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[16 Jan 2004|10:41pm] |
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i have lost all will to live in this world anymore, i think i will shrivel up and die. my parents hate me and i hate them. i just want to die. school has become my only hope of getting out of this hell hole...here's something i wrote just now...
i hold the pills in my hand,
just two more and ill be gone.
Darkness will overcome me,
and i shall live no more.
When will this pain cease?
or will it ever?
I have no desire to live.
I have the need to bleed.
You say i have to stop,
but somehow i cant.
and I dont know why.
I raise the pills to my mouth,
but drop them on the floor.
I scream for you,
and you come to my side.
I've tried so many times,
but every time i've failed.
Maybe it's a sign,
maybe i'll prevail.
I don't know what to do,
i need someone like you.
Someone that i can talk to,
someone who understands.
Someone who doesnt get paid,
someone who actually cares.
You all want me to stop,
but i really don't think i can.
You say that i should,
but the thing is,
im not so sure i want to...
-mE-
^it doesnt rhyme, but hey, i like it....^
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