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|Wednesday, January 18th, 2006|
I have a broken ankle. Fucking ow. So it looks like this will put a serious cramp in my style. No fetish flea, no fetish social, nothing. I sit on my ass for a couple months. How slpendid.
|Thursday, October 27th, 2005|
I do believe my household sees the benefits in obtaining a houseboy for us. Now its a matter of setting expectations and duties for the prospective boy, and finding someone who wants that type of live in position. So far, the things that a houseboy could expect (reasonably) to get would be some kind of ownership mark (piercing, collar, dog tags, uniform), a secured sleeping space (on a chain attached to my bed, or in my closet, or in its own 'room'), set tasks daily and weekly to be completed for the whole household, plus allotted personal time and outside work time if needed
|Sunday, October 23rd, 2005|
|A New Symbol
I've recnetly found that theres a new 'flag' for the M/s lifestyle, as opposed to the BDSM general lifestyle. While I've always been drawn to BDSM, the Master/slave specific lifestyle draws me much more closely. Here is its flag: http://truetales.org/writings/peterson0508flagforunity.htm
|Wednesday, October 5th, 2005|
I understand, believe me I do.
I understand that you are excited, that the idea of me thrills you.
I understand that this is frightening, that I may actually exist as more than a fantasy in your mind.
I can see the difficulty in committing to moving forward on your dreams.
I can see the disbelief as you struggle to reconcile myth and reality.
I know that your uncertainty clouds your mind and ability to reason…
Just as I know that you have so slim a chance of reaching your desired destination.
Of those who approach me, perhaps eight in ten disappear on the electronic ether.
Of those two who commit to meet, at least one will fade away after a few encounters.
Perhaps his curiosity is sated, or life intervened, or he did not believe he could handle what I offer.
That leaves one in ten. And in that, my numbers are generous. One might spend the time, the energy, the effort, to see me again and again. And even that one may not make it more than a few months before he too doubts his sense of self, of submission, of direction.
And so they fade away into nothingness. A memory remains, and I wonder what has become of each one.
What path did they take?
What fulfillment did they find?
Do you see your challenge?
Dare to overcome history.
Be more than a memory.
|Wednesday, August 31st, 2005|
Romance is a concept that seems to have been sidelined by society. But it is alive and well in the D/s lifestyle, just not perhaps in shapes that most would understand. In the Romance of Mastery and Submission, a formal dance begins. Protocols are created and followed. Honor is shaped and allowed to grow, respect is earned, and a structure develops to allow each to become their best.
This is not the romance of fluffy teddy bears and red roses (though those can have their place.)
This is the romance of measured patience, a weighty glance, a dance between supplicant and Divine.
Welcome to the Dance
|Monday, August 22nd, 2005|
It has been a while since I've posted. Times continue to change. Change is the only constant in the universe. I am now again in the seeking phase, and considering one who has expressed keen interest in me. What will be, will be.
|Wednesday, July 20th, 2005|
I am single once more, and back in the field.
Oh and for the record, anyone purporting to be a 'slave' who refuses to fill out a simple questionnaire is full of it and wasting my time.
|Thursday, June 2nd, 2005|
Rate the following based on their level of importance to you, also note any that you feel are completely not applicable or you’d want to avoid. (this is mainly geared towards submissives and slaves)
belonging (to a group)
being loved/cared for
being a supporter
|Wednesday, April 27th, 2005|
You are Form 1, Goddess
: The Creator."And The Goddess planted the acorn of life.
She cried a single tear and shed a single drop
of blood upon the earth where she buried it.
From her blood and tear, the acorn grew into
Some examples of the Goddess Form are Gaia (Greek),
Jehova (Christian), and Brahma (Indian).
The Goddess is associated with the concept of
creation, the number 1, and the element of
Her sign is the dawn sun.
As a member of Form 1, you are a charismatic
individual and people are drawn to you.
Although sometimes you may seem emotionally
distant, you are deeply in tune with other
people's feelings and have tremendous empathy.
Sometimes you have a tendency to neglect your
own self. Goddesses are the best friends to
have because they're always willing to help. Which Mythological Form Are You? brought to you by Quizilla
|Thursday, March 31st, 2005|
Being loved is such a wonderful thing!
Current Mood: loved
Current Music: Clannad - "The Other Side"
|Monday, March 28th, 2005|
I don't like the rain much. Especially when I'm already kind of 'bleh' about things. I want my boy pet, but instead I have to go to work tonight. Bleh.
|Thursday, March 24th, 2005|
My lovely new subbie boy bought me a beautiful potted set of tulips. This was only this past weekend. I've watered them and tried to tend them, but today when I came home from work, they'd wilted!! *sigh* I *liked* those flowers...
Current Mood: distressed
|Saturday, March 12th, 2005|
| Kinky bastard! |
Grats! You're 90% kinky!
Well well well, you kinky bastard! Most likely you're into some weird
shit, which is always great. Consider mailing the author of this test,
and keep up the good work ;)
| My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender: |
|You scored higher than 5% on kinkpoints|
|Tuesday, March 8th, 2005|
I've heard back from the guy I was supposed to see. His brother was in a car accident and is in a coma, but is expected to recover. I wish him all the best in this trying time.
|Monday, March 7th, 2005|
I have been considering sort of 'taking myself out of circulation' for a little while now. Its hard to do, since a key goal for me is to develop a relationship. However, it doesn't seem to be going according to plan. So I think I'll just ease off a little bit in my pace and see how that serves me. This way I'll be open to it Karmically, but not trying to force it. Whats already in the pipeline can finish itself out.
|Wednesday, March 2nd, 2005|
I really enjoy talking to the submissives and 'slaves' who contact me online. Its unfortunate that so many are so far away. Then of course when we do meet theres the usual outcome of no spark, or lopsided spark. That makes it very difficult for both parties.
I said to someone today this (which I think is a rough quote but cant recall where from) "I offer you the freedom to be what you've always wanted. All I ask is your absolute obedience."
Some days I wonder if we're crazy for wanting all this, all us dommes and subs and owners and slaves. But we exist, so it works for someone in this world.
|Tuesday, March 1st, 2005|
I do beleive I've unsettled the poor guy. We'll spend some time together and see if other things bloom.
|Monday, February 28th, 2005|
I met a really lovely boy yesterday. Local, common interestes, etc. I see great potential here.
|Wednesday, February 16th, 2005|
Today I just wish I had someone to come home to. Someone to curl up with in the pile of warm covers, to snuggle up together naked and let the warm darkness of sleep carry us both away.
|Tuesday, February 15th, 2005|
This journal has clearly been suffering a lack of attention. I've spent a couple weeks travelling, and now being home I have to focus on finding work. However if my website and personals start to produce some interest, perhaps it will get more use. The site is www.geocities.com/morghanxx/morghan.html