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Your Irish Name Is... |
Jacinta Maguire
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You Will Die at Age 61 |
61
You're pretty average when it comes to how you live...
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15
Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.
13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.
20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.
30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!
40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.
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You are PUNK! U like being around those who are
really close to u. You get depressed most times
but you just wanna live!You have alot of
feelings and thoughts inside that you keep to
yourself! sometimes you dont know who to trust.
You have friends that believe in you and know the
real you, which means the most.
Thanks, please rate
Are you GOTHIC, PREP, PUNK,UNIQUE (girls only)
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~*~*~*~*~UNIQUE~*~*~*~*~
You are different. You're the type of person that
is easily spotted in a crowd. You have a
radiant personality. You probably go through a
lot of mood swings from happy to lonely, angry
to sad, loving to spiteful, and so on. Be aware
that your sudden change in personality may
offend some people. People like to be around
you because you are genuine and relaxed. You
seem at peace with yourself and you give off
that "what you see is what you get"
vibe. That's a good thing because your general
audience will feel relaxed and at ease knowing
that they too can be themselves with out having
to worry. Try not to judge others on their
appearance. It's not nice. Over all you're a
spirited person who enjoys having a good time!
Good for you! :o)
Please Rate or message me! Thank you for taking my
quiz! XoXo <3 Lana
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[Scribbled @ 7:27pm on 1.29.05 ] |
In your eyes, people can't seem to see anything
because your eyes are covered up by tears! You
are constantly hurt and depressed... No one
seems to understand how you feel because
everyone is scared to get close to you... You
long to be able to reach out and tell someone
everything, and all of your problems... But you
have no one to tell, or they just don't seem to
want to hear what you have to say. You've been
hurt many times that you don't seem to have any
tears left to shed, or if you do, they're an
endless river flowing... You've started to hide
and bottle up all or your problems and
feelings, hoping that maybe they just will go
away... You want company, but at the same time,
you're scared of it. Your sanctuary is your
room where you can just be alone and try to
throw away all of your aching pains. You're
dark and mysterious and people like you for
that reason. Even if you think you're all by
yourself in the dark, someone is always there
with you. Your special someone wants to admit
and show their feelings towards you, but
they're afraid of how you'll take it. Get out
more and enjoy life because, it is far too long
to frown your way through :)
What Lies Behind Your Eyes? (With Pics, See All Results!)
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[Scribbled @ 5:16pm on 1.9.05 ] |
Feeling extremely empty inside and vulnerable. Why? Not sure. Just do. My head aches and I feel as though my heart's ready to explode. I have so many mixed emotions and thoughts. So many different feelings over so many different situations. I haven't gotten my meds refilled yet. See what happens? It's truly pathetic when you have to take Zoloft to feel at least half normal, to conjure up just a tiny bit of happiness. Pathetic, eh? Yes, truly pathetic.
Talked to my mom about wanting to move. Dad already wants to move to Ohio, for some odd reason. I want something new. A new enviroment, new people. But, then again, I'm not for sure if that's what I want. I mean, I regretted moving from my old town and that's only some odd miles away. If I move there will only be ew I miss but those few will be missed greatly. I just don't know anymore.
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[Scribbled @ 2:12am on 1.8.05 ] |
Sitting here... trying to play a contest with myself... how long i can go with out sleep... *hmm*
Why is it when i'm alone... that's when the tears come most often... My consciousness is pushing me down on the ground again and the only way to get up is to hold onto something. Anything. Why can't I find my something? Sometimes, I sit and think how my parents fucked my life by their crank habits back in the day and how all I ever wanted was them to stop screaming at each other, to stop fighting, when I was sitting up in my room trying not to take something sharp to my wrists. Or, sometimes I think about how some of my closest friends have screwed me over. How Vicki, who use to be one of my prime rulers as a friend, fucked me over by continously screwing me off for her new-found boyfriend, Scott, and how ever since I moved, she seems to have changed from the very few miles between us. Or, sometimes I think of how guys have fucked me over this past school year, so far. David and his leading me on. Jared and his rumors about our date. Scooter and about how we both care for each other but all he wants to do is get laid by as many girls as he can since he broke up with Heather (his girl of 5 or so years). Of how I've gotten close to Dusty and Eric. How Kyle lead me on and turned his back away and shunned me. Sometimes, I think of how I promised never to turn out like my parents. I would never drink, smoke ciggarettes, smoke pot, anything. Over the past year I've gotten hooked on Marlboros and weed and I've been drinking for quite awhile now. I'm missing the days before I'd sit on my bed with Dusty, Dezzie, and Scooter and smoke a couple of bowls for fun or before I'd get sloshed with my cousins and Heather. Before I'd run around town and share ciggs with Scooter and bum extra ones off Jenny with the lies that I didn't have any (hell, Scooter always has some and he always shares with me) and that I'd pay her back (never have and probably never will). The tears are consuming me again... I'm trying my best to think of the good things lately... seeing Dezzie for the first time in months, the way Scooter looks at me, starting to raise my grades back up to where they use to be back in the day, finally admitting to my mom of my depression and getting put on meds (even though they are obviously not helping)
l8er dayz,
casey elizabeth
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[Scribbled @ 12:22pm on 1.7.05 ] |
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suppose to go school but i didn't feel well this morning so i said fuck it...
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| been thinking about the situation with Brown Eyes |
[Scribbled @ 2:15pm on 1.6.05 ] |
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Just got back from taking my dad to the bus station with Ericka and my mom. Cold as hell. Ericka came along because when it comes to driving in the snow, my mom freaks. Panic attacks. Ericka was there to calm my mom down because I'm no help. I tell her to get over it when she's freaking because she needs to get over driving in winter. She's thirty seven the 12th. Of course, I have no room to talk. I almost went through an old abandoned house when Nate took me driving! *funny, funny*
"Are you stuck inside of a world you hate?"
Welcome to my Life/ Simple Plan
No school, yet again... Still dreading going back.
Going to see if I can stay with Dezzie this weekend. It'll piss Ashley off because she's so clingy but she'll have to live with it because I don't put up with that bull and she tries and makes me feel guilty every time I do something with someone else. I mean, she's not my only friend.
I decided that I don't want a relationship right now with Brown Eyes, even if I have a chance because I want a meaningful thing with him. He's too special to just date for fun. Until he grows up and gets over the whole "I'll fuck anything" stage in his life. I'm not ready to give myself up just to please him. I want to be ready. I want to give myself up for me. Of course, Brown Eyes knows nothing of this. I'm sure he realizes that I care for him and both Ashley and Dezzie have said he looks at me more than just a friend OR fuck. Enough of my ramblings for now.
l8er dayz,
casey elizabeth
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[Scribbled @ 11:09am on 1.5.05 ] |
New Year. Same sucky life.
Parents were out New Years night. Got stoned by myself. Buzz kill.
Have I ever said that guys are completely and utterly insensitive and all they ever want to do is get laid? It's the truth...
"I love scotch. Scotch, scotch, scotch." Will Farrell/ Anchorman
Why do I have to be so confused about all the guys in my life? It's just all so damn confusing. How guys like David and Jared lead you on and how other guys (Brown Eyes) can be so close to you as a friend and you both want more, secretly, but he won't let you know and all he wants to do at this moment and time is to get laid. *Ack* His laying on me the other night and when he looked up at me with that sparkle in his eyes and went, "You're my buddy, right?" I can't get those big brown eyes out of my mind.
New Years Resolutions:
1. Lose weight (goal: 135)
2. Find a good boyfriend
3. Pierce tongue
4. Publish a piece of work
5. Get a decent job
"To every broken heart in here" Lost Prophets
Ashley lost her virginity to Matt. *eww* She claims she was under the influence. I feel like she betrayed me...
She got me one last Christmas present. It's a kickass digital camera.
"It's all part of the choices that you make"
Ashley's New Years Resolutions:
1. Lose weight (goal: 145)
2. Find a good boyfriend
The hours tick by. I wait. Waiting for something, anything. The days go by and I still wait. Sixteen years and nothing to show for it. Sixteen years and I've accomplished nothing. No one cares about me. Nobody notices me and I've done nothing to let anyone see me.
Suppose to go back to school Monday but haven't b/c of the bad weather. Ice storms and snow storms.
Got into a fight with my parents a few nights ago. I swear, sometimes they're so ignorant and selfish. Both of them. I'm grounded until Friday or Saturday.
I feel betrayed.
I've been thinking about Heather, Erica, Scooter, and all of them. I realized that Scooter's probably my only true friend out of all of them. I mean, Heather and Erica are always doing things, running around and I'm never invited or anything. They never come over to see me at all. Scooter visits me all the time. The other night, he didn't have to come over and get me stoned. Just a thought.
Extremely fucked up in the head. Six words to describe me, in an instant. I cry when I'm alone and have to hold in the tears when I'm around others. They flow so freely and scour my eyes with the burn of the salt. They stain my cheeks and fill my heart with a sense of hopelessness. But, the flowing of these tears also heal the wounds in my soul, like salt on a cut. It burns but helps at the same time.
"Come on baby, light my fire."
Doors
Jim Morrison's poetry is so enriching and alive. Almost makes me want to trip on acid.
Got the internet hooked up today.
l8er dayz,
casey elizabeth
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[Scribbled @ 2:13pm on 12.31.04 ] |
Indescribable feeling when he looks at me with those sparkling puppy dog eyes...
Hold my hand as I fall some more...
The simplicity of everything when I'm around him...
"Underneathe your clothes
There's an endless story
There's the man I chose
There's my territory" Shakira/ Underneathe Your Clothes
I can't get those big brown eyes out of my head or that dimpled smile.
But, there's also Eric. Lets not forget about sk8boarder, Eric. Cute, shy. Doesn't party too much. VIRGIN, like me. He's really sweet and fun but my feelings for him aren't nearly as strong as Brown Eyes. I mean, don't get me wrong, I really like Eric, but I don't know.
"With you I fall so fast"
Ahh! It's the "L" bug!
Lost Prophets
Last Train Home
One! Two! Three!
To every broken heart in here
Love was once a part, but now it's disappeared
She told me that it's all part of the choices that you make
Even when you think you're right
You have to give to take
But there's still tomorrow
Forget the sorrow
And I can be on the last train home
Watch it pass the day
As it fades away
No more time to care
No more time, today
But we sing
If we're going nowhere
Yeah we sing
If it's not enough
And we sing
Sing without a reason
To ever fall in love
I wonder if you're listening
Picking up on the signals
Sent back from within
Sometimes it feels like I don't really know whats going on
Time and time again it seems like everything is wrong in here
But there's still tomorrow
Forget the sorrow
And I can be on the last train home
Watch it pass the day
As it fades away
No more time to care
No more time, today
But we sing
If we're going nowhere
Yeah we sing
If it's not enough
And we sing
Sing without a reason
To ever fall in love
Well we sing if we're going nowhere
Yeah we sing if it's not enough
And we sing
Sing without a reason to ever fall in love
But we sing
If we're going no where
Yeah we sing
If it's not enough
And we sing
Sing with out a reason to never fall in love
To never fall in love again
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| guys, guys, guys |
[Scribbled @ 5:13pm on 12.30.04 ] |
Hey, I'm at my bud, Dezzie's house.
She stayed at my place last night and we partied. We had my buddy Scooter and his cousin, Dusty over and we were all gotten stoned in my room... *ssh* lol...
Scooter, you know, is the guy that I really care for... possibly the "L" word but there are so many factors if we ever started dating... one, his ex-girlfriend who's a friend of mine and she'd kick my ass if I touched "her" Scooter (even though she's a bitch to him). I can't blame her though b/c they've been going out on and off for four freaking years!! Second factor, he parties like me, but way more than me. Thirdly and lastly, he's WAY more sexually active than me... funny, funny. But I don't think he'd ever pressure me into anything b/c he's just that damn sweet.
It was great, he gave me even more signals that he might possible like me as much as I like him, last night. We were getting stoned and all four of us were sitting on my bed and he sat right by me and then he layed on my leg and he was just flirty. (though, that could've been b/c he was so stoned...) Then, he looked up at me at one point and looked in my eyes with his *yummy* brown eyes and was like, "You're my buddy, right?" But, it wasn't in a friend sort of tone when he said it. It was more than that and he kept staring at me strangely with that twinkle in his eye that he always has... Before that, when he was over, we were playing around and I pushed him and he grabbed my arm and he stopped for a nanosecond like he was just holding on to my arm (until my dad gave him a extremely dirty look... funny, funny)... It's a strange relationship. Even if we never start dating, I think we're going to be friends forever b/c he's just that type of guy.
I get to see my Dezzie! *yeah*!! I haven't seen her since this summer! funny, funny...
l8er dayz,
casey elizabeth
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[Scribbled @ 11:58am on 12.28.04 ] |
congratulations. you are the kiss my ass happy
bunny. You don't care about anyone or anything.
You must be so proud
which happy bunny are you?
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[X] been drunk.
[X] smoked pot.
[] kissed a member of the opposite sex.
[] kissed a member of the same sex.
[] had sex with a boy.
[] had sex with a girl.
[] had a three-some.
[] ridden in a taxi.
[] been dumped.
[] shoplifted.
[] snuck out of your parent's house.
[] been arrested.
[] made out with a stranger.
[] celebrated new years in times square.
[] went on a blind date.
[] had a crush on a teacher.
[] celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans.
[X] skipped school.
[X] thrown up from drinking.
[X] played 'clue'
[X] had a sleepover party.
[] gone ice skating.
[] cheated on a bf/gf.
[] been cheated on.
[] had a sweet sixteen.
[] had a quinceañera.
[] had a car.
[X] driven.
----Do you----
[] have a bf.
[] have a gf.
[X] have a crush.
[] feel loved.
[X] feel lonely. *at times*
[] feel happy.
[X] hate yourself.
[] think you're attractive.
[] have a dog.
[X] have your own room.
[X] listen to rock.
[ ] listen to soul.
[] listen to techno. Its good when your driving
[] listen to reggae.
[X] paint your nails.
[X] have more than 1 best friend.
[X] play an instrument.
[X] have slippers.
[X] wear boxers. *haha.*
[X] wear black eyeliner
[] like the color blue.
[] like the color yellow.
[X] like to read.
[X] like to write.
[X] have long hair.
[] have short hair.
[X] have a cell phone.
[] have a laptop.
[] have a pager.
----Are you----
[X] ugly.
[] pretty.
[] ok.
[X] bored.
[] happy.
[X] lonely.
[X] depressed.
[] bilingual
[] Italian
[X] white.
[] black.
[] dutch creole
[] mexican.
[] asian.
[] short.
[] tall.
[] grounded.
[] sick.
[] naughty.
[X] lazy.
[X] single.
[] taken.
[] talking to someone.
[] IMing someone.
[X] scared to die.
[X] tired.
[X] sleepy.
[] annoyed.
[] hungry.
[X] thirsty.
[ ] on the phone.
[] in your room.
[] drinking something.
[] eating something.
[X] in your pjs.
[X] ticklish.
[X] listening to music
[] on crack.
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[Scribbled @ 11:50am on 12.28.04 ] |
You are a dark girl. You have a really quiet and
really a i dont' care attitude. You like to be
alone and that is what you enjoy. You don't
like to be around others and you'd rather be
away from here. You have a get away from me
look and others find you bitchy and
self-rigious. You'd rather read than be at a
fair but that's ok because that's who you are.
Who are you inside????? (LOTS OF RESULTS)girls only
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"Let's give this another try..."
Lost in this endless maze of guilt. What am I guilty of? I've been the one pushed around and the neglected one. But why do I always feel so damn guilty? Why am I tormented by thse demons? Will I be pushed around for the rest of my life.
My head is killing me.
"Show me how defensless you really are"
Untouchable
unconscious and lost
am I forbidden to follow?
I close my eyes to picture his face
but his touch, forbidden also
Untitled
pressured every inch of the way
I've been swallowed whole by the tears
forest green covers the surface
can't count my blessings, only my endless fears
"You my friend
Are a lot like them
But I cut your line
And you know I did
Now, I'm lost in you
Like I always do
And I'd die to win
Because I'm born to lose"
Firefly/ Breaking Benjamin
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[Scribbled @ 3:37pm on 12.27.04 ] |
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I need to call my Dezzie. I'm extremely worried about her. God, I'm worried about her.
My mouth tastes badly like cigarettes. Bad habit.
Dean and Jody stopped by last night to drop off my Christmas presents. Got me a bunch of stuff including: a Lost Prophets cd, Breaking Benjamin cd, and shoes. They spent more on me than my own parents. funny, funny (but true)
My Great Uncle, Denny, has a brain tumor and isn't going to last long. My second cousin, Kassie, is really badly into crank and her two year old, Elaina, got taken away. Well, at least she's most likely in a better enviroment. Crank's nasty.
Uncle Jimmy told dad that he's going to take a wk.end off from his work just for me so I can go up and stay with him for awhile. He's one of the few who I felt ever really cared or understood me and when he came up for Christmas, with his new girlfriend, and completely ignored me, I was crushed. Not to mention, I had taken my zoloft in two days. That's when I almost had my mental breakdown. He told dad that he's worried about me. If he only knew the reason I freaked was b/c of him I wonder what he'd think then. He's not acting like himself and I don't like it. I don't like his new girlfriend either (and not just b/c of the attention thing). There's something flakey about her. Hell, he hardly talked to me. I don't even know if he's still in his rock band, Energy Under Influence. They're kickass.
That's it, for now.
l8er dayz,
casey elizabeth
P.S. I miss ya Dezzie!
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[Scribbled @ 1:57pm on 12.26.04 ] |
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About had a mental breakdown yesterday... Yes, on Christmas...
Explain rest later. Deals with my uncle Jimmy.
l8er dayz,
casey elizabeth
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