Caryn

7:54pm: Alas Readers i have NOT died. I've not type a entry in a while because my backs been giving me hell latly.I'm going to the doctors on June 3 for my physical and to see if there is anything that we can do for my back. This time around i wasn't able to keep down food so i was throwing up for 4/5 days argh that was NOT fun . Then i got better and i was able to hold down soild foods. Hmmm sometime i feel lie i berden people. i really don't tell people my feeling or what going in my head . Last time i to some one i cut my self(i've been clean for 5 months)they betried me ...So if i tell you what on my mind and how i feel count your self lucky. i feel so alone right now i don't know why like i want to crul up in to a tiny ball and froget about the world and just live in my world........i'll leave you on this qoute readers"don't leave me alone Mr. Frode....don't go where i can't follow"

11:09pm: Nothing really happened. I got bored watching a movie(i think i have a slight case of add) during class . I played connect the frackle on a arm. it was fun ^_^ eventhough he was likeO.o.....what the hell are you doing and this better no leave a mark on me.... and you want a tid bit of my intalgents? during a thunder stom what do i do? i push my fash as close as i can top the window...i'm going to go to sleep so ta for now!

9:00pm: *laughs* i got my wish it rained. If only for a little bit. It also thundered and lightned....i was happy. i have started a vash picture for a guy i know ..he love trigun. Its sad when you get yelled at five time to put down a manga that your reading in a class oh well she'll get over it...i hate german any way. damn it i need to stop feeing sorry for other people. i should tell them all to fuck off but hey what i am going to do *shrugs*

11:22pm: Hmmm what happened today? lets see i went down to my anut house because my dad is going away......Nothing really happened its just that for some reason i feel lonely and i don't know why. i know i'm not ...as bad as this souls i wish it was raining againso i could just stand in the rain and think its really peaceful in the rain the soft patpat pat of the rain drops soothe you. till tomorrow

8:24pm: Hey,
well I don't know what to type in these things so you might get a poem or two. Lets start off how today was.

Today was pure hell. I had to go get pictures done and I hate every moment of it. Be fore the pictures were taking my dad flipped out at me at home. Plus it was hot to day. So here we are dressed in cotton staff shirts and long pants in the heat ...plus my bitchiness in heat...doesn't mix well lets say I threaten to cut off my brother items more then one when he kept snorting at me