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[29 Apr 2005|12:53pm]
Louis is my boyfriend now. How ironic.
Fuck you

[29 Apr 2005|12:53pm]
Louis is my boyfriend now. How ironic.
Fuck you

Fo sho. [06 Dec 2004|09:33pm]
[ mood | amused ]

Maegan and Sage rule.
Louis has hott hair. The end.

Fuck you

Oh this one too... [22 Oct 2004|05:03pm]
[ music | Dropkick Murphys-Riot Tonight ]

Yea, this is another song that's been in meh head.....................

Forever/Dropkick Murphys

"Never take your loved ones for granted: they could be gone tomorrow"
all of my dreams seem to fall by the side like a discarded thought or the day's fading light
but I know that if I could just see you tonight forever at times we may fall,
like we all tend to do but I'll reach out and find that I've run into you
your strength is the power that carried me through forever

Your kindness for weakness I never mistook I worried you often,
yet you understood that life is so fleeting,
these troubles won't last forever inspired me truly you did from the start to not be afraid
and to follow my heart there's a piece of you with me they can't tear apart forever

Forever I'll find you, forever we'll be
Forever your power and strength stays with me

2 fucked + Fuck you

Some song stuck in my head... [22 Oct 2004|04:41pm]
[ music | Britney Spears-I love Rock n Roll (I couldent find Joan!):P ]

Grrr. Ok, well. Gah./ I think Rob is doing the same exact thing to me as he did to Amanda. (Margo, Marc).
Whatever. don't know anymore. Maybe I'm being paraiod. Maybe I should talk to him about it. Natile asked me out. I told her I wanted Rob. Haha. Kinda funny how that works out.


I have two songs stuck in my head................ gah

I Wanna Be Sedated/Ramones

Twenty-twenty-twenty four hours to go I wanna be sedated
Nothin' to do no where to go-o-oh I wanna be sedated
Just get me to the airport put me on a plane
Hurry hurry hurry before I go insane
I can't control my fingers I can't control my brain
Oh no oh oh oh oh

Twenty-twenty-twenty four hours to go I wanna be sedated
Nothin' to do no where to go-o-oh I wanna be sedated
Just put me in a wheelchair get me on a plane
Hurry hurry hurry before I go insane
I can't control my fingers I can't control my brain
oh oh oh oh

Twenty-twenty-twenty four hours to go I wanna be sedated
Nothin' to do no where to go-o-oh I wanna be sedated
Just put me in a wheelchair get me to the show
Hurry hurry hurry before I go loco
I can't control my fingers I can't control my toes
Oh no oh oh oh oh

Twenty-twenty-twenty four hours to go I wanna be sedated
Nothin' to do no where to go-o-oh I wanna be sedated
Just put me in a wheelchair get me to the show
Hurry hurry hurry before I go loco
I can't control my fingers I can't control my toes
Oh no oh oh oh oh

Ba-ba-bamp-ba ba-ba-ba-bamp-ba I wanna be sedated
Ba-ba-bamp-ba ba-ba-ba-bamp-ba I wanna be sedated
Ba-ba-bamp-ba ba-ba-ba-bamp-ba I wanna be sedated
Ba-ba-bamp-ba ba-ba-ba-bamp-ba I wanna be sedated



Baby, I Love You/Ramones

Have I ever told you
How good it feels to hold you
It isn't easy to explain

And though I'm really tryin'
I think I may start cryin'
My heart can't wait an other day

When you kiss me I just gotta
Kiss me I just gotta
Kiss me I just gotta say :

Baby, I love you
Come on baby
Baby, I love you
Baby I love, I love only you

I can't live without you
I love everything about you
I can't help it if I feel this way

Oh I'm so glad I found you
I want my arms around you
I love to hear you call my name

Oh tell me that you feel
Tell me that you feel
Tell me that you feel the same

Baby, I love you
Come on baby
baby, I love you
Baby I love, I love only you



I think either Brian or Kenneth thrie calling me yesterday...er the day before. Either one works. I think the day before though...


I HATE FRANCIS!!!!

Fuck you

[02 Oct 2004|06:33pm]
[ mood | high ]
[ music | Dropkick Murphys-Kiss me, I'm shitfaced ]

Hey homies.
This is my last time smokeing pot and that's sad and a good thing at the same time.
I don't know.. anything.
I'm listening to Dropkick Murphys right now and there great. If havent heard anything byt them, or even if you did, download 'The Dirty Glass' It's great,

Ok, i'm going now..



Like the new layout? .........................................

Fuck you

blah blah [01 Oct 2004|01:49pm]
[ mood | stressed ]
[ music | Tsunami bomb-Enemy inside of me ]

I'm at Steve's talking to Jehz and my brother.
My brother just told me well.... look.

CNIShaun: dammit..and this hurricane might prevent us from coming
CNIShaun: hope not!!
EuphoriaEndearin: I know!!!
EuphoriaEndearin: You have to meet my new boy toy... :-)
CNIShaun: dont say boy toy...if I twist his nuts off and the lil member attatched could you still say that?
EuphoriaEndearin: haha, yes!
EuphoriaEndearin: We havent had sex yet.
CNIShaun: dont say yet
CNIShaun: you are to damn young
EuphoriaEndearin: *too
EuphoriaEndearin: :-P
CNIShaun: watch,,you'll regret it....when you figure out you've been whoring yourself
CNIShaun: respect your body
EuphoriaEndearin: I am!
CNIShaun: thats all guys want from a 15year old
EuphoriaEndearin: Well, i make sure it's not.
CNIShaun: you dont know....trust me...i did it when I was young and stupid
CNIShaun: and the girl never knew
EuphoriaEndearin: :-o
CNIShaun: yea...so take my word for it.....I was a smooth mofo.....you are and were and might agian be used it you let that shit happen



Thats my brotha for ya.


and this is hlaf of my convo with Jehz..........

JEHZ THE MONSTER: are you dating porter yet
EuphoriaEndearin: No.,.. :-(
JEHZ THE MONSTER: why not
EuphoriaEndearin: Because he hasent asked me out.
EuphoriaEndearin: i dont think he wants to be in a relaionship right now..
JEHZ THE MONSTER: thats it.
JEHZ THE MONSTER: hes gettin a knuckle sandwhich
JEHZ THE MONSTER: ::shakes fist::


Jehz is great even thogh most thinks shes pcycho

So Richard is dead. Yesterday he shot his wife and them himself. And then Rob called me and made me feel a little bit better.
I dont think i'll hear from him today though because of his whole.....church obligation thingy.


Well, innnyjew.. I'm gonna find a new pictur for a new layout for this thingy...... because i've had this one for too long.

Call if ya wanna chat..


Wheres Amanda??

Gah, ok i'm going now. Gonna find a rid home, then, gonna take a nap.:)

4 fucked + Fuck you

[28 Sep 2004|05:24pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]
[ music | GBH-Big women ]

Guess what?
:*:Sings:*:
Dustys a petifile!
Petifile
P-E-T-I-F-I-L-E


Ok, i'm done.


Oh, and i'm not sure on how I feel about Rob anymore..... I'm kinda reconcidering.
Wanna know why? Ask me.

Fuck you

FUCK! [28 Sep 2004|05:16pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]
[ music | Operaton Ivy- Bombshell ]

This computer is pissing me off. All I want is a DAMN MESSANGER BAG! A pretty one. On ethat I can fuck up but nooooooooooooooo this stupid machine has to make everything so damn complicated.... grrrrrrrrr

Innyjew, My arm hurts. Steve was smokeing and a cigeratte and 'accidently' burnt a hole in my arm exactly where a bruise that Rob gave to me.. OUCH it burns.....

But i'm not gonna be able to update for like.......... 2 weeks,....ish.
But yea.......

I'm gonna erase my last entry just because I'm cool like that and it's rather embarrasing.


Ok. Yea Steve just almost killed himself. haha. He got stuck on the top of his door. hehehe/ Ok, im done.


Ok, onward with my quest to find messanger bags!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fuck you

yo!!! [26 Sep 2004|03:33pm]
[ mood | happy ]
[ music | Operaton Ivy- Bombshell ]

Guess what guys?? Rob's amazing.. Yup yup. It's true. He's cute as hell, funny, soo intelligent... and he's got pink and green hair!!! AMAZING!! Yea, so i've been happy latley. No more emo poetry for me!! ) I haven't written one in like......er... a while.


I'm fuckin' great

Life is great. :) Innyjew, tonight i'm hanging out with Bahduri, Steve and (hopefully) Rob.


happy happy joy joy.


Best of all, Rob likes me for me. Not for what I look like or my fuckin social persona, ::nudgenudge::



..

Fuck you

[26 Sep 2004|01:50pm]
[ mood | stressed ]
[ music | The Beets- Killer Tofu ]

I hate it when I'm right. It's funny, one of the only people I thought ever cared about was pretending. It seems to be a pattern. I don't really care anymore. Honestly. Maybe I should.. but I don't.

Fuck you

[10 Sep 2004|05:25pm]
[ mood | depressed ]
[ music | Veruca Salt//American Thighs ]

Wonderwall//Oasis


Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now

Backbeat the word was on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now

And all the roads we have to walk along are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
I don't know how


Because maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me?
And after all
You're my wonderwall

Today was gonna be the day
But they'll never throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you're not to do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
About you now

And all the roads that lead to you were winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you
I don't know how

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me?
And after all
You're my wonderwall

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me?
And after an
You're my wonderwall

Said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me





All Of The Truth//Bright Eyes

it is not the past few days that have made me feel this way
and it is not the tiny marks of doubt that cover everything i see
it is just the way she looks at me with a love so complete
that i have never seen
and from this grows a strong, undying guilt
the feeling of regret for things i never felt
but oh i wanted to change
and become what she needs
i know what she needs
what i can never be

1 fucked + Fuck you

Vegetarian rant..then news. [30 Jul 2004|09:18pm]
[ mood | grateful ]
[ music | NOFX- Fun things to fuck ]

What they don’ttell you!
Chickens are inquisitive and interesting animals who are thought to be as intelligent as cats, dogs, and even primates. When in their natural surroundings- away from factory farms- they form friendships and social hierarchies, recognize one another and develop pecking orders, love and care for their young, and enjoy a full life that includes dust-bathing, making nests, roosting in trees, and more.

What happens to pigs?
More than 100 million pigs are killed for food in the US every year. Pigs on factory farms are castrated and have hunks of flesh ripped from their ears, bits of their teeth torn torn out with wire cutters, and their tails chopped off- all without painkillers. Sometimes stalls are stacked, and excrement from pigs in the upper tiers falls on those below. The accumulation of filth, feces, and urine in the sheds causes more than one-quarter of the pigs to suffer from agonizing mange, and three-fourths of the pigs have pneumonia by the time they reach the slaughterhouse. Drugs and genetic breeding cause pigs to become so weak that they can barley walk, and 400,000 a year are crippled when they arrive at the slaughterhouse. Once there , workers jab metal hooks into the pig’s eyes, mouths, or rectums to force them to move faster. Breeding pigs on factory farms are impregnated several times during their short lives and are confined to the stalls that are barley larger than their own bodies. These stalls are so cruel to these intelligent and sociable animals that they have been outlawed in some countries..





So..anyway... Um I went to Warped Tour yesterday. AWESOME! Oh my it was great....Highlights being.... he Vandles, The Briggs, NOFX!!!!!!!!!, Bad Religion..... Yup... I saw pretty much all of the bands...OH! and Anti Flag. I talked to Fat Mike from NOFX His exact words..
'I noticed you were the only chick in the pit... your one of the punkest motherfucks i've ever seen... and your cute!'

If that wasent an ego boost for me.. I dont know what would. OH! Maybe hanging out with the drummer from the Casulaties? Yea, that might be... :)


I really miss Dusty though. I just saw him today but it's not that kind of miss. It's like, I met all these guys who would go out with me in a second...... But theres something about Dusty that's just.. I dont know. It's the feeling i get when i'm in his arms. Or the way he looks at me. Or the way we act when we're together. It's just.... we're / I dont know. Happy. At least I am. I'm not sure if he is or not.. Probably not.. I know i'm not lucky enough to make him smile even once. I dont know. I guess i'm ranting.
I've been Dusty-high all day. haha I've been looking forward to seeing him, and spending time with him,. (even though that didn't work out..) I still got to see him. And give him the note I wrote him. ::sigh::

Yea yea... I know...

I'm in love

Fuck you

[28 Jul 2004|06:04pm]
[ mood | bitchy ]

We are young
Heartache to heartache
We stand
No promises, no demands
Love is a battlefield...

Fuck you

Mo lyrics...Sorry bout no titles... Just how I feel.... [24 Jul 2004|10:11pm]
[ mood | busy ]

When you told me you loved me
Did you know it would take me the rest of my life
to get over the feeling of knowing
A dream didn't turn out right
When you let me believe that you weren't complete
Without me by your side
how could I know
That you would go
That you would run
Baby, I thought you were the one



i'm drunk off

your kiss for

another night

in a row.



I guess promises are better off left unsaid

but i need you to know that i care, and i miss you...<3


So close no matter how far
couldn't be much more from the heart
forever trusting who we are
and nothing else matters

never opened myself this way

life is ours, we live it our way
all these words I don't just say
and nothing else matters

trust I seek and I find in you
every day for us something new
open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters





So, it's sad this doesn't suit you now
And me, fresh out of rope
Please ignore the lisp
I never meant to sound like this
So take me and break me
Make me strong like you
I'll be forever grateful to this and you

It's only you, beautiful
Or I don't want anyone
If I can choose, it's only you

Fix me to a chain around your neck
And wear me like a nickel
Even new wine served in old skins cheapens the taste
I shot the pilot
Now I'm begging you to fly this for me
I'm here for you to use
Broken and bruised
Do you understand?

It's only you, beautiful
Or I don't want anyone
If I can choose, it's only you

But how could I miscalculate?
Perfect eyes will have perfect aim
If I can choose, it's only you

We're wrecked
And I'm dry like a drum when you speak
So fine, I'll leave
We're sepnt
Take out time, measured
We slave for days and weeks

It's only you, beautiful
Or I don't want anyone
If I can choose, it's only you

But how could I miscalculate?
Perfect lies from a perfect hate



If I can choose, it's only you



As your dreams seem to bleed through your eyes, wipe them away and know ill be by your side,
Cause I would kill to hear your laugh, and die to see your smile,
Because dying to the sound of your voice has never sounded so good,


Choke On the lies you told
Ill steal your breathe away
Just like you stole my heart
Cold fingers around your neck
Ill suffocate my love out of you

And Im screaming at you
Through that tiny hole
That hole you ripped through my throat my words drip out
Like blood out of a wound
Words that will stain you

Hello what the hell am I doin' here
That's a really nice suit
This is a really comfortable chair
See I don't know if you can help me or not
Cause I don't feel sick
I don't feel sick
But the pains in my head have almost put me
Underground
I don't really care if I'm healthy or not
Just clean my head up doc
I'll give you anything you want
See I don't know why I don't fall in love
Well maybe I know why and maybe you could make it stop
Then we'll cut it up and bury it and leave it
Underground
And I'll take to wishing and fall under
Sleeping safe and sound
Just give me medicine prescribe me anything
Just knock me out and walk me through the door
Well I have no desire to see through my own eyes anymore, anymore
Hello what the hell are you doing here
You made a really strange face
This is a really uncomfortable air
I see I'm boring you, maybe I bore myself too
That's why I need help, I'm cleaning blood off dusty shelves
I been cut up in this room so many times it might take days
And those stress cracks in the wood
How nicely they soak up the stains
Just give medicine prescribe anything
Just knock me out and walk me through the door
Well I have no desire to see through my own eyes anymore, anymore
Been telling myself these jokes for so long well so long
I'm a has been who is heckled on the stage
Been telling myself these jokes for so long well so long
I'm a has been who is heckled on the stage


I sat on the window ledge
And screamed out your name
Lightning striked
Pieces of the sky began to fall
This is what it looks like
When your world has just ended
Not even the rain could compete with my tears.

The moon hangs like the blade of an axe tonight,
and it's poised to drop sometime soon enough
on this dump truck where I lie mixed up with the morning's trash.
There's a piece of glass sticking in my back and tar covering my mouth.
But it's okay cause I'm still breathing and my hands are free of the heap.
And I think that I see that big blade falling.
And I think that I see that big blade coming.
And the pressure is getting to me and the waste in which
I sit is just lurking beside me.
And I can't tell if it's me or the meat that's rotting.
I'm gonna have to give up sometime soon.
But it's okay cause I'm still breathing and my hands are free of the heap.
And I think that I see that big blade falling.
And I think that I see that big blade coming.
You can watch me disappear.
You can watch me.
All I'm losing is me.
And I think that I see that big blade falling.
And I think that I see that big blade coming to slice open a great canyon
through the earth so you can watch me disappear.



-You wanted the best.


It wasn’t me..-

"Tell me not, friar, that thou hear'st of this,
Unless thou tell me how I may prevent it:
If, in thy wisdom, thou canst give no help,
Do thou but call my resolution wise,
And with this knife I'll help it presently.
God join'd my heart and Romeo's, thou our hands;
And ere this hand, by thee to Romeo seal'd,
Shall be the label to another deed,
Or my true heart with treacherous revolt
Turn to another, this shall slay them both:
Therefore, out of thy long-experienced time,
Give me some present counsel, or, behold,
'Twixt my extremes and me this bloody knife
Shall play the umpire, arbitrating that
Which the commission of thy years and art
Could to no issue of true honour bring.
Be not so long to speak;
I long to die,

If what thou speak'st speak not of remedy."

-Romeo and Juliet



'Cause all of the stars are fading away.
Just try not to worry, you'll see them some day.
Take what you need and be on your way.
And stop crying your heart out.
-Oasis


i know you're heart can't breathe. .all your dreams are over now.


Its about time
That I came clean with you
No longer fine
I?m no longer running smooth
I thought that i
Found myself on to something new
Just one more line
I repeat over and over again till I?m blue in the face
With a choking regret
Cuz I talked in circles around you on my bed
Can?t say I blame you one bit when you kept it all inside
When you left that night

Its about time
That you got sick of me
No longer fun
And so far from interesting
I thought that i
Found me a cure for feeling old
Just one more line
To keep me sleeping loudly and cold
In disgrace with a shameful regret
As I talk in tongues to myself in my bed
Can?t say I blame you one bit when you kept it all inside
When you left that night

And all that followed fell
Like mercury to hell
So now we lost our heads for the last time
And all that followed fell
Like mercury to hell
So now we lost our heads for the last time

And I don?t dream
Since I quit sleeping
And I havent slept
Since I met you
And you can?t breathe
Without coughing in daytime
Neither can i
So what do you say?
Your coffin or mine?

there was something in the way you turned and looked at me.
i started panicking.
i - s t a r t e d - p a n i c k i n g.



that will always be my favorite memory of
you and me.

three small words could make this all okay



Ok, done.
Fuck you

La de da,.... [24 Jul 2004|09:29pm]
[ mood | crushed ]
[ music | Ben playing guitar.... ]

Edited for Mi Amor's convience.

Fuck you

..? [20 Jul 2004|09:02pm]
[ mood | morose ]

Well, I’m going home tomarrow. Since Dad’s coming up right before Waped Tour, I’ll have my decision on wheteher or not I’m staying, by then. I think I might just go with my dad. I’m almost positive that’s what I’m gonna do. Eh, No one really cares so no biggie.
I’m in a lyrics kinda mood.
I’ll only put lyrics that apply so you can see exactly how I feel.

Losing streak
I know you'll be around
short sighted and undecided
and you'll know where I'll be found
Just another day of smoking cigarettes
apathetic, and just plain pathetic
just like the day we met
and we're not growing up
and it's just my luck
that I'm broke and standing with you again.



You’re so last summer
She said…
“Don’t let it go to your head, boys like you are a dime a dozen
You hear that? A dime a dozen.
You’re a touch, over rated
You’re a lush..
..and I hate it
and these grass stains on my knees….
….they don’t mean a thing”
And I need to know I that I’m something that your missing
It’s pathetic.
You could slit my throat and with my one last gasping breath I’d apologize for bleeding on your shirt
It’s pathetic

Maybe I should hate you for this
I never really did get that far
get what?
I’ll do what I got to.
If you only knew half as much as you pretend to..
..You’re a liar. And I’m just bad news
A wishful thinker with the worst intentions
And this will be the last chance you’ll get to drop my name

:sigh: Whatever.
He just wants to be friends and theres nothing I can do about it. I’m ugly.

Fuck you

New screen name [20 Jul 2004|05:52pm]
[ mood | amused ]

Yea, so I like to change my screen name....
Well here it is.


QuiteUncoolx
QuiteUncoolx
QuiteUncoolx

QuiteUncoolx
Fuck you

This makes me smile [20 Jul 2004|03:22am]
[ mood | amused ]

http://www.freewebs.com/shawnsspecialpicture/ <---Nothing obsence, i promise.

Fuck you

Thinkin and thinkin [20 Jul 2004|02:23am]
[ mood | contemplative ]
[ music | The germs. ]

I think i'm just gonna move back with my Dad. I mean why not? It's not like there anyone who cares about me.. and there less drama down here. I think everyone would just be happier if I just stayed. I don't think I will, but it can't always be about me. Shawn is trying to get me in a good mood. So i'm speaking spanish to him...


Highlight of the night:

SCanada911 (2:12:04 AM): Sage, speak english, or I will have to do you.

or.....

SCanada911 (2:19:53 AM): and my nuts resemble barbies? I better check them.

Thats funny shiz right therr.

Well, although this has put me in a slightly better mood ... I think i'll still be depressed for a while till i figure out what i really want to do.

Shawns a cool kid. But i don't know if i'm ready to date right now. I think i'll wait a little. I'm a teeny bit too vulnerable right now.

Fuck you

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