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[19 Aug 2003|03:53pm] |
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Oops, long time and no update. What can I say? I'm bad like that. Brian has to bribe me to update anymore.
Speaking of Brian, he hard at work on his album still. It's sounding so great and I'm really really proud of him. I like to come with him to the studio even if I do distract. Truth be told, sometimes I will do things to see how long it will take him to react. I'm evil that way. Vote For Brian if you live in California. *snorts*
I can't believe what happened to Janie. That's just crazy. I'm glad she's alright though. I'm glad that Chris was there to protect her. I hope he has a speedy recovery.
Edit: Angel is here!!  ang_charissma Add her!
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[01 Aug 2003|06:22am] |
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I should really stop these very short updates. Oh well it's friday which leads to the weekend which leads to my self allocated time off which leads to a long update which leads to a very long run on sentence which leads to people annoyed with me. *smirks*
I've been really antisocial lately. I'm gonna stop that really soon. I've just had good reason to close myself off in a room with Brian. :-D
Oops I have to go. I have an appointment with someone.
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[28 Jul 2003|12:31pm] |
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I have a few minutes so I thought I'd actually update. I don't update as often as some of you. Maybe I should change that?
So much can be said for where I find myself right now. I don't think I've ever felt this for anyone. I've been close to it before but it doesn't even compair to how I feel right now. Everything seems a little brighter and clearer this morning. Hmm, wonder who I have to thank for that? :-*
OK so I didn't have as much time as I thought. *shrugs* Well maybe I can update again later or edit this one.
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[25 Jul 2003|12:30pm] |
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I have been trying to think all morning just how to write this update. I'm still not ceretain of how to put this into words. I'm going to try so..yes.
Brian came to see the show in New Jersey like planned. I have to say it was so great to see him after it had been so long since we have been face to face. Sure there have been phone calls but nothing compairs to seeing someone in person.
We hung out at bit before I had to go on. Just talking and goofing around. Then the conversation got a little bit more serious when Tony's name was brought up. I have to admit that I still am a little bit hurt but who wouldn't under the circumstance right? Then I think about it and I see why that had to happen. If it hadn't I wouldn't have found out how Brian feels for me and me for him. I have Janie to thank for my part anyway.
So I guess right now at this point we're dating. Seems kinda weird at first to say I'm dating Brian. Yet at the same time, it seems really natural. That probably made no sense at all. Oh well did to me and it's my journal. So there! *laughs*
I'm babbling so I think that's a sign to end this right here.
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[24 Jul 2003|06:13am] |
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I could update but I'm rushed for time. Let's just say I'm very happy from yesterday. :-D
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[23 Jul 2003|05:56am] |
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Life seems to be getting better by the hour. Brian will be here in 6 hours. Not that I'm counting or anything. I have a show in New Jersey and he's coming to see it. I'm going to seriously have problems performing if he's going to really do what he says.
Just talking to him yesterday brought a smile to my face that has been absent for the past 3 or 4 days. He's always had this gift of making me laugh or smile when I needed it the most. Hell, he can practically read my mind as is. It's impossible to hide anything from him. I wouldn't even try.
Janie, thanks for smacking me on the back of the head and making me realize something pretty important. I mistook a lot of feelings for something else. Your questions just made me think and I realize now that those feelings are different. Hi crypticness. *laughs* You know what I'm saying though. I hope anyway.
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[22 Jul 2003|06:01am] |
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I should crawl out of my funk and update. Trouble is, it's hard to do that. I miss him and I know I probably shouldn't. I mean we were only together for a short time right? I should be ok. I don't know..I really cared a lot about him. Heh, I should just move on.
This is all you're getting for now. Sorry. :-\
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[19 Jul 2003|06:10am] |
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We must seem like the most unlikely couple. On the outward appearance, I guess that's true. Yet if you take a closer look at us when we're not playing around in chat or whatever, we fit so well. I saw his show this week. I must say it was amazing. He's a wonderful performer. I'm not entirely sure as to what we are. Dating, boyfriends? It doesn't really matter to me that much. Titles are meant for insecure people. That's definitely not me. I'd be in a world of hurt if I let what people say go to heart.
I know there are people around here that don't like me. I have no idea what I've done to you, but please get over the past and move forward. The past is just that. I'm a different person if you'd care to get to know me. If not, continue to hate me. I'm fine with it either way. It's not gonna break my heart or anything.
Brian's here now. I'm really happy about that. I'm so glad to have my best friend around. I haven't had a chance to see him much since I've been so busy. Things are gonna start tapering off when I go into the studio. I'll be around more to at least go out at certain points of the day, even if it is lunch. So hopefully we'll be able to catch up on how the other is doing at some point.
Janie's still trying to get AJ here. I have to laugh at that because of how much she's bugging him. It's amusing. She's very persuasive but it's still up in the air. I kinda hope she does get him here. I've missed him.
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[16 Jul 2003|06:04pm] |
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I'm horrible with updates. I have so much to say and not very much time to say it in.
I'm already glad that I gave in to Janie. I'm seeing one of the most amazing guys I have ever met. God, the amount of time I've had a crush on him. It's wild to be able to date your crush. Who knew that could happen. Who knows were this is going. I just know I like the ideas I have of where it's gonna go.
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[12 Jul 2003|04:56pm] |
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OK so Janie dragged me here. Blame her for this. ;-)
XRockstar NickyX Use it well.
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