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[13 Aug 2003|01:06pm] |
too many things for words going on right now. My head hurts, and I do beelvie I need to pay a visit to my comfy bed. I am really starting to think about taking the semester off. I want to just relax and try not tobe too much of a burden to Caleb. I wonder how anyone stands me. I made Caleb go out last night and buy me whitecastle. Mm tehy were very yummie. Of course, I couldv'e done it myself -- but I just laid in bed, and waited for him to come home. I can't wait until I have this thing. Six months, yesterday -- and that's okay. I can't wait to see it, I'm rather excited.
Hmm, lunch time --better go cook.
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[30 Jul 2003|11:19am] |
Eh... So the week has been going alright. Caleb and I havn't seen much of each other lately, but I think his horrible girlfriend finally packed up and left. I've been playing computer games lately. I miss everyone, I feel like such a hermit. Ayu, I made you a present - but I don't know where I put it... If you want me to find it before you leave for the con, let me know. I'll look for it later.
On another note, Went to the doctors today. Baby is nifty. Four months tomorrow. Can't wait. Back hurts, and wrists as well. Cant' wait to get this thing out of me. Isn't it cute - there is a little peice of love between Caleb and I growing inside of me.
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[17 Jul 2003|03:13pm] |
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Well, how about that for fucked up. I've been so tired lately, I havn't known what to do with myself. I called in work yesterday, and my boss told me that I needn't come back. ::Sighs softly.:: I don't know how to tell Caleb. I hope he won't be mad at me. . Life is fucked up. His ex or who ever she is has come to visit.. She's driving me literally insane. I fucking hate her too. She's really... needy. She told me some things, that I would have rather heard from him.. but that's all for now. I really wish he'd clear things up for me. I'm going to go back to sleep.
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[11 Jul 2003|10:54pm] |
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Lately, I've been feeling rather tired. I havn't had much energy at all, no matter how much sleep I'veb een getting. I want to just -- quit my job, and go to school during the school year. Being Pregnant - I can't even drink any coffee. I'm a bit upset.. I think I'll go back to bed.
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[30 Jun 2003|01:07pm] |
[Well, since I havn't had a proper working internet in a while, if I get kicked out so be it. This, will be my update. If you want to kick me out anyway go right ahead. This RPG has somewhat lost it's appeal.]
Nothing new has been going on, I think Klaus is moving out and going back home to Germany. Thje dogs are fine, Calebs' fine.. Everythings great. I just will miss my brother. ::Sighs softly looking down at her keyboard.:: I ... am beginning to want to go home too. I just - don't know how to tell Caleb, and Ayumi. I will stay for them, though. I want to get married and have this baby like a good girl.
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[09 Jun 2003|09:45pm] |
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So, Caleb and I are in Germany - as well as Klaus. This whole thing is making my head spin. We're going to be married soon. Ayumi will be ariving any day now. I'm so.. nervous. I'm worried, I hope I fit into my dress. Damn pregnancy. ::Giggles lightly.:: I'm really sleepy - and I'm not really sure that I understand what's going on at home. Oh well.. Goodnight guys and gals.
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[28 May 2003|01:46pm] |
Happy Birthday, Ayu! I know, I'm a little late - but hey.. Late is beter than never, isn't it?
I'm so excited for the wedding.. I've got my dress all picked out - we just have a few things to work out.. and then I'll be married. Alice laughed whne I told her, she said she didn't think anyone would ever be able to tie me down. I also told her about Ayu and Klaus dating.. she laughed.. She also told Klaus to treat her good - or she'd kill him.
Ou! Empire Records Going to watch. Bye
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[20 May 2003|09:55pm] |
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So, I guess I havn't updated in a while.. Lets see.. News, news.. Oh yes.. Caleb bought Klaus and I puppys - then we found out I'm pregnant. We're getting Married soon.. I think I'm going to have two godmothers for my baby.. when I have it. Ayumi.. and Alice. And then, Klaus will be the godfather. Caleb went to the hospital .. it was horribel.. I hate goign to the hospital.. but it's okay.. he's fine.. Wow, what's with all the dots today? I'm going to stop - and star typing in sentances. I bought prsents for everyone.. Kal - I did get you something, Happy Birthday - I'm sorry I'm late.
Oh yes, Caleb bought another kitten.. Udo doesn't like him.. Zypher and Mouse [ The new Puppies..] Don't really like him. I saved his life - he tried to go for a swim in our pond in the backyard. I saved him. So he loves me. I've seen the Matrix twice now.. it wasn't so great - but I'm not saying it was bad. I saw X2 - four times. ::Grins.:: I love that movie. I've been watching a lot of television lately.. Work has been time consuming - and I've found myself obsessed with a new video game. I miss my Caleb.. and I miss my Brother, and I miss my Alice. I miss my Ayumi too. Although, we've been spending a lot of time together lately. . Video games 0wn j00!
I'm going to go now.. sorry for babbling. Bye.
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[07 May 2003|09:21pm] |
I've been sick for a while, it's no fun.. and it sucks major balls. I have had many, hours alone in my room to think about things. Nope.. While I was sick - I wouldn't let anyone come near me, not even Caleb. I didnt' want him to catch what I had. Now, I'm not sick and I'm very very horny lonely. Caleb, come back.. Morgie isn't sick anymore. ::Whimpers lightly.:: Well yes, it's getting late.. I havn't cooked anything in a while. Going to go about doing that now. . My brother is bugging me.. he's been Instant messaging me all day - asking when I was going to make him dinner. I think he's moved in. Ah well, I'd better go. My brother is a loser, and I must find that man of mine.
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I'm all studied up. I know how they say, you can't study too much.. Well I did. I'm done, and I won't be picking up another book for a very long time. I've made food. It's yummy. I've bought people presents.. I just wonder where my Caleb has run off to.
I think we're going to have our wedding sometime during the summer... I guess. Umm.. Wow, my life isn't very interesting right now.. Maybe I'll get back with more fun stuff later.
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[19 Apr 2003|12:20pm] |
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Yayy! Soon, Caleb and I are going to visit some very important people. That's all for now. I lost my status as an update whore. I am sorry.
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[11 Apr 2003|07:08pm] |
First of all, I'd like to know where my Caleb has gotten to.
I wish I could just go to sleep for oh.. lets see... about a month. That'd be lovely, I would like to stay in my bed forever and ever - only to leave, so that I could tend to Caleb.
Okay, gotten over that. I'm very full of life this evening for some odd reason. It's kind of sad - I am just so.. yeah. Caleb isn't home. . I want him home. ::Pouts a bit.:: I made dinner tonight - but I don't think I'm stickin' around, to see it eaten. Lets make sure it is all gone, when I return. ::Stares into the screen for a while.::
I think I'm heading to the comic book store - and then possibly the mall. Maybe, tonight I'll hit the movies. I really want to see RHPS (Rocky Horror Picture Show). I can't beleive I actually found a place that it's showing around here. Yayt, so at 12:00 am I will be singing along with all my favorites, in my magenta get up. ::Giggles lightly.:: Well, going to prepare. Bye!
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[04 Apr 2003|11:03pm] |
I know that she's not gone forever.. she's my best friend and I know where she lives. But still.. this isn't cool, we've been together for years. I think my heart broke, falling out of my chest, down my foot and landed in my shoe.. when we hugged for that final time.
I know it's not forever, I must keep telling myself that. ::Tears fell from her cheeks as she bit down at her lip.:: Not forever.. I'll see her again. I'll see klaus again, and Uncle Richard.. Uncle T.. I knew they were going - but I really thought I'd be able to handle it. I want Alice to be there when Caleb and I get married. I want to be there when the baby is born. I want to just - be there. Always have... I guess I will be in a way, just very far away. I know that Alice and I are more than just friends.. we're sisters - not by blood.. but it works out the same.
I can still remember - when Lars and Klaus had tared Alice to run out into the snow in her underwear.. Heh, I can still remember the little ribbons that were in her hair that morning. This was very long ago, back in Germany.. we had a lot of fun - but I think I'll be sticking around here for a while.
I know I could go back by myself, but - I need to make a living for myself.. I was once told that here - I will acomplish great things in my life, but if I go back to Germany, what will I be? Just a person maybe I could work in a restraunt, or fight with my father constatnly. ::A few tears landed on her keys.:: I already miss her, even though we havn't seen each other in a very long time - she was a lot closer. I love Alice.
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[02 Apr 2003|04:31pm] |
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Last night - I cooked dinner, that nobody ate once again... Well, I take that back. Skye ate and so did Klaus. I had a little.. and left the rest out for whomever decided to eat it. Nobody did - I ended up throwing out my wonderful dinner this morning . Don't ask why I didn't stick it in the fridge.. but I didn't. I love Caleb. Mmhm yes I do. I told Skye and he was happy for me.. I played some metroid prime.. and bummed around the house all day today. My throat kind of hurts - and I really hope I don't get Caleb sick. I love Caleb. I would make myself some tea - but I'm not good at that.. my tea always tastes like shit. ::Sneezes.:: Fuck, I don't feel good. I think I'm gonna run down to starbucks and get a nice cup of coffee - then come home, drink it and go to sleep. Goodnight.
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[27 Mar 2003|03:10pm] |
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[25 Mar 2003|12:54pm] |
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::Sighs lightly, looking down at her laptop.:: It is truly, amazing here.. I can’t describe it. Although everything I’m feeling right now is just – killing me. I cannot explain what has been floating through my mind as I sit here – alone. We’re in England as you know – and I wish I could’ve said goodbye to someone. I need to talk to my brother – I was thinking of calling him, but my phone doesn’t have roaming while I’m here. I would just call him from here – but I wouldn’t want Caleb to be upset with me. I love him so much, it’s actually kind of scary how quickly and hard I’ve fallen for him. :: Smiles:: I guess his mother adores me... Or at least that’s what Caleb said... I’m not quite sure if I should believe him. Well, I’m not quite sure when we’ll be coming home. Klaus I have some things we need to talk about. Alice – I really need to speak with you – once you’re up to it. Ayu, I want pictures from the convention – and I would like to speak with you as well. That’s all for now, I guess.
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[21 Mar 2003|09:05pm] |
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::Bites down on her lip, looking around her room.:: Empty.. fucking empty. Well, havn't seen anyone for a while now - and it seems Ayu and Cam left for Japan. I didn't go to go.. it's okay. I have a reason to stay here now. ::Smiled a little.:: Although it seems my reason got into a little car trouble today - I left that reasons' house this morning, heading off to work/class. I got home -reading some of the updates. I called Caleb a few times - he wasn't home... I bought him a present, I hope he'll like it. ::Glances up at the ceiling.:: I want to run to him, comfort him. I'd better go.. getting kind of emotional. I think I'll head upstairs and bake brownies for my empty house.
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[20 Mar 2003|04:41pm] |
This morning - I woke up a half an hour late. I guess my alarm clock got unplugged some how last night. I spent the morning preparing for my Lit in Film test - and that was just a horrid experience. I couldn't find anything. So then it was off to class. I got some breakfast at McDonalds and it was dandy. Pretty good too. I caught a cheap movie. I saw Harry Potter and the Chamer of secrets - at the dollar fifty show. It was very good actually. Then I got home - to a once again empty house. I mean, ::sighs and looks at all her pictures.:: I really do miss you guys. A girl does get very lonely.
Alice, we need to talk. I know you're going back home soon.. and I'm really gonna miss you, and just.. yeah we need to talk. I love you.
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[19 Mar 2003|11:01am] |
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::Does a little twirl and giggles.:: Last night was -indescribable. It was the most amazing night I've ever had. The day was horrible. I failed a test, and at work, this ass hole that has been trying to get himself fired - poured hot coffee on me. I have a blister. It's painful. Caleb surprized me, by cooking dinner for me. ::Smiles.:: It was the cutest thing ever. Then we went down to my room and hung out for a while. Then we went to sleep. How fun. ::Smiles.:: I'm going back to sleep. Tired today.
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Klaus and I have returned from our small vacation. It wasn't as I'd hoped but we had some fun. We went to stay with this girl - that Klaus used to date. We played Yhatzee. It was great, I love Yhatzee (And I hope I'm spelling it right). That was about it. It's not a lot of fun to hear your brother fucking some girl - and her faking a really - really loud orgasm.. So I went out and sat in the sand. Later when they were finished making up or whatever.. she pulled me aside - telling me that her Son, was Klaus' child.. she wondered if she should tell him. Well this kid, looked like a little angel. He had blonde hair, and blue eyes. He was short and kinda chubby.. and he's about four. Well, Klaus - is very tall. Green/Brown eyes, brown hair.. He's too skinny in my opinion. And this Women had reddish brown hair (natural. Yes, I did inquire about that.) and brown eyes. She's tall and skinny as well. This boy looks nothing like either of them. Even the facial features don't look the same. I told her not to tell my brother that was her kid because - he probably wasn't. While they were dating - she had been cheating on him - that's why they broke up. So I really don't think that kid is my nephew. ::Shrugs and looks down at her things.:: I'd better unpack. More later.
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