MaRiYa's Blurty

Subject:	sorry i haven't updated lately
Time:	3:36 pm.

yea sorry i really haven't been updating this there really isn't a lot to say...well a lot on my mind but whatever...here's whats up...

new classes are...

1. dufresne : with LB so its nice
2. history: umm there's noboyd in there that i was friends with before but hopefully i'll make some new ones rite?
3. GBE: i hate it. lol kat's not bad or anything its just hte class is so hard!! >:O
4. trig: sarah's in it sooo it's a good thing. hopefully i'll do good
5. psych: jessica!! :) life is good
6. criminal law: not so bad.

it's snowing kinda bad rite now. uh oh. an di've really been thinking aobut the classes i'm taking next year. it's hard now because i can't take AP lit. dunlap wouldn't sign me. so i'm really really upset bout that i was like crying today almost because i was so upset because i'm reallizing how much i BLEW IT. english is my best and vavorite subject. i got my AP history & AP econ stuff signed by shipp and i got a C in history because he knows i can do it and he saw my improvement 2nd quarter. but dunlap said she just doesn't want me to do it. so i'm like really really really really unbelievably upset about that. GOD i'm so mad at myself. i blew it. i FUCKED UP and now i'm paying for it with this. i've always gotten what i wanted and now i'm not getting it and i'm really really mad. god this is pissig me off. plus i kicked a hole in the living room wall today so DAMN that can't be good. mom knows though. so hopefully i'm not totally fucked. i'm not gonna hide this from them, obviously. i'm so upset. not upset. just mad at myself. i'm a screw up. i really am. i mean look at my sister...look at ashlie look at shaza, look at even mila. they all get good grades...ash is in honors so is shaza now, dunlap signed ash's paper. god i'm so upset with myself. i'm such a fucking IDIOT! >:O GUH!! what is the point. i'm considering droppin out when i turn 16 lol that would be fucked up. woudlnt it. god. i wihs i could go back and fix all this. so bad.

in other news..
variety show yesterday was really good, after practice i went w/ashlie and yay. and possibly tomorrow morning i'm gonna go with her to her solo & ensemble which is fun :) i wanna watch my spizio kick some bass ass. lol.

this weekend...today i was supposed to go to the movies with jayme and see butterfly effect BUT jayme is going up north. so bah. thentomorrow night i have no clue what i'm doing. i'm considering putting MYSELF under house arrest. and just ocmpletely becomea hermit. stop talking to people. i dont even have that many friends and osmehow i'm "too social". i just dont get it. when i'm around my friends i feel like yea i'm havin' a good time or whatnot but when i'm by myself and i'm just thinking about it & i'm like dude i'm fucking nobody. i 'm like a social outcast. but i dont get why i feel like that cuz i'm NOT i know i'm not. it's a crappy feeling.

i'm really writing a lot in here and im pretty sure ashlie will not be reading all this.

i'm guessing i'm gonna start updating either every day or once a week or something like to go over my week but then i'd forget somethign im portant or something and bah i'm really really stupid. i just am. i dont know why i dont know where it comes from it'slike i broke the mold of my genius family.

this is boviously nota good self confidence day. can u tell? UGH!

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Subject:	usher...
Time:	4:16 pm.
Mood:	confused.
Music:	usher: separated.

If love was a bird
Then we wouldn't have wings
If love was a sky
We'd be blue
If love was a choir
You and I could never sing
Cause love isn't for me and you

If love was an Oscar
You and I could never win
Cause we can never act out our parts
If love is the Bible
Then we are lost in sin
Because its not in our hearts

So why don't you go your way
And I'll go mine
Live your life, and I'll live mine
Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine
Cause we're better off, separated

If love was a fire
Then we have lost the spark
Love never felt so cold
If love was a light
Then we're lost in the dark
Left with no one to hold

If love was a sport
We're not on the same team
You and I are destined to lose
If love was an ocean
Then we are just a stream
Cause love isn't for me and you

So why don't you go your way
And I'll go mine
Live your life, and I'll live mine
Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine
Cause we're better off, separated

Girl I know we had some good times
It's sad but now we gotta say goodbye
Girl you know I love you, I can't deny
I can't say we didn't try to make it work for you and I
I know it hurts so much but it's best for us
Somewhere along this windy road we lost the trust
So I'll walk away so you don't have to see me cry
It's killing me so, why don't you go

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Subject:	pick me ups
Time:	8:01 pm.

nOtHiNbUtNeT020 (8:33:20 PM): Me and Ed are making a porno

SHizzAmyriZzA (7:59:52 PM): i love myzzi. she is so cool. i love myzzi. she rocks tha pool. i love myzzi. she is so tite. have u seen her balls? its quite a fright! i love myzzi. she is so hott. we both like black guys. uh-oh we're caught!

G314th (3:48:30 PM): i have a disease
mYzZi33 eMiNeM4e (3:48:37 PM): its called blackitis
mYzZi33 eMiNeM4e (3:48:38 PM): i kno
G314th (3:48:41 PM): no no
G314th (3:48:45 PM): its called
G314th (3:48:51 PM): hornitis
G314th (4:53:08 PM): its where im overly horny ALL THE TIME
mYzZi33 eMiNeM4e (4:53:20 PM): ew.
mYzZi33 eMiNeM4e (4:53:35 PM): no ice needed?
G314th (4:53:42 PM): im cold as hell
mYzZi33 eMiNeM4e (4:53:46 PM): lmfao
G314th (4:53:52 PM): but no ice isnt really needed anymore
mYzZi33 eMiNeM4e (4:53:55 PM): lol

G314th (9:38:15 PM): myzzi
G314th (9:38:17 PM): i did shit
G314th (9:38:21 PM): WITH A BOI!
G314th (9:38:29 PM): =-O:-X
mYzZi33 eMiNeM4e (9:38:43 PM): =-O
mYzZi33 eMiNeM4e (9:38:45 PM): WHO WHAT
mYzZi33 eMiNeM4e (9:38:48 PM): no with a girl
mYzZi33 eMiNeM4e (9:38:49 PM): u retard.

EmPyReAn 18 16: u know that bounty commercial? how its like the quilted, qwiker picker upper...?
18 16 well wanna hear my version?
18 16 the quilted, qwiker dicker sucker.. MARIYA!

G314th (9:43:29 PM): u gullible lil jew

mYzZi33 eMiNeM4e (3:50:23 PM): u have EVERYTHING IT TAKES to make it and u will and ur gonna liv ein like farmington and w'ere not gonna grow to be old friends because i'm gonna end up in a burnt down apartment in like detroit
nOtHiNbUtNeT020 (3:50:33 PM): No way sweetie.
nOtHiNbUtNeT020 (3:50:54 PM): LoL I just thought.. this better not be a Gene Finny thing. Well, just in case... I'm not jumping off any trees with you!! ;-)

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