Goldie's Blurty

Green-eyed girl
I got an e-mail from a friend a few days ago, (someone my mom thinks I should be). I know all that she has and I am happy for her b/c she is happy w/what she has. Sometimes I am envious and others I am happy that I am not in the same situation. Furthermore, she is 3 years older than me. Maybe in 3 years I'll be ready to have what she has, but maybe not. Not sure why that was worth mentioning but it seemed relevant at the time.

I also have not made my appointment to cut my hair. I can't make a commitment to it. I just don't wanna regret cutting it. I've let it grow for so long. The ones who like it, love it...and the ones who don't, hate it. Oh well. Such is life. Came home early from work today. I am trying to get sick. After tomorrow, (my day off), I will be working 7 days in a row, so I am trying to fight it off while I can. Next weekend is mine and mom's trip to Animal Kingdom. YAY! A couple of weeks after that, it's time to go to West Va. Woo-Who! I watched "Blade Trinity" when I got home today. Such a great f'ing movie! I think I'm gonna buy the box set. Actually, I know I am. Next paycheck though. Tomorrow I have to buy: b-day cards and presents for Gary (5/4) and Tanya (5/15), a mother's day card and present for mom, and a DVD for me. What DVD you ask? Taebo. Shhh, don't tell my doctor! He won't let me run or bike, but I have to do something. I am disgusted w/myself these days. Although the girls at work say that they're worried about me. True, I have lost 10 lbs, but that's ok by me. I need to lose at least 10 more. I wanna be 105 again. So, I am sneaking some Taebo into my life. No namby pamby yoga for me. Oh no! I need something that kicks ass. I am also doing some research into making a Blade costume for Halloween and otherwise, (yes, b/c I kick ass). I know I'm not African American or male, but nobody kicks ass quite like Blade. Yes, Blade is my alter ego! There I said it! My secret is out! Haha.

Last, but not least...I am done being pissed off about a certain situation. (*Some of you know*) I have wasted too much time as it is. I know where I stand and that has to be the end of it. I can't be worried about other people. I'm kinda pissed that I let my guard down and strayed from my self preserving ways for so long. It's out of my hands now, so we'll see what happens from here on out.

PS- I saw Amityville Horror on Sunday and Blade Trinity today. How damn hot is Ryan Reynolds I ask you?! Lucky Alanis Morissette!

"Dreams are like two passing boats they come and they go. Some sink and some float. My ship is sinking, or so it seems. Dragging down my hopes and dreams and I don't need this now. I don't need this now. Keep your chin up and learn how to breathe" -Sonichrome

Current Mood: jealous
Current Music: Sonichrome - "I Don't Need This Now"