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I'm in a SUPER FREAKING good mood and I have NO clue as to why. Uhhh Let's see. I woke up at like 8 which is REALLY early. I passed out last night literally and I woke up in the exact same position and spot I was in when I had fallen asleep. It was weird because usually I'm all over the place.
Wellll I went ahead and got in the shower and got dressed and all that getting ready stuff. Then my mom came home and we left the house at like 11 or something to run some errands.
We went to the bank and then looked at this sweetass car along with some crappy ones I was thinking about buying..(I'll talk more about that in a second) Then we went to some store and I got this coconut skin exfoliating junk and some coconut lotion wow it smells super good. Yeah so then we went to Walmart and of course spent like an hour there.
I REALLY want a stereo system for my room. Like a CD player. Alls I have is that crappy Radio Alarm thing. Plus I need a Cassette Player for my Barbie-Think Pink Cassette. Haha you know you love it...
So yeah..I also want a camcorder because those rule.
Anyways..THE CAR! Yeah..I might be buying a new car. It's a White Grand Vitara (insert weird numbers and meaningless car jibberish here) with bottom running boards, I THINK it has a CD changer I'm not positive on that one, but it's a stick shift eh. Anyways I don't know because I don't speak car language but it's a 1999 and it has like 88 thousand miles but who the hell cares. It looks sweet. Anyways I'm going to post a picture or two and then I'm out. I really really really really want it. I have to cough up SOME money for it but of course my parents would contribute.
I want some chicken noodle soup..I'm going to make some after I'm done updating this..mmm chicken noodle soup...
Anyways yeah so here's the car. It's alot cuter the one I'm looking at and it's white and like I said it has runner boards at the bottom and it's closer to the ground.
( Car I Might Be Getting Click Me )
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I love this song. Yes it's about losing your virginity and I don't care. It's still a good song and tt gives me chills beyond belief.. So download it and listen to it over and over again..or God save your hellbound soul. ^_^
Keep the noise low.
She doesn't wanna blow it.
Shaking head to toe
While your left hand does "the show me around."
Quickens your heartbeat.
It beats me straight into the ground.
You don't recover from a night like this.
A victim, still lying in bed, completely motionless.
A hand moves in the dark to a zipper.
Hear a boy bracing tight against sheets
barely whisper, "This is so messed up."
Upon arrival the guests had all stared.
Dripping wet and clearly depressed,
he'd headed straight for the stairs.
No longer cool, but a boy in a stitch,
unprepared for a life full of lies and failing relationships.
(Up the stairs: the station where
the act becomes the art of growing up.)
He keeps his hands low.
He doesn't wanna blow it.
He's wet from head to toe and
his eyes give her the up and the down.
His stomach turns and he thinks of throwing up.
But the body on the bed beckons forward
and he starts growing up.
The fever, the focus.
The reasons that I had to believe
you weren't too hard to sell.
Die young and save yourself.
The tickle, the taste of...
It used to be the reason I breathed
but now it's choking me up.
Die young and save yourself.
She hits the lights.
This doesn't seem quite fair.
Despite everything he learned from his friends,
he doesn't feel so prepared.
She's breathing quiet and smooth.
He's gasping for air.
"This is the first and last time," he says.
She fakes a smile and presses her hips into his.
He keeps his hands pinned down at his sides.
He's holding back from telling her
exactly what it really feels like.
He is the lamb, she is the slaughter.
She's moving way too fast and all he wanted was to hold her.
Nothing that he tells her is really having an effect.
He whispers that he loves her,
but she's probably only looking for...(sex)
So much more than he could ever give.
A life free of lies and a meaningful relationship.
He keeps his hands pinned down at his sides.
He waits for it to end
and for the aching in his guts to subside.
The fever, the focus.
The reasons that I had to believe
you weren't too hard to sell.
Die young and save yourself.
The tickle, the taste of...
It used to be the reason I breathed
but now it's choking me up.
Die young and save yourself.
Up the stairs: the station where
the act becomes the art of growing up.
The fever, the focus.
The reasons that I had to believe
you weren't too hard to sell.
Die young and save yourself.
The tickle, the taste of...
It used to be the reason I breathed
but now it's choking me up.
Die young and save yourself.
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Well hmm..today was eventful
*I woke up 15 minutes late.
*I went to school like normal but I hate B days.
*I laughed until I cried in English thanks to Caitlin.
*Someone fucking called me in Family and Parenting and my cell phone went off. Bastard
*Chemistry I wanted to kill myself it was that boring.
Uhh so afterschool I went and saw Pirates of the Carribean again. I ended up falling asleep because I was so tired. I'm still looking into buying a new car. I went and ate at some chinese restaurant then drove home. On my way home I saw Caitlin and Jenna so I walked with them for a while then they came back to my house and Caitlin borrowed one of my CD's then me and Jenna sat on my patio and talked about my upcoming party that will hopefully take place in September but October at the latest.
VMA's are in 6 days...I'm guilty of being curious as to whether or not AFI will win..The only problem is I'll have to sit through 2 hours of pure torment listening to watered down MTV shittastic artists who couldn't give a fuck about their fans.
The Cramps..are genius.
Uhhh hmmm..okay I'm tired now I'm going to go to bed.
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Hmmm...Well today I got my spanish class switched to a Sociology class. I went to 3rd and 4th lunch just to be dumb and nothing all that interesting happened. Uhhh..Friday is tomorrow. Which means the weekend!
It seems that this year sucks so much more than last year. Like last year we didn't know what to expect. Now that we know what to expect and our beliefs of it sucking have been confirmed..it's gotten worse. Every day drags on even slower.
I've been really loving older punk and stuff from the 80's. I really LOVE pyschobilly too.
I love the song below. It rules.
I've been in one of those moods where I'm really bored but I dont' want to do anything. I don't really want to go anywhere. My dad wouldn't let me sleep anymore so now I'm stuck awake until I find something better to do. I have a half a pound of chemistry homowork that Mr. Schmidt handed out that I'm trying to avoid doing.
I finally sent out Karen's letter ^_^ I included 9 pictures a drawing of Art and 2 pages of an actual letter. It rules I can't wait until she gets it.
Ugh my stomach hurts.
Ummm alright I give up I better go work on homowork. I have no idea what I'm doing tomorrow but I hope it's something fun. I need to plan a party or SOMETHING. I want to see everyone.
Well..Everyone..except you...
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I want some MOTHERFUCKING chinese food...
...and to punch my school counselor in the face...
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Hey I guess this doesn't have much to do with anything but..I'll post it anyways.
I just wanted to say thanks to everyone for making this community rule. I have met so many wonderful people through here and this community is so supportive of each other and no one is rude. I think that rules.
Yeah so..thanks. I guess AFI brings people together. You guys all rule!
Have an awesome day.
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Today I went to Walmart and bought school supplies and went to Best Buy and exchanged my CD case because it was broken for a new one. I also bought one of "The Cramps" CD's it rules from what I've heard so far.
I also have been working on my summer reading and working on finding an article of a celebrity for English class. We had a shitload of homework. My stress level is up about 5 points more than usual.
I went to Kohl's and bought 5 pairs of pants, some incense, some underwear (they rule they're superman undies ^_^) and some bath beads.
Now i have to go to bed because it's like 11:30 at night and I have to get up at 5:50 if I want to be anywhere near on time for when Rachel picks me up. Rachel got her new car I can't wait to see it. I also can't wait until I can drive.
I hate people who gossip about their friends.
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Well I just got home from babysitting. It's Saturday night. First thing when I woke up I cleaned my whole house.
Babysitting was crazy/pretty fun. I'm probably one of the most immature people I know. Hah!
I made prank phone calls to Wes. (my exboyfriend) Yes I am that FUCKING immature. I was on the phone with Jenna and Caitlin while I was watching these two kids. Aaron is like 2 and he was upstairs playing Donkey Kong the other kid is named TJ and he's 9. I had him help me with the pranking. Anyways so we called Eric first. The little boy who's like 2 had these Bob The Builder toys that sounded SO perverted/funny whenever you pressed a button they said something.
Here were some of the phrases:
Are you ready to get DIRTY?
Some weird laugh
I'm GOING as FAST as I CAN!
I totally dig you.
I DONT WANT TO (sounded perverted to me)
I don't even remember all of them but they were funny nonetheless. So me and Caitlin and Jenna and TJ are all on the phone and we leave a message on Eric's answering machine, Robbie's cell phone voicemail, and Daniel's asnwering machine. We finally got some luck with Wes because he was home. So Wes's mom picks up and I poke the kid and he goes is Wes There? And she goes and gets him. Wes is SUCH AN UPTIGHT ASSHOLE! and he was just like hello? uh? Hello? hello? Well I'm hanging up now. and I was just pressing the button and going through all these phrases like I wanna get DIRTY! Yeah and I just about pissed myself. I'm a really good influence hah.
Why do dogs have to hump people all the time? The dog for the kids I was babysitting for tonight was like permanently attached to my leg. If I tried to push him off he would bite my arm or like attach my face and legs. So I just ended up walking around with some like 20-30 pound dog attached to my leg dragging him across the floor. It was pretty sick.
Well I finally made it through the night and I babysat 7:45-12:30 and I made 40 bucks which is like 8 bucks an hour so it was awesome. I was pretty happy. Plus it gave me something to do.
I'm slowly adjusting to school..and as much as I already want to be out of it..I don't mind being back as much. Ralph's party has kept me in a good mood yesterday and carried on throughout today. I want to go to another one or throw one. I just really miss seeing everyone.
I think I'm going to buy an MP3 Player jukebox thing online. It looks like it rules. It's like 170 dollars uh..
Well I'm tired and it's like 2:30. Goodnight
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English..waste of time.
Keyboarding..Ms. Coleman is an OLD fucking bitch.
Spanish..took it a while ago. No need to take it AGAIN. IDIOTS I still need to get my schedule changed.
I had to get up and do a POP-speech in front of my entire Theater Class. We had exactly one minute to prepare and he just gave us a random topic that we drew out of a cup. That is terrifying. I was shaking as soon as I found out we had to do that. And I was shaking 30 minutes afterwards. Let's hear it for FEAR OF PUBLIC SPEAKING.
Well yesterday I went to Ralph's party afterschool. It was so fun. It was just me and about 14 people I hadn't seen in a long LONG time. We hung out by the campfire. Then went to Penistopia (a grassy hill) and just ended up talking. We listened to music and shot off fireworks and just talked in the garage. Elizabeth went with me and I'm glad she did. I wouldn't have known many people. I met these two girls who went to CHS who were really nice. I finally got to talk to Jay for a longer extent of period than 5 minutes. He is a really cool guy. I might just have a crush on him. It's odd..because I'm not physically attracted to him but he is such an awesome and nice person. I like the ability to be able to look past superficial junk and truely see a person for what they are...And for what they aren't. I also got to talk alot more to Matt. He's the only guy I know in my Theater class. We both have really sarcastic and dry humor so we can at least relate on that level.
We just might have a Jay/Renee Back to school bash. Wouldn't that just be great?
Well yeah so after the party I drove home and went on a mad cleaning spree because I couldn't sleep.
That was my Friday!
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Haha! Canadian people say "aboot" and "oot"
I'm oot and aboot. Haha!
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I hate Avril..for many different relevant reasons.
I might be alone on this..but I think the whole "Avril tries to be punk" or "dresses punk" aspect gets dwelled on way too much. First of all..punk isn't a particular way you can act and punk isn't a uniform that you can dress like in particular.
No one is punk these days..and if you claim you are..you're a liar. Punk has been dead for quite a while now. The music still lives on and new music will always be produced but never like it was. You people who say that punk will stray away from mainstream are fucking liars. It's been mainstream way too long now to ever be able to turn back.
So hate Avril because she's a bitch. Hate her because her voice is nasal. Hate her because she is ugly..Who the hell cares why you hate her. But I just don't see much of a point in continually bringing up the whole I hate her because she acts/dresses/thinks she's punk thing. Because chances are anyone who is around today and still claims to be punk, is a liar.
Bitching session..concluded. ^_^ You have yourself a nice day.
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Hopefully I'll be getting my schedule fixed tomorrow.
I wish we weren't in school anymore. >_< I'm ready for it to be over now.
English boring today but at least I had Caitlin. I just drew a picture the whole time.
I hate keyboarding. It's so easy it's almost painful.
Family and Parenting I hate that class.
Chemistry was boring.
I went to a show with Eric tonight. It was the New Amsterdams show. We almost didn't get to go because Eric passed out at school. Poor little guy. Well anyways so that was fun. I would have bought a shirt but I didn't have any cash money. So that sucked.
I'm still going to Ralph's party tomorrow. but I need to find out how to get some money to give him for his birthday grrr..
I might be going babysitting Saturday?
I reek of cigarettes because of the show tonight. 90 percent of the people there were blowing smoke in my face.
I really REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY want AFI to come here for their fall tour. PLEASE! Ah I would die. I wanna meet Davey when he's in a happy mood. Plus I don't want to choke and I want to at least talk to him this time.
Maybe I'll write more details in here later but that's all you get for now. I'm super tired and I have to wake up at 6 ugh...
Goodnight Everyone.
Fuck You Very Much, Have A Nice Day
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I just feel like updating this I guess. I haven't done it in a while. Sorry kids. Even though no one reads this bitchass.
My sister left for college Sunday. I don't think I have cried that many times in 2 days in a long LONG time.
I hate being alone without a sister with my parents.
School started Monday. Well it was a halfday. Then we had Tuesday off. Today is Wednesday. This was our first FULL day. It kind of sucked. I still need to fix my damn schedule. I failed one semester of world history and one semester of spanish 2 so I have to switch midyear. It kind of sucks but I'll work around it. My keyboarding teacher has her panties on too tight. I don't like her too much.
I bought some new clothes..now I don't think I like them.
I ride to school with Rachel now. It rules. Not in the afternoons though.
I have Jenna in my Math Class and Caitlin in my English Class.
Oh man..I was at the mall the other day. I was eating and I was sitting there with Jenna and Caitlin. I look up and these three girls are just STARING at me. I'm like well um ok and just kept eating my food. So I get up later to throw my trash away and I hear one of them say omg look at her shh shh shh she's coming. and I turn around and they're ALL staring at me. HaHA! So later I found them and walked by them and barked at them. Whoa I'm rebellious.
Wes is a fucking douchebag.
I'm going to a New Amsterdams show with Eric tomorrow. It should be fun. Little Eric's so cool.
I'm going to Ralph's party on Friday. Yay.
I think I like this kid Tyler. *swoon* I talked to him today for 30 minutes and it was like no one else was there except me.
Well I guess that's about all I have to say for now. I'll update this more. I swear.
Fuck You Very Much, Have A Nice day
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I'm not going to be pushed around anymore. I'm tired of bowing down and pretending I'm happy when I'm not. Then when I'm upset getting I get bitched at for complaining. Well fuck you. I don't complain all that often so if I do then GET OVER IT. Because there's a reason for it you're just too smallminded to even comprehend human feelings. How do you know that I'm not complaining because you're a dickweed anyways? That's what I thought, BITCH! hahah
This is the year that most of has have begun figuring out who we are..Then why don't I like who you've become?
School starts in a week..I'm not looking forward to it much. I liked summer. Still no set schedule
I want:
To see AFI again
More shows to be played close to here and soon. :(
More CD's
Better Guy Friends
More money
More makeup
A party to happen
For it to stop storming
To find clothes I actually like
To be appreciated
To not go to school anymore
To be a ROADIE!
To be happy with myself
To be able to drive
To be good at at least ONE thing
A Starbucks Mint Chocolate Brownie Frappochino right now
To spend more time with my TRUE friends.
My parents to get off my back about everything
For people to be more understanding and have a sense of HUMOR
To just leave one day and disappear and never look back on anything. Just take my car and move away..no job no money not many possessions and just start fresh. That'd be sweet
To be Better at poetry
To mean something to someone
For at least one person to truely understand me as a person and as a whole
To be able to open up to people and trust
To not be so anxious
To be young forever
Okay yeah this was pointless but what can I say?
I cleaned all of my room for the first time in like a month..feels pretty good. Framed some of the Warped pictures too. How rad.
I walked with Allie yesterday now that she lives in my neighborhood we'll probably be able to hang out more..that's cool.
Robbie's an emo bitch who needs to get his head out of his ass.
Well it's 6AM and I can't sleep I'm going to go listen to music in my room
Die, Die My Darling
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Well..first entry again..I hope I get my other account back..but who's to say? Um well not much has been going on. I bought a whole bunch of picture frames for my pictures from Warped. Is it just me or does it seem like Warped Tour has been progressively sucking more and more each year. I don't much care..AFI was there..and they ruled.
I got a new lamp..it rules so hard.
My sister is leaving for college next weekend :(
School starts next monday.. Dear God save me. I haven't even set up my schedule yet There are some people I miss..but yet so many that I wish I wouldn't ever have to see again.
I wish someone would have a party around here dammit and more shows need to be played here.
I'm going to be buying most of my shirts and my shoes online.
I guess I don't have much of anything to say. I'll post again when something actually happens.
Fuck You Very Much, Have A Nice Day
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