||Saosin - Seven Years
So today has been very uneventful. I've just been extremely tired because of last night so I only accepted phone calls from Tori. HAHA I layed around and recovered. It was actually nice. Tomorrow will makeup for today.
I've been reading journals and post and there's been a few things that have caught my mind that are bothering me right now. So I'm going to vent and I'm not directing this towards any specific person. Yes I will admit, when it comes to being a good girl, I'm not one. I try my hardest but I just don't make the cut. I'm not afraid to admit that I drink, I've smoked, and yes I've had sex. If you think any different of me because of that. I'm sorry but that's you're problem. There's no way to judge a person because of how they act. They could be the sweetest person in the world, heading down the right path, but just like to have fun..maybe a little too much. And there are a few girls out there claiming to be good who aren't that great. Sure they may not of had sex, but yes I know for a fact that they have drank and smoked. One or the other. So please, before you claim to be such a 'good girl' think about some of your actions and reconsider that. None the less to call yourself a 'good girl' and then to talk about how you're heading down the right path, and you don't want to get mixed up in the 'wrong crowd' is just being closed minded. Sure you could be heading down the right path, but without a few mistakes here and there or a few 'rebelious' friends you wouldn't know which way was right and you wouldn't know how to correct certain things in your life. There's alot you can learn from taking a stroll down the wrong path. Everyone heads down the wrong path in life at least once. Regardless. You head down that path to correct yourself and continue on the right way. I do have morals in life too. Sure I've made mistakes in the choices I've made, but who hasn't? It's all a part of life. I've only screwed over one of my morals. I do regret that majorly but I will not dwell on that for the rest of my life. It's a mistake I made that I have to learn to live with and move on with my life. I really hate how girls can call someone a slut. You may not know the whole story about someone. Like I used to call this girl 'slutty' because she slept with a lot of people but come to find out she had no mom growing up and her dad told her that if she 'loved' someone she could have sex. So of course a guy is going to say that just to get some. I feel awful for ever calling her that not knowing the whole story. So before you call someone a name..think about it. Yes I do call people names but it's nothing I wouldn't say to their face.
I've come to realize that I'm not grown up yet. I have a lot of learning to do. I'm very optomistic and ambitious when it comes to things in life. I accept every challenge handed to me holding my head high. I will over come every obstacle placed in front of me with determination. What does not kill us, only makes us stronger. Life is a journey. A journey full of mistakes, obstacles, and challenges. Take it on with your head held high and your spirits high.
Peace Boos <33
edit 12-30 1:12pm Just read this in an email and thought it kind of added to this entry so I wanted to add it in.
I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me. The road to
success is not straight. There is a curve called Failure, a loop called Confusion, speed bumps called Friends, red lights called Enemies, caution lights called Family. You will have flats called Jobs. But, if you have a spare called Determination, an engine called Perseverance, insurance called Faith, a driver called Jesus, you will make it to a place called Success.
I love that verse <33