Goldie's Blurty

My milkshake brings all the boys to the yard
Saturday through today has been a roller coaster. Emotions have been running high, but today Tanya gave me some hope. Basically she told me to stop being such a hard ass. Since my dad got sick, (heck, even maybe since Gary and I broke up last year), I have cut myself off from many things. Mostly from drama and feelings. After talking to Lana and Tanya I feel like I've been too much of a hard ass. I've been in self preservation mode for too long. I need to learn to let people in again. I need to feel free. I was trying to push him away b/c he's such a nice guy. Once Jolene told me that she thinks my relationships w/others have been suffering b/c of my inability to deal w/my father passing away. She also urged me to lighten up. I am trying. He is worth it. He makes me smile and walk on air. I think I will hear him out and give him a second chance. What can it really hurt?

Saturday - went out w/David
Sunday - went out w/David

This Saturday...going out w/David. Haha. He's the best. On Sunday we went to his friend Mike's house. Mike is a cool guy. I gave him some advice on his psycho ex and shared some of my stories w/him. I told him that if she doesn't leave him alone that I'll kick her ass. Haha. Yeah, I'd do real well against a woman who is 40 something. NOT! I just always run my mouth! Hehe.

I still have hope for my "situation". I just have to let my anger go. Breathe deep and go w/the flow. I may actually end up being one of those "lucky people". *sigh*

"Well it's been a year or so, and I want to go back again. And if I get the money, well I'll ride the same old train. But I guess your chances come but once and boy I sure missed mine. And still I can't stop thinkin' when I hear some whistle cryin'. What am I doin' hangin' round? I should be on that train and gone" - The Monkees

Current Mood: sleepy
Current Music: The Monkees - "What Am I Doin' Hangin' Round?"