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Below are the 9 most recent journal entries recorded in Laurel's Blurty:

    Wednesday, April 14th, 2004
    10:09 pm
    another lost to this war
    only to return, mangled and sore
    a patriot to hell
    a mortals fairwell

    and to this satan do we trust
    to break the sins of lies and lust?
    to care for his as we did try
    being lead by unmaksed lies...

    in his calws you will rest
    althought youve done your very best
    so when will you return to life
    look beyond the hate and strife

    now ive lost you from my grasp
    skelatol hands in which i clasp
    the bood has drained away
    the bones are at decay

    now who ill help our royal gnome?
    searching for a civil home

    can no longer fight the battles' wrath
    who bears the endless young mans draft
    the deamons army they collect
    every soilder hand select

    they burden you with ball and chain
    imprisonment, cursed in slain
    the fallen angels are your guide
    so gald your with me for this ride




    (written for a friend) - if u know him, youll know who its about- and why i wrote it....

    Current Mood: stoned
    Current Music: disturbed... im not sure why...
    10:08 pm
    another lost to this war
    only to return, mangled and sore
    a patriot to hell
    a mortals fairwell

    and to this satan do we trust
    to break the sins of lies and lust?
    to care for his as we did try
    being lead by unmaksed lies...

    in his calws you will rest
    althought youve done your very best
    so when will you return to life
    look beyond the hate and strife

    now ive lost you from my grasp
    skelatol hands in which i clasp
    the bood has drained away
    the bones are at decay

    now who ill help our royal gnome?
    searching for a civil home

    can no longer fight the battles' wrath
    who bears the endless young mans draft
    the deamons army they collect
    every soilder hand select

    they burden you with ball and chain
    imprisonment, cursed in slain
    the fallen angels are your guide
    so gald your with me for this ride




    (written for a friend) - if u know him, youll know who its about- and why i wrote it....

    Current Mood: stoned
    Current Music: disturbed... im not sure why...
    10:05 pm
    another lost to this war
    only to return, mangled and sore
    a patriot to hell
    a mortals fairwell

    and to this satan do we trust
    to break the sins of lies and lust?
    to care for his as we did try
    being lead by unmaksed lies...

    in his calws you will rest
    althought youve done your very best
    so when will you return to life
    look beyond the hate and strife

    now ive lost you from my grasp
    skelatol hands in which i sclasp
    the bood has drained away
    the bones are at decay

    nowwho ill help our royal gnome?
    searching for a civilhom

    can no longer fight the battles' wrath
    who bears the endless young mans draft
    the deamons army they collect
    every soilder hand select

    they burden you with ball and chain
    imprisonment, cursed in slain
    the fallen angels are your guide
    so gald your with me for this ride




    (written for a friend) - if u know him, youll know who its about- and why i wrote it....

    Current Mood: stoned
    Current Music: disturbed... im not sure why...
    Thursday, January 8th, 2004
    10:53 pm
    my REAL home
    eh...life = insane. (mike stole my poem!) oh well...here is my poem.
    n0t that you can hear me now as you walk by with your head to bow
    im peaceful now still no smile yet know i loved you all the while
    even tho im not here to say that your lives will end a better way.
    still feel my spirit from within, tell the world tell your kin
    i released myself from pain and sorrow no breaths left for me to borrow
    so here i lay my face so grey you come and leave respects to pay
    but im no hero i did nothing true it was my life pathetic and blue
    i ran out of strength and the will, my only way out was to kill
    so now im free from the world, out of my hole where i was curled
    now you all know i faked my smile
    yet know i loved you all the while - me -

    Jessy im updateing for yoU! haha i think your the only one who reads this shit anyhow. well anyways im at lisa's my real home. heh. im temp. living here while my mom is off "doin her thing" work i think. who knows. argh and i want to be home this weekend to hang out with everyone cuz ive been gone for three weeks now. but....i am grounded another weekanyways. argh i did the nastiest thing just a min ago. i almost puked. i grabed this bottle of faygo sparkling water out of the fridge and just took a drink of it. (not thinking taint a possiblility) and like spazed when i spotted a slightly opaque film swimming in the liquid. thats what i get for drinking out of the bottle! ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwww! okay well i must go blah! love you all (well just jessy cuz she is the only one who will read this) haha

    Current Mood: irritated
    Current Music: a perfect circle - BLUE
    Thursday, December 25th, 2003
    12:35 am
    merry x-mas
    when i think christmas, i think about the flat out materialism of it. how horrible this ignorant world of okemos michigan is my little corner of hell. humm. i got a camera for christmas and it made me happy cuz i can put pics on my comp and shit. anyways...hummm nothing really to say, cept my love life is way outta wacK! whoaaaa. yea, lets not go there...hmm byebye

    Current Mood: guilty
    Current Music: bullet with butterfly wings - smashing pumpkins
    Tuesday, November 11th, 2003
    10:19 pm
    blah...
    im bored....and have nothing to do...cept study for THREE fucking test i have TOMARROW! eh, i hate school...oh well i must do what i must...which is nothing and just sit here putting it off...but this is boring me...farewell...

    Current Mood: blah
    Current Music: oasis-champagne supernova
    Monday, November 10th, 2003
    10:45 pm
    life is a party...
    eh...life...sucks...i want to go, go where i dont have to worry about other people and i dont have to strive to keep every fucking person on this planet approving of every step i take and every word that comes out of my damn mouth. why cant i be who i want and be with who i want. why is it every time i want to do somthing it is contridicted by everyone?
    planning a party is a pain in the ass. okay so there are always those people you dont want to invite but you know you have to, and those who you want to invite but are too afriad to. those you want to be there who cant, and those who are who you never want to see agian in your life. i assume everyone has delt with this dramma of sadly going through this horrible hell they call "high schooL"

    Current Mood: indifferent
    Current Music: a perfect circle- tthe noose
    Tuesday, November 4th, 2003
    10:26 pm
    home-dead-home
    here i am on my birthday, returning from a long relaxing weekend. listening to music and sitting in my normal chair where i reflect why i returned at all. im fustrated with this life, as to why i am taken away from the few things which i consider myself lucky for. i listen to the rain beating with the bass and the thunder screaming with the demonic voices blasting my speakers, it is here i realize i am dead. my mind and everything i live for is dead. disinigrated with my life. life. life. life is a joke, with no punchline. life is a big disapointment. life is all talk and no action. life is just that. so here i am agian. where i started. no finsish with no will.

    Current Mood: frustrated
    Current Music: Godsmack
    Wednesday, October 29th, 2003
    11:59 pm
    INTRODUCTRY
    Alright, So this is my first time writing. Lucky for you caught me at a bad moment. Then agian, what better way to deal than to vent? So, my out-look on life right now sucks, nothing really goes the way i would like it to (when has it?) I just feel like nothing i do is ever good enough, everyone wants you to be happy and be someone your not, life remains the same. Lost in this damned world knowing nothing but my tears. The scarlet tears that leak from my veins and curse you all. Because sometime in your life we all come amongst the devil's gates and proceed to enter. We all need hate,because it is so much more rewarding than love and will not hurt us in the long run. in saying that, i still dont know how i feel, which is the reason disorders (social, metal ect.) are so damn fusterating. crying for an empty feeling, yet realizing you still havent a reason.This is where i leave you all.

    Current Mood: drained
    Current Music: stone sour
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