Goldie's Blurty

Depressed, and not afraid to admit it
Had a weird couple of days. Went to the funeral yesterday and called in to work. (*Originally I told Tanya that I would come in after the funeral, but once I got home I knew I couldn't do it*) Basically, I feel sick to my tummy tonight and have felt under a lot of stress the past week or so. I am having a lot of physical problems again, but I am still against getting the surgeries they say I need. So, I'm in pain all the time and being on my feet all day everyday doesn't help. Plus, mom is driving me f'ing insane. She is pissed at Wayne and is trying to get me on her side, (it's that whole "misery loves company" thing). She was also pissed b/c asshole was here today, (he NEVER works), and I didn't come downstairs and hang out w/him while he was here. We hate each other! We don't wanna see each other! Plus, I am NOT going and sitting around his place on the 4th. Why don't I just walk out in traffic?! That would be more pleasant. I just want a massage. I just wanna rest and clear my head.

Sunday I went out w/David. We had a lot of fun. We were thinking of hanging out again this week, but we haven't gotten around to it yet. He quit his band. Boo. He said, "I guess I'm not as cool now, but at least I have more free time". Whatev. He's cool no matter what. He fascinates me. Everything he does is just so killer. We talked about how life wouldn't be so bad if the voids we each have were filled. I know what his are and he knows what mine are. He has 2 and I have 3. His two are the same as two of mine, I just happen to have an extra one. Confused?! Haha. The one void we know the other has is lack of love. He doesn't wanna be alone anymore and I'm starting to think I don't either. Don't get it? Here's a quarter call someone who can explain it to you! It's quite obvious you t-tard! Haha.

I want a cookie so bad and I know there are none in the house. Damn these monthly female cravings! That is all.

"I'm not sorry and I don't wanna worry. I'm sick of you again. I'm thinking no. I'm not sorry and I don't wanna worry of falling behind. Don't want to wonder and cry again. And I just want to say stop" - Lillix

Current Mood: lethargic
Current Music: Lillix - "Sick"