Goldie's Blurty

Goodbye to you. Goodbye to everything that I knew.
Well it's over now. I am not bitter. Disappointed...yes. Bitter...no. I guess I just wasn't the right one for him. If I was he would've taken the time. If I was he would've proved it to me. If I was he would've made me feel like I was. Tomorrow is his birthday. I was suppose to be there, but now it will just be his friends and family, (which I am no longer). He may call from time to time, but I doubt I'll see him again. We were symphonies, (as Rob Thomas once said). So in tune with one another. So right. Each of us complimented the other perfectly, but now that is done. Goodbye to you. I cared for you more than I have cared for anyone in a long, long time. I could have loved you so easily. I think I was closer to love with you than I would like to admit even to myself. You could have made me commit to a relationship and I NEVER thought I would want a romantic relationship again. You fascinated me and I was more than happy to sit back and watch you amaze me, but that didn't last but for a moment. Too soon you let me go. You stopped caring and stopped taking the time to nurture this "love". If it was truly meant to be than maybe someday you'll find your way back to me. Until then I know I must say goodbye.

As with all great tragedies, I know exactly what I must do...change. That's what I do when I get hurt, I make a major change. I already had so many things in the works, but now I just going to pick a few and go for those first. First on the list? My looks. That's right, I am changing again. I'm starting with my hair. I hope to have it done before my sister's baby shower. There's one more, but I won't mention that on here, (I know who reads this!)

"I still get lost in your eyes and it seems that I can't live a day without you. Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away. To a place where I am blinded by the light, but it's not right" - Michelle Branch

Current Mood: pessimistic
Current Music: Michelle Branch - "Goodbye To You"