.my.soul.bleeds.

5:13am: check check check

1:14am: March Madness Is Upon Us
Xavier improved to 18-10.

Things still look risky for the NCAA tournament at-large chances, but I think Xavier will get a 12 seed if they win their last regular season game, and 3 games in the A-10 tourney. That would put their record at 22-11, and they'd have a decent shot at the tourney.

Go XAVIER!

Spring Break can not come fast enough.

3:58am: Skank by Numbers
The funeral was tonite.

I missed Mustard Plug and elbowdrop b/c I pussied out at the last minute when no one would go with me. I can pull off going to shows by myself on "some" nights, but on others it isn't the best of ideas, and I'm kind of glad that I decided not to go..

I'm going to miss two great shows this week:

March 2-
The Ghost
Muder by Death
Alone at 3am
June in July

at Radio Down

March 3-
Mint 6 Ten
Spindle
Junior Revolution
The Red Hot Valentines

at Radio Down

Fuck school?

I am gonna start SPRING BREAK the right way by GOING TO TOP CATS on March 5 - Friday and catching Alone at 3am, Modern Soviet Enemies, and Mint 6 Ten.

Be There...



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My feet in the summer of 2003




Me and my good buddy Matt from Alkaline Trio... Oh yeh, Phil McHenry is in there too. You may have heard of Matt- he sings and plays guitar.

Yes- I do look awful, but oh well. Drugs will do that to you.




Danny boy (from Alkaline trio) and me- I have a crush on him.





Willie the Weinerdog

3:29am: Smoke Cigarettes and Stare at the Moon
Perkins is stressful--

My Dad and Mom were visiting me at Perkins this morning, and I was having a tough time with all the rude customers giving me a hard time. I mentioned to my parents how stressful the job was, and that even though it was good $$$ I really doubted if it was worth it... Well, my Dad said that if I wanted to see real stress that I should come down to his job for day where more is on the line than pancakes, eggs, and burnt toast.

Hell, is life really this awful? If all I have to look forward to is a monotonous job calling me out of my bed every morning before the sun rises, then I really don't know if I want to experience that.

Less Than Jake puts things in perspective.. yeh... EMO LESS THAN JAKE

++++++++++

I couldn't help but think back to the advice
that I got from my dad a few times

He said "...time goes by so fast in a blink of an eye so never close your eyes..."
"...I always wanted something more than 50 hours every week
and a paid vacation on the jersey shoreline"

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Anyways, I think that fits my mood at this moment. Another depressingtng about working at Perkins is seeing how hateful people can be. Middle aged men and women screaming at a 16-year-old waitress for forgetting to bring them butter with their pancakes in an awful sight.

It will make you hate the world. I couldn't even fathom doing that.... Where do these people come from?

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In other news....

NKU and midterms are stessful, but I really shouldn'tcomplain. I know of many people right now going through rough times, and I'm gonna keep them in my thoughts.

8:02pm: I can't forget ...
I went to the Dayton, KY Teen Center last night and caught a pretty decent showb myself. An August Anthem, Rally Six, Seven A.M., and June in July played. I felt so awkward, because everyone there was incredibly young; anyways, once I got comfortable I started snapping some really good pictures (from my own perspective).

A good time overall, despite my headache...

Blah: I have no friends on Live-journal




An August Anthem



















Seven A.M


http://7ammusic.com











June in July




www.cincypunk.net

7:23am: My Heart Bleeds No More
I make myself sick....

7:49am: My skin went sour long ago....
Dear Gayle Brown:::

Never before have I had a professor so excited to see her student's do poorly in class. Hardy a class goes by where I don't think of hurting you, because no matter what I do I can not get better than a 70% on any homework assignment.

You have hurt my confidence.

Please stop being a bitch,

Your student,

Adam Rosing

Here is the deal::: this teacher is a bitch and teaches two of my classes... I have a 71% in Copy Editing which is insanely low ( AND I HAVE THE FRICKIN' HIGHEST GRADE IN THE CLASS)...

I wish I had a sharp object....

(*joking* for all legal purposes)

Copy Editing

User Information
Average Points/Assessment: N/A
Assessment Average: N/A
Total Points: 240 out of 337 or so???

Scores
Date Added Item Sort items by: Item Order Date Added Name Type Score Points Possible Weight Class Avg.
Feb 3, 2004 Quiz 1 (Exam) 35 out of 47 2.00% 32.75
Feb 3, 2004 Quiz 2 (Exam) 48 out of 50 2.00% 39.5625
Feb 3, 2004 Quiz 3 (Exam) 30 out of 55 2.00% 37.4375
Feb 3, 2004 Quiz 4 (Exam) 33 out of 43 2.00% 22.733333
Feb 3, 2004 Noun-pronoun worksheet (Homework) 21 out of 25 2.00% 18.5625
Feb 3, 2004 Editing -- Job-hunt article (Homework) 18 out of 45 2.00% 22.3125
Feb 3, 2004 Headline counts/editing (Homework) 23 out of 35 2.00% 19.5
Feb 3, 2004 Ch. 4 -- Checking Facts (Homework) 12 out of 25 2.00% 8.2
Feb 3, 2004 Northerner story edits/letter (Assignment) 20 out of 20 2.00% 20

Ouch- those grades hurt....

5:56am: When I found out I......
February 8, 2004: Denial at the Blue Note

www.denialmusic.com
www.cincypunk.net

!!!












February 8, 2004: Death in Graceland at the Blue Note

www.deathingraceland.com













Awful pictures?

Probably, but I do enjoy the occasional shitty photo every once in a while, because it reminds me of the bad days we have. I was in a rush, and Death in Graceland pictures always turn out like this.

Oh well.

I read on my friend's BLURTY today that he has been siezing the day recently.... I wish I could do that, but lately I haven't.

Something I should work on....

7:54am: I see right through your skin
Band: The Cathedrals at Radio Down
Photos By: Me











To view all the pictures check out www.cincypunk.net :: The site is coming along slowly, but surely.

PS -- Where did all my buddies go?

6:58am: I wanted to... Convince myself.
Eh, I doubt anyone reads this anymore, and although this doesn't bother me it seems kind of pointless to post, especially when I feel like there is nothing to say.

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www.cincypunk.net is up and running

Check out www.cincypunk.net

Bored? EVerything at www.cincypunk.net is good to go... sort of.

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MY HEART BLEEDS NO MORE
-Silverstein-

9:45am: When I Got There
Last week my first article/review was published in Northern Kentucky University's student newspaper, The Northerner:

Check the link out: and tell me what you think :: http://www.thenortherner.com/news/2004/01/28/Entertainment/Catch.22.Forms.New.Identity.Voice-590161.shtml

School is alright, although I'm more excited about www.cincypunk.net re-launching on Saturday- Febryary 7, 2004. The site has been for almost two months, and we lost almost 78% of our content, however, I live a pretty boring life and I'd like to see if I am up to the challenge of recreating the energy the website had last year.

Taking pictures, writing articles, reviews, and news.... It's stressful at times, but it fills up an emptyness that lingers inside of me sometimes.

I'm hoping for the best.....

3:32pm: Bored::: You NEED to Check this stuff out
Mint 6 Ten:::

A crappy band name doesn't necessarily mean crappy music... Enjoy the links, and download some music.

www.mint6ten.com - new layout and design

Upcoming Shows:

01.23.04 at Radio Down 8 p.m.-- $8 -- Hey Mercedes, Emanuel, and Krinj with Mint 6 Ten -- All Ages

01.25.04 at The Blue Note 3 p.m. -- $5 -- Denial, Death In Graceland, and Keystoned with Mint 6 Ten -- All Ages

01.31.04 at Radio Down 8 p.m. -- $5 -- Lightweight Holiday, Junior Revolution, and Half the Battle with Mint 6 Ten

02.13.04 at X-treme Ministries Warehouse --Time::TBA --$$TBA -- Seven A.M., The Hard Rockin' Amigo's, and The Long Goodnight with Mint 6 Ten -- All Ages


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Lightweight Holiday ::::

www.lightweightholiday.com -- Porterhouse Records .. sing-a-long and have a fuckin blast.

Upcoming Shows:::

01.31.04 -- Cincinnati, OH // at Radiodown with Junior Revolution, Mint 6 Ten, and yeh Lightweight Holiday -- 7:30 pm, $5

02.07.04 -- Athens, OH // at The Front Room with Black Tie Bombers, and of course- Lightweight Holiday - 10:00 pm, FREE!


The Junior Revolution

www.juniorrevolution.com - get your head out of your ass and know what's up.. harmonies, yeh!

Sat. 01.31.04 Covington, KY at Radio Down w/ Lightweight Holiday, Half the Battle. $5.
Show starts @ 8pm.
All Ages Show.

Sun. 02.08.04 Cincinnati, OH at The Blue Note w/ Denial, Spindle.
All Ages Show.

Thurs. 02.26.04 Newport, KY at York Street Cafe w/ TBA

Alone at 3am

www.purevolume.com/alone3am.
http://aloneat3am.cjb.net

Don't label this band. Come to a show and show your love.. Damn.

02.07.04 @ Radio Down (Covington KY) w/ Thistle ( www.thistlewired.com) , Silo the Huskie, and Covington.





Oh yeah.. don't forget to read www.neussubjex.net for their message board. It is full of idiots spewing hate about the local music scene. I guess they must be bored or really bitter about life. Either way, it is humorous sometimes and shitty most of the time.

I know I forgot a lot of great bands but I will get to them in time

3:22pm: This Music is a Vehicle Built to Move...
I love music, and I hate that incredibly talented bands sometimes fall through the cracks (more like all of the time)...

12:30am: Eh
Cooking Wine by Alkaline Trio

Been awake for far too long today
And is it strong enough to burn away the cooking wine?
And I'm just tired enough
If I close my eyes I'll sleep for days
I'll sleep for days
I'll sleep for days
I'll sleep for days
I'll sleep for days

Cringe by Alkaline Trio

While you're counting sheep
I'll count my lucky stars
You were the last good thing I ever saw
I lost it all
I lost it all
Burned out on 2 hours of shut-eye
Eyes glazed at the thought of the next 8 hours
Headwind cold rain to wake me
You were the last good thing I ever saw

Keep Em Coming by Alkaline Trio

14 hours ahead - a head that's heavier than lead
and I've got toothpicks in my eyes
A smile more yellow than the sky
I've got a song stuck in my head
One that I miss more than my bed
It's a song sung from a fallen milkman
Who's drinking bleach instead
I'm much like him

14 hours unfed - I spent the last cents in my head
They're worth much less than pennies now
Food for one thought shared with a crowd
and I've got a painting in my head
A deeper blue bled thicker red
More red than Bloody Marys coast to coast
I hate flying I said - that's what I said

Sad, sorry excuse
Just like everything that made her smile
and everything I use
I won't go back to the way it was
I'm now huffing gas and sniffing paint,
to take away this buzz that I call you

14 hours ahead - a head that's heavier than lead
Toothpicks pry open eyes
A smile more yellow than the sky
I've got a song stuck in my head
One that I miss more than my bed
It's a song sung from a fallen milkman
Who's drinking bleach instead
I'm much like him

14 hours unfed - I spent the last cents in my head
They're worth much less than pennies now
Food for one thought shared with a crowd
I've got a painting in my head
A deeper blue bled thicker red
More red than Bloody Marys coast to coast
I hate flying I said - that's what I said

Sad, sorry excuse
Just like everything that made her smile
and everything I use
I won't go back to the way it was
I'm now huffing gas and sniffing paint,
to take away this buzz that I call you

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Sums up everything right now... too much work.. not enough sleep.

10:28am: Best wishes to your black lung
The Science of Selling Yourself Short by Less Than Jake

I've come to my senses,
That I've become senseless,
I could give you lessons on how to ruin your friendships,
Every last conviction, I smoked them all away,
I drank my frustrations down the drain, out of the way,
So I sit and wait and wonder,
"Does anyone else feel like me?"
Someone so tired of their routines and disappearing self-esteems,

[Chorus:]
I'll sing along,
Yeah with every emergency,
Just sing along,
I'm the king of catastrophies,
I'm so far gone,
That deep down inside I think it's fine by me,
I'm my own worst enemy

I could be an expert on co-dependency,
I could write the best book on underage tragedy,
I've been spending my time at the local liquor store,
I've been sleeping nightly on my best friends kitchen floor,
So I sit and wait and wonder,
"Does anyone else feel like me?"
Someone so tired of their routines and disappearing self-esteems

[Chorus]

Let the meaning slip away
Lost my faith in another day,
Self deprication seems okay,
I never thought I'd make it anyway

[Chorus]

I'm my own worst enemy [x5]

I worked 17 hours yesterday. Shitty. About to head off for a 12 hour shift tonite...

6:29am: The Jersey Shore
Off to work.

My cd player doesn't work, and it is really frickin cold out, so my motivation to get up and go to work is pretty low.

Maybe t'll be fun, who knows.

7:56pm: Where are all the great pothead writers?
Favorite DVD's:
Boondock Saints
Romper Stomper
American History X
Face to Face: The first seven years documentary
The Royal Tenenbaums
Rushmore
Bottlerocket
Trainspotting
Requiem for a Dream
Donnie Darko
Stand by Me
The Aquabats: Serious Awesomeness

Oh, I'm sure there is a lot more, but it's kind of late and this is pointless entertainment for me.

I've been off since Monday, and I'm pretty sure life couldn't get any more boring.. THANK GOD I'm working 3 pm Friday till 6 am Saturday morning:: there is nothing more rewarding than working 15+ hour long shifts... oh, and backing that up with 12+ more hours the next day-- it'll make your life feel worthwhile.

Sunday will be my Sabbath, a day of rest before my hellish life of school and work begins again.. Oh well, I'm actually looking forward to new teachers I guess. The sooner I go back.. the sooner spring comes and the sooner New Jersey comes for 3 days of fucking Skate and Surf Fest... and then summer.

SUMMER SUMMER SUMMER

Yeh!

Maybe I'll move out again this summer.

2:18pm: The Goal
Morningstar by AFI

I saw a star beneath the stairs
glowing through the melting walls.

Who will be the first to begin their fall?
Or will we become one?
Am I the star beneath the stairs?
Am I a ghost upon the stage?
Am I your anything?

I saw a star beneath the stairs
glowing bright before descent
and in the morning there is nothing left but what's inside of me.

And I don't want to die tonight;

will you believe in me?
And I don't want to fall into the light.

Will you wish upon?
Will you walk upon me?

I don't want to die tonight.
Will you.

++++++++++++++++++

8:15pm: Feel This
Back Home by Yellowcard


Dont know
What I was looking for when I went home
I found me alone
Sometimes
I need someone to say
You'll be alright, Whats on your mind?

But the waters shallow here and I am full of fear,
an empty hand that after two long years

Another sunny day in cali for ni a
I'm sure back home theyd love to see it
But they dont know that what you love is ripped away
Before you get a chance to feel it

Back home
I always thought I wanted so much more
Now I'm not too sure
Cause sometimes
I miss knowing somone's there for me
And feeling free

Free to stand beside the ocean in moonlight
And light myself a smoke beneath the dark atlantic sky

Another sunny day in cali for ni a
I'm sure back home theyd love to see it
But they dont know that what you love is ripped away
Before you get a chance
Before you get a chance to feel it

Everybodys here is leaving life in fear
Of falling out of line
Tearing lives apart and breaking lots of hearts
Just to pass the time
And my eyes get red in the back of your head
This place will make you blind,
Put it all behind me and i'll be just fine

Another sunny day beneath this cloudless sky
Sometiome I wish that it would rain here
And wash the west coast dreamin from my eyes
Theres nothing real for them to see here

Another starry night in cali for ni a
I'm sure back home theyd love to see it
But they dont know that what you love is ripped away
Before you get a chance
Before you get a chance to feel it

7:43pm: Armor For Sleep
Christmas break is truly boring... It happens almost every year, but for some reason I push these thoughts into the background of my mind and tellmyself that three weeks without school, and only like 30 hours of work each week will be the best thing that has ever happeed to me.

Unfdortunately it isn't... Sure: I had a pleasant Christmas break including tons of extra time with Julie, renewing my friendships with THEPHIL, Kurt, Sam, Tiffany, and Krista. I mean the times were good, but I spent wayyy too much money, and the past few days have been painfully boring. I would kill to be studying right now, or worrying about writing a paper... How the tide does turn in just a few weeks.

Stop reading if you feel like it.. I live a boring life filled with the occasional local show or petty argument about something that will be forgotten in a few hours time. I'm just writing because TV is pretty much awful, my dvd's are played out and it is freaking freezing outside....

My dog is aging, and there is no doubt that I sometimes wonder how long he will be around. He is only 10..... but::: yeh... I just hope he isn't hurting because that just wouldn't be right.

Anyways.. My KEES money will arrive in a month or two... fuck yeh. I'm a chronic spender. I could save money for months and then go through a two day period where I spend $800 just because. Sometimes I feel that this could be a deeper problem like maybe I am feeling a vpoid in my life with this needless spending on "stuff", but then I realize that I'm young and as long as I keep a sum larger than $0 in my account that I'll be fine.

Things I love:
+Alkaline Trio
+leftover pizza
+long drives with loud music
+the windows rolled down
+your smell
+courteous people
+Good old fashioned ska music
+Xavier Basketball
+your touch
+a goodnite smoke
+Wes Anderson movies
+the internet
+college (what?)
+Top Cats
+local music

Things I hate:
-snobs
-assholes
-progressive music
-lazy people
-beer
-vegetables
-the radio

8:14pm: The Way It Should Be
I'm sick and tired of petty arguments.

On an unrelated note... the dates and times of my journal entries are compleel fucked.

10:21am: Walk Away
I'm a poor ass mother-fucker.

Well, I worked yesterday, and I work today, tommorow, and Sunday. Better make some goddamn money. Oh, Since I'm poor I guess that means no fun or going out for a pretty long time. Eh, no big deal though, I think I'll survive.

12:50pm: High School all over again
This song fits perfectly with how I felt in high school, and how I feel every once in a while now.....

I guess there is nothing more to say:::::

"Frost and Front Steps" by Armor for Sleep

I’ll be by the front door
We’ll leave when you want
You’re having a good time
And you know me
I’ll wait around

I’m standing outside now
No one’s around
It’s so cold
My lips are numb
I’ll sit on the front steps
And wonder if I will completely freeze out here

I hear you from inside
You laughing the way
You do when I’m not there
And you know me
I’ll wait around

I’m standing outside now
No one’s around
It’s so cold
My lips are numb
I’ll sit on the front steps
And wonder if I will completely freeze out here

I think that maybe I should get up and just drive away
I’m shivering hard now, I’m shivering hard now
My face has barely any feeling left anymore
I’m shivering hard now, I’m shivering hard now

I’m standing outside now
No one’s around
It’s so cold
My lips are numb
I’ll sit on the front steps
And wonder if I will completely freeze out here

I’m standing outside now
No one’s around
It’s so cold
My lips are numb
I’ll sit on the front steps
And wonder if I will completely freeze out here
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++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

..exactly..

12:16am: The Turnaround
Things are looking up.....

I made a mistake-
I fucked up-

But... It is time to move on, and accept I acted like a retard while being drunk. Unfortunately it is going to set me back around $300, but I guess that is life.

12:16am: The Turnaround
Things are looking up.....

I made a mistake-
I fucked up-

But... It is time to move on, and accept I acted like a retard while being drunk. Unfortunately it is going to set me back around $300, but I guess that is life.