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Thursday, February 12th, 2004

(1 Dead Soul | Bullets Ring Out )

Time:11:57 pm.
Mood: cranky.
-_- I got three chemical burns on my arm -_- lovely..I leaned on sink cleaner or something when I was washing my hair ick-ness.

Hurts....and itches...blah...

Ok, I'm leaving now..

Tuesday, February 10th, 2004

(2 Dead Souls | Bullets Ring Out )

Time:10:32 am.
Mood: exanimate.
Music:La'Mule - Ask.
I'm still alive...yipee skippy XD Imma work on a new layout for this journal...bleh..I have like a million journals now.

I need to work on my webpage -_- I think I'll do that today, since Danny seems to have forgotten to call me lmao.

My lip doesn't hurt so much today thank god.

Well..last night was sort of weird.. ----- IMed me and well I was suprised and annoyied sorta..*sighs* I don't know how to describe it, I just thank whatever that Shinya (<3) was on the phone so I couldn't and wouldn't do anything stupid..I was more angrier than I let on to Shinya over the phone but still..

I think I lost some weight *dances* Ok..I need to do laundry ^^

*runs off* I'll revamp my reika layout for this.

Monday, July 28th, 2003

(2 Dead Souls | Bullets Ring Out )

Time:11:43 pm.
Mood: aggravated.
now -i'm- the one that wants to disappear....

Wednesday, June 4th, 2003

( Bullets Ring Out )

Time:6:09 am.
Mood: tired.
Music:Baroque - baby baby.
Yesterday, work was fun. Trish called in sick so for the first few hours, I could take it easy. But she came in around 10pm. She was in a good mood, talking with me and hanging out in my cubical. We were cleaning out her old file cabient and we found this fucking HUGE lollipop. She's like "if people don't work I hit them with this!" I was fucking DYING imagining like a person with a big round red spot on their cheek reporting her and saying "SHE HIT ME WITH A LOLLIPOP!" Then we found Mike's "fart machine" it's this hand held kids toy that makes all these different fart noises. Pat was having a field day with it until Trish took it back haha I was was laughing so hard my face was bright red. Then Pat was drinking soda and she started coughing and soda came out of her nose and she was laughing and crying at the same time, and I had to lean on the floor I was laughing so hard XDD Trish actually yelled at me (in a joking manner) for doing my work so fast..haha so yeah, now she has like nothing for me to do so I have to take my time doing crap work she gives me haha.

Well, I payied for all my magazines and my Gothic Lolita 4 magazine. Woo hoo and stuff.

Aiko was on HeyHeyHey two nights ago..Some other things too..They showed Gackt singing for like a second XD

Reika's a tired man *reads the band's new diary* ^_^ poor thing *pets him*

Well I'm now off to work again ~.~ two more days then I'm free...I also might get to talk to shinya this weekend yay!

well anyway..

^_^ if you wanna see the bigger version you can go here
(I think you can figure out how to use it)

Also take a look at my deviantart thingie thing

deviantART Gallery
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Tell me what you think.

Thursday, May 22nd, 2003

( Bullets Ring Out )

Time:10:22 am.
Mood: bored.
Music:Kool and The Gang - Celebration.
I just e-mailed Reika again. XD

God lmao I'm such a kiss ass "wow you sure are sealing your place as a GREAT musician" hahaha *puckers up* He could suck and I'd still love him ha ha but the fact that he's so fucking talented makes it ten times better.

I just bid on more fucking Jrock shit >.> woo hoo...3 buck Due'le Quartz trading card merrrr lol.

I'm listening to "Kool and The Gang" *dies laughing* this is one of my fav songs..I'm always reminded of my birthday parties when I was young for some reason.

Err -.-" I'm so bored someone say me...please!!!

Tuesday, May 20th, 2003

( Bullets Ring Out )

Subject:I can post lyrics...cause I'm cool like that >.>
Time:12:03 pm.
Mood: crushed.
Music:Jerry Cantrell - Solitude.
Written by Jerry Cantrell

All dreams have died along the way
I coughed up the price, I bought a cage
I've had a hell of a time since I went away
Don't know when I died or where to lay down

Gone, gone away
Yeah, gone, gone away

God knows I've tried, I'm dyed in pain
Strong yet simple drive, the freedom to say
I've had a hell of a time since I went away
Homing on traces of light, that distance fades

Repeat chorus

So they say with time we slowly heal
I caught a flash of your smile throught the fog of a dream
I'll have a hell of a time, I clearly see
I can't be by your side, I'll see you when I sleep

Now you're gone...gone away
Yeah you're gone...gone away

( Bullets Ring Out )

Time:11:56 am.
Mood: blank.
Music:Jerry Cantrell - Gone.
The Unforturnate Death of Lead Singer Layne Staley -- 1967-2002
By: Travis Gibson (

Alice in Chains' Layne Staley died from a mixture of heroin and cocaine, an autopsy and toxicology report revealed Monday.

Laboratory results determined the singer died April 5, according to a spokesperson for the King County medical examiner's office, the same day fellow grunge pioneer Kurt Cobain committed suicide in 1994. Staley was found dead two weeks later, surrounded by intravenous drug paraphernalia in his Seattle apartment.

The death certificate reads Staley's death resulted from "an acute intoxication due to the combined effects of opiate (heroin) and cocaine." The death was classified as "accidental."

The lethal combination goes by the name "speedball" in drug circles. The same ingredients contributed to the deaths of comedian John Belushi in 1982 and actor River Phoenix in 1993.

Down In A Hole
Alice In Chains

Bury me softly in this womb
I give this part of me for you
Sand rains down and here I sit
Holding rare flowers
In a bloom

Down in a hole and I don't know if I can be saved
See my heart I decorate it like a grave
You don't understand who they
Thought I was supposed to be
Look at me now a man
Who won't let himself be

Down in a hole, feelin' so small
Down in a hole, losin' my soul
I'd like to fly,
But my wings have been so denied

Down in a hole and they've put all
The stones in their place
I've eaten the sun so my tongue
Has been burned of the taste
I have been guilty
Of kicking myself in the teeth
I will speak no more
of my feelings beneath

Down in a hole, feelin' so small
Down in a hole, losin' my soul
I'd like to fly but my
Wings have been so denied

Bury me softly in this womb
Oh I want to be inside of you
I give this part of me for you
Oh I want to be inside of you
Sand rains down and here I sit
Holding rare flowers (Oh I want to be inside of you)
In a bloom
Oh I want to be inside...

Down in a hole, feelin' so small
Down in a hole, losin' my soul
Down in a hole, feelin' so small
Down in a hole, outta control
I'd like to fly but my
Wings have been so denied

( Bullets Ring Out )

Time:11:49 am.
Mood: depressed.
Music:Alice In Chains - Down In A Hole.
God, I miss Layne ALOT today..I'm listening to "Ring Them Bells" with him and heart..ugh I feel like I'm dying..I don't understand why he died..I mean I know WHY..but god..his anniversary passed and I was oblivious..I fucking..ugh..I can't...*listens to Alice In Chains* fuck Layne ment so much to me and my life..It's making me sick to just sit here and listen to it...*sighs*

I'm going to STOP listening to it before I do something bad to myself..

Ring Them Bells by Heart )

Sunday, May 18th, 2003

(2 Dead Souls | Bullets Ring Out )

Time:12:49 am.
Mood: accomplished.
Music:Aioria - rurichou.
New Layout!!

<3333 Kana.

New icons too

Thursday, May 1st, 2003

( Bullets Ring Out )

Time:6:52 pm.
Mood: crappy.
God why did i make a madeth mood theme on lj? now I wanna make a Kao one and a Jiro one XDDD

I'm so bored...and my Shin Shin can't come to blurty anymore ;__;

My tummy hurts Imma watch the God Thumb now lol.

Wednesday, April 30th, 2003

( Bullets Ring Out )

Time:3:08 am.
Mood: annoyed.
Let's see..

DEG's new single
Miyavi's new single
Nightmare poster
June Shoxx
DEG's Kai remix album
May Arena 37

- Trying To Get -

Gothic Lolita Vol 5 (the one with Kana in the cute forest outfits!)
Matina Rare photobook
La'Mule gift pack (complete with 2 cds videos, and photobook)
Crackbrain cd

Mother decided to look crap up for the convention on her own. She knows how much the hotels are (well i dont know which one shinya is planning on staying at) she knows how much a plane is, he knows how much registration is. I told her awhile ago there was no sense in my going and she looked up the stuff, and she's going to send me I think as a birthday present.

I dunno..its what two months away? that's not enough time to save...*le sigh* I feel like crying everytime I think about it..

Monday, April 21st, 2003

( Bullets Ring Out )

Time:1:31 pm.
Mood: bouncy.
Music:Miyavi - sungee maemukina uta 2 (jibun kakumei-2003- single).

Me AND Gackt..but from the stupid babblefish translation it looks like he um...copied and pasted lmao!!

Only problem..Babblefish blows, I am BEGGING any of you who can translate Kanji in anyway shape or form to pleeeease take time out of your busy schedules to translate the e-mail!! please please for me? cause you love me? And you want me to know what my favorite jrocker has said to me ;_;

He updated his journal about a session band thing X.X he lists all the songs he's going to cover..He also said something about how his place as a musican has been increased (maybe cause of my lovely e-mail? lmao XDDD) he's covering "Doubt 99" O.O;; but um...Buck Tick's version? what a dope..why doesn't he just cover hide's version? XDDDD

*dies and doesn't care if it could be an auto-response*

Pleeeeeeeeease someone be kind enough to help me!!

Monday, April 14th, 2003

( Bullets Ring Out )

Subject:Weeee ooo
Time:6:09 pm.
Mood: excited.
Music:Adam Sandler - At A Medium Pace.
I'm so pumped!! I just applied to Blockbuster like 3 blocks from my house.

Pray Pray I get it!!!!

*Does a dance*

If I do I'll have con money AND I'll be saving to get an extra computer ^_^;;

*loves all over*

Sunday, April 13th, 2003

( Bullets Ring Out )

Time:1:12 pm.
Mood: bouncy.
Music:The Smashing Pumpkins - Annie Dog.
amphetamine annie-dog
has her leash and a face
her velvet spleen her shackle spine
her diamond curse
it comes with mine

a vessel she
for violent I
confession arms a wake
mine, mine you were always mine
possessed by my taste

and below the angel dog
combs her hair and sings her psalms
the bombs go off
she doesn't notice
it all goes wrong
she sets things tragic
she is venus
she is mars
she's electric
and the struggle of

upon my face we leave no trace
but in her stomach mercury aged

she holds the blood
she carves the knives
she digs the wives in our babies

amphetamine annie-dog
pulls her trash
and her stories
from place to place
and bed to bed
gives of herself and the magnet head

another floor another ceiling
counting stairs with double meanings

is it wrong to be swallowed whole
to disappear in her
to give her the priceless peace
of giving up control

we tumble out into the streets
and annie-dog she drags her leash
pretty face
ugly mouth
bitter bred and so released

and by the no
and by the yes
annie goes if you couldn't guess

a simple man
a sycophant
her elephant with the laughing call
she wants clean sheets
and fresh flowers
and dental shots
and the hong kong glue

amphetamine annie-dog
has her leash and a face

(I accidentally posted this on Kao's journal too XDDDDDD oh well it's staying there lol)

Saturday, April 12th, 2003

( Bullets Ring Out )

Time:2:41 am.
Mood: accomplished.
Music:Dir en Grey - Filth (Kisou).
my new layout kicks ass...

I'm sorry Hyde *pets* forgive me for changing it ^^;

Friday, April 11th, 2003

( Bullets Ring Out )

Time:2:41 pm.
Mood: depressed.
Music:Mirage - No More No War.
Hisui please stop singing to're breaking my heart...your voice soothes and stabs at the same time..

I love you..I love you and your perfect japanese..and your perfect voice...god...I wish...

*sighs imagining Hisui in a recording studio*

I CAN'T TAKE THIS... ;__________;

i extend my hand, and my awareness was left shaking
entombed in this cage, i search for the answer i want
those sadly pledged words, now, flood out.. so much its painful..

i can't return to that time
someday again, time will painfully turn...
once more in the confinement of tears, i shout out from this wall i'm trapped inside..

inside my chest that endlessly sings of tears, you can't find the words you forgot, can you?
"love and hate.." i just chant over and over
nothing but melancholic illusions

i can't return to that time
someday again, time will painfully turn...
once more in the confinement of tears, i fleetingly embrace everything

now, softly swaying, inside this light.. together with this gushing wind
i leave behind my hidden feelings, inside this gushing air

"not never clap eyes on HEAVEN" By Hisui.

Monday, April 7th, 2003

( Bullets Ring Out )

Subject:HATE THIS!!!
Time:5:55 pm.
Mood: bored.
Music:Raphael - Sayokyoku ~Hisou~ (Fumetsuka).
Damn it..Madeth is on my internet radio..I'm crying..this song always does this to me..god..

I'm sick of talking about this and I'm sure you are all sick of listening to it. Why am I so emotional over them..I can still listen to them be musicans (except Izumi ;_;) just not in the one band I love.

It's not just Reika..I thought it was I thought I loved Madeth so much for awhile because Reika was in it..but that's not the case. I love them all. I love what their music does to me and how it makes me feel. I love each member seperatly because well, I adore them..I dunno..all of them are overly talented. I lose myself in their music..

Um...Raphael just came on...Kazuki's bday today *hugs blue ribbon* ^^

Imma go I'm sick of talking..


Tuesday, April 1st, 2003

( Bullets Ring Out )

Subject:ha ha ha ha yeah..sure...
Time:7:03 am.
Music:+D'espairsRay+ - [S]yste[m] (Hysteric Media Zona VA).
slut toshiya
You are Toshiya. Admit it, you just fell asleep
with that pose in that outfit in hopes that
another member of D.E.G. would screw you.

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Monday, March 31st, 2003

(7 Dead Souls | Bullets Ring Out )

Subject:For Shinchan!
Time:6:47 am.
Mood: amused.

Shinya ^_^ hide told me you LOVED spongebob, I thought you'd love this pic.

Thursday, March 27th, 2003

(2 Dead Souls | Bullets Ring Out )

Time:10:25 am.
Mood: pleased.
Music:Eminem (I forget the name of the song).
that's what I am. I get so strung up on Reika it's hilarious >> ok well maybe not HILARIOUS.

It's just amazing, God I love him so much. I respect him with the highest form of the word. I can't even believe that I have a picture he touched and signed. Everytime I watch this man I am in complete awe. Sometimes it's heartbreaking just because he's him.

*twirls around* He's so happy playing drums, I think if the opportunity arised he wouldn't do ANYTHING but play drums. He has such dedication, a devotion, something so little people have now a days.

*sighs* I could talk about him FOREVER..and sometimes I think no one cares, but why should they..he isn't THEIR idol...he's mine.

Oh well...I have to go to therapy now.


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