Blurty for MaRiYa.
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| Saturday, January 3rd, 2004 |
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so yea i went to sleep at like 2 even tho i was in bed by 11:30 >:O & i jus woke myself up. to do that regime thing dadds was talkin about. maybe i'll start callin' him pops. that sounds cute. ew. my room smells. i think it smells like my grandma. so i'm changing my sheets today. i was gon' do it earlier but laziness set in lol. alrite so yeasterday was a good day jayme picked me upat like 5 w/her momz & we went to great lakes crossing ate & saw "love dont cost a thing" w again obviously but dis time w/jon, i was fine w/that. wow i sat thru a movie of joy :-D nick cannon jus WOW. lol okay then we met up w/mike & his 2 friends from like oxford or s/t, & we were gonnago back to jon's & watch scarface but jayme's mom wouldnt let her go cuz shes GAY! >:O so i didnt go either cuz i didnt wanna go w/o her & i'd feel bad so we went back to her house & watched a lil bit of scarface lol so my pops wanted ta be dumb & picked me up at 11:30 so i could go to sleep early which didnt happen anyway. yep yep yep. so thats my yesterday!! :-D- bye loves |
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Whenever I watch TV and see those poor starving kids over all the world, I can't help but cry. I mean I'd love to be skinny like that but not with all those flies and death and stuff. -- Mariah Carey wow. |
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good day...i spent most of today jus lazying around & around 6 or so iw ent over joyce's for a few hours. :-D wow i miss my koochybah a lot. we jus sat & talked mainly so i'm thinkin i definitely wanna hang out w/her more :) yay.. then i walked home, she gave me hairspray in case i got robbed lmao, in troy love it!! bahaha but i didnt spray ppl i was looking for joggeres but u dont find those at 9:00 on a nonsidewalky street lol. i marked my territory on a lot of trees w/it tho. it was foonie. :) mm yea jayme yelled at me for not doin somethin' wit mike today. it wasnt that i didnt want to its just i woulda had to be home by like 10:30. well since its mike they woudla made it 12 but like weird as this sounds i'm not appreciating the special treatment just cuz its mike!!! they never did this with ANYONE. now i can be out til like 2:30am & they dun care?? bah. okay its nice i like it but still. like they'd unground me if i asked to see him but not anyone else cept maybe shyzzi or ash. and i've been stressed these past few days trying to figure stuff out i didnt wanna vent on mike. mm yep. i havent written a long entry for a while so if u dont like long ones don' read this cuz it'll be semi long i think.. why am i letting this get to me? >:O i'm really really frustrated with what's going on. i don't rightly kno how many times i've repeated this but i just wish with all my heart i could go back to april & may. those were...i can genuinely say..the best 2 months of my life. :-\ yea its really shitty isn't it?? i was talkin ta joyce about it today & she gave me this cute question look & goes "feelings?" lol & i was like wow. i don't really think they ever went away. but like, as they say first cuts the deepest...so joyce goes "all cuts heal eventually" so obviously theres only 1 way to get this cut to heal. it's like i don't want him anymore. i know that. i do not want a relationship w/him now not with our history. he knows too much lol. okay well its like i'm not sure if its like i miss him b/c of our old friendship or i miss him b/c i kno he never felt the same way no matta wut was said. ever. GOD DAMMIT!! i just remembered this 1 convo i had w/him.. me: god stop fucking around jus be honest do u love me him: yea but its not that easy me: WTF does that mean him: its complicated -------------- umm yea that hurt. i wanna kno that he felt the same way. regardless of wut he says. if he says that then wut happeneed i wasnt pretty enough for him i didnt put out enoughh for him wut more did he want!?!?! goddddd i'm so mad. i'm like...okay about it. this was like forever & a half ago so i'm fine wit wut was said this was said before i knew him truly and before i knew his real intentions. so i kno words like that didn't really mean anything. but i'm like in need of closure i need to kno for sure how he felt back then. and i guess i never will. maybe i don't really need closure i just need to vent about it. since ashlie's babysitting i cant vent to her & i gues i cant even wait cuz i jus had to writ e in this & get my thoughts out. PHEW. lol wow. jayme jus called...lol~ j: "hey makin sure ur home safe, i'm mad at u" me: why are u mad? j: u kno y! me: umm j: u didnt hang out w/mike shes got ideas. lol silly girl../ k that's all....feel free to comment. i feel really stress relieved :) gracais muchacha |
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Blurty for MaRiYa.
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