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ughh [24 Sep 2005|10:37pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]
[ music | therocketsummer ]

yepp .. sept. 24 .. ive really got to learn to keep this thing up -- oh well

im in such a fuckin "stay the fuck away from me kinda mood" .. im sick of everything, the more i think about it the better dorming at college sounds. a fucking senior in high school and i have to be home by 1030 on school nights and fucking 11 on SATURDAY?! youve got to be fucking kidding me .. bc my mom "doesnt know my friends" .. she knows like 5 of my friends,ohhmyfuckinggod - im in soo not a good mood right now - i feel like going and finding my own place to live -- i can see it now .. 20 years old and im gonna have to check in with my mom every hour to tell her where i am. ughhhhh -- FUCK YOU.


on the other hand .. everything else fucking bites


bye

i want to kiss away your tears tonight ..

back to school back to school .. [31 Aug 2005|01:47pm]
well, is back to school time .. school SUCKS. im sitting in accounting (blegh) class next to anna banana ;) .. my classes are super easy except for mazzino =\

my computer has been AWOL since like july (basically my last post) .. which sucks, it made me lose contact with alot of people, well basically like 5, but they mean alot to me .. especially one in particular (no names) .. but i finally got a hold of him and i hope everything works out okay :)

i just got back from ocean city saturday with ali and pat, we had a good good time ;)

ttyl kids <3

xoxo nikki

i miss camp, and the entire summer =(
i want to kiss away your tears tonight ..

i'll be your best kept secret, and your biggest mistake [26 Jul 2005|10:58pm]
[ mood | hot ]
[ music | badly drawn boy ]

its soo hot and sticky .. and all i wanna do is jump in the pool but its lightning out =\

so much for my night ..

on the other hand i went into hardcore bargain betty mode and went to american eagle and spent only $40 today .. and got all clearance stuff ;) .. yesss super excited now!

i want to kiss away your tears tonight ..

and she drops a quarter, makes the same wish 25 times over [25 Jul 2005|10:32pm]
[ mood | blank ]
[ music | jamisonparker ]

it's 10;25 .. and i am soo bored. to the extreme =\

soulseek is my new best friend .. can anyone say 17 new cds for nikki? .. so excited ♥

blegh, summer is half over already, before i know it ill be going back to school :(
... but not before the warped tour and a ..c r a z y.. time at the beach with alibear pat and j. fletch ;)

thursday im goin camping with ali and allison and bob and other people .. it should be a sweet time .. i miss the old days <3

nothing more exciting is needed to be said i guess .. except i totally miss talking to everyone from camp .. i always hate this part :\

adios muchachos ♥

i want to kiss away your tears tonight ..

its like i just died for the past 3 monthes .. [20 Jul 2005|12:05am]
[ mood | awake ]
[ music | recieving end of sirens ]

wow, i havent updated since april 20th ?!!! wtf where was i ?! .. oh yea myspace got the best of me, psh silly me -- but now that that fad is over .. back to my trusty old blurty <3

well lets see .. april 30th (way back when) was the armorforsleep/hellogoodbye/allamericanrejects show .. which was fucking amazing as all hell!

me and ali wrecked smokey .. totally gone and we have now been car-less since may 21st .. and im real sad =(

ummm .. blah blah blah boring shit .. more boring shit -- school let out ... blah blah blah oh yes .. summer started =)

me and heather and deeker all took a grand old trip down to bethany beach with the family .. the family part sucked but we had a muy awesome time! .. met a boy named zach from wilmington .. real cuute =) .. um yea then came hoome

got sr. pictures taken .. got the proofs back a few days ago and became very disappointed -- atleast there were like 4 i liked out of em ..

ahhhh yes then .. CAMP .. which i just got back from about 3 days ago. <3333 omg i miss it so much, like so much ive been in this down kind of mood lately =( .. but yes i miss camp completely!! ... ahh my ladies and fellas ..
anna-tierney-alyssa-carolyn-nancy-jessie
mike-pat-brandon-ben-galli-stein(bff!) <3
i miss them all sooooo much like hardcore to the maximum! definately anna the most, me and her were super cool together and shes gonna come and stay with me! there were insides like crazy .. like (dot dot dot)

ugh .. jaquezee?!
patti ugh mayonnaise
4 people + 1 baby pool
48 asses
purpling
songs with the singing nazi (aka karen)
pssssst ...
"IN THE CABIN IN THE WOODS"
brandon and the polar bear
sneaking out til 5 am (and having a damn good time!)
wheres my sunglasses?
wakeup calls ;)
assasin
me and anna swimming in our bras ;x
i can touch my elbows!
professor trelawney
my bff mike stein!
.. and of coure my bf4e mike k ;)
chariot races
fallen from the sky (and me and annas free cds .. the drummer toally wanted us) =b
eric .. (grossness)
pat,ben, and mikes very open love for one another
cabin 5 in general ;)

and alot more .. lol it was fun - very very fun and we are all going to hang out again soon .. plus i hope brandon and anna and mike come down soon and all that fun stuff =)

wents to caseys and mikes grad parties on saturday .. and i shoulda stayed at caseys! .. lol

now im home and it sucks .. i had a porch party the other night -- very random and unplanned =) but hey thats the best

now im sure this entry is long enough .. im gonna head on outta here and go to bed -- tomorrow calls for another unplanned adventure!

night babes ♥

1 stopped crying i want to kiss away your tears tonight ..

what if im just bad news - and your a liar [20 Apr 2005|04:49pm]
[ mood | blah ]
[ music | armor for sleep - my town ]

o god -- senses fail was so fucking amazing live .. ahh i cant even describe it!! .. perhaps the only thing stronger than my words are the battle wounds -- but they are long gone , but wow im so psyched to see them at the warped now ..

yea that was saturday the 16 .. and since then nothing exctiing has happened

except i sounded so fucking excited in my last entry and that feeling has gone away bc im looked at as the bad guy now =\ .. whatever maybe things will work out - myabe not i guess i really dont care anymore .. o well ;)


i want to kiss away your tears tonight ..

[10 Apr 2005|02:24am]
[ mood | indescribable ]
[ music | theres.no.use.for.words ]

.. wow ..

that basically explains my night

.. wow ..

=)

me and anna made up - i missed her so much, and this just goes to show that we really are best friends forever and ever!! haha sounds do corny but its so true - i <33 her times 10 trillion and a half -- but omg i looove her and we really do have the best times =)

i think i ate a rat with my chinese food tonight -- it was spossed to be chicken and it deff was not

.. tonight was fucking amazing - but i wont say anything bc i have a way of messing things up by talking about it -- but im so happy right now =)




.... (sigh)

1 stopped crying i want to kiss away your tears tonight ..

im not okay -- you wear me out [04 Apr 2005|09:27pm]
[ mood | frustrated ]
[ music | armor for sleep ]

well nothing too new has happened, escept for the 2nd time in the past 6 monthes, my basement flooded with 6 feet of water, god i hate the rain anymore, well atleast the heavy stuff.

hopefully wednesday after we get out of school (hmm at approx. 10:48) we will have an awesome picninc at mcdade park again - bc its just so much funnn !!

well a few things have hit the bottom, but i saw it coming - i guess i have let things go far too long, but o well .. she doesnt seem to really care much so you know what - its coming right back. blahhh, i dunno - actaully, thinking about it that quote in her fyle sounds wonderful - maybe its a good thing your closest are drifting away?? .. thanks alot - it makes us all feel just wonderful - wonderful.

on a lighter note - pssa's are fricken cake .. i cant wait until its over tho =)

heck yes <33

okay im out - cya

i want to kiss away your tears tonight ..

love is not like anything - especially a fucking knife [31 Mar 2005|10:21pm]
[ mood | jubilant ]
[ music | hanson - mmmbop (ahh the old times) ]

wellllllllllllllllllllll -

school sucks -- 45 days left , this summer is going to rock .. consisting of my best friends, camping around, and just living life up =) .. ill give carpe diem something to talk about ;]

other than that im just bored, easter vaca went pretty well, now its 2 days til pssa's - which is awesome bc then after that i dont have to worry as much about graduation bc the tough stuff is outta the way.

im hoping that wednesday happens so bad, i cant stop thinking about and i love the feeling ;] haha im sure ill love the feeling more then! haha - o god, but all i know is that it will be g-o-o-d ;]

okayy well since my life is far from exciting - im gonna hit up annas cell for a little bit - ciauo amigos :)

i want to kiss away your tears tonight ..

[27 Mar 2005|11:32pm]
[ mood | calm ]
[ music | the armor for sleep album ]

yepp so i guess you found my journal - you know who you are .. the secrets out.

i guess all that i thought was there really isnt if something in my journal offended you,
i guess all i have to say is im sorry - but it is my journal, a place where i can vent, so dont think of me as a bitch(or whatever you think of me as) bc i vented - and even if you might not say that too my face or whatever i know thats what you think, indefinately. but its my journal and im gonna write like no one is reading it so ether read it and find out some harsh things or dont read it at all - but all i have to say is im sorry and atleast we had a good time while it lasted - and yes i do have ways of finding out things about yourself, and its nice to know that your talking to another girl already -

but anyways im not gonna get myself worked over something that has already happened so on a good note -

its easter !! and my mom got me a stuffed bunny (bc i swear i never got one when i was little) and its so cute!!

friday night we went to ali's house and chilled with anna allison lauren bill and dan - and had a good time. bill and dan introduced me and allison to 'the bump' on the way home -- haha we almost pissed ourselves from laughin so hard !! we had a gooood time tho.

last night me ali and allison took a little ride up to target/walmart -and i bought the armor for sleep cd and the rise against cd - which have become my new favorites (go figure) .. we met up with pat and jon - haha how about the walmart nazi and the cart ?! pat its okay you shoulda just stayed in it with your little sick ;] - then we went to mcdonalds and then pat took jon driving - it was a good night tho =)

EXCEPT i found out later that night that jim and mike and luke were at target the saame time we were and i didnt see them =( aww i miss them a ton - i talked to jim and mike last night -and we decided that once summer comes we are gonna do alotta hangin out - b c basically we havent really done hardcore hanging out since the italian festival - and i miss 'em =)

tomorrow i belive im goin to miss allisons for the night and we are gonna party it like its 2000 !!

im out now -- 1148 and im tiiiired -- peace

i want to kiss away your tears tonight ..

and i cant tell if your laughing .. between each smile there's a tear in your eye - [22 Mar 2005|11:54am]
[ mood | excited ]
[ music | the kinison - you'll never guess who died ]

well ... i am oh so bad at updating this thing, so heres the dilly in brief =)

march 5 was west's semi .. and oh boy was it an amazing time .. lets just say nikki + music = dancing hardcore ;) .. but it was so much fun .. and we took a limo !! it was my first time ever in a limo, and we stopped at mcdonalds in it in our dresses and everything - haha it was a good time .. then the after party was at my house -- the whole 5 guys that were supposed to stay ended up turning into 15 or so .. including the other people. there were 26 people crammed into my house for the entire night !! we had such a good time .. jon fletcher prolly had the best time outta all of us - but hey it was a good time =)


march 11 i turned 17 =) ..yepp im 17 now, and still license-less (if thats a word) .. now im kinda antsy to get it .. but i just gotta wait till august now =\ .. but o well its okay =D .. hmm went to philly for my birthday to the king of prussia mall and spent $170 yikes!! but i abs fell in love with forever 21 .. we should deff get one here bc its my all time fav store now besides american eagle =)

nothing else exciting has happened since then

.. o yea jeff hasnt called me since my borthday (march 11) .. and its now march 22 .. fuck that he's being a dick bc i didnt call him back one night .. but i was with anna -- and he knew it was my birthday and i was with my best friend .. sorry i put my girls first fuckface !!


well on another verrrrrrrry verrrrrrrrry good note .. WARPED TOUR 2005 IS COMING TO EFFING MONTAGE MOUNTAIN !!! im so fucking excited .. august 11 baby .. and me and anna will be there rockin out like our crazy selves .. haah and for 21 bucks a pop .. it will be even more amazing then ever !!! woooo -- ill be a very hapy campoer from now until august (plus aug. 2 i get my license!!) yesssssssssssss

okay im out for now -- im home from school bc it feels like some midget is poking my ribs with a razorblade or something -- ok peace <3



summer '05 countdown = 7 weeks =)

i want to kiss away your tears tonight ..

[01 Mar 2005|06:22pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]
[ music | what if - plain white t's ]

FLORIDA WAS EFFING AMAZING .. on so many levels, i never ever ever wanted to come back to this shithole after that (maybe bring a few people down there) but i had such an awesome time i didnt want to leave for $1,000,000. me and anna had the most awesome vacation ever and i dont think anyone can every top it !! EVER

breakdown of the week :

WEDNESDAY - got up at 6;30 .. plane left at 930 .. we finally got in orlando at about 3ish. man was it beautiful down there ;)

THURSDAY - just chilled by the pool .. personally we shoulda picked a nicer day to chill at the pool .. but it was still a good time. it was awesome to think that it was only february and we were swimminmg outdoors in a regular pool. that night we went to downtown disney and i got a toaster filled with paper and a postal service belt buckle<33 it is so cool, then we just chilled out at the hottub when we got home shit til like 11 or so.

FRIDAY - we went to epcot .. not exactly my favorite park but it was cool.had a very good time and stuff. that night we went and chilled at the hottub and met mike, matt, eric, and jim from connecticut. they wereent cute at all .. but o man i have never laughed so hard in my life .. they were really cool kids tho =)

SATURDAY - we went to animal kingdom .. i loooooooved animal kingdom .. i loe all animals geez. haha no but it was soo cool. i went on a safari and everything. it was oo soo fun.t hat night we hit up hooters .. yea its not all that hyped up but still we had a good time .. we yet again chilled at the hottub. we saw the 4 guys from the night before and talked to them for a bit .. then we met nyas and cj, they were really nice .. and cj was effing hottt. he reminded me of usher but not as much. but he was hott. we sat and chilled with him for a little while .. then they walked us back to our room/apt thing. i got nyas's number =) haha god knows if ill call him but they were such sweethearts =)

SUNDAY - it poured =( but we made up for it by hitting up flea markets. i got 3 pairs of those weird mesh shoes with the floers on the for only 4 dollas a pair, i also picked up a john deere belt buckle and a present for some friends ;] haha and then we went and chilled at the hottub AGAIN .. this time meeting hotttt paul .. paul was hot and very nice, its so funny how you make friends in a hottub and then its always routine (where ya from how old are you) haha but it was so fun .. and we also made some canadian friends =) all a tad bit older than we but they were cool .. they shared their beer with us and they kept jumping off the waterfall thingy =) haha it was a verrrrrry nice way to spend our last night .. and im thinkin about lookin into bishops university (or something like that) bc by the way they were talkin about it it seems muy fun .. and can anyone say canadian drinking age 18 ?!!?

MONDAY - sadly it was our last day .. had to get up real early and we set off for magic kingdom .. while everyopne at home was getting pounded with snow we were walking around in 80 degree weather kinda sweating a bit and shading my eyes from the sun (ok ill stop making you jealous now ) haha but magic kingdom was really cool . i woulda rather stayed at the pool tho bc paul and the knuck bunch were hangin out there but my mom wouldnt let us =( but then at 530 our plane took off to detroit .. we got stuck in detroit for about and hour and a half .. but we finally made it to scranton by 3am

im quite exhausted today .. but its okay .. tomorrow is spirit week(well the middle of it) and its dress up day .. yes !! i loove it .. but anyways i took the quiz and it really creeped me out bc most of it seems quite accurate !!

LJ Friends Meme by coolerq

• You must tell 11 people about this game.
jeff is the one that you love.
brad is one you like but can't work out.
• You care most about anna.
ali is the one who knows you very well.
heather is your lucky star.
what if is the song that matches with jeff.
freefallin' is the song for brad.
its only rock and roll but i like it is the song that tells you most about YOUR mind.
• and take it away is the song telling you how you feel about life
Take this quiz


out for now -- cya
i want to kiss away your tears tonight ..

[22 Feb 2005|07:00pm]
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i want to kiss away your tears tonight ..

soon ill be on my way, though i'd really like to stay .. but the road is out there calling me away - [20 Feb 2005|03:02pm]
[ mood | drunk ]
[ music | angel pumping gas - the postal service ]

i always seem to forget that this is here .. but its okay =)

i have officially declared that i loove presidents weekend even more than christmas now !!
.. and that im also in love with vodka and hanging out with boys while getting drunk ; )

goshhh - i dont even wanna go into detail with what happened but you know who you were if you were there !!i doubt there will be another time anytime soon that can top that, but hey thats what we said thrusday and then friday happened and then saturday - so party on all the way =) haha

me and anna are going to florida in 2 days !!!!! 2 !!!! my god im so fuckin excitied bc its gonna rockkkkkk (yes with 6 k's)

i dont know what to do about jeff =( .. i asked him what was goin on between us and he's all like "nikki i like you so much but im not ready for a relationship bc im not over ashley yet" .. bullshit .. honestly i took it for a while but do you even know when they broke up ?!! JULY .. july of 2004 to be exact and it is now february 2005 .. umm yea can you say get over it ?! like ali said, you get over deaths more quicker than that .. but like we have been talking since before new years and i dont feel like waiting another 2 monthes for him to come around .. i like him so much, i do .. but i cant take that im sorry .. and richie told me he still liked me - dont know whats going on there bc i dont know if i want anything there .. but like on friday i hooked up with richie and tom and i dont know if i should say something to jeff - like we arent going out but i have a feeling hes gonna be pissed if i tell him and i still wanna be friends, but you know what .. i was fully aware of everything that happened on friday and i know what i did and i dont care bc i had a fuckin good time .. i just dont know if im letting something really good go and then im gonna kick myself for it. GOD .. is this bullshit or is this not? if you read this could you tell me what you think of this -- i just gotta get some input here and then i can sort shit out =)

.. i wonder what the semi has in store for me -- haha o god is it ever gonna be ummmmm .. interesting ..

ok now that my venting is complete for the day .. im gonna go and eat my little mccain happy face potato things -- i just dont think i can cook them with all those little creepy faces staring at me -- o well they is potatos and i like them .. soo im out until i prolly get back from florida!!

cya sweetie pie

3 stopped crying i want to kiss away your tears tonight ..

.. seemed to stop my breath [06 Feb 2005|05:29pm]
[ mood | loved ]
[ music | death cab for cutie ]

well -- its the superbowl .. hooray for football =) .. can you tell im bored ?!

god i hate being at my dads house =\

florida is in t-minus 16 days .. and anna is coming with me !! we are gonna have so much fun god im so excited <33

friday i went to see boogeyman with jeff .. the movie pretty much sucked but i had a good time with him .. we went out to eat afterwords =) i really really like him .. geez i feel like such a little girl but hes liike no other guy ive ever met .. and i have no words to explain any of it but all i know is that i love the feeling of being/talking with him <33


im bored .. im on the phone with jeff .. but besides that im real bored

anyways im out

bye bitches =D

1 stopped crying i want to kiss away your tears tonight ..

[23 Jan 2005|01:24pm]
[ mood | cold ]
[ music | listenin.to.anna.on.the.phone ]

on the cheek.
on the lips.
on their hands or fingers.
in my room.
in their room.
of the same sex.
of the opposite sex.
younger than me.
older than me.
with jet black hair.
with curly hair.
with blonde hair & blue eyes.
with flaming red hair.
with straight hair.
smaller/shorter than me.
bigger/taller than me.
with a lip ring.
who was drunk.
who was high.
who I had just met.
who was homosexual.
who I didn't really want to kiss.
on a holiday.
who was going out with someone else.
who was going out with someone close to me.
who was my good friend's brother or sister.
who had been/is in jail.
in a graveyard.
at a show/concert.
at the beach.
in a pool, jacuzzi, or some type of water
who was legally too young/old for me to have sex with.
with dyed hair.
with a shaved head.
who was/is my good friend.
who was/is in a band.
who has tattoos.
who is of a completely different race than me.
in the rain.
in another continent besides where I was born.
with an accent.
with an std.
on a boat.
in a car/taxi/bus.
on a plane.
at the circus/carnival.
with a missing body part.
in the movies.
eskimo style.
butterfly style.
in parents bed\room. (well it was someone else parents room)
naked.
in snow.
with bad breath.
related to.
in a car.
causing a crash.
with more than one person at a time
while watching porn.
rebound.
they reminded you of someone else.
desperation.
rooftop.
closet.
on the foot.
on the knee

yepp .. thats all the places i've kissed - and it makes me feel like a whore bc it sounds like 30 people .. but it wasnt it was only like 3 !! (and the one of the same sex was definately anna on the CHEEK .. the cheek ..)

so yes jeff came over on friday and we watched the terminal -- and i totally missed the ending but im not complaining ; )

i never got to go and get my dress bc keleenas dad had that flu thats been going around, but i think i wanna borrow her yellow dress bc its abs. gorgeous !! so perhaps next week ..

anywayss im out for now -- theres deff 1ft of snow outside and im gonna go play in it - <333









( its feb 20 right now .. i just hadda come back and update the kissing thing .. im gonna keep doing it til i feel the need to stop ;] )

i want to kiss away your tears tonight ..

so you stood at your door with you hands on my waist and you kissed me like you meant it [19 Jan 2005|09:29pm]
[ mood | mellow ]
[ music | some dean martin <33 ]

5 THINGS YOU ARE WEARING
1. daver's gray soccer hoodie
2. ugly blue sweatpants
3. argyle underwear
4. red tank top
5. bra

5 THINGS YOU CAN SEE
1. cell phone
2. hello kitty water bottle
3. a calculator
4. pic of me and anna from semi last year
5. my kitty chloe <33

5 PEOPLE YOU HAVE KISSED
1. justin
2. jeff
3. anna (on the cheek)
4. my mommy
5. alibear (on the forehead

5 THINGS YOU ARE DOING RIGHT NOW
1. typing in this
2. listenin to i,robot
3. talking to anna
4. thinking about 'him'
5. waiting for my phone call

5 THINGS YOU ATE IN THE LAST 24 HOURS
1. bk onion rings
2. chicken nuggets
3. toast
4. cheez its
5. little cheese danish <33

5 THINGS YOU DID SO FAR TODAY
(well..since it's not technically the 20th)
1. work
2. talked to anna
3. went to school
4. got out of school early
5. cleaned half of my room

5 THINGS YOU CAN HEAR RIGHT NOW
1. tv
2. the IM sound thingy
3. the keys of the comp
4.
5.

5 COLORS YOU CAN SEE
1. yellow
2. blue
3. pink
4. orange
5. red

5 THOUGHTS IN YOUR HEAD
1. i really really like him
2. im so happy to be out of work
3. contemplating telling becky who left her that post
4. im kinda hungry
5. why my period is two weeks late =X .. and im still sex free!!

5 FAMOUS PEOPLE/ARTISTS YOU REALLY ENJOY OR WOULD NEVER MISS AN OPPORTUNITY TO WATCH/MEET
1. my chemical romance
2. molly ringwald
3. adam lazarra
4. marilyn monroe
5. britney spears - just to laugh in her face

10 OBJECTS IN YOUR ROOM YOU LOVE
1. my beloved wall <33
2. my pictures
3. the movie grind
4. my bedspread
5. the little lion thing jeff gave me
6. my pink chucks
7. my cd player
8. .. and all of my cds
9. my awesome stuffed animals
10. my room is just kick ass <33


now -- can you tell im bored ????

retreat this past weekend was very nice .. it ended up only being sat. and sun bc friday we got snow .. but i still had a good time. noithing imp this week so far .. friday jeff is coming over .. and tomorrow im goin over keleenas to look at dresses for the semi - hooray!

im out -- he's all over my mind and i dont feel like being stalkerish and writing a whole entry on him so im gonna go and lay on my bed and think about him <33




and i know .. that you meant it

1 stopped crying i want to kiss away your tears tonight ..

because maybe, your gonna be the one that saves me - [13 Jan 2005|03:56pm]
[ mood | trynot.to.let.it.get.tomyhead ]
[ music | take it away -the used ]

..2005 has been filled with so many new experiances for me and its only the 13th!, its exciting, yet im afraid of what the rest of the year had in store for me =D =\

so i have been hangin out/talking to jeff quite a bit lately. he came over my dads house this past weekend and it was reeal nice, i couldve stayed like that for a million years and be perfectly content with everything. i asked him to the semi, and he said he would go with me if he was home =\ i hope he is - but i guess its not that big of a deal if he doesnt bc then anna said she would come with me .. but ever since last night i have had so much shit run through my head - and its all just petty girl shit .. but what can i say i cant help it.


scratch that i just got my answer =) !!!

tomorrow i need to give march $20 for the limo for the down payment .. god i dont even have a dress yet but i will prolley go into bargain betty drive again and go to penneys to get a supercute dress like the past 2 dances <33

me and anna have had alotta moments lately - many .. um .. reoccurances of our freshman year habits and i must add that it has been nice =) i love her to death foreever and ever and ever (well durr shes my best friend what else can i say?!!) ;]

miss alibear got her license wednesday the 5th and i was muy excited for her <33

... and a champagne supernova in the sky

i want to kiss away your tears tonight ..

someday you will find me - caught beneath the landslide .. [02 Jan 2005|10:16pm]
[ mood | indescribable ]
[ music | oasis - champagne supernova ]

o man -- i am in this state of euphoria and i am loving every second of it <33

new years eve rocked .. it consisted of an awesome party at my house .. anna allison pat jon jeff<3 sara ali ren(and her bf jon) rafael and larissa all stoppped by at one point and we had a pretty awesome time .. then anna allison pat and jon stayed over my hosue. yes i know. my mom let me have guys stay over. it was weird she had no problem with it, but maybe bc its just pat and jon. their night was spent playin the namco plug and play for the tv with all those hot 80's games like pac man. but i had a good time .. and i mean a good time <33

i think i have a for real crush for once, and this time it is so mutual <3333

the dreamer side of me always had this aspiration to be kissed at midnight of a new year by someone i really like, and it happened - and i am on cloud nine <333

nothing can bring me down at this point --



(p.s. champagne supernova is my new favorite song by far <33 )

i want to kiss away your tears tonight ..

coffee sounds soo good right now - [27 Dec 2004|01:50pm]
[ mood | blank ]
[ music | im not okay,(i promise) - my chemical romance ]

so xmas was on saturday -- its was good , xmas eve on the other hand sucked .. we went to my dads to go to effing church - i hate church, but i did get a $20 target card a pair of pajamas from victorias secret with little snowflakes and they was cool.

my mom (i mean santa) bought me some pretty cool things:
- marilyn monroe purse
- retro photo album
- 2 pair of pants from american eagle
- long sleeve top from ae
- laundry basket with fuzz around the top
- new clogs (bc miune looked like shit)
- my plane ticket to disney <33
- my cell phone + freedom !!

my dad got me:
- fall out boy cd
- the dooney and bourke purse i loove <33
- 2 mut pretty bracelets
- $50 card to ae
- $50 to target

my g-ma and g-pa bought me:
- a whole book of archived photos of marilyn monroe <33
- pink fleece hoodie from ae
- cigar box purse
- earrings
- fuzzy scarf
- $50 for disneyy

so im a happy, and anna is sleepin over tonight and we is exchangin presents which will be cool bc hers is the one im lookin forward to <33

as of now im no longer speaking to my mother bc she wont let me go to my best friends house ( cant explain why) but all i know is that she is over-dramaticizing the situation (if thats even a word) .. but she makes me mad but its because 'she looves me' .. i hate it when they play that bit, bc its just gay on so many levels but im gonna go before anything else happens and i make myselg even more angry

i want to kiss away your tears tonight ..

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