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Last night I watched SLC Punk with my sister, Patti. I know from the title of the movie, you probably wouldn’t expect so many morals that apply to you, or anyone for that matter. It’s so weird, though. In the movie, Steveo thinks he knows exactly who is he all along. And then he funds out, he doesn’t know who the hell is. But he changes his whole process of thinking. And it also made me realize, that no one knows where the fuck their lives are going. I guess you can choose the direction, but not exactly where you’ll end up. That’s the main thing in your life: To choose where you want to end up, but you have to work to get there. And if you don’t, you still need to make the best of life. I feel so weird writing about that, but it feels even weirder knowing that it’s true too.
Oh, well….
Today my mom, Patti, and I went to Lowes. Got all the paint I need for my new room. This is going to be so fun, hehe. We went to Farm Fresh too.
Patti is at work right now, though. I’m so bored.
You know… I have so many Blurtys. But I’ve only really used about three. I had xfallchildrenx first. That one sucked so I just decided to start over with reivers_music. I post stuff there that I don’t mind sharing to people that I actually know. But I don’t necessarily want this one to be private or friends only, I just want to be able to say whatever I want in it. People I know don’t have to know everything about me. ;-)
I’ve been really aggravated lately. Last time I talked to Cody was last Sunday. When I dropped him off back at his house he said, "Call me tomorrow." And I did. And he’s never fucking home! I mean, when Elliott and I went out, we talking for like… hours, literally. I don’t have to have that. I don’t really even want that. I mean, I at least want him to call just to say hi. Or at least t let me know he’s alive… Geez… And next time he asks me to call him, I’m going to tell him, "No. You call me. You’re never home. And you better call too!". Man, I’m a really horrible girlfriend, lol. I’m not picky. Maybe a little pushy. I don’t know. And he told me on Sunday, that we should hang out Monday. That’s why I was supposed to call him. But nope… Whenever someone answers they always say they’ll tell him I called. They don’t. I know they don’t. Otherwise he would call back. I’m kinda nervous though. Liking him so much I mean. I’m still a little concerned about getting too attached and all. And I’m ranting. God dammit. Oh well. I hope this relationships lasts long. Longer than Elliott and I. I know Elliott and I went out for 7 months, but if Cody and I date longer, I want to at least be happy the whole time. I’ve never gone out with someone my own age, because most guys my age are immature. I guess I just miss him a lot. It’s cool though, because we’re pretty much exactly the same. And I get to see him pretty much everyday in school. And we have Drama and P.E. (sorta) together. Well, all I know is I like this kid a lot and I should just look at the better side of things.
Well, Im going to go and join some communities. :o) Bye.
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