Goldie's Blurty

What's my inspiration?
At my brother's house right now. I've been here since last night. It's so nice to be away from my mom for a week. But it's kinda depressing too b/c I know that I have to go back next week. Plus, I won't be able to leave for good for another coupe of months and that's hard. I'm in a very weird mood. I've been thinking alot about my life lately. Where it's at, where I'd like to be in a few months, my realtionships, etc. There's so much I want out of life and at the moment I feel like I am settling for the mediocre existance that I never wanted. None of my friends ever go out. I'm in a dead end, meaningless job. I am still taking care of my mom. I'm not the person I want to be and I'm not the person I thought I'd be at this age. Maybe I'm just feeling this way b/c my b-day is next month. Even though I'm committed to age 23, it's still hard when another year comes around and you're not that much closer to your ultimate goal. I just want a fun life w/fun loving, supportive friends, and a realtionship that is exciting and loving and easy going and NORMAL. Ok, I better go. I made dinnder and haven't even eaten it yet.

PS- Add the name, Monica, to the list of people/names I hate. (*yep, she's new. i found out about her last night*)

"I know I'm right for leaving you. Now there's nothing left for me to say. It never meant much anyway. It's you, you I figured out. It always helps to forget how to be yourself. It's you, you realize that your understanding this. Understanding that you're all alone" - New Found Glory

Current Mood: thoughtful
Current Music: New Found Glory - "Second To Last"