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10:17am: schools out for summer...
schools out forever...

my last day as a high schooler, yeah it kicks major ass man! tomorrow im going to dinner with my mom and ruth, then im taking ruth to see shrek 2. this day rocks, no more school for me ever ever ever except college

8:42am: crap
so yesterday after school, from 2:30 to about 3:20 or so the school was on lockdown, because some dudes broke into a bunch of houses in the neighborhood and then the cops ran them into a field and had helicopters and shit all up on them. the field they were in is right next to my house!!! thats some crazy stuff man! anyway i went to campus life last night and hung out with ruth and erin and katie and jeff and jimmy and a bunch o other people too. it was a pretty good time all over. i went to bed about 11 or so. so my last day of school is like thursday, then the following tuesday i start work at MSU at the beef cattle research center. that will be interesting. so anyway though friday i will be taking ruth to see shrek 2, and either before or after that my mom is taking us to cheddars for my "graduation dinner" something we do at the end of each year. so yeah...

10:22am: prom and such...
so i havnt updated in a while, cause the fucking school comps wont let us, but for some reason this one worked...
anyway i went to prom with ruth and had the best time in my life... we sat and talked a lot and danced to a lot of songs. the time i spend with her rocks so much i wish it didnt have to end. its so cool that i can say anything, any little joke or just anything to her and she accepts it as it is. after prom we went to mikes house and changed. even in her regular clothes ruth looked amazing. we went to get some cappuchino at dennys, it was pretty good and it was fun to just be around everyone. katie was acting like a drunk she was so tired. after that everybody went back to the highschool for some hijinks, except me and ruth, we went over to kristas house and watched scary movie 3 it was funny. the whole time i cuddled with ruth, we almost fell asleep in each others arms, it was wonderful. after that she walked me to my car and we talked for another 5 or 10 minutes. i told her "i think im in love with you, i really do care a lot and i think i love you" she agreed. it was great, this has got to be the best girl out there. i just cant believe she would be with me, i cant belive she can be that cool and still like me.

8:48pm: nuttin special
chillen at mikes house, its all gravy. went to see "van helsing" with him today, sweet flick. i ran into ruth while we were there, that was nice. i think somethings happening to me, could it be that im falling in love. it wouldnt be so bad, i just hope that when i tell her, if i actually do fall in love, that she wont be scared... that would suck beyond all infinity.

6:44pm: dont worry this wont hurt a bit...
so saturday i got my ears pierced, they are at 8 gauge and they are plugs, stainless steel plugs. my dad did them, they are totally rockin. i also went out and got my tux ordered its pretty sweet. anyway i was just updating because i havent in a while and i really didnt have anything else to do at the moment, see ya later.

12:40am: late nite snack...
so i got the internet at my dads now, so thats pretty cool, dial up means i cant go on whenever i want so that sucks. so anyway at lunch today i asked ruth out, so now we're dating, that makes me happy. anyway dan got amber's phone number and thats good for him, chris is still trying to find a date for prom, he was going to go with maddy but it was a friendship date and he really wants something more for his money.

10:45am: 4th hour is t he suck...
anyway im sitting in 4th hour and i cant decide why my life sucks so much!!!! i guess its because i surround myself with girls a lot and well none of them are interested me in THAT kind of a way, and anytime i get SOMEWHAT involved with a girl who is interested in me all my female friends say "you could do better" or "shes not right/good enough for you" so where the heck is my good enough, were is my better, where is my right for me?????????????????????????? man i hate chicks, all they do is bring me down

8:41am: 14!? I thought she was 27!!!!
so i was at the mall on saturday with my buddy mike, we were there just checkin out the stores and i went to look at some possible tuxedo options for prom. on our way out we ran into chris and dan, that was a pretty neat event because we decided to hang out a while longer and walked the mall till it closed, dan bought me a pretzel so i owe him for that one, that was one tasty treat though. chris bought a "trapt" t-shirt, which is cool cause its bringing him out of his abercrombie clothes. anyway the subject quote is from Mallrats, a great Kevin Smith film, anyway i used it cause while at the mall chris went up to talk to these girls and found out they were 8th graders, thats pretty crazy. all in all it was a cool weekend, i went and saw KILL BILL vol. 2 with my dad and it rocked the house with all the crazy fighting and whatnot. aw well im tired and second hour is nap time so...

12:21am: its late
so im at dans house at 1221 in the morning on friday night, hes sleepin but thats alright, im a little upset because today in sixth hour jessie and ashleigh told me i shouldnt go out with ruth because she would just be using me. i guess in a way i just dont care anymore, id rather be with her than be alone so i think ill just take it slow for a few more weeks, ill ask her to start going out with me shortly before prom, i think that would be the best scenario at this point.

10:40am: yay
so my buddy dan (demonmade) has a blurty now, that is totally rockin...
prom is on may 22 and i am going with ruth, she is a awesome girl and i am excited about going with her!
i might ask her to go out with me, but i havent decided yet...
i am going to take my drivers test soon so then ill have a licence and will be able to drive, yesterday i rotated the tires on my car and added my "dork" air freshner, awesomeness...
monday im turnin in a bazillion apps for jobs and friday im chillen with a ton o people sweet

9:52am: the day after yesterday...
i woke up a little late today, so i forgot a lot of my stuff, my wristband, my camera, and my cd player which means no tunes today, major bummer... my aunt is taking me to the July 7th show of Incubus at Van Andel, that will rock the house. so i had a good Easter and spring break was alright, i guess i over reacted a bit when it came to the dissapointment with the ladies. ah well all in due time i suppose...
i skiped Campus Life last night cause i was a little tired of some of the people there, i will go to the student leader meeting on thursday, that will be okay. so instead of that i went over to dans house and we played some xbox, and opened it up to see what was inside, comming soon is the moding yay!

cori thanx to you and boy for giving me ride today, ill get you back, dont worry about it.

9:13am: back from the dead...
came back from the campus life trip, it was cool to be around some girls that were hot, but it sucked because they all had reasons they wouldnt date me, not that i asked them or anything, i just kinda found out through casual conversation. oh well life sucks...

i had a good time hangin with my friend chris, and the staff people were pretty cool too, these girls i hung out with from Grand Ledge were hot but they sucked cause they just wanted to be friends, but they did string me along a little and i hate that. The Ataris cd im listening to right now is a pretty short one but it has good lyrics. in the song "San Dimas High School Football Rules" Kris Rowe uses the line "Just dump your boyfriend and go out with me, i swear ill treat you like a queen", that is a line i relate to a lot... if only these girls didnt make me get all stupid i think life would be better.
in another song, i dont know what the name is right now he says "im happy for you, im sure that he really loves you,but it breaks my heart to know i cant hold you"...
its funny i put this cd in saturday night as we drove through Anderson, indiana, where Kris is from... and i havent taken it out since the songs are just so good...
hey i got those girls numbers though and they want to hang out sometime, thats pretty cool, i guess i could just have made new friends which aint bad. anyhow i need to do some more stuff so this is my farewell for now

8:50am: fun in the sun...
so saturday i leave for Florida that will be cool, i'll get to hang out with some girls and stuff will be awesome. there will be a very attractive girl there that is somewhat interested in me from things ive heard from Erin, my great buddy who loves me so much! I hope things will work out cool, but if not hey whatever she can be a cool friend.

8:41am: feels like the first time...
this is the first REAL update in a couple of days, so wednesday i went to breakfast with some cool friends of mine. I also decided that i would donate some blood for the Red Cross, that will be cool, im a little tired right now so im just gonna finish. bye bye

10:48am: none...
hurring to update all is swell

8:52am: sics phourtie....
the time i woke up this mornin... ha ha ha

anyway im going to Florida for Spring Break and i need some supplies... heres the rough draft list

-shorts
-shoes
-black hair dye
-pomade
-Maroon5 "songs about Jane"
-Incubus "S.C.I.E.N.C.E."
-a homestarrunner shirt
-a homestarrunner cd

9:47am: To test or to test...
so the test is today, i gotta write this fast or ill get in trouble, and trouble sucks...
anyway i still got that problem with the girl, i need to find out soon, or i may just be pushing everyother opportunity away from myself, and thats never good

finished the test and now im gonna take a nap.. goodbye for the weekend all.

9:47am: to test or not to test...
skipping the 3rd hour test today cause the teachers not here, but i have a paper due in 4th hour that i havent even started yet so i guess i'll do that. about that girl, i still dont know whats going on between us, sometimes the way we talk and sneak glances at eachother i would think shes into me as well, but im just not quite sure...
i know i think she rocks the glove but i wish i knew what she thought about me...

1:10pm: another day another dollar...
selling some old stuff today, outta get me some decent cash money, or pencil shavings...
anyway everything is okay today, hope that lasts for a while... i was late for school today that was awesome!!!!!
checkin out some sweet computer stuff on my friends monitor, but other than that just tired, and i have a headache that sucks...

the girl thing might be fixed, i dont know... someone seems to be there, im just not quite sure, if anybody has any suggestions on how to fix the situation ill gladly take them

11:04am: this Aztec project thingy...
sitting in 4th hour, comp time leaves me to my own devices *snicker* , i woke up at 6:forty today, that sucked...
so now im wearing shorts, which is cold ha ha ha...
so im gonna go play some addicting games now.

8:52am: schools out for summer...
im chillen in 5th hour updating my blurty. hangin with cori b. today is good...
after school im going home to play xbox then im going to my dads to play some music with my band...
not posting this weekend so everyone just chill out...

9:04am: all apologies...
gonna hang with dan today, hung out with david yesterday... still have a lot on my mind that must be accomplished... will happen by the end of the week...

thursday day after moms b-day, sitting in hour 5 so bored...

8:59am: isnt it great when...
so here i am in second hour this time, shouldnt be in school this early on a Wed. me and dan are gonna chill today, or maybe me, dave, and liz. i got a new idea in my head today, but i gotta run it by cori first, she is my voice of reason after all (most of the time anyway). I am quite tired now and i wish to sleep. or maybe play some online games, they are so fun when your bored!

just remember your a wreak, an accident, forget the freak youre just nature...

so part 2...
now i am in 3rd hour, the normal journal update center... this weekend i have a group date with some of my friends...
there is a problem in this, the girl i am on a "date" with is a friend of mine, who ive already discussed "dating" but have no chance for some reason. she says we are too good of friends, but somehow i think thats untrue. but at least ive got some other cool people to go out with that rocks! class has started and now its time to go...

9:51am: another day another dollar...
so today sucks, again im in 3rd hour and life is crappy... kinda.
my friend chris isnt talking to me anymore, at least not for a while anyway, cause i gave him a black eye...

so ill figure it all out one day.

9:54am: school
sitting in third hour, i learned something today. my buddie david's cousin once said "girls are like parking spaces, all the good ones are taken, and the only ones left are handicapped."

so thats the thing, ill just keep driving in circles around the parking lot till one opens up, with my luch though it will get filled before i can punch the gas