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For your soul. [09 Nov 2005|03:17pm]
I had a good day today, with the exception of 3rd + 4th hour, but that's a different entry.

We played kickball today, finally.

There was a bunch of stuff I wanted to blog about yesterday, but I don't remember what.


[[[you.suck.]]]

Tender age in bloom. [09 Nov 2005|03:37pm]
Hmm.

Today we had the school nurse talk to us about relationship abuse. This included emotional, physical, and sexual (including rape) abuse.

And I swear every single person laughed or made a comment at least once.

Except for me, of course. I didn't talk at all. I didn't even move.

I had the same exact talk in therapy. I swear, she had the same exact material. It was terrible.

Also, even the nurse tried to crack little jokes about it (which is when the whole room would laugh), I guess to make the subject lighter? I don't know.

But all that is just way too real for me. Every single thing she talked about. I've lived that reality, I'm still living some of it, and it's nice to know you can make a big joke about a topic so serious.

Abuse of all sorts is really something that I know all to well. So everyone who laughed at one of the damn nurse's stupid comments should die.

Actually, no. I really don't care. This isn't and has never been (the majority of) these people's realities. I understand that they really do not understand the full scope of all of this. How they really do not understand everything that goes on in any of those types of situations.

And they shouldn't have to. Not at all.

Yay. My mom is home. I get to talk to her now.
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I'm not listening, not anymore. [09 Nov 2005|04:29pm]
I have been craving Chinese food for the past 2 or 3 weeks.

I hope my grandmother takes us out for Chinese food this weekend.

**hopes**
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This is the most stupid survey ever. [09 Nov 2005|04:55pm]
Questions About You- Some Deep Some... Not So Much
Ever broken off your WHOLE toenail?:EW NO.
Craziest prank you've ever pulled?:I don't know.
Craziest prank you failed to pull?:I don't know.
Worst punishment you had to endure?:You.
What did you do to deserve this punishment?:You.
Lowest point?:0 Kelvin.
Highest?:273 Kelvin.
Are you shy or outspoken? Or just average?:I'm outspoken if I wish to speak. Which isn't a lot nowadays. I'd rather not talk.
How has it affected your personal life?:It hasn't?
How often do you fantasize/daydream?:24/7.
How long was the longest fantasy you've created?:?
Would you have sex to further your career or place in life?:I'd do most things at least once.
Would you if the guy/girl was attractive?: ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
Have you ever been obsessed with anyone you know?:No.
Would you change your name to "Lou Tampon" for 20 million dollars?:No.
For 10 million? 50 million?:No. I fucking like my name.
Ever driven drunk?:I can't drive.
If yes, did you feel guilty afterwards?:^^^^^^^^^^
Do you have a disorder? If yes, what?:A lot.
Have you ever thought you had a disorder?:Yes, because I have some.
Ever been court-ordered to see a psychiatrist?:Not court-ordered.
Ever started a nasty rumour about one of your close friends? (if any):About myself.
Who are you most jealous of (someone you know)?:?????? I'm not really a jealous person. Because no one's better than me.
If you could get away with it, who would you kill(anyone who's ever lived)?:I could name a few people.
What would you do if you could freeze time for one hour?:Steal things.
For one day?:Steal things.
If you could live forever, would you?:Only if I kept the body and mind of a 30 year old.
Ever shaved your eyebrows completely off?:No.
Have you fallen asleep with gum in your mouth?:Yes.
If so, where was it when you woke up?:In my mouth, bitches.
What about you do you want to change?:Um, nothing?
DO you have a feature you love but modestly tell others you don't like?:=P yes.
If so, what is it?:*shrugs*
How often do you lie?:I lie down a lot.
Obsess about your appearance/ weight?:It depends if I'm currently eating disordered or not . . .
Exercise?:Eh.
What are you thinking when you exercise?:thinking about thinking about thinking.
What do you do right before you go to bed?:brush my teeth.
Right when you get out of bed?:depends on if it's a school day or not.
Ever Googled yourself?:Yes.
Your crush?:I don't have a crush.
Is your persona at school/ work who you truly are?:Give or take a little. Mostly, though.
Do you have artists/ songs on your iPOD you don't like?:No.
How many romantic relationships have you had?:There is no romance with others for me.
How long was your longest relationship?:I dont' have relationships. I have lustships.
Do you think someone your age should have accomplished more than you have?:No. But they can.
Do you worry about survival?:Survival how?
Do you fear the future?:No.
Do you believe in psychics/ have you been to see one?:Yes (but not your cheesy stereotypical shit)/No.
Yes Or No
racist jokes (if no one of the race is around):Do I tell them or do I listen to them? I don't tell jokes.
sex before marriage:Is this supposed to be like a For/Against thing? YES, it's your life, do whatever the fuck you want.
abortion:Yes.
Weezer:Yes.
the Strokes:FUCK NO THEY ARE LIKE ONE OF 2 BANDS I DON'T LIKE.
The White Stripes:Yes.
The Violent Femmes:Yes.
Modest Mouse:Nevermind there are 3 bands I don't like. No.
Kelly Clarkson:Yes.
Fall Out Boy:Yes.
The Beatles (I still can't believe that some people don't like them):Yes.
Rap music:Yes.
eating with your hands:Yes.
"forgetting" to wash your hands after using the bathroom:OH GROSS. NO.
Tom Cruise and Katie Holmes:Yes? I could care less.
loving your husband/ wife more than your kids:NO.
sleeping with a pillow:Yes?
Hot Hot Heat:Yes.
The Bravery:Yes.
Relient K (they get a NO from me, as do the next band):Ahhhhh, 4 bands. No.
The Click Five (honestly!):Yes.
Being more honest on the internet than you are with your friends/ family:Hah, yes.
3- second rolls (or how ever many seconds):Yes.
sushi (and I'm not talking California rolls):Sushi without fish, yes.
thong bikinis in public:If you got it, flaunt it. Yes.
being miserable but having your perfect body:Ew. Being miserable is not cool. NO.
being happy but fat:Yes.
guys with taller girls:No.
Ugg boots:No.
tanning booths:No.
superskinny models:NO.
REALLY curly hair:Yes.
blonde girls who straighten their hair like crazy:If they like it, go for it. Yes.
Whose Line?(is it anyway):Yes.
Family Guy:Yes.
American Idol (I give it a NO):No.
Will and Grace:Yes. (Lmao I don't watch TV at all)
Ashton Kutcher:Yes.
sports:Yes?
huge breasts:=( Mine are too small for my tastes, No.
small breasts:(= I am not flat chested, No.
Would you date a girl whose feet were bigger than yours?:No.
Would you date a guy whose hair was longer than yours?:Yes.
guys with unibrows (if they aren't EXTREMELY hairy in between):No.
girls with unibrows:No.
Would you date some who had a small gap between their front two teeth?:Yes.
Would you date someone with two sets of top teeth? (one behind the other):O_o. Yes?
Someone who was obviously missing two teeth (not the front two)?:That might make for interesting kisses. I should try that out, so yes.
extremely white teeth (from bleaching/lasering):Yes.
Marrying someone of a very different race:Yes.
Would you keep a very well paying job if you hated it?:NO.
WOuld you keep a bad paying job if you loved it?:Yes.
Do you really want to be famous?:I just want to impact lives. Maybe not fame, but notoriety is good. Yes, then?
Would you want an enormous house with rooms you never even use?:No. That's impractical.
Do you spend a lot of time contemplating life's unanswerables?:Not really.
Are you really embarrased to buy condoms/ tampons/ certain medications?:No.
Do you buy them online?:No.
Or blush like crazy at the register?:No.
Would you buy embarrassing products like that for your boy/girlfriend?:How are those embarrassing? If you're not mature enough to buy condoms, something tells me you're not mature enough to have sex.
Do you do your own laundry?:YES. NO ONE IS TOUCHING MY CLOTHES.
Just a Few More...
What crazy things do you do when you're alone?:You.
Have you ever tried to look for the entrance to Narnia?:No. Hahaha, but no.
Did you wait for your Hogwarts acceptance letter in the mail?:Yes. Didn't we all? ^_-
Have you taken one of those Harry Potter tours in England?:=( No.
What was the location of your favorite vacation?:I don't vacation.
Superpower of choice?:Invisibility.
In what ways are you like your friends?:?
In what ways are you not?:?
Was this survey dull/unoriginal?:Retarded. Seriously.
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You've been totally Bzoink*d
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Whee. Another survey! [09 Nov 2005|05:17pm]
What is your stand on.....
Abortion?:Pro-Choice.
Death Penalty?:Kill those fuckers.
Prostitution?:Make yr money, girls.
Alcohol?:If you wanna get fucked up, go get fucked up.
Marijuana?:If you wanna get fucked up, go get fucked up.
Other drugs?:If you wanna get fucked up, go get fucked up.
Gay marriage?:Marriage is NOT about discrimination. Pro Gay Marriage, definitely.
Illegal immigrants?:It's not hard to become legal, people.
Smoking?:If you want to slowly kill yourself, go ahead.
Drunk driving?:No, only because that can hurt other people.
Cloning?:That creeps me out. No.
Racism?:Are you serious? I am not part of the KKK. I am anti-racisim.
Premarital sex?:If you wanna fuck, go fuck.
Religion?:I think religion is a neat concept that a few people took out of hand, used to their advantage, and brainwashed a bunch of people. However, I have no problem with really relig
The war in Iraq?:ious people. Believe what you want. The fuckers cut me off on the last question god damn it. akrjeoifjijilafejioa;efjlk.
Bush?:Ew Bush.
Downloading music?:It's illegal, unless the artist approves of it. I hate when people tell me they are doing legally from limewire (etc.) YOU DUMB FUCKS. Download whatever the hell you want, I'l
The legal drinking age?:l always prefer the CD to the digital copy. It's 2983473978 times better. They cut me off again damn them. The drinking age is pretty pointless.
Porn?:It's not degrading to either sex. It's not like they were forced to make these movies; they wanted to.
Suicide?:If you honestly think you're better off dead: go for it.
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You've been totally Bzoink*d
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Lost in an image. [09 Nov 2005|07:14pm]
You inspire me, even with all your fallible traits.

Too bad the apathy takes the inspiration and runs.         ♥
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[09 Nov 2005|08:06pm]
I'm dirty, I have to take a shower, I hate this layout.

[[[ i luvv my soulmate. ]]]
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At least PRETEND you didn't want to get caught. [09 Nov 2005|08:52pm]
I am the cause to all your problems.
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[09 Nov 2005|09:16pm]
[[[**erases entire post she had been writing**]]]

I luvvvvvvvv my Jen. So much. **hugs**
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This song is for anyone . . . fuck it. Just shut up and listen. [09 Nov 2005|09:33pm]
What's wonderful is that I do not have a single horrible song on my computer.

It's brilliant.
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There's no sex in your violence. [09 Nov 2005|10:09pm]
I need to comment on mindsay tomorrow, for real.

People have been asking where I've been and I feel bad.

I'm like, "Sorry, I've been lazy."

Heeeee. Tomorrow, I swear, to all 100+ people in my network.



(blaah.)
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Now you get to watch me die. [09 Nov 2005|10:13pm]
I know someone who's very talented and leaves the sweetest taste in my mouth.

Yes I do.


In other news, I am very tired.
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