Goldie's Blurty

The sun maybe peeking through the clouds
At work still. Trying to pass the time till 6. Today is Jim's b-day. We had an ice cream cake from Dairy Queen! Yummy. Gary came for lunch and brought me a rose. I think he's trying to make up for all the bullshit that has been going on. I'm trying to. It's just difficult b/c we don't have that much time together and I am taking care of 2 people other than him and it gets tiring. By those two people I mean Lana and my mom. I know I said yesterday that I don't think I'll get that job b/c I didn't have "the feeling", but then I remembered that yesterday, (when I filled out the application), was the 2 month anniversary of my dad's passing, so I'm 100% sure he was there by my side. Maybe he has some pull wherever he is now and is whispering in PCSO's ear and telling them to hire his kick ass daughter! I love my daddy so much. The only thing that sux is if I get the PCSO job, it'll be shift work, and I may get late shift which means I will never see Gary! We barely see each other now and it is SO hard. But he has a daughter and I have other obligations, so we live in 2 different worlds. I can't imagine what it's gonna be like when we live together this year...we'll never make it! Kidding. I hope that isn't true.

At lunch today, (after Gary had left), I talked to Jim a little bit about the situation. Jim can be really nice and really helpful sometimes. He said that he thought that Gary and I were a very attractive couple and that he thought we were great together and that he hoped everything worked out, and that he'd be thinking of us. I just need my insecurities banished and the ex's to go away. Oh, and realzie that Gary's never gonna let me e-mail these girls bitchy e-mails. Damnit! I did tell him that he better not let me run into Janice or Michelle or I'd be going away in handcuffs. Assault and Battery, NOT what PCSO needs to see on my record!!! Haha. Don't worry, I'd do a number on Erica too, but the main one I am on the lookout for is Janice. I even hate her name! Ok, ok, I am just getting aggitated. Gotta stop that! We're gonna be married and have some cute babies, so it's all good. Janice and all the others can go on crying and talking shit and hating me. I'm not concerned. He's mine and it's too bad they don't like it. Ok, I'm gonna go. I gotta print the daily tally for Joshy. Haha. Dork. He bothers me, but what are ya gonna do?! I hope to be gone from here soon anyway! Bye y'all!

Current Mood: hopeful