bring my guitar to California. What's gonna happen? I don't know.

Best thing I've said all week: "You clean Davey Havok's Docs!"
Best thing to hear this week: "Many local bands are getting recognition here in LI. Such as Thursday, Brand New, Taking Back Sunday, and Glassjaw. There might just be a music scene emerging here."

I went to Orchestra lessons. I like playing my viola but my guitar is the best of all. Every time I see a guitar, I always want more. If I even have all of them in the world, I still want more. I guess as Ethan said, that makes me a true musician. And he said that whoever thinks that a band can work without a bass guitarist is NOT a musician. Well now. Hm. Woah...ok well Jimmy just IMed me asking if I wanted to see SOR, but I already saw it. I felt bad for saying no, but what else could I say? I didn't have a ride. But it was nice of him for thinking about me. YOU CAN DO IT! Sorry, I love that voice! So what's wrong with me, everyone's asking? I don't know. Maybe I do know but I'm not saying anything. I noticed, that today, I am strong. I have muscles. But anyway, my head hurts. The light is shining in my face! I don't like the sound of laughter or the sun. They are both my enemies. I was in a really shitty-ass mood this whole week. I have nothing to say, but I did. I hate it when this happens! I need to go get a new CD player on a count of that my old one is so totally fucked up. I want to go to an AFI concert so badly but nnnnoooo they aren't coming around here. And Rancid in NYC=sold out! That makes me mad. That's why I don't like being in NY. I want those tickets so fucking bad but I'd rather get AFI tickets. Yeah many must think I'm insane for saying that. But i've seen Rancid before, so you know what I'm satisfied. I want to see AFI, and make the best out of it. I'll fucking jump on the stage and tackle Davey or something! I want to see them so bad! Well I have to go. I really don't but I just feel like leaving. I'm probably gonna update later...maybe later today. Bye.		  
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Something Big Is Happening...   
12:16am 06/10/2003
 
mood: uncomfortable
music: "Go To Sleep'-Radiohead + "Transference"-AFI
I really had an urge to update twice in one day. I guess I feel...bored? But I was sleeping almost the whole day. Anemic? No. I don't think so. I'm a little too chubby to be anemic...even though being anemic doesn't entirely depend on your weight. Yes, finally, Go To Sleep. I know it took me forever to get it. I love this song. Sweet salvation...I wish I had more to write but I forgot it all. It always happens. First of all. I know this. I'm hated, or at least not known. Ricky acts like he doesn't know me. But fuck him. The only person that may notice me that's in a higher grade is Rob. Travis doesn't talk to me. Fuck it. Mike gets mad at me and pretends that he didn't do anything the next day. I don't even do anything to piss him off. He probably just forgets it all. By the time you see this, I may have overdosed on cough medicine. And I don't even have to cough! So anyway. I played my guitar. I love my guitar. My ax is my comfort. My ax is my companion. I can lick my ax and no one can stop me. I'm gonna go to sleep soon. Just like the song title says. I need to change. I need to sleep. I'm going to jump out my car one day. I guess being smart doesn't pay off for anything except for good grades. Life is always like that. Looks. Not personality. Damn that's the most fucked up thing in society. I think whoever doesn't give personality a chance should burn in hell. I can be smart, but I do have good taste in music. Not as some people would even go that deep. Just look at me: bleh. My intelligence: high so-bleh. So everyone hates that. But guess what. I'm not going to be stupid for people to like me. I won't look for anyone. I don't need a lover because I can love myself. But it always pisses me off. Personality ...looks. I seriously think I have a nice personality once you get to know me. And if you call me a fucking poser, fuck you. That means you don't know me and you should get a life. I can really be nice, but when I want to be alone, I want to be alone. Everyone, learn from that. Fuckin' A. I AM A SHITFACE. No. Wait. You are.
Get it? I'm fine now.		  
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I Might Be Wrong, I Could Have Sworn I Saw A Light Coming on...   
08:09pm 05/10/2003
 
mood: listless
music: "I Might Be Wrong"-Radiohead
Two things I did today that were interesting.

1. Fought with a pencil sharpener.
2. Talked to a woman who worked with British Airways.

Yeah well I did fight with a pencil sharpener cause it was too loud, and my dad was talking on the phone. I wrote some more of my fanfic that everyone hates except Jess. For British Airways, a family friend is coming and I was checking to see if the flight was on time. It was. I went to some churchy thingy yesterday. No, I didn't have fun. I had to wear this Indianish dress that was white and I was afraid of getting crap on it, so I made a guarantee with my mom that if I lost any of the jewelry or messed up my dress, it's not my problem, but I came through for her. I didn't mess anything up. I had to wear those foot-blistering high shoes, but not that high, cause my sister has to wear higher for the wedding. I made a list of bands I like. Maybe I should list them but I don't want others finding out. I will name some but the ones I feel that others who check this journal out shouldn't be seeing, I won't name. Over 100 bands I named, I was really bored. Okay. Here goes.

List Of Bands I Like:

Nirvana
AFI
HIM
NIN
Rancid
Joy Division
Bauhaus
TSOL
Audioslave
Soundgarden
Audiovent
Rage Against The Machine
The Nerve Agents
Face To Face
Pennywise
The Ataris
Papa Roach
Coldplay
Rufio
Saves The Day
Story Of The Year
Less Than Jake
Thursday
Glassjaw
The Used
Linkin Park
Hot Hot Heat
Metallica
Pink Floyd
Dag Nasty
Husker Du
Rammstein
The Black Dahilia Murder
Arch Enemy
Lacuna Coil
Type O Negative
Brand New
Opeth
Dropkick Murphys
The Vines
The Hives
Interpol
Dashboard Confessional
Saves The Day
Mudvayne
Slipknot
Otep
Oasis
Me First And The Gimme Gimmes
Radiohead
Jane's Addiction
Stone Temple Pilots
Pearl Jam
The Cure
Catch22
F-Minus
Apoptygma Berzerk
A Perfect Circle
The Force
Redemption '87
Hunter's Revenge
Covenant
Wumpscut
Orgy
The White Stripes
Foo Fighters
Alkaline Trio
The Distillers
Morrissey
Mudhoney
GOB
Guns 'N' Roses
Led Zeppelin
The Ramones
The Clash
Vendetta Red
AC/DC
At The Drive In
Sick Of It All
Madcap Punx
The Exploited
Yellowcard
Megadeth
Taking Back Sunday
Anti-Flag
Black Flag
Bad Religion
Bad Brains
Rise Against
Switchfoot
Atom And His Package
The Bouncing Souls
The Offspring
Unwritten Law
The Germs
Mad Caddies
Damone
Motion City Soundtrack
Cannibal Corpse
...That's all for now! Oh and everything in bold...if you know about them, good for you, if you want to go look some bands up, DON'T.		  
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...I Was Sitting At My Desk, With A Gun In My Hand, Wearing A Bulletproof Vest...   
10:20am 04/10/2003
 
music: "Keasby Nights"-Catch 22
which afi lyric are you
"Once there was a boy who had a vibrant glow,
but as it goes, someone took it from him, one
day through the rain I heard him moan, he said
'will you wrap your arms around me as I'm
falling?'" your from The Boy Who Destroyed
the World. You stand for gothic Davey! You
sometimes don't make sense to other people, but
you must have some deep meaning.


What AFI lyric are you?
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In The Heat Of The Night, The Animals Scream, In The Heat Of The Night, Walking Into A Dream...   
09:30am 04/10/2003
 
mood: groggy
music: "The Hanging Garden" + "Synethesia" -Cover by AFI
Fall fall fall into the walls, jump out of time...well anyway. Yesterday I saw HTL. And might I say...THEY FUCKING ROCKED! HTL is an awesome band! They played Blink 182's "Dammit" but hey, that's a great song! The only person that knew all the lyrics to HTL was Travis...but I've never heard their music, see. Well we saw SOR, and it was great, they mentioned so many many manymanymanymany good bands! Led Zeppelin, Nirvana, Sex Pistols, Motorhead, The Ramones...I can't name them all! So I'm tired from yesterday and I still have Paul's balls and his ring...heh I knew he forgot, but I didn't...I've wanted those balls so bad! Rob gave me lotsa hugs...he didn't make me feel left out! Everytime Travis went to my sister, Rob would come back for Jess and I! Still, Paul's my bitch so I can have him. I am NOT Sergio's bitch...just to get that straight! I am my own person and I am...
Mistress-Unknown- muahaha you don't know me. Okay? Okay. Paul made me keep running after him and, I did catch him, except for the time when he ran to the back of the movie theater, and he appeared coming out of the INSIDE of the theater...and now I know how he did that! He went through the back doors! Ah! So anyway. I met these two awesome guys, Justin and Mike, and they are mundo-AFI fans. I adore them! They know about AFI just as much as we do...I want to marry them! Well...maybe not marry but you get it, they're awesome guys. I was sitting away from the crowds and someone said, "Is she part of the band too?" and pointed to me and I laughed and said, "No...I'm just sitting here!" I lost my cellphone...and then I retrieved it again thanks to Abby! I said hi to Sue, and she has great shoelaces...they're awesome! I also saw...Ricky (although I think he hates me), Dana, Courtney (although I think she doesn't know who I am), Jeff, Taylor, John, Abby, Jamie, Jackie, Eric, etc. Yeah I know I forgot a hella a lot of people but hey, I'm not that good with my short-term memory. Did I say I got Clandestine? I must've! Yeah I probably did. Dude a whole Tool song just passed me by! Ah well I guess we'll get over that. I saw PTW's new video, it's awesome. I love the song too. PTW rocks. AFI rocks. HIM rocks. HTL rocks. Heh so many acronyms for names! But I have to say, AFI, which is already a catchy name, has a greattttt acronym...A Fire Inside...how good can you get? That's about one of the best names a band could think up! My parents like it, people who don't even hear AFI's music think that's a great band name. Well, I think I probably do have a lot to talk about, but I'm just not talking a lot. I jumped up and down to the great sounds of HTL...uh I put my leg on Paul, and I had his arm, and uh. Oh yeah his hand gets sweaty for some reason...hey that's a guy for you. But hey it doesn't matter, it was because I was grabbing a hold of his hand a lot...and we were having a finger fight during the movie, and he kept putting his leg up and down, and I was trying to control it with one leg, but it didn't work, until I had to grab his leg. Then he'd stop. It was funny, he started to drool in the middle of the movie. Yeah, I know disgusting, but it was funny at the same time. And then we left and HTL was still playing...they played about four songs before they had to go. Jeff got in the trunk of the band's car, it was funny, but he had to get out. Eh, all in good fun I guess! Also, I learned how to play "Girl's Not Grey" on the guitar...and I did it the ol' school way, just listening to it! Talent? No...my guitar teacher helped me a little bit. But GNG is a really easy song. Jimmy can't go anywhere because he always has hockey! But maybe in the spring...no they don't have a lot of sports nearing Christmas or something. Well I don't know, but I have to go to church today. Later on, I don't know when my parents left. I woke up at 7:17 and I didn't hear anything. I stayed later, and I woke up at 8:00 by my sister, and then I fell back asleep, and at 9:00 I finally got up. Well I'm going to go now, I think I've updated well. Bye.		  
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As The Cries Start To Penetrate Still Air, This Day We Celebrate. The Wait Now Ends.   
11:24am 28/09/2003
 
mood: satisfied
music: "Fall Children"-AFI
'ey. Guess what. It's raining. I had coffee. I made a new layout. I think it's very cute beautiful hot gorgeous sexy. I love it. But anyway. Today I was supposed to have a soccer game. That changed. All changed. I found out yesterday that I in fact, did NOT have one. Anyway, it's raining now so there is no game. There wouldn't be one. And what have I done this week? Well...I SAW Clandestine on Monday, and let me tell you it fuckin' rocked. Davey was sexy, but it should've been me kissing him. Jade has gorgeous hands. I love them. He should be a model. There were two soundtracks to (thunder) Clandestine, but I liked Jade's soundtrack better than Hunter's. I guess cause Hunter's was a little too low. I think Clandestine is a work of art. But if you don't agree with me...well guess what? Fuck you. So anyway. On Tuesday...I don't know what I did but it wasn't that interesting. On Wednesday, I went to guitar lessons. We didn't get an amplifier, so I couldn't really play too much. He wants me to start some songs again, but sheet music first. And I want to be a hella awesome guitar player, so I'll do what he says. Sheet music first. On Thursday...I went ...to Barton? Yeah maybe. I went with Jess and Priya and some other people I can't remember. On Friday I rested. I jogged the track which made the little injury in my joint from my leg to my bone get worse. It really did hurt. So I sat and wrote more of my fanfic. Jess read it on Saturday. She said she liked it. I like it but that's cause it's me. So anyway, on Saturday, first, I left with Jess, and Nicole to walk around. We went to Barton. We went to the pizza place first. I called Paul and asked him to come to Barton. He said he would call back. And I told him to call his mom and call back. But he calls at 3:40 and tells us he can come. And we are at a movie at that moment. We were watching Duplex. And we had to leave during the movie to meet him at Barton at 5. I felt so bad. I wanted whoever wanted to still see the movie can stay there. I don't know. But we went to Barton and met him. I told him if he didn't come I'd kick him in the crotch. I don't know how we spent three hours just goofing around and talking. I had to grab hold onto him so he wouldn't cause mischief. He didn't...unless I wouldn't hold him. I had to run after him a lot...but hey there goes your exercise. I was his mom and I turned into his mistress...scary huh. So anyway, I'm gonna go. Bye everyone, have a fucked up day.		  
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The Sacrament Of Love, The Sacrament Of Warmth Is True, The Sacrament Is You, The Sacrament Is You..   
06:25pm 20/09/2003
 
mood: exanimate
music: "The Sacrament"-HIM +"The Kids Aren't Alright"-The Offspring



Davey shaves his armpits! Now that's totally sexy! I knew this all along, but I wanted a total picture that showed it! And here we are! ::drools:: This song gives me chills...seriously...okay I had to update. I had a dance yesterday and uh...it was alright. Rob was cool, but they didn't play his ska CD...that wasn't fair! I drank a lot of coke. For your information, not that you even give a shit, I have my time of the month and at this specific moment I am bitchy. I don't know, but PMS doesn't occur DURING your period...does it? Eh who cares. The sacrament is you. Since I feel like it, I'm going to talk more about the dance. We picked up Jess and went. We got in trouble by the principal for our dad coming late, and it was his fault cause he was supposed to pick us up. Paul wouldn't let me go, and when Jeff said that we had to go, he was saying, "I don't want to go!" and he held Kelly and I and Jeff screamed, "PIMP!" I think its true that men's sweat makes you more sexually active. I was telling Paul that he was gonna see me sixth period, and he kept asking if he smelled. But he didn't. Jess, my sister, and I all said he didn't smell bad, so I don't. This song rocks. They played Good Charlotte twice and I ran out both times. They played Sean Paul and Nelly and all that fucked up shit. I don't like it, I didn't even stay in there long. I don't what it was but I didn't feel anything for the last few minutes of the dance. I felt dead, I couldn't hear anything. I couldn't or wouldn't make myself see anything. It was all a blur, until I got outside. And boy was it dark. It felt good. I think I want to make a better layout like the other journal I have. It's really nice. This one is too...but I don't know its weird. I think I'm gonna work on it in a few minutes. Or someones home, I don't know. A man came in, when I was in the bathroom. Clandestine did not come. Clandestine did not come. And why do they tell me its supposed to come today...I hope it comes on Monday, I really do. I've got problems, yes I know. And guess what...
You suck.
Go fuck yourself.
HIM rocks.
Ville rocks.
AFI rocks.
Go fuck an egg.
Eat shit.
Dance on your stand of hatred.
Fuck you, very much.
The kids are NOT alright.
I am NOT alright.
Change your channel.
I'll smash your TV.
Shattered dreams.
Dreams have nightmares.
Optimists have pessimists.
Fuck you, very much.
I play guitar.
I sing.
I sniffed a sharpie.
I'll die by your standards.
Substance.
Leaders Of Men.
Ian Curtis died having Iggy Pop in his CD player.
Fuck you, very much.
Take the test.
There'll be a mother in me.
We bite.
I bite.
I lick.
Denver is in Colorado.
No love lost.
Live freaky.
Die freaky.
You are what you eat.
Fuck you, very much.		  
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I'll Take Your Ideas & Your Values I'll Make You Turn Them All Around, I'll Break Your Individuality   
06:41pm 07/09/2003
 
mood: angry
music: "Cult Status"-AFI, "Perfect Fit"-AFI
HOUSE OF BLUES PRESENTS
AFI WITH SPECIAL GUEST DEATH BY STEREO


Universal Amphitheatre »
100 Universal City Plaza
Universal City, CA 91608
818.622.4440

price : $22.00 *
date : Thu, October 30
door : 7:00pm
show : 7:45pm
genre : Punk

age : all

^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
Fuck man! Its the day before fucking Halloween! I would be able to go if it weren't in CALIFORNIA! Dammit, Davey was from fucking New York, why can't he play on Halloween HERE!?!?! HUH!?!? These are the times I wish I lived in California! This is what I had to say about this. The link my friend sent me is the link to the concert tickets, but don't try to get them, it's sold out.

DJ Nostalgia 13 [6:36 PM]: http://www.hob.com/tickets/eventdetail.asp?eventid=21892
Nirvanarocks1112 [6:36 PM]: Kris likes to put his arm around his neck doesnt he
Nirvanarocks1112 [6:36 PM]: Hey well its sold out man
Nirvanarocks1112 [6:36 PM]: thats how good they are
Nirvanarocks1112 [6:37 PM]: And i wouldnt be able to go cause its in CA
Nirvanarocks1112 [6:37 PM]: lol
DJ Nostalgia 13 [6:37 PM]: lol
Nirvanarocks1112 [6:37 PM]: Death by stereo rocks man
Nirvanarocks1112 [6:37 PM]: AFI just fuckin rocks
Nirvanarocks1112 [6:37 PM]: 22 fucking dollars thats fucking cheap man
Nirvanarocks1112 [6:37 PM]: All ages too
Nirvanarocks1112 [6:38 PM]: oh fuck man
Nirvanarocks1112 [6:38 PM]: its the day before halloween
Nirvanarocks1112 [6:38 PM]: i so want to go
Nirvanarocks1112 [6:38 PM]: they would make it special
Nirvanarocks1112 [6:39 PM]: Fuck that Davey should come to New york
Nirvanarocks1112 [6:39 PM]: its where he was FUCKING BORN

Oh and that Kris thing, that's about Kris Roe of The Ataris, I was looking at pictures about him. He does like to put his hand around his neck. Everyone's talking about this stupid-ass concert for GOOD FUCKING CHARLOTTE. I don't want to go. My dad even asked me if I wanted to go...HAHA good one. I went to a GC concert once, and the only reason my dad asked me if I wanted to go is cause he knows how to get there. But my dad would take me anywhere in NY if he knows the directions. So thats cool. I wish AFI comes here sometime...when I don't have SCHOOL and it's good for me...but that's ususally not possible. I have to sacrafice. FUCK MAN.		  
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Fuck Smiley Glad-Hands, With Hidden Agendas. Fuck These Disfunctional, Insecure Actresses.   
12:41pm 06/09/2003
 
mood: relaxed
music: "Ænema"-Tool + "Self Pity"-AFI
I'm not gonna be talking about today cause I doubt anything interesting will happen today. I'm going to talk about yesterday, which had many events! Yesterday was the last Alive After Five. Nicole, my sister, and I were went. Jess couldn't come cause she got in trouble. Sorry Jess! I got in trouble twice yesterday...haha. From my English teacher for calling a boy STUPID...it's just stupid it's not an insult. And then I was throwing...I don't even know what it was but Paul threw at me first causing me to throw it back and then I got in trouble. Okay so I just got off topic. Well actually no I didn't, but whatever. I went to Alive After Five and we walked around for a little. We met...Nicole's friends...lol. They weren't exactly friends but they sure were assholes. We walked around a little, and then I wanted to go see if the library had A Series Of Unfortunate Events...and they did which was great. I'm planning to get two of them sometime. Lemony Snicket rocks! So then we left and went back outside. We met Alison, who was hiding from dudes...and she came with us while we had pizza. Alison then had to leave cause it was 6:30 and she was supposed to get home by 6 for some reason. And then we met Jimmy and Steve. I talked to Jimmy for a while, cause I wanted to be friends with the man, not enemies. Plus this Jess ordeal...lol. Plus he liked Nirvana, and I can't stay an enemy to someone who likes Nirvana...I mean...come on! Lol. So then we walked around once more, and I saw the Mike who sits near us at our table...the cool dude. I stared at him, yeah I know it wasn't polite, but I waved and I don't think he waved back. I saw Mike multiple times at Alive After Five, but I waved once and screamed "MIKE!" and he waved back...well see I didn't see him wave back cause I had to look foward so I wouldn't bump into anyone! Why are the people at our school so stupid? Cause they were trying to throw paper at us, and they have so bad aim they got my thumb. WOW. Learn to throw, assholes. But those dudes didn't bother us after a while. We then met Kelly. She decided to come around with us. We saw a lot of her friends, and a girl I forgot her name...but she was wearing a Nirvana shirt. And I saw two people from my last year Spanish class, yeah they're in tenth grade now. I said hi to them, and they remember me as well. But there was this stupid shit that pretended he didn't know me, and I KNOW he knew me because I used to help him with his fucking Spanish. He's an ass, and he was giving dirty looks, and I think his friend said, "Speaking of freaks..." as we passed them. If he were cool, he would've said that we aren't like that. I mean freaks is not an insult, but I know they want it to be. So we walked around with Kelly and Kelly got some Italian Ice. She didn't finish it, she threw half of it against the wall. When we were walking, this guy said, "Hey ladies, are you interested in this man right here?" and we wanted to know how old the guy was. He was 16...and Kelly said she was 11. Lol. And then a girl passed me with a nice dress (yeah I know that's a first), and she stopped running in front of us, and I said, "Hey, nice outfit", and she said, "Thanks!" and ran away. I saw her again with the people who had good taste in music. Kelly went to make a pixy stick, and she shared it with all of us. It was good, she got every flavor in, I think. We then encountered Jimmy and Steve again. I said hi to him and then everyone was talking to each other. Jimmy took Nicole's spike bracelet, and Steve took another one. Jimmy was putting it on the wrong way, he should've just buckled in around his hand, not try to slip it in like those jelly bracelets. But hey it's Jimmy. He wanted to do it that way. Then we walked around with those dudes, and they were good company. We just wandered around to unknown destinations and we went past the Alive After Five road. Steve was going to go to 7-11, but we decided to go back, cause we weren't allowed to go that far, especially in darkness. I had to call my dad if I could stay until 9:30 instead of 9. Nicole got the cellphone, and Eric told her that he didn't need a ride home, and he just hung up! But my sister does it that to me too. We went through sprinklers and got wet. It didn't sound right, when we said, "I'm wet!"...does it sound right? No. We were then going to go to the library and steal Caesar's father, (yep Caesar was there!) but the library closed on us. We stood next to a real nice car, and it looked like it was ours, when it wasn't. Obviously. We started talking to a guy who came around on his bike, that is friends with Steve, I'm guessing. They were both great, Steve and Jimmy. They were really funny. But then I saw my dad in his car, so we had to go in about 6 minutes. I ran over to the car, and my sister sat in the car for 6 minutes, while I talked to the guys. The dude that was on his bike saw my dad at Staples. He waved to him...it was weird, but it was cool. He said that he wanted my shirt and I said thank you, even though I knew it didn't make sense for saying thank you, but that's just me. They wanted to go to the bodega, which is Spanish for deli. I learned that...one year ago? So anyway, I showed Jimmy Bob Marley, and I think he could've agreed that it did look like him. It was a moral, but it looked like a kid did that painting. We talked for a little while, and we had to go. I told Jimmy I would give him a bracelet of mine, but I didn't have any at the moment. So he might be in one of my classes. Cause he's getting his schedule changed. And then I hugged Jimmy and Steve. The kid on the bike didn't want a hug, so I just was like, fuck it. I got to touch Jimmy's hair for good luck. He has cool hair, man! I gave Jimmy a low five and then one screwed up high five and another good high five. Then we all left. Well my sister, Nicole, and I left. Kelly, Jimmy, Steve, and the kid on the bike went somewhere else. I went online after that, and tried to update my blurty. But I decided not to cause...well, I can't do both on that computer, talk on IMs and write on my blurty. So Jimmy got on, and I IMed him. My conversation...I don't know I might post it. I might not. It was long, though. But I have to go. Bye everyone! That was my day, yesterday!		  
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