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Wednesday, February 25, 2004
2:47PM - driving me nuts...
okay seriously i am not the type of person who can sit home and watch the tv for 4+ days because it drives me crazy. Thats why i dont like snow days too much, if i get stuck home for too long i begin to fall asleep just sitting in front of my computer from boredom. Last week i was absent from school on thursday and friday, then i had saturday and sunday to sulk at home. I was feeling better, cuz i was sick, duh, so i went to school on monday...and that nighttt i got sick again. Maybe it was cuz i wasnt wearing a coat at the library but it was hott outside, people were in t-shirts. but anyway i obviously have a virus so tuesday and wednesday i didnt go to school either. And now i'm sitting here and doing my homework from last week and this week and its too much to do in one day. I fucking hate being sick....and thats not all i hate. I have stuff at school i'm supposed to be taking care of. #1 science presentations, #2 the painting of the chair in art, #3 my grades, #4 testing, #5 make-up work, #6 friends and personal stuff. I hope i can go to school tomorrow even though that means i hafta get all the hw done by tonight. grr! anyway i bet everyone is hanging out at the library today after school...heh i was supposed to be there but i guess i'll hafta go tomorrow and friday in stead.
~ aly
Current mood: 
cranky
Current music: 3 days grace
Sunday, February 22, 2004
6:23PM - i want to marry johnny depp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha its funny how with my last boyfriend my feelings were totally screwed up toward him. listen to how stupid this is. When i saw him in my class i was really attracted to him, when we wern't going out yet i really liked him, when he asked me out i wasnt sure that i liked him anymore and whether going out with him was what i wanted, then when he dumped me i suddenly got a feeling that i couldnt believe i lost him because now i knew that what i had lost shouldnt have been taken for granted.
something else thats funny is that i think my mom is right, i guess i just need to meet a 17 year old guy so that he'd be more mature than i am and actually be the guy in the relationship. cuz in health class we are taught that guys are really set back 3 years on maturity level so that actually seems like it'd work out.
advice to some people, on top of being depressed and unhappy, don't take a nap in the afternoon like i did because you wake up twice as cranky. then you bitch at innocent people without realizing it....
wee!!!!! my week is going to be so great......*sarcasm*........i get to hang out at the library like all week after schoool and have fuuuUUUuuun!!!!!! *sarcasm*
anyway can anyone can tell me why guys are such cowards? i mean seriously, to have to hear what they say about you from your girlfriends is just so pathetic cuz i mean how hard is it to just click on your screen name online and tell the person whats going on? and no i'm not talking about anyone in specific i mean generally....
ooooh i got this really cool lighter and i'm not sure what to do with it..haha i'm scared of getting burnt so i'm proly going to give it to someone :\
now i'm off to do history homework.....
Current mood: 
discontent
Friday, February 20, 2004
10:21PM - Optimism
hmm..well the last couple of days have been really confusing for me. I just moved into another house like last week and i'm still settling down. I'm not sure how its all going to be like this summer and in the spring cuz i have friends in timbergrove and i hate starting over. I'm hoping that i'll fit in here...
This past week has sucked so bad for so many reasons. #1 personal proble4ms, #2 i'm sick, #3 school. And i'm trying really hard to find something to be happy about but how much can you be happy about with a broken heart, a sore throat, and a confused look on your face when you look at your math homework. Hopefully everything will blow over....
Anyway i'm babysitting my niece right now so i'll be back to write in a couple of days
Current mood: 
optimistic
Current music: duno
Wednesday, February 18, 2004
7:23PM - what is love
What makes you think,
that you're in love?
Its just a concept,
that you've heard of.
For real or not,
how should you know.
It takes great feeling,
for such love to show.
You think its real,
so you say it out loud.
You think this is it,
and it makes you proud.
But realize,
It may be your mind,
rushing to grow up,
its something you linger to find.
And you think you've found it,
and made that someone believe.
That its the truth you're saying,
and you promise not to decieve.
So how come it takes you,
a day to change your mind?
Tricked that someone in believing,
that you're the best they could find.
Left them with feelings,
too strong to forget.
Lost and regreting,
they sit and they fret.
They don't understand,
what they have done so wrong.
And to forget someone special,
their will must be strong.
But what is love,
and why does it hurt?
You promised me one day,
that my heart you wont hurt.
But understand this,
i wont wait for you.
So take what you call love,
and save it for someone new.
Something new that i wrote. Better than venting in my journal, I don't want to tell everyone all the details. Besides its not like anyone cares anyway. Well i'm off to do my homework and i doubt i'll write anything soon. Heh not much to write, the poem says it all.
P.S. -open for commentary so feel free to tell me what you think.
Monday, February 16, 2004
8:00PM - valentine's day and all the above (what is the above you ask? I have no clue, but it sounds cool)
Valentine's Day- One sucky holiday which should and shall be destroyed due to the fact that you never have anyone to spend it with. It is probably celebrated by like 45% of the world whom being are people 18+, people with cars, and married couples. Now since I dont fall into either category, I think its safe to say that I am in the club of "People who hate valentine's day".
This year me and my friend meg made a pact that if her and I dont get a date, asked out, or whatever by someone we like then her and I will spend v-day together. We would go somewhere special and celebrate it together as friends. Altho, thats not how my v-day went. And i'm really sowwie that me and meg didnt get to be together for v-day and I hope she understands that it was important for me to spend v-day with someone i really really like. Altho saturday started like hell because of my moving, i'm really glad that it ended up much better. And its all thanks to jordan really. I really like him and I seriously don't care what anyone else says, i've always been that way. Muffin can back me up on this one. I just hope that its not requited love, cuz then that is really gunna suck. Unrequited love is horrible, and I know Allisin can def. back me up on that one.
Anyway right now I have this damn science fair I hafta do and the printer isnt working it was working fine then I pressed something and it stopped working. I'm just lucky that way I guess. Tomorrow I get to stay after school and go to the library like every tuesday. I really hope that everyone can go so we can have fun like last time. Altho last time wasnt only fun, it was also funny.
Now, about my tripping problem. I dont trip on prupose and i don't know why its a necesity for me to trip like 94638743976497694 times a day. I remember i went to the movies with chris and allisin and after the movie ended i was walking with chris and for no reason at all in like .5 seconds i tripped and fell, sprawling out on the theature floor. I can just remember allisin laughing like it was yesterday. Omg and all those times at my house that i came home all dirty. Talk about luck.
Anyhoo I need to get back to work because if the printer wont work then i migh have to walk to muffins, who lives next door, and print it out at her house. *crosses fingers and hits printer with a hammer* die!!!!!!!!!!
~wuv ali
Current mood: 
stressed
Current music: linkin park-numb, somewhere I belong
Thursday, January 29, 2004
9:28PM - Randomness
Ok Hotmail used to be such a hot, new, used-by-many email service. Now that I have found a website where I can post my poems and crappy art, that website cannot accpet hotmail users because hotmail did some sort of crap to make deviant emails unable to go through. Meaning that if deviantart.com decides to email anyone wiht a hotmail address, the email message will not go through due to some sort of stupid situation. Therefore I have to create a new email address just in case.
Snow days. Ok I don't understand how people enjoy to sit at home for 5 days straight (including weekends) doing nothing and watching tv. You can't go anywhere, you can't see your friends (if they live far away), and its not possible to walk outside cuz the snow is up to your knees. I mean i'm okay with 2 snow days, but thats it. I would much rather be at school having fun with my friends, being yelled at for being late to class without a pass, and fooling around during lunch. Homework isn't that bad and besides if you're in a club, its even better. I mean, yeah, Middle school sucks and all but theres like 5 months left so high school is not far away.
Yipee, i got my buddyprofile up and running. Hopefully no damn virus will erase it this time. visit & sign g-book.
~aly
Wednesday, November 26, 2003
11:30PM - You can never have it all...
The past two weeks have been going really good until this week. My grades were getting better, I actually under-stood what my math teacher was saying, usually everything that comes out of her mouth is *blah blah blah*. Another good thing was that I didn't have much homework so I had more free time, which I spent on watching tv, hanging outside, writng, and drawing, yeah i know, not very important stuff but things I enjoy. Anyway the jcc dance was last saturday, which was really fun. We were allowed to bring glowsticks, cuz usually the people are so bitchy. Many people were there, and t'was fun =D. And....I got accepted to write for the school newspaper which is awesome because now I get my own column, or if I want, my own page. So be expecting to see an article by me very soon cuz I have an idea of what I'm going to write, well not my idea, but Mickey's idea. Anyhoo..I went shopping fer new years presents, yeah i know its a lil too early, but shopping makes me happy. Then again it makes any girl happy. Okay well enough with the hapy crap. This week has been sooo fucked up. #1 on monday I come into math class to find that we are starting a new chapter which I don't understand what so ever and I dont want a fucking tutor again, last time i got one, I had to spend my friday at school after school instead of having fun. #2 my bf and I broke up. Not much to say about it cept I'm back to being single and kinda liking it. I have freedom, yeah i had it before but I have freedom to flirt with whoever I want whenever I want. Although it sucks to be lonely and its nice to have someone to care about you. I never have luck with guys, i'm just a loser when it comes to that category and I can't do nuffin about it. :\ I also have a damn science fair to be worried about which is pissing me off because I can't think of a damn project to do with Muscle Fatigue. I guess i'm just lazy and procrastinating but right now I can't handle anymore bullshit so i'm trying to isolte myself. Why? Because i'm tired of people bitching at me and I'm tired of my friends giving me a hard time. One of my friends, who I trusted, went and told my secret, my very important secret which i trusted her with, to 2 people. That just totally put a hole in our friendship and I dun kno what to do about it. I can't wait till next year, a new school, a fresh start....Now i'm done ranting.
Current mood: apathetic
Current music: evanescence-my immortal
Sunday, November 16, 2003
1:15AM - meow?
*pokes journal* oO; does this thingie work?
Current mood: 
amused
Current music: Get Low