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I don't want to come back down from this cloud... it's taken all this time to find out what i need [Scribbled @ 6:53pm on 12.24.04 ] [ mood | high ] [ music | this cloud/ bush ] high... off a bong... i love this feeling... it's like this: i'm sitting there and i look up from looking at the ground... it feels like the world just turn right side up as i pull my head up and i think back and i'm like, was i just upside down? it feels like you were just upside down but it went by so fast can hardly remember does that make any sense whatsoever? are you lost?

wow... been awhile... [Scribbled @ 4:49pm on 12.24.04 ] [ mood | crazy ] [ music | i am smelling like a rose that somebody gave me ] Hmm anything new about me? Well, I'm officially a certified pothead and chain smoker... Oh, and I'm on Zoloft for an anti-depressant. God, where to start? Life still bites... Lets see... wanna start with guy problems? Sounds good to me... Okay, I like three guys (well, four now but we'll get to that later). I can't help it I always have this problem. The guys are: Jared, Donnie, and Eric. Well, I was staying at my bud Ashley's house last Friday and we were bored so we called our buddy Thor. (yes, that's his real name... funny, funny) Anyway, it turns out Jared was staying with him. We all decided to go to the movies to see that Lemony Snicket's one. Thor had to pay Jared's older bro to get him to drive them into town. We met at the arcade and Jared and Thor had been drinking with out us. Damn them. We walked to the movies and Jared and I were hitting it off greatly. He sat by me and we talked the entire time and we were leaning on each other. It was great stuff. Thor has fried too many brain cells smoking pot. Seriously. He leaned over and whispered, "Dude, Jared, Drew Carey's in this movie." Jared was like, "It's Jim Carrey, you dumbass." funny, funny. Then, towards the end of the movie his phone rang and he answered it! Der! Great times. Anyway, Jared wasn't drunk but he was pretty tipsy. I was like, "Dude, I can smell the alcohol on your breath." He was like, "Yeah, so can I." We started laughing. Well, we had to head straight back to Ashley's house and hardly got to say good-bye b/c Ashley's mom is a bitch. At 3am, we get a call from Thor and Jared, wanting us to come to this party up town. I was all for it but I figured Ashley wouldn't want to sneak out b/c of her mom. Turns out she was all for it but didn't think I would and neither of us said anything until the next day so that sucked, majorly. Anyway, Thor was like, "Please, Casey! Jared really wants you to come." Jared had also told me during the movie that he had to talk Thor into coming into town b/c he didn't want to. Wouldn't that make you think Jared like me also? I thought so. Well, Monday, at school, he ignored me completely. Tuesday, I found out from Donnie and Travis he told everyone he fingered me and we made out. He told Ashley he doesn't like, like me. This is the second time this time this yr. that I've gotten led on by a guy. (David... long story) Anyway, my buddy Scooter is going to confront him about the shit he's saying about me b/c Scooter is there for me. Okay, Donnie, I like, but his sister, Lisa, (it was her party) and my parents don't get along at all, so it'd be weird. Lisa likes me even though the disagreement with my parents, b/c she wanted to hang with me at the party. She was talking to me on Thor's cell. She was like, "Please! So John'll put his pants back on!" John's kickass. Then, there's Eric. He's my buddy and Erin said it's obvious we'd click b/c we're hanging out all the time and talking. Of course, every class I'm hanging with him makes Erin jealous. funny, funny. Okay... you ready for the fourth guy? Scooter. He's been my buddy since this summer and I think of him as one of my best friends but I like him... I care about him. This summer he told a bunch of people he thought I was hot and cute and fun and stuff like that but there's a couple of factors. One, he's ex, Heather, also a friend of mine. She told me that anybody that tries to get with Scooter is going to get her ass kicked. Of course, she doesn't know I like him. Normally, this wouldn't bother me but Heather is one of the few that could probably kick my ass. I catch him looking at me like he cares about me too but like he's too afraid to advance. Not to mention, he's friends with my dad. Heather eyes me every time Scooter and I even tease each other about anything. It's truly pathetic. She's one jealous, bitchy girl. She treats him like shit and wonders why he keeps breaking up with her. It's strange. I didn't even realize how much I care for him until yesterday when he, Heather, Erica, and I were getting stoned and he was talking about punching Jared (his friend) if he finds out what he's saying about me is true. I kept catching him looking at me and then it hit me like BAM... I care about him. I like him. I almost love him (I've never used the L word to anybody besides family and pets) but that's between us. What else to talk about? Hmm... Like I said, I'm officially a pot head. Wednesday, (my last day of school for x-mas break) I came to school, stoned. Again. It was pretty obvious stuff. Scooter and I went out across the street from the school to smoke a cigarrette and he was like, "You looked ripped." Boy, was I. I've been told I'm hilarious, stoned. By many. God, I love the feeling. Sometimes the room spins. Your head is just whirling around and yes, I have felt my hair grow out of my head. funny, funny. Hell, I've even smoked hash. I think that's about it. Today's Christmas Eve. Got my presents from my parents yesterday. My new stereo, a West Coast Choppers hoodie and tee, and a bunch of make up. I'm worried about my Dezzie. I haven't seen her forever and I'm extremely worried about her... Dezzie, if you're there... Let me know, kk? l8er dayz and highs l8er, casey elizabeth are you lost?

been forever [Scribbled @ 10:46pm on 9.24.04 ] i still don't have the internet (i'm baby-sitting at a neighbor's right now, so yeah) but i will be getting it soon... so don't worry! what's new w/ me? nothing... my life is still a piece of shit... but, hey, i've been 16 for a week now so that's kickass and i'm really liking this guy in my world geography class... he's into the doors, and shit like that (stuff i'm into and more... how many guys do you know in high-school that like bob marley? now, that's what i'm talking about! *lol* we talk now and then (he's a senior this yr.) one bad thing: i found out he sells pot.. see, drugs don't bother me... hell, i experiment w/ them sometimes (nothing bad) but i dunno... it's just one of those things... he's a really smart kid and all but i dunno about that... (and it turns out my mom dated his dad way back when... *ugh* lol) what's it like as a sophmore? sucks... i have hardly any friends that i care for and the ones i do have don't care for me so it all works out... i'm trying to bleach streaks in my hair so i can dye them green w/ kool-aid but my hair is such a dark dark black it just isn't working w/ peroxide OR blonde dye so i'm gonna have to resort to actual bleach... lol my friend ashley pierced my inner ear thing so that's kewl... well, l8er dayz, get back to ya when i can... casey elizabeth are you lost?

*yum* [Scribbled @ 7:54pm on 7.6.04 ] [ mood | drunk ] i am drinking luscious blackberry wine coolers *yum* l8er again, casey are you lost?

pull the trigger and the nightmare ends... coheed&cambria [Scribbled @ 7:44pm on 7.6.04 ] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | good charlotte "young and hopless" *ack* i hate gc. ] hey... i'm up at my uncle & aunts right now (have been since sunday night but we're going back early tomorrow morning... anyway, me, my mom, dad, and my uncle gary came down... they were just getting done w/ their garage sale (b/c they're moving)... and it was fun, fun... i've been fighting w/ gunner (he's only 7 but a little dickhead/asshole!)... so, yeah... i was playing around yesterday and wiped a TINY bit of lotion on his cheek and the fucker slapped me in the face *grr* and bent up the frames on my glasses... *grr* and so now they're fucked up... and i was pissed off and said that i didn't want him around me for the rest of the day b/c i was afraid of what i might do to him and of course, like usual, my dad yelled at me... l8tly i've been extremely depressed ... and everythings getting to me... i just dunno... some days i just want to die... i went to wal-mart and got the new coheed and cambria cd... *yeah* l8er, casey elizabeth are you lost?

new news... [Scribbled @ 1:03pm on 7.4.04 ] [ mood | accomplished ] [ music | none ] my mom called and she said that b/c uncle leo and aunt ronda and my cousins (bret, vince, gunner) have to be out of the town in 5 days (b/c they say the kids in their town are such a bad influence on vince that they have to leave town?!) we are going up there and since they're stopping by here anyway they're taking me too... they'll be here in an hr. or so... i won't be able to go the game (i wanted to go but i'd rather do this) so, yeah... and i won't be online for awhile either b/c i don't have a comp. at home... so,yeah l8er, casey p.s. i fixed my eyebrows w/ makeup (yes, yes) and i straightened my hair and for some reason i feel pretty today i have NEVER felt pretty before... for as long as i can remember are you lost?

*hmm* [Scribbled @ 10:14am on 7.4.04 ] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | none ] i demolished my eyebrows... well, i tried to wax but for some reason it wasn't working... i tried to tweez but it was too painful so i did the shameful thing........................................................................................................................................................................................................... i shaved 'em... and demolished 'em................. well, they're still there and they don't look like bohemian eyebrows anymore but they're barely their.... everyone says they don't look too bad and that they sorta look better than before but i have to fix up a few spots *ugh*... well, going to the baseball game at 7pm... (iowa cubs vs. arizona)... so, yeah for that... l8er, casey are you lost?

short entry... [Scribbled @ 6:21pm on 7.3.04 ] [ mood | calm ] [ music | mest "paradise (122 and Highland Street)" ] my cousin sadie's over so i can't stay long and she'll be staying the night tonight also... so, yeah... it wasn't so bad hanging out w/ her either (and it turns out she'll be in 5th grade not 4th)... last night we stayed up until 1am playing cribbage, rummy, slapjack, etc. and watching late nite tv (conan o'brien is the best! lol) so, that was fun and earlier today for no reason at all we had one of those giggling fits ... the one's you get for no reason... and are just fun... we laughed for 10 min. straight and i thought i was going to die b/c i couldn't breathe... it was fuglarious i sounded like a seal every time i tried to get air and she snorted like a pig! *lmao!* but, yeah... tomorrow i'm going to a baseball game so that'll be fun l8er, casey are you lost?

and as in the words of infamous chris rock [Scribbled @ 5:45pm on 7.2.04 ] [ mood | amused ] [ music | trapt "headstrong" ] "if you've ever been in love you've thought about murder and if you haven't thought about murder...you've never been in love" are you lost?

ayuh [Scribbled @ 5:32pm on 7.2.04 ] [ mood | indifferent ] [ music | none... ] nothing new really... except right now i'm about to get my eyebrows peeled off... *ouch*... i've never really been into the whole beauty thing and i have caveman eyebrows and i'm also sick of them ... so woala! bye, bye they shall go once the wax heats up... also, my cousin sadie is coming to stay the night (she'll be in 4th next yr.) she's sweet... but she's the exact opposite of me... she's the soon-to-be preppy, cheerleader type but whats great about her is i can tell she isn't going to be the snobby ones... she'll be the one in high-school everyone likes... (even the trampled on geeks or the punk'd or the goth or just anybody in general) well, i g2g l8er, casey are you lost?

*there's a destination for everyone*new 'do?¿ enlightening talk w/ my g-pa? NOT POSSIBLE...yes 'tis! [Scribbled @ 11:38pm on 7.1.04 ] [ mood | amused ] [ music | mest "walking on broken glass" ] "not sorry and i'll never regret these years"<<"jaded" mest feat. benji madden *ack* i hate gc *ack* but i love mest... anyway... today was very interesting... my grandmother had made an appt. yesterday for today to get my hair trimmed/thinned, etc. so, i did that but i was truly disappointed.. (my g-ma knows how very much i want straight hair and how i hate my unmanagable HIDEOUS curly hair) the lady told me she wasn't going to thin it b/c it would just make my curls more frizzy/foofy, etc. and that she was just going to layer it so to speak (and she said she'd only trim a little b/c i want to keep my long hair curly or not) and that was that... all she did was cut a few inches off which is more than i wanted (g-ma tells me she only cut 1/2 an inch but i know better b/c it's my hair! lol) and layer it? the hell she did... it looked exactly as it did before i went in except a few inches shorter... ooo what a big fucking deal *grr* and i was really upset b/c on top of all the other shit i have to deal w/... my looks are on the top ten list... pig nose, i'm fat, i have nasty looking curly hair, i pratically have a unibrow, and i'm just ugly in general... and i'm really sick of my ugly frizzy curly hair... and i couldn't help it but when we got back i went to my room and bawled... my g-ma walked in on me... she saw how upset i was and decided that our quest today was to straighten my hair (this was not my intention tho i didn't oppose upon it) and so, our quest started... her hair girl, brandy, (the same that did my hair that day) said she didn't do straightening hair but she have us pointers in case we decided to do it ourselves (that's what we did considering it would've cost us $300 fucking bucks to get it done at a diff't saloon) and we went to sallys beauty shop and got this curl remover that's suppose to relax the curls and a helen of troy flat iron straightener and woala! i can officially straighten my hair whenever i want and if i don't feel like it my curls are so tight... instead they're looser... *yeah!* next, we went back over to carolanne's and david's for another boring time *blah*... and, of course, jason didn't speak a word and he stayed by himself in the other room and dumbass me didn't say a damn word to him... *ack to me* and they're leaving early tomorrow morn. so that was my last chance and i, like usual, fucked it up... *sighs* 'o' well... when we left, my grandfather was drunk and we actually had an enlightening conversation about teenagers today... i believe the reason we're all so screwed up is b/c the generation before us (our parents) were a big disappointment and provided no support and expected us to grow up w/in 2 days and he thinks thats possible but also that we all believe that all of our problems lie w/in someone else's fault but not all truly are and not to mention that we have grown up in a material world... interesting convo to have w/ a racist grandfather, eh? l8er, casey are you lost?

*ack*... going to bed now... *ack* [Scribbled @ 11:48pm on 6.30.04 ] "We've Had Enough"(alkaline trio) In the shadows where the heads hang low You hear voices as the wind blows, asking "can't you see?" Reminding you to breathe It's only time before it catches up to you and all your broken luck I found a better way to get even with my memory In the darkness where the angels cry Give us water, give us back our eyes Our bed's this concrete floor, and it's all we have left to live for A day we'll never face We're only second-handed, sick, and lonely Fighting back the tears and every urge to Van Gogh both our ears That said, we've had enough Please turn that fucking radio off Ain't nothing on the air waving the despair we feel In the shadows where the heads hang low You hear voices as the wind blows, asking "can't you see?" Reminding you to breathe It's only time before it catches up to you and all your broken luck I found a better way to get even with my enemies That said, we've had enough Please turn that fucking radio off Ain't nothing on the air waving the despair we feel That said, we've had enough Put "Walk Among Us" on and turn it up Ain't nothing on the air waving the hatred we feel This is our biggest fear The only tunes that we hear Come via antenna through your car raid-ee-uh-oh-oh-no That said, we've had enough That said, we've had enough are you lost?

quiz [Scribbled @ 8:51pm on 6.30.04 ] [ mood | bitchy ] [ music | alkaline trio "trucks and trains" ] Adam Lazarra from Taking Back Sunday *Who is the perfect Emo Singer boyfriend for You?* brought to you by Quizilla are you lost?

what the hell is your name? can you explain this mess? [Scribbled @ 8:36pm on 6.30.04 ] [ mood | bitchy ] [ music | alkaline trio "you're dead" ] FAT LIP(sum41) Stormin through the party like my name is El Nino When I'm hangin out drinkin in the back of an El Camino As a kid, was a skid And no one knew me by name Trashed my own house party cause nobody came Well I know I'm not the one you thought you knew back in high school Never go and never showin up when we had to Attention that we crave, don't tell us to behave I'm sick of always hearin act your age I don't wanna waste my time Become another casualty of society I'll never fall in line Become another victim of your conformity And back down Because you don't know us at all We laugh when old people fall But what would you expect with a conscience so small Heavy metal and mullets is how we were raised Maiden and Priest were the gods that we praised Cause we like havin fun at other people's expense And, cuttin people down is just a minor offense And, it's none of your concern, I guess I'll never learn I'm sick of bein told to wait my turn I don't wanna waste my time Become another casualty of society I'll never fall in line Become another victim of your conformity and back down Don't count on me, to let you know when Don't count on me, I'll do it again Don't count on me, it's the point you're missing Don't count on me, cause I'm not listening Well I'm a no gooddick lower middle class brat Backpack and I don't give a shit about nothin You'll be standin on the corner talkin all that kufuffin Well you don't make since from all that gas you be huffin Cause if the egg don't stain you'll be ringin off the hook You're on the hit list, wanted in the telephone book I like songs with distortion Drinking in proportion The doctor said my mom should've had an abortion I don't wanna waste my time Become another casualty of society I'll never fall in line Become another victim of your conformity And back down (Waste my time again) Casualty of society (Waste my time again) Victim of your conformity And back down are you lost?

*sighs*boredom* [Scribbled @ 7:50pm on 6.30.04 ] [ mood | bored ] .Screaming Infidelities.. I'm missing your bed, I never sleep Avoiding the spots where we'd have to speak & this bottle of beast is taking me home. I'm cuddling close to blankets and sheets You're not alone & you're not discreet. You make sure I know, who's taking you home. I'm reading your note over again. There is not a word that I comprehend, except when you signed it "I will love you always & forever" As for now I'm gonna hear the saddest songs, and sit alone and wonder, how you're making out, but as for me I wish that I was anywhere with anyone making out I'm missing your laugh, how did it break? And when did your eyes begin to look fake? I hope you're as happy as your pretending. I'm missing you bed, I never sleep. Avoiding the spots where we'd have to sleep. And this bottle of beast is taking me home. Your hair. It's everywhere. Screaming infidelities. Taking it's wear. are you lost?

'ello [Scribbled @ 4:42pm on 6.30.04 ] [ mood | amused ] [ music | alkaline trio "armaggedon" ] nothing new really... i called vicki and we talked for a little while about going shopping the 10th and then she got on yahoo and we talked for a little while longer... and then, jenny called (b/c i had called earlier and she hadn't answered) and we talked for a little while *sighs* i miss home :( ... i can't wait until the 10th b/c we're going shopping (me, vicki, rachel, and dez... 'o' and vicki's mom too b/c she doesn't trust rachel driving just yet even tho rachel's had her liscense for quite some time... just doesn't trust her big city driving :p...hell, i don't even trust her driving in town! she took vicki into a ditch not too long ago on a gravel road and when she was taking me home one day she didn't stop at a stop sign and this other car was coming ... ! it was crazy... lol) are you lost?

i have another question [Scribbled @ 10:21pm on 6.29.04 ] by now, you two are probably getting sick of me... but, how do i save my background and such? ... thanx so much for the help... and by the way, you two are a cute couple l8er, casey are you lost?

*ack*cold sore*ack* [Scribbled @ 9:04pm on 6.29.04 ] [ mood | awake ] [ music | mest "return to self-loathing" ] *ugh* i have a cold sore... they always come at the worst times *ack* i hate 'em anyway, me stepgrandad and i went over to his sister carolanne's (where tom and jason are staying) and they sat there and talked about NOTHING... i sat there bored as a block, chowing down on chips&salsa and jason was in the house watching tv... so much for trying to make a new friend (*ahem*cute*friend*... lol) but, hey they don't go back to las vegas until either thurs. or fri. (jason doesn't live in LV... he lives in iowa but his parents are divorced and he's staying w/ his dad all summer like he usually does)... so, there's still tomorrow... l8er dayz, casey p.s. i don't think it helped w/ my nasty cold sore *ack* are you lost?

*ack*coldsore*ack* [Scribbled @ 8:51pm on 6.29.04 ] [ mood | crushed ] [ music | alkaline trio "armaggedon" ] *ugh* i have a cold sore... anyway, my stepgrandpa and i went over to his sister carolanne's (that's where tom and jason are staying) and we stayed there for awhile while the adults chit-chatted about NOTHING>>> i sat there and pigged out on chips&salsa out of boredom and jason sat in the house and watched tv... i shoulda joined him but chicken shit me didn't... well, i guess, there's always tomorrow... *ack* he's so cute and i just can't really get the courage to try and talk w/ him... *ack* i'm such a chicken shit... l8er, casey are you lost?

... my adopted blob thingy?! [Scribbled @ 3:11pm on 6.29.04 ] [ mood | blank ] [ music | alkaline trio "steamer trunk" ] just bored as hell... here's my adopted blob thingy... are you lost?

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