so much so much so much shit. i must make things better, i must make MONEYY, i must buy christmas presents, i must soak up this time with chocolate, i must studyyy, i must find something that puts me at peace with this year and last's tragedys.
drama today - the clique VS chris, blah blah blah. i dont mean to sound annoid by it because im not - i know my girls are only worried about me and im so grateful for that - im just really... tired. its hard that baisically the only people that i care about are at war with each other. i was really emotional about this earlier - i couldnt even stop myself from crying while cheryl was driving me home - but after i talked to both of them and they talked to each other i chilled out. ive begun to think of it like... wow, it could be worse. or, wow, i have so many people that i lvoe that love me back.
ah, rumors, rumors, rumors. so many conflicts, so little time/energy/patience. honestly you guys, i love you and i could care less about how much my best friend and my boyfriend like eachother, but its when it gets uncivil that its just opsetting. i love yall!
actuallly i just remembered thast when dd and spalm were over i was telling them how they always come first and they like... laughed, and rolled their eyes. i guess that was a bit of a shock and one of the biggest things that have helped me see what kind of a person i must look like to them. its so funny because since we went on our break i had been feeling so much more confident about myself and also about our realtionship. its a serious letdown that i guess things werent as improved as i hads thought, but whatevs.. there are bigger problems out there, and i can deal.
i really miss rachel, and stefi... oh, good lord i miss stefi :`(
J Pimp's fact of the day: from the day Gregory died to the day he was buried there was a rainbow everyday - and a double rainbow the day he died and the day he was buried.