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[22 Apr 2005|10:27pm] |
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well i must say that i feel real unsure at the moment.... that chick i was talking about in my last entry... yea we've been talking for a bit and she said something about her n' lucas talking baout hanging out... im really not cool with that at all... lucas hasn't said one word to me about it... thats sorta what bugs me about it.... that and its just the fact that i keep thinking if they hang out someting bad will come out of it.... ugh im so confused...
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[22 Apr 2005|08:17pm] |
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im not sure how long this will be.... i have a head ache.... anywho... my day started off pretty bad.... lucas and i got into a fight and he was pretty upset w/ me, and i don't blame him.... i told him to shut up b/c i was upset and balh blah blah.... but after 3rd hour we both kissed n' made up and now everything is perfect! :-) but the rest of my day was pretty boring.... after school i had to go to work, which was pretty boring... and when i came home i realized that i could smell myself and my feet hurt, so i went a laid in the bathtub for awhile... this girl taht has a crush on lucas added me to her myspace deal, and has started talking to me. i do give her props b/c she's the first out of his "fan club" to auctually say anything to me. she wants to be my friend, which i don't have much of a problem doing, but i just hope it doesn't backfire and blow up in my face.... it will be a bit awkard trying to be friends with someone who has a big crush on ur b/f and tells him that she loves him.... that will be the hard part.... anywho i would say im about to go watch tv but wait a second.... can i do that???? no i cant! why not you may ask? well sometime my sister must have played a video game and its fucked over EVERY channel i watch... like im lucky to even see a pic on the screen but i can hardly comprehend what they're saying... plus the vcr is fucked up and i dunno how to work the dvd player, so in a nutshell.... im fucked until my parents go to bed..... nice huh? i hope my sister comes home soon and can like, fix it or something.... ugh, sometimes, technology blows.....
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[21 Apr 2005|09:50pm] |
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my night just wont stop getting better! first i find out that i have no one to skip with tomorrow, then i find out lucas wont be at my very last band concert that im prolly ever going to play b/c he wants to go to some show in stl.... wow, what else could happen?
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[21 Apr 2005|09:22pm] |
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well i just found out that i am going to school tomorrow... im only going b/c i have no one to skpi w/ me... it kinda sucks.... im a bit disappointed about it b/c i've never done anything sorta like that... well maybe we can next friday... lucas said he doesnt want to skip unless its going to be a nice day out... it does kinda and kinda not make sense to me but w/e i guess..... maybe next friday....
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[21 Apr 2005|07:58pm] |
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wow there is nothing on tv tonite... i got tired of watching george of the jungle and so gave my sister the tv... ugh its about to start storming here again.... grrrrrreat..... i did my exercises earlier too... crunches, and arm exercises.... thats about it. i didn't feel compelled enough to do much tonight... *sigh* grrrreat.... its thundering a bit now... i hate storms.... well... some of the times.... usually most of the time... im still not 100% sure if lucas and i will skip tomorrow, but i kinda hope we do.... i want a break from school....
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[21 Apr 2005|05:46pm] |
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wow i have that milkshake song by kleis stuck in my head for some reason.... today was pretty ok. auctually it was pretty boring... a lot of people were gone b/c of a human anatomy field trip but that was about it... this morning i got on SEMO's web site so i could change my schedule for next year and it said i had an academic block on it. funny how it had that and i've never even taken a class there.... so i called some lady up and got everything straightened around. tomorrow is senior skip day and i htink lucas n' i are both going to skip together. i might have to clean some of the house but i dont think it will be too bad. ugh but i have to work tomorrow.... gross... i also gotta put in for some time off but yea... what an exciting life i lead huh?
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[20 Apr 2005|06:31pm] |
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well last night was pretty ok. lucas got all his guitar parts recorded and i think either most or all of his vocals done. i didnt get home till 11 and i went right to bed. i'lve been kinda tired lately... anywho.... well today beth was SUPPOSED to go w/ my to SFR (spring fever reliever, its something they do at our school.... its got food, a strong man competition, volleyball, dodgeball, and a VERY lame battle of the bands (its lame b/c none of the bands ever sound good....plus its all usually pop-punk and crap like slipknot or w/e....)) lucas was hopen to play in the battle of the bands but since all the members arent from our school, he couldnt. so hes at work! but yea, beth didnt request off for today so shes at work... so i was like oh well i dont feel much like going b/c it is going to rain tonight... so i think im a bit im going to go take a shower, do some crunches, and start on a project for school. after school thou, i went to go tan, then to the mall to shop for mothers day, and i also bought lucas a new wallet since his is lost/stolen...then i went to go put it in his car but i went into mcds just to see if it was locked and stuff, and he was on his break so i sat w/ him and talked n' gave him his wallet. im pretty sure he liked it, plus he needed a new on to haul his shit around in... well thats about all i have to say....
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[18 Apr 2005|09:49pm] |
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ever feel like someones not being completly honest with you and like someones always going behind your back? well thats how i feel about someone right now.... we'll call that person Bobbi sense then it can be either a guy or girl and no one will know.... today i read something that once again, brought down my trust in bobbi... i don't see why he/she lies to me.... it doesnt make sense.... its rather upsetting.... if bobbi cant be truthful to me then how am i supposed to be able to trust him/her.... ugh im just so confused right now.... oh and to top off my wonderful night, i found out that my aunt and uncle won't be here for my graduation.... its kinda depressing... oh well.... i kinda figured something like this would happen... my uncle has to go in for surgery and my aunt goes in like the week after him and they want to get them over with so they can go to CO for the 4th of july..... it doesnt make much sense to me but oh well...
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[18 Apr 2005|04:49pm] |
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today went pretty well to be honest. the weather around here has been beautiful. school was ok i guess. i decided to wear shorts today and bout froze my butt off during the last half of my day... after school i went and dropped off some paper towels and such at the humane society, and the woman that i gave them to looked like she wanted to hug and got really happy bout it. then i went and looked at the cats, and left. =^..^= i love kitties! anywho... after that i went tanning for a bit, so that way my dress doesnt look that bad on me for prom. i think sometime soon, lucas and i are going to go order our flowers together b/c last year he got his boutinere (sp?) free when he bought my flower. if thats the case this year, then we're going in on halves. i hope prom doesnt suck as much as it did last year... and now here i am at home.... its pretty boring... i was going to go visit lucas but he said not to b/c this girl that has a crush on him will get mad and take it out on him, so it would be best not to... well i think im gonna go in a bit. i doub ti'll write tomorrow b/c i think im going w/ lucas to do some recording....
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[17 Apr 2005|10:06pm] |
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im kinda tired and dont have much to say. this weekend was pretty fun. i went to lucas's brothers wedding and reception yesterday and had lots of fun. today i didnt do much, but go to work. thas bout it. tomorrow is a monday... yuck.... i don twant to go to school
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[15 Apr 2005|04:25pm] |
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dang i feel like i have something stuck in my throat.... oh well... today was pretty decent. in 7th hour we went to dair queen, which i guess i kinda need to stay away from.... i also went and picked up my prom dress today and when i got hom eot try it on again, it kinda fit, but barely.... so yea, i gotta shed a few pounds by may 7th. i think i can do it! :-P other then that, not a whole lot happened today. then again not much ever does... later im going to go pick up my friend mike and we're going to go over to the camp to watch three bands play, one of which is lucas's. should be fun! but yea, i gues im going to go get ready to go....
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[13 Apr 2005|07:53pm] |
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i odnt know why im making another entry... i dont really have anything to say.... im sor bored and i just ugh, i dont know.... i think im prolly gonna go to bed early tonight.... i have nothin gbetter to do. :-P i guess thats it...
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[13 Apr 2005|03:21pm] |
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ah today wen pretty good w/ no tornados! yay! i didnt have to be to school till 9:40, so i went to lucas's around 8 and then we left his house at like 9:20 and went to a local bakery and got some doughnuts and then went to school. nothing too intresting happened today.... oh yea, my sister needs my car all week b/c the ppl that are fixing her car have to order a part or something... i dunno, but it makes me mad... so tomorrow, shes gonna have to cart me over to lucas's again. i might need my car tomorrow night b/c lucas is going to go finsih up recording and i dunno how long we'll be there but i might take my car so that way i can leave if it gets close to my curfew.... ack my throat hurts and i have a mouth sore under my tongue! it sucks..... i think now im gonna go get a snack...
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[12 Apr 2005|10:34pm] |
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argh, today was very upsetting... during 6th hour we got call out b/c a tornado was sighted near our town and we had to go all the way from the 3rd floor to the 1st floor.... had there been a tornado, we'd prolly have died... then it happened again 7th hour and we even had to stay after school for like half an hour..... it was really lame... after school, i went w/ lucas to cape b/c his band was recording a new demo.... i read and slept thru most of it.... then i came home and since i dont have to be at school till 9:40 tomorrow, i was supposed to drive to lucas's in the morning so we could sleep in together and then go to a local bakery and get breakfast.... well as it turns out, my sister needs my car to go to work tomorrow, so i guess that wont happen... who knows... he just got online so im going to talk to him about it now.....
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[11 Apr 2005|05:44pm] |
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i really hate mondays..... theres just something about them that upsets me... but yea i guess my day was ok... school was pretty boring and i fell asleep in health again.... i just cant help it b/c my teacher is so monotoned and he always has the lights out, so how can you not??? after school i went and applied at pac sun and the shoe dept (a shoe store)... i hope i get the job at pac sun.... oh well if i dont... then i went to barnes and noble n' got some books, then i went home and here i now am! im pretty bored right now.... im talking to jeremy right now. he wants to be a body builder and he has what you would call a "developmental sponsorship" from some company right now.... i may call lucas later, but i dunno.... i dont wanna like disturb him or anything b/c hes not feeling well... i guess im going to go take a shower....
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[10 Apr 2005|01:30pm] |
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wow i feel like i havent slept in ages...yesterday i woke up at 5 in the morning to go into work to cover for some girl who partied too hard the night before.... people make me mad.... what sucked, was that i've never worked that shift before and i had no idea what i was doing... but i made it thru alright.... then i canem home, washed my car, took a shower, and then i laid out on my balcony for awhile to maybe get a bit of a small tan.... i ended up falling asleep out there and when i woke up and went inside, i looked in the mirror and my back half was dark but my front was still pale.... yuck.... then lucas came and got me adn we went to this girls bday party that he was playing at, and then we went to taco bell and back to his house and then to my house where i went to bed. blah.... today i auctually a decent amount of sleep, and i went out to eat w/ my parents, and then sat in the car for half an hour while they were in Lowes buying flower pots and shutters... ugh i gotta go to work later... joy....
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[09 Apr 2005|01:14am] |
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im pretty bored and i thought i'd write in here, even thou im not sure what im going to say... ugh i kinda feel like lately lucas is trying to avoid me... he says hes not, but i dunno.... i kinda believe him but then again i always worry, and i always think of the worst that can happen.... which sucks b/c then he thinks i dont trust him and i do.... tomorrow i gotta drive to the show.... im not all that surprised... yea also, lucas and i arent hanging out sunday after i get offa work and i dont even know whats going to happen after the show tomorrow.... i dunno about somethings anymore.... wow all this 80's music keeps coming up on my launchcast player.... i hate that shit.... well i hope saturday is a good day... i think im going to go wash the bird shit offa my car and then take a shower and go job hunting and then i guess go to the show and then who knows what....
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[08 Apr 2005|11:01pm] |
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today was pretty much like any other average day i guess.... after school today we celebrated my sisters birthday, to my surpirse.... i didnt think that we were doing that until tomorrow night.... so yea... i thouhgt we were going out to eat tomorrow night and then my parents were just going to dump me off w/ lucas or at the show tomorrow or something! yea turns out, it was tonight and we went to red lobster and i stuffed my face w/ cheddar bay biscuits, and shrimp. meh now i feel kinda sick.... meh, my shrimp wasnt all that great tonight. at least my shrimp pasta wasnt.... the popcorn shrimp was ok. wow im writing about what i ate for dinner.... i feel like a winner... *eye roll* wow im pretty bored... guess im gonna go watch what not to wear while i wait for my boo to come home so i can tellhim *hey my sisters bday dinner was tonite* and blah blah blah....
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[07 Apr 2005|07:32pm] |
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my feet hurt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i just got home from work a bit ago.... its wasnt too bad but it wasnt really much fun either. then again it never really is. i was hopen for lucas to call me back by 8 but i dunno if that will happen. guess i'll just have to wait until 8. im pretty tired right now.... i dunno what im going to do for the rest of the night.... this entry blows... i dont have much to say...
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[06 Apr 2005|03:38pm] |
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ugh, today was pretty boring and dumb... it rained all morning long... i wore flip flops too which didnt help me very much but oh well. this morning my dads work called and said that he was having one of his low things and my mom had to haul ass over to cape this morning. he ended up going to the emergency room and they ran some tests and it turns out all thats wrong is he just has a really bad sinus infection. so really his sugar wasnt low at all. im not sure what happened, but all that matters is that everything is fine now. lucas has to work for a bit tonite.... hes there till some girl can come in and cover for him and he doesnt know when that will be... i think we might hang out tonight but im not 100% sure. it would be kind of nice to have something to do tonite thou. i thouhgt bout taking him out to dinner, but im not 100% sure i wanna do it yet. i'll let him pick, as long as its not like uber expensive. i only have $15...... but i get paid on monday so that should be good. my mom and i gotta go pick up my dads truck in cape soon, so i guess im going to end this thing.
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